WEBVTT FILE 1 00:00:02.000 --> 00:00:07.000 Downloaded from YTS.MX 2 00:00:07.674 --> 00:00:11.678 [Olivia Rodrigo] How would I describe this chapter of my life? 3 00:00:08.000 --> 00:00:13.000 Official YIFY movies site: YTS.MX 4 00:00:11.761 --> 00:00:12.762 [screams] 5 00:00:12.846 --> 00:00:15.015 [on radio] ♪ I got my driver's license last week ♪ 6 00:00:15.098 --> 00:00:16.975 ♪ Just like we always talked about ♪ 7 00:00:17.058 --> 00:00:18.393 Oh, my God. 8 00:00:19.102 --> 00:00:20.603 It's on the radio. 9 00:00:21.104 --> 00:00:22.105 It's on the radio. 10 00:00:22.188 --> 00:00:23.481 ♪ To finally drive up to your house ♪ 11 00:00:23.565 --> 00:00:26.609 [radio deejay] You're listening to the most popular song on the planet. 12 00:00:26.693 --> 00:00:29.029 It's "drivers license" by Olivia Rodrigo. 13 00:00:29.112 --> 00:00:30.655 ♪ You weren't around-- ♪ 14 00:00:30.739 --> 00:00:33.783 It's been the absolute craziest week of my life. 15 00:00:33.867 --> 00:00:36.286 Wait, so you're second semester senior year, 16 00:00:36.369 --> 00:00:38.246 and you just released your first single? 17 00:00:38.329 --> 00:00:40.665 Yeah, first semester. Yep. Not even second. 18 00:00:40.749 --> 00:00:42.125 I'm like dying over here. 19 00:00:42.208 --> 00:00:46.171 Oh! For those of you just joining, I just put out a song called "drivers license." 20 00:00:46.254 --> 00:00:50.717 It's my first debut-- What do we call it? Debut single? 21 00:00:50.800 --> 00:00:54.721 This is, like, the first song that I wrote from my perspective that is coming out. 22 00:00:54.804 --> 00:00:57.640 It's number one in the world on, like, all streaming platforms 23 00:00:57.724 --> 00:01:00.060 and, like, breaking all these records. 24 00:01:00.143 --> 00:01:02.937 My entire life just shifted in an instant. 25 00:01:04.856 --> 00:01:06.858 My life is just so weird. Like, I don't-- 26 00:01:06.941 --> 00:01:10.111 Like, I moved out of my house. I'm, like, not living with my parents. 27 00:01:10.195 --> 00:01:12.530 My album's done. I'm almost done with high school. 28 00:01:12.614 --> 00:01:14.991 So weird. It's all, like, happening at once. 29 00:01:15.075 --> 00:01:18.161 [audio rewinds] 30 00:01:20.121 --> 00:01:21.289 -[tape clicks] -[audio stops] 31 00:01:21.373 --> 00:01:23.208 Hi, I'm Olivia Rodrigo… 32 00:01:26.961 --> 00:01:28.213 from California. 33 00:01:28.296 --> 00:01:33.218 I just want to sing a little song to my friends and family out there. 34 00:01:33.301 --> 00:01:34.636 Starting now. 35 00:01:34.719 --> 00:01:37.681 [film projector whirring] 36 00:02:08.670 --> 00:02:10.547 [Rodrigo] Being in Salt Lake makes me think so much 37 00:02:10.630 --> 00:02:13.800 about the early days when I first started writing Sour. 38 00:02:15.593 --> 00:02:19.514 I've always loved writing really emotional songs. 39 00:02:19.597 --> 00:02:23.852 Like, I remember just writing these, like, super angsty songs 40 00:02:23.935 --> 00:02:27.439 about, like, how I didn't fit into society or something. [chuckles] 41 00:02:29.107 --> 00:02:32.193 I've always been so attracted to music like that, 42 00:02:32.277 --> 00:02:36.656 that, like, hits these, like, deep parts of the human psyche. 43 00:02:38.366 --> 00:02:43.288 I think being a songwriter is actually, like, the best job and the best craft. 44 00:02:43.371 --> 00:02:44.914 There's nothing that connects people 45 00:02:44.998 --> 00:02:48.668 and there's nothing that is a truer window into human emotion than music. 46 00:02:49.711 --> 00:02:51.713 [keyboard playing] 47 00:02:58.845 --> 00:03:01.222 ["happier" playing] 48 00:03:18.073 --> 00:03:21.868 ♪ We broke up a month ago ♪ 49 00:03:21.951 --> 00:03:23.953 ♪ Your friends are mine ♪ 50 00:03:24.037 --> 00:03:27.082 ♪ You know I know You've moved on ♪ 51 00:03:27.165 --> 00:03:29.584 ♪ Found someone new ♪ 52 00:03:29.668 --> 00:03:34.798 ♪ One more girl Who brings out the better in you ♪ 53 00:03:34.881 --> 00:03:38.885 ♪ And I thought my heart was detached ♪ 54 00:03:38.968 --> 00:03:43.181 ♪ From all the sunlight of our past ♪ 55 00:03:43.264 --> 00:03:47.644 ♪ But she's so sweet She's so pretty ♪ 56 00:03:47.727 --> 00:03:51.398 ♪ Does she mean you forgot about me? ♪ 57 00:03:51.481 --> 00:03:55.694 ♪ Oh, I hope you're happy ♪ 58 00:03:55.777 --> 00:03:59.948 ♪ Just not like how you were with me ♪ 59 00:04:00.031 --> 00:04:04.285 ♪ I'm selfish, I know I can't let you go ♪ 60 00:04:04.369 --> 00:04:08.790 ♪ So find someone great But don't find no one better ♪ 61 00:04:08.873 --> 00:04:13.670 ♪ I hope you're happy But don't be happier ♪ 62 00:04:15.422 --> 00:04:16.715 ♪ Do you tell her ♪ 63 00:04:16.798 --> 00:04:20.385 ♪ She's the most beautiful girl You've ever seen? ♪ 64 00:04:20.468 --> 00:04:24.764 ♪ An eternal love bullshit You know you'll never mean ♪ 65 00:04:24.848 --> 00:04:26.891 ♪ Remember when I believed ♪ 66 00:04:26.975 --> 00:04:32.022 ♪ You meant it When you said it first to me? ♪ 67 00:04:32.105 --> 00:04:36.234 ♪ And now I'm picking her apart ♪ 68 00:04:36.317 --> 00:04:40.363 ♪ Like cutting her down Will make you miss my wretched heart ♪ 69 00:04:40.447 --> 00:04:44.451 ♪ She's beautiful She looks kind ♪ 70 00:04:44.534 --> 00:04:48.955 ♪ She probably gives you butterflies ♪ 71 00:04:49.039 --> 00:04:53.168 ♪ I hope you're happy ♪ 72 00:04:53.251 --> 00:04:57.380 ♪ Just not like how you were with me ♪ 73 00:04:57.464 --> 00:05:01.801 ♪ I'm selfish, I know I can't let you go ♪ 74 00:05:01.885 --> 00:05:05.889 ♪ So find someone great But don't find no one better ♪ 75 00:05:05.972 --> 00:05:10.060 ♪ I hope you're happy ♪ 76 00:05:10.143 --> 00:05:14.189 ♪ I wish you all the best, really ♪ 77 00:05:14.272 --> 00:05:18.818 ♪ Say you love her, baby Not like you loved me ♪ 78 00:05:18.902 --> 00:05:23.198 ♪ And think of me fondly When your hands are on her ♪ 79 00:05:23.281 --> 00:05:28.661 ♪ I hope you're happy But don't be happier ♪ 80 00:05:47.555 --> 00:05:51.976 ♪ I hope you're happy ♪ 81 00:05:52.060 --> 00:05:56.523 ♪ Just not like how you were with me ♪ 82 00:05:56.606 --> 00:06:01.111 ♪ I'm selfish, I know I can't let you go ♪ 83 00:06:01.194 --> 00:06:05.782 ♪ So find someone great But don't find no one better ♪ 84 00:06:05.865 --> 00:06:10.954 ♪ I hope you're happy Just don't be happier ♪ 85 00:06:11.037 --> 00:06:12.038 [song ends] 86 00:06:46.948 --> 00:06:50.744 [Rodrigo] So much of the album was written between Salt Lake City and Los Angeles. 87 00:06:50.827 --> 00:06:54.748 And so I thought it would be fun to do a road trip one last time. 88 00:06:55.248 --> 00:06:58.501 I wanna play the songs in these places that meant so much to me, 89 00:06:58.585 --> 00:07:01.755 and revisit them with older eyes, I guess. 90 00:07:15.935 --> 00:07:18.313 I remember posting the song "happier" online 91 00:07:18.396 --> 00:07:21.733 and looking back on it and being like, "Oh, my God. This song is terrible. 92 00:07:21.816 --> 00:07:25.945 It got no likes. I sang it really badly. Why did I do that?" 93 00:07:27.197 --> 00:07:31.826 But I had this, like, gut feeling to keep it up. 94 00:07:34.996 --> 00:07:38.333 That feeling served me well, 'cause that song changed everything for me. 95 00:07:40.126 --> 00:07:42.921 The fact that I posted it was the reason that I met Dan 96 00:07:43.588 --> 00:07:44.881 'cause he found it and was like, 97 00:07:44.964 --> 00:07:47.092 "Oh, my God. I love this song. We should work together." 98 00:07:48.468 --> 00:07:52.055 That was the first song that we produced together, was-- was "happier." 99 00:07:52.138 --> 00:07:55.100 Then I made the rest of my album with Dan. 100 00:07:56.017 --> 00:07:57.977 There you go. It's on. I just did it wrong. 101 00:07:58.061 --> 00:07:59.437 [Nigro] I don't think that one's on. 102 00:08:00.605 --> 00:08:01.439 [camera beeps] 103 00:08:01.523 --> 00:08:03.149 [vocalizing] 104 00:08:05.360 --> 00:08:06.695 [Nigro chuckles] Yes. 105 00:08:06.778 --> 00:08:09.823 -[Rodrigo] What's that? -The very first song we wrote together. 106 00:08:10.323 --> 00:08:13.034 I don't wanna hear it. I literally don't wanna hear it. 107 00:08:13.868 --> 00:08:14.869 What is it? 108 00:08:14.953 --> 00:08:16.996 [on speaker] ♪ Crying in the parking lot ♪ 109 00:08:17.080 --> 00:08:19.541 -[Rodrigo screams] -[chuckles] 110 00:08:19.624 --> 00:08:21.835 ♪ You don't know what you want ♪ 111 00:08:21.918 --> 00:08:25.088 [Rodrigo] Sad Olivia! I was so sad! 112 00:08:25.171 --> 00:08:28.258 ♪ Gave you everything ♪ 113 00:08:28.341 --> 00:08:33.596 -♪ I guess everything ain't enough ♪ -[Rodrigo] Aw! 114 00:08:34.514 --> 00:08:39.561 ♪ You say you lost your best friend How do you think I feel? ♪ 115 00:08:39.644 --> 00:08:43.773 ♪ You say it's over again And this time it's real ♪ 116 00:08:46.317 --> 00:08:47.777 -[song ends] -[Nigro] Oh! 117 00:08:47.861 --> 00:08:49.779 [Rodrigo] Oh, my God. I was so sad. You don't know-- 118 00:08:49.863 --> 00:08:51.489 I was so sad when I wrote that song. 119 00:08:51.573 --> 00:08:52.741 -Oh, my God. -You were sad. 120 00:08:52.824 --> 00:08:54.868 I remember that day. I was so **** sad. 121 00:08:54.951 --> 00:08:56.202 -Really? -Yeah. 122 00:08:57.912 --> 00:09:00.373 -Wow. Interesting. -It was a long time ago. 123 00:09:00.457 --> 00:09:02.083 It was a long-- It was almost a year ago. 124 00:09:02.167 --> 00:09:03.168 -I know. -It's crazy. 125 00:09:03.251 --> 00:09:06.379 -And I'm still not over it. Geez. -[Nigro laughs] 126 00:09:11.676 --> 00:09:14.846 [Rodrigo] This relationship was definitely like the heartbreak that kept on giving. 127 00:09:14.929 --> 00:09:19.017 [laughs] It was like I was in the situation where I had to see him. 128 00:09:19.517 --> 00:09:23.313 He was with someone else, which was… [scoffs] …like, devastating to me. 129 00:09:26.900 --> 00:09:29.277 Felt like my world was ending almost every day. 130 00:09:31.988 --> 00:09:36.785 Nobody understood how I was feeling or related to it. 131 00:09:37.327 --> 00:09:40.163 And so I think by writing songs about exactly how I felt, 132 00:09:40.246 --> 00:09:43.458 I was creating, like, a friend for me. 133 00:09:53.385 --> 00:09:57.347 "jealousy, jealousy" was the second song I wrote for the album. 134 00:09:57.430 --> 00:09:59.599 And I remember writing it in a time 135 00:09:59.683 --> 00:10:03.353 where I was just so obsessed with social media in a very negative way, 136 00:10:03.436 --> 00:10:05.897 and I hated the way it made me feel. 137 00:10:05.980 --> 00:10:07.982 And I always felt misrepresented. 138 00:10:10.902 --> 00:10:12.404 It's hard because it's, like-- 139 00:10:12.487 --> 00:10:15.448 Definitely will make you think about how you wanna be perceived all the time. 140 00:10:16.324 --> 00:10:18.618 You want people to look at you for your talent and skill, 141 00:10:18.702 --> 00:10:20.787 and you're also, you know, 18. 142 00:10:20.870 --> 00:10:23.498 I want people to think I'm, like, pretty and cool… [chuckles] 143 00:10:23.581 --> 00:10:25.125 …and funny or whatever. 144 00:10:25.208 --> 00:10:27.127 If you find yourself thinking about that too much, 145 00:10:27.210 --> 00:10:29.004 I think you get so disillusioned from real life 146 00:10:29.087 --> 00:10:31.297 and nothing good can come of that. 147 00:10:53.153 --> 00:10:56.114 ["jealousy, jealousy" playing] 148 00:10:59.034 --> 00:11:02.454 ♪ I kinda wanna throw my phone Across the room ♪ 149 00:11:02.537 --> 00:11:05.290 ♪ 'Cause all I see are girls Too good to be true ♪ 150 00:11:05.373 --> 00:11:08.376 ♪ With paper-white teeth And perfect bodies ♪ 151 00:11:08.460 --> 00:11:09.794 ♪ Wish I didn't care ♪ 152 00:11:09.878 --> 00:11:14.924 ♪ I know their beauty's not my lack ♪ 153 00:11:15.008 --> 00:11:20.513 ♪ But it feels like that weight Is on my back ♪ 154 00:11:20.597 --> 00:11:22.474 ♪ And I can't let it go ♪ 155 00:11:22.557 --> 00:11:27.979 ♪ Co-comparison Is killing me slowly ♪ 156 00:11:28.063 --> 00:11:30.690 ♪ I think I think too much ♪ 157 00:11:30.774 --> 00:11:34.110 ♪ 'Bout kids who don't know me ♪ 158 00:11:34.194 --> 00:11:36.946 ♪ I'm so sick of myself ♪ 159 00:11:37.030 --> 00:11:41.993 ♪ I'd rather be, rather be Anyone, anyone else ♪ 160 00:11:42.077 --> 00:11:46.498 ♪ My jealousy, jealousy Started following me ♪ 161 00:11:46.581 --> 00:11:49.125 ♪ Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh ♪ 162 00:11:50.460 --> 00:11:55.173 -♪ Started following me ♪ -♪ Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh ♪ 163 00:11:57.300 --> 00:12:00.970 ♪ And I see everyone Getting all the things I want ♪ 164 00:12:01.054 --> 00:12:03.890 ♪ And I'm happy for them But then again I'm not ♪ 165 00:12:03.973 --> 00:12:06.685 ♪ Just cool vintage clothes And vacation photos ♪ 166 00:12:06.768 --> 00:12:09.020 ♪ I can't stand it God, I sound crazy ♪ 167 00:12:09.104 --> 00:12:13.066 ♪ Their win is not my loss ♪ 168 00:12:13.149 --> 00:12:18.780 ♪ Yeah, I know it's true But I can't help getting caught ♪ 169 00:12:18.863 --> 00:12:20.949 ♪ Up in it all, yeah ♪ 170 00:12:21.032 --> 00:12:26.413 ♪ Co-comparison Is killing me slowly ♪ 171 00:12:26.496 --> 00:12:29.165 ♪ I think I think too much ♪ 172 00:12:29.249 --> 00:12:32.377 ♪ 'Bout kids who don't know me ♪ 173 00:12:32.460 --> 00:12:35.338 ♪ And I'm so sick of myself ♪ 174 00:12:35.422 --> 00:12:41.052 ♪ I'd rather be, rather be Anyone, anyone else ♪ 175 00:12:41.136 --> 00:12:43.888 ♪ My jealousy, jealousy ♪ 176 00:12:43.972 --> 00:12:45.348 ♪ All your friends are so cool ♪ 177 00:12:45.432 --> 00:12:48.351 ♪ You go out every night In your daddy's nice car ♪ 178 00:12:48.435 --> 00:12:49.853 ♪ Yeah, you're living the life ♪ 179 00:12:49.936 --> 00:12:52.772 ♪ Got a pretty face A pretty boyfriend too ♪ 180 00:12:52.856 --> 00:12:55.650 ♪ I wanna be you so bad And I don't even know you ♪ 181 00:12:55.734 --> 00:12:58.361 ♪ All I see is what I should be ♪ 182 00:12:59.029 --> 00:13:01.823 ♪ Happier, prettier, jealousy, jealousy ♪ 183 00:13:01.906 --> 00:13:04.617 ♪ All I see is what I should be ♪ 184 00:13:04.701 --> 00:13:08.038 ♪ I'm losing it All I get's jealousy, jealousy ♪ 185 00:13:08.121 --> 00:13:13.209 ♪ Co-comparison Is killing me slowly ♪ 186 00:13:13.293 --> 00:13:15.962 ♪ I think I think too much ♪ 187 00:13:16.046 --> 00:13:19.341 ♪ 'Bout kids who don't know me ♪ 188 00:13:19.424 --> 00:13:22.218 ♪ And I'm so sick of myself ♪ 189 00:13:22.302 --> 00:13:28.058 ♪ Rather be, rather be Anyone, anyone else ♪ 190 00:13:28.141 --> 00:13:30.060 ♪ Jealousy, jealousy ♪ 191 00:13:30.643 --> 00:13:33.897 ♪ Oh, I'm so sick of myself ♪ 192 00:13:33.980 --> 00:13:39.402 ♪ I'd rather be, rather be Anyone, anyone else ♪ 193 00:13:39.903 --> 00:13:43.656 ♪ Jealousy, jealousy Started following me ♪ 194 00:13:43.740 --> 00:13:44.741 [song ends] 195 00:13:52.540 --> 00:13:54.459 ["1 step forward, 3 steps back" playing] 196 00:13:54.542 --> 00:13:56.336 ♪ I called you on the phone today ♪ 197 00:13:57.504 --> 00:13:59.964 ♪ Just to ask you how you were ♪ 198 00:14:01.841 --> 00:14:05.011 ♪ All I did was speak normally ♪ 199 00:14:06.221 --> 00:14:09.516 ♪ Somehow I still struck a nerve ♪ 200 00:14:10.934 --> 00:14:13.645 ♪ You got me **** up in the head, boy ♪ 201 00:14:15.021 --> 00:14:18.525 ♪ Never doubted myself so much ♪ 202 00:14:19.651 --> 00:14:22.779 ♪ Am I pretty, am I fun, boy? ♪ 203 00:14:23.655 --> 00:14:27.242 ♪ I hate that I give you power Over that stuff ♪ 204 00:14:27.325 --> 00:14:33.915 ♪ 'Cause it's always one step forward And three steps back ♪ 205 00:14:33.998 --> 00:14:40.088 ♪ I'm the love of your life Until I make you mad ♪ 206 00:14:40.171 --> 00:14:45.719 ♪ Yeah, it's one step forward And three steps back ♪ 207 00:14:45.802 --> 00:14:47.220 I'm hitting all the wrong keys. 208 00:14:47.303 --> 00:14:52.809 [on phone] ♪ I'm an angel and the devil But you're always a good man ♪ 209 00:14:52.892 --> 00:14:55.979 ♪ Yeah, you're always the good man ♪ 210 00:14:56.980 --> 00:14:59.774 Those old lyrics. [laughs] 211 00:14:59.858 --> 00:15:04.863 I-- I just wrote this song actually the day before this guy broke up with me. 212 00:15:04.946 --> 00:15:06.531 [laughs] So I remember, like-- 213 00:15:06.614 --> 00:15:10.160 I remember not being able to listen to it for a while. [laughs] 214 00:15:15.331 --> 00:15:18.626 [Rodrigo] "1 step forward, 3 steps back" I wrote it in the car 215 00:15:18.710 --> 00:15:21.588 on my way to Salt Lake City with my mom. [chuckles] 216 00:15:24.591 --> 00:15:29.304 I think loving someone who is so inconsistent is so challenging 217 00:15:29.387 --> 00:15:33.516 and just really anxiety-inducing and makes you feel so insecure. 218 00:15:33.600 --> 00:15:37.854 And it's a really tough thing to feel like you're walking on eggshells around someone 219 00:15:37.937 --> 00:15:41.358 who you just want, you know, validation and love and support from. 220 00:15:42.275 --> 00:15:45.278 You feel like you can never really settle into that feeling 221 00:15:45.362 --> 00:15:47.280 of being, like, loved and accepted. 222 00:15:49.449 --> 00:15:50.450 [guitar plays] 223 00:15:50.533 --> 00:15:57.123 ♪ 'Cause it's always one step forward And three steps back ♪ 224 00:15:57.207 --> 00:16:02.504 ♪ I'm the love of your life Until I make you mad ♪ 225 00:16:02.587 --> 00:16:08.635 ♪ It's always one step forward And three steps back ♪ 226 00:16:08.718 --> 00:16:14.057 ♪ Do you love me, want me, hate me Boy, I don't understand ♪ 227 00:16:14.140 --> 00:16:16.643 ♪ No, I don't understand ♪ 228 00:16:18.770 --> 00:16:21.981 ♪ And maybe in some masochistic way ♪ 229 00:16:24.442 --> 00:16:27.904 ♪ I kind of find it all exciting ♪ 230 00:16:28.947 --> 00:16:33.535 ♪ Like, which lover will I get today? ♪ 231 00:16:34.661 --> 00:16:39.541 ♪ Will you walk me to the door Or send me home crying? ♪ 232 00:16:39.624 --> 00:16:45.797 ♪ It's always one step forward And three steps back ♪ 233 00:16:45.880 --> 00:16:51.094 ♪ I'm the love of your life Until I make you mad ♪ 234 00:16:51.177 --> 00:16:57.350 ♪ It's always one step forward And three steps back ♪ 235 00:16:57.434 --> 00:17:02.480 ♪ Do you love me, want me, hate me Boy, I don't understand ♪ 236 00:17:02.564 --> 00:17:08.778 ♪ No, it's back and forth Did I say something wrong? ♪ 237 00:17:08.862 --> 00:17:14.617 ♪ It's back and forth Going over everything I said ♪ 238 00:17:14.701 --> 00:17:19.914 ♪ It's back and forth Did I do something wrong? ♪ 239 00:17:19.998 --> 00:17:25.962 ♪ It's back and forth Maybe this is all your fault instead ♪ 240 00:17:26.046 --> 00:17:30.967 ♪ It's one step forward And three steps back ♪ 241 00:17:31.760 --> 00:17:33.345 ♪ And I'd leave you ♪ 242 00:17:33.428 --> 00:17:37.807 ♪ But the roller coaster's All I've ever had ♪ 243 00:17:37.891 --> 00:17:44.356 ♪ It's always one step forward And three steps back ♪ 244 00:17:44.439 --> 00:17:50.111 ♪ Do you love me, want me, hate me Boy, I don't understand ♪ 245 00:17:50.195 --> 00:17:53.114 ♪ No, I don't understand ♪ 246 00:17:53.198 --> 00:17:54.282 [song ends] 247 00:18:01.831 --> 00:18:04.501 July 13th, 2020. 248 00:18:05.543 --> 00:18:09.422 "I got my driver's license today. A very highly anticipated achievement. 249 00:18:09.506 --> 00:18:11.966 All my relatives called to congratulate me. 250 00:18:12.050 --> 00:18:15.220 I realized part of the reason I wanted to get my license so bad 251 00:18:15.303 --> 00:18:17.931 was because of this boy. 252 00:18:18.014 --> 00:18:20.809 I always felt bad about being too young to drive over to see him, 253 00:18:20.892 --> 00:18:22.644 too young to have any real freedom. 254 00:18:22.727 --> 00:18:25.063 I thought he should be with a girl who had those liberties. 255 00:18:25.146 --> 00:18:28.692 I feel his hold on me loosen more and more lately. That's a lovely feeling. 256 00:18:29.609 --> 00:18:32.195 I'm still very much not able to fall for anyone else though. 257 00:18:32.278 --> 00:18:34.280 I can't even fathom it at the moment." 258 00:18:37.867 --> 00:18:40.870 I remember knowing that it might be something special, 259 00:18:40.954 --> 00:18:42.622 if not to anyone else, just to me, 260 00:18:42.706 --> 00:18:47.669 'cause I felt like that song just really captured devastation 261 00:18:47.752 --> 00:18:50.088 in a way that I hadn't been able to capture before. 262 00:18:51.589 --> 00:18:52.882 Second verse, it's the-- 263 00:18:52.966 --> 00:18:57.512 ♪ Today I drove through the suburbs And pictured I was driving home to you ♪ 264 00:18:58.013 --> 00:19:00.807 And that line can very literally be, like, 265 00:19:00.890 --> 00:19:03.309 I was driving home, like, to your house or whatever. 266 00:19:03.393 --> 00:19:06.563 But I remember at that time I was really, like, reconciling with the fact 267 00:19:06.646 --> 00:19:08.732 that sometimes, when you love a person so much 268 00:19:08.815 --> 00:19:11.151 and you spend so much time with them, 269 00:19:11.234 --> 00:19:13.570 like, that's who you feel the most at home with. 270 00:19:13.653 --> 00:19:17.073 And I remember listening to that song, even when I hadn't put it out, 271 00:19:17.157 --> 00:19:20.618 when I just had the demo on my phone, and I'd drive around and listen to it. 272 00:19:20.702 --> 00:19:22.579 Every time it came on, my stomach would drop 273 00:19:22.662 --> 00:19:24.164 just 'cause I felt like it was so… 274 00:19:25.665 --> 00:19:29.044 like, so acutely, like, how I was feeling. 275 00:19:32.714 --> 00:19:38.386 I think the worst part of being in love is having something to lose. 276 00:19:38.470 --> 00:19:39.721 Oh, that's a great answer. 277 00:19:39.804 --> 00:19:42.474 -I-- I feel that way all the time. -That's a great answer. 278 00:19:42.557 --> 00:19:45.977 Even just in all aspects of my life, like, even with my career, I'm like, 279 00:19:46.061 --> 00:19:48.521 "Oh, my God, I'm so grateful for all of these things happening." 280 00:19:48.605 --> 00:19:50.774 But, like, when you have something that's so amazing, 281 00:19:50.857 --> 00:19:52.984 like, it just feels kind of scary 'cause it's like, 282 00:19:53.068 --> 00:19:54.778 "What happens if-- if that goes away?" 283 00:19:54.861 --> 00:19:57.238 [Collier] How do you take something that happens in your life-- 284 00:19:57.322 --> 00:19:59.532 It could be really good or really intense. 285 00:19:59.616 --> 00:20:02.160 And how do you transform that into something like a song? 286 00:20:02.243 --> 00:20:06.456 I don't know. For me and, like, my style of songwriting and music is 287 00:20:06.539 --> 00:20:10.210 sometimes it gets a little overwhelming. 288 00:20:10.293 --> 00:20:13.046 I think that sometimes storytelling doesn't necessarily have to come 289 00:20:13.129 --> 00:20:14.964 -from a place of devastation. -Yes. 290 00:20:15.048 --> 00:20:17.300 Which is what I'm trying to tell myself for the rest of my career. 291 00:20:17.384 --> 00:20:19.928 I'm terrified that since I'm not gonna be devastated for the rest of my life, 292 00:20:20.011 --> 00:20:22.180 -I'm no longer gonna make a good album. -What's your inspiration? 293 00:20:22.263 --> 00:20:23.515 -Yeah, exactly. -Yeah, yeah. 294 00:20:23.598 --> 00:20:28.311 [Collier] I don't know if I've ever heard a song that really encapsulates that more 295 00:20:28.395 --> 00:20:29.646 than "drivers license." 296 00:20:29.729 --> 00:20:31.898 And it just feels like you're living that out. 297 00:20:31.981 --> 00:20:33.483 [Rodrigo] Mmm. Thank you. 298 00:20:33.566 --> 00:20:35.402 [Collier] In a good and painful way. 299 00:20:36.027 --> 00:20:36.945 [keyboard playing] 300 00:20:37.028 --> 00:20:43.410 ♪ I got my driver's license last week Something we always talked about ♪ 301 00:20:43.493 --> 00:20:49.916 ♪ 'Cause you were so excited for me To finally drive up to your house ♪ 302 00:20:50.000 --> 00:20:56.965 ♪ But today I drove through the suburbs Crying 'cause you weren't around ♪ 303 00:20:57.048 --> 00:21:00.719 ["drivers license" continues playing] 304 00:21:00.802 --> 00:21:03.930 [Rodrigo] I think I'm still as innocent as I was when "drivers license" came out. 305 00:21:04.014 --> 00:21:06.474 ♪ Probably with that brunette girl ♪ 306 00:21:06.558 --> 00:21:08.393 ♪ The one I always thought about ♪ 307 00:21:08.476 --> 00:21:11.229 I don't know. Maybe I-- Maybe I am, like, a little hardened now. 308 00:21:11.312 --> 00:21:15.859 ♪ She's so much older than me She's everything I'm insecure about ♪ 309 00:21:15.942 --> 00:21:19.612 I don't know. I think, like, to my core I'm still the same person. 310 00:21:19.696 --> 00:21:25.035 I'm still sensitive and emotional and caring, hopefully. 311 00:21:25.785 --> 00:21:28.872 So much has happened, making life completely different now. 312 00:21:28.955 --> 00:21:30.415 It's, like, weird to think about. 313 00:21:30.498 --> 00:21:34.002 ♪ But I've never felt this way For no one ♪ 314 00:21:38.673 --> 00:21:40.258 But I think I'll always write songs. 315 00:21:40.342 --> 00:21:43.053 I think it's, like, my form of expression 316 00:21:43.136 --> 00:21:47.766 and my way of, you know, making sense of the world. 317 00:21:52.812 --> 00:21:56.107 ♪ Just tell me that you really meant ♪ 318 00:21:56.191 --> 00:22:01.654 ♪ The words you wrote about me In that song ♪ 319 00:22:09.537 --> 00:22:10.538 [song ends] 320 00:22:11.122 --> 00:22:13.208 -["drivers license" playing] -[Rodrigo] Okay. Here it is. 321 00:22:13.792 --> 00:22:19.923 ♪ And all my friends are tired Of hearing how much I miss you ♪ 322 00:22:20.006 --> 00:22:22.884 ♪ I kinda feel sorry for them ♪ 323 00:22:22.967 --> 00:22:26.054 ♪ 'Cause they'll never know you The way that I do ♪ 324 00:22:26.137 --> 00:22:29.724 ♪ Yeah Today I drove through the suburbs ♪ 325 00:22:29.808 --> 00:22:34.813 ♪ And pictured I was driving home to you ♪ 326 00:22:36.481 --> 00:22:42.779 ♪ And I know we weren't perfect But I've never felt this way ♪ 327 00:22:42.862 --> 00:22:44.531 ♪ For no one ♪ 328 00:22:46.074 --> 00:22:52.414 ♪ And I just can't imagine How you could be so okay ♪ 329 00:22:52.497 --> 00:22:55.500 ♪ Now that I'm gone ♪ 330 00:22:56.292 --> 00:23:02.424 ♪ I guess you didn't mean What you wrote in that song about me ♪ 331 00:23:03.133 --> 00:23:08.096 ♪ 'Cause you said forever Now I drive alone past your street ♪ 332 00:23:09.514 --> 00:23:13.101 ♪ Red lights Stop signs ♪ 333 00:23:13.184 --> 00:23:15.687 ♪ I still see your face ♪ 334 00:23:15.770 --> 00:23:18.106 ♪ In the white cars ♪ 335 00:23:18.189 --> 00:23:19.816 ♪ Front yards ♪ 336 00:23:19.899 --> 00:23:22.777 ♪ Can't drive past the places ♪ 337 00:23:22.861 --> 00:23:26.322 ♪ We used to Go to ♪ 338 00:23:26.406 --> 00:23:30.869 ♪ 'Cause I still **** love you, babe ♪ 339 00:23:30.952 --> 00:23:36.332 ♪ Ooh, ooh ♪ 340 00:23:36.416 --> 00:23:39.377 ♪ Sidewalks We crossed ♪ 341 00:23:39.461 --> 00:23:42.422 ♪ I still hear your voice ♪ 342 00:23:42.505 --> 00:23:46.509 ♪ In the traffic We're laughing ♪ 343 00:23:46.593 --> 00:23:49.095 ♪ Over all the noise ♪ 344 00:23:49.179 --> 00:23:53.141 ♪ God, I'm so blue Know we're through ♪ 345 00:23:53.224 --> 00:23:57.729 ♪ But I still **** love you, babe ♪ 346 00:23:57.812 --> 00:24:02.776 ♪ Ooh, ooh ♪ 347 00:24:02.859 --> 00:24:06.321 [Rodrigo, crowd] ♪ And I know we weren't perfect ♪ 348 00:24:06.404 --> 00:24:09.574 ♪ But I've never felt this way ♪ 349 00:24:09.657 --> 00:24:11.242 ♪ For no one ♪ 350 00:24:11.326 --> 00:24:13.370 -[crowd cheers] -[Rodrigo] Sing it! 351 00:24:13.453 --> 00:24:19.584 [crowd] ♪ And I just can't imagine How you could be so okay ♪ 352 00:24:19.668 --> 00:24:22.170 ♪ Now that I'm gone ♪ 353 00:24:22.879 --> 00:24:24.964 [Rodrigo, crowd] ♪ I guess you didn't mean ♪ 354 00:24:25.048 --> 00:24:29.386 ♪ What you wrote in that song about me ♪ 355 00:24:30.970 --> 00:24:36.559 ♪ 'Cause you said forever Now I drive alone past your street ♪ 356 00:24:36.643 --> 00:24:38.311 [crowd cheers] 357 00:24:38.395 --> 00:24:40.397 [Rodrigo, crowd] ♪ Yeah, you said forever ♪ 358 00:24:40.480 --> 00:24:45.902 ♪ Now I drive alone past your street ♪ 359 00:24:45.985 --> 00:24:47.737 -[song ends] -[crowd cheers] 360 00:24:51.282 --> 00:24:52.992 -[tape clicks] -[cheering fades] 361 00:24:55.453 --> 00:24:58.498 [Rodrigo] The success of "drivers license" changed everything. 362 00:24:59.416 --> 00:25:03.211 I went from performing it alone in my bedroom or in the studio with Dan 363 00:25:03.294 --> 00:25:07.382 to performing it live in these super high- stakes environments for the first time. 364 00:25:08.216 --> 00:25:09.426 It was very intense. 365 00:25:18.977 --> 00:25:21.438 Having a big song like that, you put it out and you're also like, 366 00:25:21.521 --> 00:25:22.647 "Oh, my God, this is amazing." 367 00:25:22.731 --> 00:25:26.109 And then everyone's like, "What's next? Can you follow it up? What's coming next?" 368 00:25:26.192 --> 00:25:29.320 And you're like, "Jesus, like… [chuckles] …I just did this. 369 00:25:29.404 --> 00:25:31.489 Like, can-- can't this be enough?" 370 00:25:32.157 --> 00:25:35.368 Did we talk about making an album? Did I run that by you? 371 00:25:35.452 --> 00:25:36.870 -No. No, you didn't. -No? 372 00:25:36.953 --> 00:25:39.039 You didn't talk to me about it. You just, like, literally-- 373 00:25:39.122 --> 00:25:41.332 I just was like, "I'm making an album. You wanna do it, Dan?" 374 00:25:41.416 --> 00:25:43.585 It was just like, "Hey, we're going. We're making an album." 375 00:25:43.668 --> 00:25:48.048 I remember you called me stressed out in Salt Lake City one day. 376 00:25:48.131 --> 00:25:50.258 And you were just like, "You gotta come here now." 377 00:25:50.342 --> 00:25:53.303 And I was like, "Oh, okay. All right. Let's go. Let's do it." 378 00:25:53.386 --> 00:25:56.890 I probably made the call to my label that I wanted to make an album 379 00:25:56.973 --> 00:25:58.683 like a week after "drivers license" came out. 380 00:25:58.767 --> 00:26:02.771 I was like, "Oh, shoot. Like, there are gonna be so many more people 381 00:26:02.854 --> 00:26:05.815 that are listening to this music than I initially thought. 382 00:26:05.899 --> 00:26:07.650 And I really wanna put my best foot forward." 383 00:26:07.734 --> 00:26:09.944 Made the call, and they were all, "I don't know about that." 384 00:26:10.028 --> 00:26:12.947 But I was, like, so dead set and determined. 385 00:26:13.031 --> 00:26:19.746 ♪ So, when you gonna tell her That we did that too? ♪ 386 00:26:19.829 --> 00:26:23.583 ♪ She thinks it's special ♪ 387 00:26:24.084 --> 00:26:26.086 ♪ But it's all reused ♪ 388 00:26:26.169 --> 00:26:29.255 ♪ That was our place I found it first ♪ 389 00:26:29.339 --> 00:26:32.384 ♪ I made the jokes You tell to her ♪ 390 00:26:32.467 --> 00:26:38.306 ♪ When she's with you Do you get déjà vu? ♪ 391 00:26:38.390 --> 00:26:44.104 ♪ When she's with you Do you get déjà vu? ♪ 392 00:26:44.187 --> 00:26:47.190 In this album, and in "deja vu" in particular, 393 00:26:47.273 --> 00:26:50.402 I'm, like, very obsessed and, like, weirded out 394 00:26:50.485 --> 00:26:53.571 with the idea of all relationships just being so recycled. 395 00:26:53.655 --> 00:26:56.991 'Cause I think I was just learning about relationships and love for the first time. 396 00:26:57.075 --> 00:26:59.202 And I was, "Wait, none of it is special. 397 00:26:59.285 --> 00:27:00.954 Like, it happens over and over and over." 398 00:27:02.622 --> 00:27:04.874 When Dan and I wrote "deja vu" together, 399 00:27:04.958 --> 00:27:09.546 we really wanted to write a song that was really vivid and specific. 400 00:27:09.629 --> 00:27:11.506 And I think "deja vu" really accomplishes that. 401 00:27:11.589 --> 00:27:14.384 Especially in the verses. Really paints a picture. 402 00:27:14.467 --> 00:27:17.512 And I think specificity and also authenticity 403 00:27:17.595 --> 00:27:20.098 are my two favorite things that a song can have. 404 00:27:20.181 --> 00:27:22.392 And I learned that from country music, I think. 405 00:27:22.475 --> 00:27:25.020 I think country music songs are always very specific and authentic, 406 00:27:25.103 --> 00:27:27.689 and I think that's why they're so heartbreaking sometimes. 407 00:27:27.772 --> 00:27:29.983 If I write a song and it doesn't have those things, 408 00:27:30.066 --> 00:27:31.860 I generally don't really love it. 409 00:27:38.491 --> 00:27:41.619 I, to be completely honest, 410 00:27:41.703 --> 00:27:43.913 did not wanna put this song out after "drivers license." 411 00:27:43.997 --> 00:27:46.332 I remember thinking it was a bad song, 412 00:27:46.416 --> 00:27:49.044 and I didn't like it, and no one's going to like it. 413 00:27:49.544 --> 00:27:53.965 And I remember, like, calling my manager like three, four days 414 00:27:54.049 --> 00:27:57.010 before we announced "deja vu" was coming out and being like, 415 00:27:57.093 --> 00:27:59.929 "Pull the plug. I don't want to do it. I can't do it. I hate it." 416 00:28:00.013 --> 00:28:01.306 I like the song now, 417 00:28:01.389 --> 00:28:04.642 but "drivers license" was obviously so well received. 418 00:28:04.726 --> 00:28:08.438 The thought of coming out with another song, that was fairly scary. 419 00:28:08.521 --> 00:28:11.191 "deja vu" was a completely different song than "drivers license" too, 420 00:28:11.274 --> 00:28:12.525 in every single way. 421 00:28:13.068 --> 00:28:17.697 There was so much drama that was around "drivers license" and so much hate. 422 00:28:17.781 --> 00:28:19.741 I, like, thought if I put this song out, 423 00:28:19.824 --> 00:28:25.080 then I was also, like, playing into this, like, drama, love triangle, 424 00:28:25.163 --> 00:28:28.333 like, "let's hate on other girls" thing, and I just did not wanna do that. 425 00:28:28.416 --> 00:28:31.878 And that was-- I never write any of my songs from that point of view 426 00:28:31.961 --> 00:28:33.588 'cause that's not something that I feel. 427 00:28:33.672 --> 00:28:36.299 I feel like I've given so many notes. It's just the same notes. 428 00:28:36.383 --> 00:28:38.718 Just in my head about it. I'm just always gonna find things. 429 00:28:38.802 --> 00:28:40.595 I need to pull the trigger and do it. 430 00:28:40.679 --> 00:28:43.390 [Morris on phone] If it makes you feel any better, I am the same way. 431 00:28:43.473 --> 00:28:45.308 -Yeah. -Every time I listen to "drivers license," 432 00:28:45.392 --> 00:28:48.561 -I'm like, "No, I should have done this!" -[Rodrigo chuckles] 433 00:28:48.645 --> 00:28:51.356 Blah, blah, blah. But it's the biggest **** song in the world. 434 00:28:51.439 --> 00:28:52.482 -Yeah. -Everybody loves it, 435 00:28:52.565 --> 00:28:54.192 and nobody hears anything wrong with it. 436 00:28:54.275 --> 00:28:55.443 -Yeah. -So… 437 00:28:55.527 --> 00:28:56.569 Yes. 438 00:29:02.992 --> 00:29:04.994 ["deja vu" playing] 439 00:29:13.461 --> 00:29:17.590 ♪ Car rides to Malibu ♪ 440 00:29:17.674 --> 00:29:21.177 ♪ Strawberry ice cream ♪ 441 00:29:21.261 --> 00:29:23.138 ♪ One spoon for two ♪ 442 00:29:23.221 --> 00:29:26.725 ♪ And trading jackets ♪ 443 00:29:26.808 --> 00:29:30.437 ♪ Laughing 'bout How small it looks on you ♪ 444 00:29:30.520 --> 00:29:34.691 [backing singers] ♪ Ha-ha-ha-ha Ha-ha-ha-ha-ha, ha-ha-ha-ha ♪ 445 00:29:34.774 --> 00:29:39.029 ♪ Watching reruns of Glee ♪ 446 00:29:39.112 --> 00:29:41.990 ♪ Being annoying ♪ 447 00:29:42.073 --> 00:29:44.242 ♪ Singing in harmony ♪ 448 00:29:44.325 --> 00:29:47.829 ♪ I bet she's bragging ♪ 449 00:29:47.912 --> 00:29:51.166 ♪ To all her friends Saying you're so unique ♪ 450 00:29:54.336 --> 00:30:00.091 ♪ So when you gonna tell her That we did that too? ♪ 451 00:30:00.175 --> 00:30:05.597 ♪ She thinks it's special But it's all reused ♪ 452 00:30:05.680 --> 00:30:08.266 ♪ That was our place I found it first ♪ 453 00:30:08.350 --> 00:30:10.810 ♪ I made the jokes You tell to her ♪ 454 00:30:10.894 --> 00:30:16.232 ♪ When she's with you Do you get déjà vu? ♪ 455 00:30:16.316 --> 00:30:21.780 ♪ When she's with you Do you get déjà vu? ♪ 456 00:30:21.863 --> 00:30:22.947 ♪ Oh ♪ 457 00:30:24.949 --> 00:30:28.078 ♪ Do you get déjà vu? Oh ♪ 458 00:30:37.545 --> 00:30:42.592 ♪ Do you call her And almost say my name ♪ 459 00:30:42.676 --> 00:30:47.847 ♪ 'Cause let's be honest We kinda do sound the same ♪ 460 00:30:47.931 --> 00:30:51.184 ♪ Another actress ♪ 461 00:30:51.267 --> 00:30:54.854 ♪ Well, I hate to think That I was just your type ♪ 462 00:30:58.149 --> 00:31:04.364 ♪ And I'll bet that she knows Billy Joel 'Cause you played her "Uptown Girl" ♪ 463 00:31:04.447 --> 00:31:07.033 ♪ You're singing it together now ♪ 464 00:31:07.117 --> 00:31:12.622 ♪ I bet you even tell her how You love her ♪ 465 00:31:12.706 --> 00:31:16.126 ♪ In between the chorus and the verse ♪ 466 00:31:19.004 --> 00:31:24.676 ♪ So when you gonna tell her That we did that too? ♪ 467 00:31:24.759 --> 00:31:30.140 ♪ She thinks it's special But it's all reused ♪ 468 00:31:30.223 --> 00:31:32.559 ♪ That was the show We talked about ♪ 469 00:31:32.642 --> 00:31:35.437 ♪ Played you the song She's singing now ♪ 470 00:31:35.520 --> 00:31:40.817 ♪ When she's with you Do you get déjà vu? ♪ 471 00:31:40.900 --> 00:31:46.322 ♪ When she's with you Do you get déjà vu? ♪ 472 00:31:46.406 --> 00:31:47.490 ♪ Oh ♪ 473 00:31:49.576 --> 00:31:51.619 ♪ Do you get déjà vu? ♪ 474 00:31:51.703 --> 00:31:54.914 [on radio] ♪ Strawberry ice cream in Malibu ♪ 475 00:31:54.998 --> 00:31:57.667 ♪ Don't act like We didn't do that shit too ♪ 476 00:31:57.751 --> 00:32:00.211 ♪ You're trading jackets Like we used to do ♪ 477 00:32:00.295 --> 00:32:02.922 ♪ Yeah, everything is all reused ♪ 478 00:32:03.006 --> 00:32:05.467 ♪ Play her piano, but she doesn't know ♪ 479 00:32:05.550 --> 00:32:08.136 ♪ That I was the one Who taught you Billy Joel ♪ 480 00:32:08.219 --> 00:32:10.764 ♪ It's a different girl now But there's nothing new ♪ 481 00:32:10.847 --> 00:32:13.516 ♪ I know you get déjà vu ♪ 482 00:32:21.649 --> 00:32:24.361 ♪ I know you get déjà vu ♪ 483 00:32:24.444 --> 00:32:25.904 -[car turns off] -[song ends] 484 00:32:34.120 --> 00:32:39.793 I was thinking a lot about this idea of, in order to get over a heartbreak, 485 00:32:39.876 --> 00:32:42.462 I think you have to forgive that person who caused you pain, 486 00:32:42.545 --> 00:32:45.674 but I think also a big part of it is forgiving yourself. 487 00:32:48.385 --> 00:32:53.515 I found this little poem that I wrote in my Notes app on my phone. 488 00:32:53.598 --> 00:32:56.643 "I know that I loved you so bad, I let you treat me like that." 489 00:32:57.894 --> 00:32:59.813 I really liked that. I thought it grabbed you. 490 00:32:59.896 --> 00:33:01.898 So we made it the first line of the song. 491 00:33:02.482 --> 00:33:03.817 [Nigro] I think you need to try that. 492 00:33:03.900 --> 00:33:04.901 ♪ Oh, look-- ♪ 493 00:33:04.984 --> 00:33:06.194 ♪ Look what we be-- ♪ 494 00:33:06.277 --> 00:33:08.196 ♪ Look what we be-- Oh, look what we be-- ♪ 495 00:33:08.279 --> 00:33:10.115 Okay. Let's do it. Okay. 496 00:33:10.198 --> 00:33:11.533 [Nigro] A little more angsty! 497 00:33:11.616 --> 00:33:13.410 -I can do that. -Get mad! 498 00:33:13.493 --> 00:33:15.245 You're angry right now. 499 00:33:15.328 --> 00:33:17.622 -There is a crime that has been committed… -[Rodrigo chuckles] 500 00:33:17.706 --> 00:33:19.249 …and you're happy and you're sad about it. 501 00:33:19.332 --> 00:33:20.750 There's so many confusing feelings. 502 00:33:24.546 --> 00:33:28.550 I really like the lyric "One heart broke, four hands bloody." 503 00:33:28.633 --> 00:33:30.885 Having the blame be on two people. 504 00:33:31.720 --> 00:33:35.265 You know, heartbreak is a two-way street. You couldn't have gotten your heart broken 505 00:33:35.348 --> 00:33:37.976 if you didn't put yourself in the position to be hurt. 506 00:33:41.396 --> 00:33:46.234 I think writing this song sort of helped me forgive myself. 507 00:33:50.030 --> 00:33:53.533 [a cappella] ♪ Know that I loved you so bad ♪ 508 00:33:56.703 --> 00:34:00.915 ♪ I let you treat me like that ♪ 509 00:34:02.667 --> 00:34:06.963 ♪ I was your willing accomplice, honey ♪ 510 00:34:08.715 --> 00:34:12.802 ♪ I watched as you fled the scene ♪ 511 00:34:14.471 --> 00:34:18.767 ♪ Doe-eyed as you buried me ♪ 512 00:34:20.143 --> 00:34:25.440 ♪ One heart broke, four hands bloody ♪ 513 00:34:28.568 --> 00:34:31.613 -♪ Oh, the things I did ♪ -[electric guitar plays] 514 00:34:32.781 --> 00:34:38.119 ♪ Just so I could call you mine ♪ 515 00:34:40.372 --> 00:34:43.750 ♪ The things you did ♪ 516 00:34:43.833 --> 00:34:50.799 ♪ Well, I hope I was your favorite crime ♪ 517 00:34:52.759 --> 00:34:55.470 ♪ Used me as an alibi ♪ 518 00:34:55.553 --> 00:34:58.473 ♪ I crossed my heart As you crossed the line ♪ 519 00:34:58.556 --> 00:35:02.727 ♪ And I defended you to all my friends ♪ 520 00:35:03.853 --> 00:35:07.107 ♪ And now every time a siren sounds ♪ 521 00:35:07.190 --> 00:35:09.567 ♪ I wonder if you're around ♪ 522 00:35:09.651 --> 00:35:13.363 ♪ 'Cause you know That I'd do it all again ♪ 523 00:35:14.322 --> 00:35:17.367 ♪ Oh, the things I did ♪ 524 00:35:18.535 --> 00:35:22.997 ♪ Just so I could call you mine ♪ 525 00:35:26.126 --> 00:35:29.462 ♪ The things you did ♪ 526 00:35:29.546 --> 00:35:36.511 ♪ Well, I hope I was your favorite crime ♪ 527 00:35:37.887 --> 00:35:41.224 ♪ And it's bittersweet To think about the damage that we'd do ♪ 528 00:35:41.307 --> 00:35:44.060 ♪ 'Cause I was going down But I was doing it with you ♪ 529 00:35:44.144 --> 00:35:46.980 ♪ Yeah, everything we broke And all the trouble that we made ♪ 530 00:35:47.063 --> 00:35:53.945 ♪ But I say that I hate you With a smile on my face ♪ 531 00:35:54.863 --> 00:36:00.076 ♪ Oh, look what we became ♪ 532 00:36:02.787 --> 00:36:05.915 ♪ Oh, the things I did ♪ 533 00:36:07.167 --> 00:36:11.963 ♪ Just so I could call you mine ♪ 534 00:36:12.047 --> 00:36:13.548 ♪ Oh, oh, oh ♪ 535 00:36:14.299 --> 00:36:17.969 ♪ Oh, the things you did ♪ 536 00:36:18.053 --> 00:36:25.018 ♪ Well, I hope I was your favorite crime ♪ 537 00:36:26.144 --> 00:36:31.107 ♪ Your favorite crime ♪ 538 00:36:31.775 --> 00:36:36.654 ♪ Your favorite crime ♪ 539 00:36:37.322 --> 00:36:39.115 ♪ 'Cause baby you were mine ♪ 540 00:36:39.199 --> 00:36:41.201 [guitar fades] 541 00:36:44.954 --> 00:36:46.247 [car approaching] 542 00:37:13.400 --> 00:37:16.778 [Rodrigo] "good 4 u" is another song that I wrote sort of on a whim. 543 00:37:16.861 --> 00:37:19.614 I love how this song expresses anger and pettiness 544 00:37:19.698 --> 00:37:22.826 in a way that's more funny and tongue-in-cheek 545 00:37:22.909 --> 00:37:25.036 rather than, like, aggressive and mean. 546 00:37:25.787 --> 00:37:28.289 I actually think it's more impactful without the stuff on that. 547 00:37:28.373 --> 00:37:29.374 [Nigro] So take it out? 548 00:37:29.457 --> 00:37:31.292 ♪ You will never have to hurt The way you know that I do ♪ 549 00:37:31.376 --> 00:37:33.503 -I think it's better without. -Can you do that again? 550 00:37:33.586 --> 00:37:34.754 ♪ Way you know that I do ♪ 551 00:37:34.838 --> 00:37:36.006 -[Nigro chuckles] -That one. 552 00:37:36.089 --> 00:37:38.049 -[Rodrigo] Did that help? -[Nigro] Yes, it helped. 553 00:37:38.133 --> 00:37:41.302 [Rodrigo] Um, I think it's more impactful without that stuff on there. 554 00:37:42.095 --> 00:37:44.973 [on speaker] ♪ You will never have to hurt The way you know that I do ♪ 555 00:37:45.056 --> 00:37:47.517 [Nigro] Even the lower one in there? The little demon that I have going. 556 00:37:47.600 --> 00:37:49.728 -I don't like it. Take the demon out. -You don't like the demon? 557 00:37:49.811 --> 00:37:51.312 [distorted] ♪ Well, screw that and screw you ♪ 558 00:37:51.396 --> 00:37:54.149 ♪ You will never have to hurt The way you know that I do ♪ 559 00:37:54.232 --> 00:37:56.401 -[chuckles] Need to have it. -I love that. That's the song. 560 00:37:56.484 --> 00:37:58.653 -We have Satan in the song, you know? -Just take it out. 561 00:37:58.737 --> 00:38:00.363 At least let me hear it. 562 00:38:13.293 --> 00:38:15.170 ["good 4 u" playing] 563 00:38:19.799 --> 00:38:22.510 [Rodrigo] ♪ Well, good for you I guess you moved on really easily ♪ 564 00:38:22.594 --> 00:38:25.847 ♪ You found a new girl And it only took a couple weeks ♪ 565 00:38:25.930 --> 00:38:30.727 ♪ Remember when you said That you wanted to give me the world ♪ 566 00:38:31.770 --> 00:38:34.898 ♪ And good for you, I guess That you've been working on yourself ♪ 567 00:38:34.981 --> 00:38:37.859 ♪ I guess that therapist I found for you, she really helped ♪ 568 00:38:37.942 --> 00:38:43.114 ♪ Now you can be a better man For your brand-new girl ♪ 569 00:38:44.407 --> 00:38:48.119 ♪ Good for you You look happy and healthy, not me ♪ 570 00:38:48.203 --> 00:38:50.288 ♪ If you ever cared to ask ♪ 571 00:38:50.372 --> 00:38:51.373 ♪ Good for you ♪ 572 00:38:51.456 --> 00:38:54.250 ♪ You're doing great out there Without me, baby ♪ 573 00:38:54.334 --> 00:38:56.211 ♪ God, I wish that I could do that ♪ 574 00:38:56.294 --> 00:38:59.172 ♪ I've lost my mind I've spent the night ♪ 575 00:38:59.255 --> 00:39:02.300 ♪ Crying on the floor of my bathroom ♪ 576 00:39:02.384 --> 00:39:05.512 ♪ You're so unaffected I really don't get it ♪ 577 00:39:05.595 --> 00:39:08.682 ♪ But I guess good for you ♪ 578 00:39:10.558 --> 00:39:12.102 ♪ Oh, oh, oh, oh ♪ 579 00:39:13.853 --> 00:39:14.979 ♪ And good for you ♪ 580 00:39:15.063 --> 00:39:16.940 ♪ I guess you're getting Everything you want ♪ 581 00:39:17.023 --> 00:39:20.235 ♪ You bought a new car And your career's really taking off ♪ 582 00:39:20.318 --> 00:39:22.195 ♪ It's like we never even happened, baby ♪ 583 00:39:22.278 --> 00:39:25.532 ♪ What the **** is up with that? ♪ 584 00:39:26.116 --> 00:39:29.369 ♪ And good for you It's like you never even met me ♪ 585 00:39:29.452 --> 00:39:31.830 ♪ Remember when you swore to God I was the only ♪ 586 00:39:31.913 --> 00:39:33.248 ♪ Person who ever got you? ♪ 587 00:39:33.331 --> 00:39:35.083 ♪ Well, screw that and screw you ♪ 588 00:39:35.166 --> 00:39:38.336 ♪ You will never have to hurt The way you know that I do ♪ 589 00:39:38.420 --> 00:39:42.507 ♪ Well, good for you You look happy and healthy, not me ♪ 590 00:39:42.590 --> 00:39:44.884 ♪ If you ever cared to ask ♪ 591 00:39:44.968 --> 00:39:45.969 ♪ Good for you ♪ 592 00:39:46.052 --> 00:39:48.680 ♪ You're doing great out there Without me, baby ♪ 593 00:39:48.763 --> 00:39:50.390 ♪ God, I wish that I could do that ♪ 594 00:39:50.473 --> 00:39:53.685 ♪ I've lost my mind I've spent the night ♪ 595 00:39:53.768 --> 00:39:56.813 ♪ Crying on the floor of my bathroom ♪ 596 00:39:56.896 --> 00:39:59.983 ♪ You're so unaffected I really don't get it ♪ 597 00:40:00.066 --> 00:40:03.611 ♪ But I guess good for you ♪ 598 00:40:20.628 --> 00:40:23.506 ♪ Maybe I'm too emotional ♪ 599 00:40:23.590 --> 00:40:26.718 ♪ Your apathy's like a wound in salt ♪ 600 00:40:26.801 --> 00:40:29.512 ♪ Maybe I'm too emotional ♪ 601 00:40:29.596 --> 00:40:32.474 ♪ Or maybe you never cared at all ♪ 602 00:40:32.557 --> 00:40:35.518 ♪ Maybe I'm too emotional ♪ 603 00:40:35.602 --> 00:40:38.813 ♪ Your apathy's like a wound in salt ♪ 604 00:40:38.897 --> 00:40:41.649 ♪ Maybe I'm too emotional ♪ 605 00:40:41.733 --> 00:40:45.987 ♪ Or maybe you never cared at all ♪ 606 00:40:46.654 --> 00:40:48.156 ♪ Well, good for you ♪ 607 00:40:48.239 --> 00:40:50.950 ♪ You look happy and healthy, not me ♪ 608 00:40:51.034 --> 00:40:53.203 ♪ If you ever cared to ask ♪ 609 00:40:53.286 --> 00:40:54.287 ♪ Good for you ♪ 610 00:40:54.371 --> 00:40:56.915 ♪ You're doing great out there Without me ♪ 611 00:40:56.998 --> 00:40:58.875 ♪ Like a damn sociopath ♪ 612 00:40:58.958 --> 00:41:01.961 ♪ I've lost my mind I've spent the night ♪ 613 00:41:02.045 --> 00:41:05.090 ♪ Crying on the floor of my bathroom ♪ 614 00:41:05.173 --> 00:41:08.301 ♪ You're so unaffected I really don't get it ♪ 615 00:41:08.385 --> 00:41:11.596 ♪ But I guess good for you ♪ 616 00:41:16.810 --> 00:41:20.355 ♪ Well, good for you I guess you moved on really easily ♪ 617 00:41:20.438 --> 00:41:21.439 [song ends] 618 00:41:31.741 --> 00:41:34.494 [Rodrigo] I was thinking about how I wrote "enough for you," 619 00:41:34.994 --> 00:41:39.666 and I actually wrote it on my bedroom floor in Salt Lake City, 620 00:41:39.749 --> 00:41:41.459 looking into a full-length mirror. 621 00:41:41.543 --> 00:41:44.421 Like, I was on my guitar, playing to myself in the mirror, 622 00:41:44.504 --> 00:41:48.675 which I think is really funny considering, like, the themes of the song. 623 00:41:48.758 --> 00:41:50.510 I just think, at the time, 624 00:41:50.593 --> 00:41:54.514 I was just feeling this soul-crushing inferiority. 625 00:41:56.182 --> 00:41:58.393 An inferiority that I think only occurs 626 00:41:58.476 --> 00:42:01.187 when you, like, are really deeply in love with someone. 627 00:42:01.271 --> 00:42:04.024 And, you know, feeling like you aren't good enough for someone 628 00:42:04.107 --> 00:42:08.486 who is your absolute world is, like, so, so crushing. 629 00:42:09.362 --> 00:42:12.115 But I really like how the song sort of starts 630 00:42:12.824 --> 00:42:14.409 in this really self-deprecating place, 631 00:42:14.492 --> 00:42:16.828 and sort of becomes a little more hopeful at the end. 632 00:42:20.290 --> 00:42:25.545 ♪ 'Cause all I ever wanted Was to be enough ♪ 633 00:42:25.628 --> 00:42:31.176 ♪ But I don't think anything Could ever be enough ♪ 634 00:42:31.259 --> 00:42:35.513 ♪ For you ♪ 635 00:42:36.389 --> 00:42:38.099 ♪ Enough for you ♪ 636 00:42:38.183 --> 00:42:41.061 [vocalizes] 637 00:42:41.144 --> 00:42:43.688 ♪ No, nothing's enough for you ♪ 638 00:42:47.359 --> 00:42:48.902 -[whimpers] -What's wrong? 639 00:42:48.985 --> 00:42:50.862 I'm so sad about it. I don't know. 640 00:42:51.404 --> 00:42:53.156 [clears throat] You don't like this either? 641 00:42:53.239 --> 00:42:55.617 -I don't know. -What don't you like about it? 642 00:42:55.700 --> 00:42:58.745 'Cause it's just like every other song I have on the record, 643 00:42:58.828 --> 00:43:00.121 just different words. 644 00:43:02.165 --> 00:43:04.584 Okay. You want it to be electric guitar? 645 00:43:05.669 --> 00:43:06.753 [Rodrigo chuckles] 646 00:43:08.463 --> 00:43:09.673 Is that gonna help? 647 00:43:10.382 --> 00:43:11.383 I don't know. 648 00:43:12.008 --> 00:43:13.009 Okay. 649 00:43:14.969 --> 00:43:18.098 That was, like, towards, like, the end of the album making process. 650 00:43:18.181 --> 00:43:20.809 And I just remember listening to that song and being like, 651 00:43:20.892 --> 00:43:22.477 "Everything's wrong with this song." 652 00:43:22.560 --> 00:43:24.729 And I love the song and the lyrics and the melody, 653 00:43:24.813 --> 00:43:26.356 but I just remember like, 654 00:43:26.439 --> 00:43:28.650 "The guitar is not right. It's out of tempo. 655 00:43:28.733 --> 00:43:31.194 I don't like it. I can't sing it well. Like, dah, dah, dah." 656 00:43:31.277 --> 00:43:33.029 There's so many issues with it in my head. 657 00:43:33.113 --> 00:43:36.199 [Rodrigo] I don't know. I just wish some of the bits were more emotional. 658 00:43:36.282 --> 00:43:38.993 I feel like if you're not closely paying attention to the lyrics, 659 00:43:39.077 --> 00:43:42.080 you, like, wouldn't understand, like, what was going on. 660 00:43:42.163 --> 00:43:45.375 [Nigro] I think you're overthinking that like crazy. 661 00:43:45.458 --> 00:43:47.794 -[Morris] I agree. It's so emotional. -[Nigro] Like crazy. 662 00:43:47.877 --> 00:43:48.878 [person] It really is. 663 00:43:48.962 --> 00:43:52.215 [Morris] It's so emotional. It literally, like, breaks me every time I hear it. 664 00:43:52.298 --> 00:43:53.133 [Rodrigo chuckles] 665 00:43:59.764 --> 00:44:00.765 Being a child actor, 666 00:44:00.849 --> 00:44:03.351 where you're constantly told everything you do is amazing, 667 00:44:03.435 --> 00:44:06.354 you did the bare minimum and they're like, "Oh, you're a star." 668 00:44:08.064 --> 00:44:10.442 And I was always, like, really disillusioned by that 669 00:44:10.525 --> 00:44:11.526 from a very young age. 670 00:44:11.609 --> 00:44:13.778 I was like, "They're just gonna tell me whatever." 671 00:44:13.862 --> 00:44:17.032 And so, I kind of, like, went to the other side of the spectrum, 672 00:44:17.115 --> 00:44:19.826 and started thinking that everything that I did was really bad. 673 00:44:19.909 --> 00:44:22.245 And started being, like, my own critic and being like, 674 00:44:22.328 --> 00:44:24.456 "No, you can always do better. Always do better." 675 00:44:24.539 --> 00:44:27.042 Never accepted when anyone told me that I did a good job. 676 00:44:27.959 --> 00:44:31.796 I remember really gravitating towards my dad in that time 677 00:44:31.880 --> 00:44:35.216 'cause he was the only person who I felt, like, would tell me the truth, 678 00:44:35.300 --> 00:44:38.219 and that was really hard for me to grapple with at a young age, 679 00:44:38.303 --> 00:44:39.763 feeling like you couldn't trust anyone 680 00:44:39.846 --> 00:44:42.349 and no one was gonna tell you if you were messing up. 681 00:44:44.601 --> 00:44:46.603 I also think Dan is like that for me too. 682 00:44:46.686 --> 00:44:49.105 Dan's very much someone in my life 683 00:44:49.189 --> 00:44:52.067 who will be, like, unabashedly like, 684 00:44:52.150 --> 00:44:54.819 "No, you shouldn't do that. I wouldn't do that if I were you." 685 00:44:54.903 --> 00:44:56.404 Which I, like, really appreciate, 686 00:44:56.488 --> 00:44:59.657 'cause not a lot of people care enough to be honest with people. 687 00:44:59.741 --> 00:45:00.742 You know what I mean? 688 00:45:00.825 --> 00:45:03.411 I think there's a certain level of care and kindness 689 00:45:03.495 --> 00:45:06.623 that goes with having the courage to, like, help someone like that. 690 00:45:06.706 --> 00:45:08.708 ["enough for you" playing] 691 00:45:20.178 --> 00:45:26.059 ♪ I wore makeup when we dated 'Cause I thought you'd like me more ♪ 692 00:45:26.142 --> 00:45:32.440 ♪ If I looked like the other prom queens I know that you loved before ♪ 693 00:45:32.524 --> 00:45:37.028 ♪ Tried so hard to be Everything that you liked ♪ 694 00:45:37.696 --> 00:45:43.284 ♪ Just for you to say You're not the compliment type ♪ 695 00:45:44.911 --> 00:45:50.959 ♪ And I knew how you took your coffee And your favorite songs by heart ♪ 696 00:45:51.042 --> 00:45:56.506 ♪ I read all of your self-help books So you'd think that I was smart ♪ 697 00:45:56.589 --> 00:46:01.344 ♪ Stupid, emotional, obsessive little me ♪ 698 00:46:02.804 --> 00:46:07.642 ♪ I knew from the start This is exactly how you'd leave ♪ 699 00:46:08.143 --> 00:46:13.690 ♪ You found someone more exciting The next second you were gone ♪ 700 00:46:14.691 --> 00:46:19.863 ♪ And you left me there crying Wondering what I did wrong ♪ 701 00:46:19.946 --> 00:46:26.161 ♪ And you always say I'm never satisfied But I don't think that's true ♪ 702 00:46:27.078 --> 00:46:32.083 ♪ 'Cause all I ever wanted Was to be enough for you ♪ 703 00:46:33.168 --> 00:46:38.173 ♪ Yeah, all I ever wanted Was to be enough for you ♪ 704 00:46:41.551 --> 00:46:47.640 ♪ And maybe I'm just not as interesting As the girls you had before ♪ 705 00:46:47.724 --> 00:46:53.813 ♪ But God, you couldn't have cared less About someone who loved you more ♪ 706 00:46:53.897 --> 00:46:58.109 ♪ I'd say you broke my heart But you broke much more than that ♪ 707 00:46:58.985 --> 00:47:04.157 ♪ Now I don't want your sympathy I just want myself back ♪ 708 00:47:04.240 --> 00:47:10.372 ♪ Before you found someone more exciting The next second you were gone ♪ 709 00:47:11.498 --> 00:47:16.670 ♪ And you left me there crying Wondering what I did wrong ♪ 710 00:47:16.753 --> 00:47:22.926 ♪ And you always say I'm never satisfied But I don't think that's true ♪ 711 00:47:23.885 --> 00:47:29.140 ♪ 'Cause all I ever wanted Was to be enough ♪ 712 00:47:29.224 --> 00:47:35.397 ♪ And don't you think I loved you too much To be used and discarded? ♪ 713 00:47:35.480 --> 00:47:42.112 ♪ Don't you think I loved you too much To think I deserve nothing? ♪ 714 00:47:42.195 --> 00:47:47.534 ♪ But don't tell me you're sorry, boy Feel sorry for yourself ♪ 715 00:47:48.326 --> 00:47:53.957 ♪ 'Cause someday I'll be everything To somebody else ♪ 716 00:47:58.169 --> 00:48:01.589 ♪ They'll think that I am so exciting ♪ 717 00:48:05.176 --> 00:48:08.805 ♪ Then you'll be the one who's crying ♪ 718 00:48:09.931 --> 00:48:14.644 ♪ Yeah You always say I'm never satisfied ♪ 719 00:48:14.728 --> 00:48:17.188 ♪ But I don't think that's true ♪ 720 00:48:17.897 --> 00:48:23.319 ♪ You say I'm never satisfied But that's not me, it's you ♪ 721 00:48:24.154 --> 00:48:29.117 ♪ 'Cause all I ever wanted Was to be enough ♪ 722 00:48:29.868 --> 00:48:35.999 ♪ But I don't think anything Could ever be enough ♪ 723 00:48:36.082 --> 00:48:39.961 ♪ For you ♪ 724 00:48:41.755 --> 00:48:43.465 ♪ Enough for you ♪ 725 00:48:43.548 --> 00:48:46.426 [vocalizes] 726 00:48:47.260 --> 00:48:50.388 ♪ No, nothing's enough for you ♪ 727 00:48:50.472 --> 00:48:52.474 [song ends] 728 00:48:58.104 --> 00:49:00.732 [gentle piano playing] 729 00:49:09.657 --> 00:49:10.658 [Nigro] What's that? 730 00:49:10.742 --> 00:49:11.743 [Rodrigo] No clue. 731 00:49:13.787 --> 00:49:15.622 -[Rodrigo] You ready? -[Nigro] I think so. 732 00:49:16.456 --> 00:49:19.626 ♪ You betrayed me ♪ 733 00:49:19.709 --> 00:49:23.963 ♪ And I know That you'll never feel sorry ♪ 734 00:49:24.047 --> 00:49:26.591 ♪ For the way I hurt, yeah ♪ 735 00:49:26.675 --> 00:49:28.635 [both] ♪ You talked to her ♪ 736 00:49:28.718 --> 00:49:30.512 [Nigro] I think you're right. I don't like-- 737 00:49:30.595 --> 00:49:32.263 [Nigro sighs] There's gotta be… 738 00:49:32.347 --> 00:49:33.640 ♪ The way I hurt, yeah ♪ 739 00:49:33.723 --> 00:49:37.644 ♪ You talked to her When we were together ♪ 740 00:49:37.727 --> 00:49:42.232 ♪ Loved you at your worst But that didn't matter ♪ 741 00:49:42.315 --> 00:49:43.400 [laughs] 742 00:49:49.698 --> 00:49:53.201 [Rodrigo] "traitor" is one of my favorite songs I've ever written, I think. 743 00:49:54.119 --> 00:49:55.412 I really like the line, 744 00:49:55.495 --> 00:49:57.580 "I guess you didn't cheat, but you're still a traitor." 745 00:49:57.664 --> 00:50:00.083 'Cause I think it's a really concise way of expressing 746 00:50:00.166 --> 00:50:02.711 that super painful feeling of betrayal that you get 747 00:50:02.794 --> 00:50:05.797 when someone you knew so well moves on so quickly. 748 00:50:06.673 --> 00:50:10.343 And I think that's the hardest part about being a songwriter sometimes, 749 00:50:10.427 --> 00:50:13.013 is diving into those really painful emotions. 750 00:50:13.763 --> 00:50:16.641 I think you can never lie to yourself when you're writing a song. 751 00:50:17.183 --> 00:50:18.643 At least, it's hard for me. 752 00:50:23.231 --> 00:50:24.524 [engine stops] 753 00:50:53.386 --> 00:50:54.596 [pedal clicks] 754 00:50:55.889 --> 00:50:58.558 -["traitor" playing] -[piano plays] 755 00:51:05.440 --> 00:51:07.567 -[pedal clicks] -[piano loops] 756 00:51:11.196 --> 00:51:12.405 [clicks] 757 00:51:16.451 --> 00:51:19.037 -[beat thumps] -[piano loops] 758 00:51:26.419 --> 00:51:29.381 -[clicks] -[piano, beat loop] 759 00:51:37.180 --> 00:51:39.724 [guitar strums] 760 00:51:46.856 --> 00:51:49.984 -[pedal clicks] -[piano, beat, guitar loop] 761 00:51:52.570 --> 00:51:53.905 [pedal clicks] 762 00:51:57.784 --> 00:52:00.286 [vocalizes] 763 00:52:07.794 --> 00:52:10.505 -[pedal clicks] -[piano, beat, guitar, vocals loop] 764 00:52:12.716 --> 00:52:14.718 [clicks] 765 00:52:18.304 --> 00:52:20.890 [guitar melody plays] 766 00:52:29.441 --> 00:52:31.192 -[clicks] -[all parts loop] 767 00:52:38.950 --> 00:52:43.580 ♪ Brown, guilty eyes And little white lies, yeah ♪ 768 00:52:43.663 --> 00:52:47.042 ♪ I played dumb, but I always knew ♪ 769 00:52:48.960 --> 00:52:53.506 ♪ That you talked to her maybe Did even worse ♪ 770 00:52:53.590 --> 00:52:57.469 ♪ I kept quiet so I could keep you ♪ 771 00:52:58.386 --> 00:53:00.347 ♪ And ain't it funny ♪ 772 00:53:01.639 --> 00:53:08.063 ♪ How you ran to her The second that we called it quits? ♪ 773 00:53:08.938 --> 00:53:10.607 ♪ Ain't it funny ♪ 774 00:53:11.358 --> 00:53:18.031 ♪ How you said you were friends? Now it sure as hell don't look like it ♪ 775 00:53:19.199 --> 00:53:21.951 ♪ You betrayed me ♪ 776 00:53:22.452 --> 00:53:27.082 ♪ And I know that You'll never feel sorry ♪ 777 00:53:27.582 --> 00:53:30.293 ♪ For the way I hurt, yeah ♪ 778 00:53:30.377 --> 00:53:35.090 ♪ You talked to her When we were together ♪ 779 00:53:35.173 --> 00:53:40.095 ♪ Loved you at your worst But that didn't matter ♪ 780 00:53:40.178 --> 00:53:45.308 ♪ It took you two weeks To go off and date her ♪ 781 00:53:45.392 --> 00:53:51.356 ♪ Guess you didn't cheat But you're still a traitor ♪ 782 00:53:52.482 --> 00:53:54.984 [vocalizes] 783 00:53:56.111 --> 00:53:58.405 ♪ God, I wish that you Had thought this through ♪ 784 00:53:58.488 --> 00:54:02.450 ♪ Before I went and fell In love with you ♪ 785 00:54:03.076 --> 00:54:05.161 ♪ Oh ♪ 786 00:54:05.745 --> 00:54:08.248 ♪ And when she's sleeping In the bed we made ♪ 787 00:54:08.331 --> 00:54:10.667 ♪ Don't you dare forget about the way ♪ 788 00:54:10.750 --> 00:54:13.837 ♪ You betrayed me ♪ 789 00:54:13.920 --> 00:54:19.134 ♪ 'Cause I know that You'll never feel sorry ♪ 790 00:54:19.217 --> 00:54:21.803 ♪ For the way I hurt, yeah ♪ 791 00:54:21.886 --> 00:54:26.433 ♪ You talked to her When we were together ♪ 792 00:54:26.516 --> 00:54:31.688 ♪ You gave me your word But that didn't matter ♪ 793 00:54:31.771 --> 00:54:36.735 ♪ It took you two weeks To go off and date her ♪ 794 00:54:36.818 --> 00:54:41.031 ♪ Guess you didn't cheat But you're still ♪ 795 00:54:41.114 --> 00:54:48.121 ♪ You're still a traitor ♪ 796 00:54:49.706 --> 00:54:52.500 ♪ Yeah, you're still a traitor ♪ 797 00:54:54.044 --> 00:54:57.213 [vocalizes] 798 00:54:57.881 --> 00:55:00.216 ♪ God, I wish that you Had thought this through ♪ 799 00:55:00.300 --> 00:55:04.220 ♪ Before I went and fell In love with you ♪ 800 00:55:04.304 --> 00:55:05.597 [song ends] 801 00:55:39.255 --> 00:55:41.925 So Dan and I are just, like, losing our minds. And… 802 00:55:42.008 --> 00:55:45.387 -[both laugh] -[person on phone] About what? 803 00:55:45.470 --> 00:55:47.847 And we wanna put one more upbeat song on the record. 804 00:55:47.931 --> 00:55:50.725 Hold on, hold on, hold on. This is not a "we" conversation. 805 00:55:50.809 --> 00:55:52.102 I wanna put one more upbeat-- 806 00:55:52.185 --> 00:55:54.562 Olivia wants one more upbeat song on the record. 807 00:55:55.230 --> 00:55:56.815 And we can't choose which song. 808 00:55:57.607 --> 00:55:58.733 [person] What do you mean? 809 00:55:58.817 --> 00:56:01.861 Like, we've been just going through songs that are on my Voice Memos. 810 00:56:01.945 --> 00:56:04.614 What's it like when you have five days to choose a track listing, 811 00:56:04.698 --> 00:56:06.157 and you change your mind every day? 812 00:56:06.241 --> 00:56:09.160 I'm not changing my mind every day! I've always wanted one more upbeat song! 813 00:56:09.244 --> 00:56:11.121 [piano playing] 814 00:56:13.289 --> 00:56:15.625 [Rodrigo singing] ♪ I got my driver's license ♪ 815 00:56:15.709 --> 00:56:16.751 Is it B or is it… 816 00:56:17.377 --> 00:56:18.420 [piano plays lower key] 817 00:56:18.503 --> 00:56:20.088 -♪ Driver's license-- ♪ -No, it's B-flat. 818 00:56:20.171 --> 00:56:21.715 -[Rodrigo] Yeah, it's B-flat. -Ah, Okay. 819 00:56:21.798 --> 00:56:24.676 Should we-- We should write a song. We could write a song today. 820 00:56:24.759 --> 00:56:26.845 -[Nigro] In what? In… -In G-sharp minor. 821 00:56:26.928 --> 00:56:29.514 -[guitar strumming] -[Rodrigo sings indistinctly] 822 00:56:31.516 --> 00:56:33.143 -[Rodrigo] What's that? -I don't know. 823 00:56:33.226 --> 00:56:34.227 It's cool. 824 00:56:36.813 --> 00:56:38.440 -[Rodrigo hums] -[Nigro] Oh. 825 00:56:39.941 --> 00:56:42.986 -[Rodrigo] What? So good. -I'm gonna record it so I don't forget it. 826 00:56:45.572 --> 00:56:46.573 So good. 827 00:56:50.493 --> 00:56:52.954 [Rodrigo singing indistinctly] 828 00:56:57.250 --> 00:57:02.297 ♪ Well, I I wanna cry now ♪ 829 00:57:03.256 --> 00:57:04.841 So good, Dan. I love it. 830 00:57:05.508 --> 00:57:07.302 [singing indistinctly] 831 00:57:11.056 --> 00:57:15.560 ♪ Na na, na na Tell me so ♪ 832 00:57:19.939 --> 00:57:21.941 [both sing] 833 00:57:22.025 --> 00:57:24.778 [Nigro] Then right here you got… [sings falsetto] 834 00:57:25.403 --> 00:57:27.238 [both sing] 835 00:57:27.781 --> 00:57:29.699 [Rodrigo sings indistinctly] 836 00:57:35.663 --> 00:57:37.123 -[Nigro] Pretty fun. -I love that. 837 00:57:37.207 --> 00:57:39.542 [Rodrigo] It'd be cool to have a song called "brutal." 838 00:57:39.626 --> 00:57:41.503 And I was like, "What if the hook is like--" 839 00:57:41.586 --> 00:57:44.714 Like the verses are like, [vocalizes] "People are mean, world is cruel." 840 00:57:44.798 --> 00:57:46.049 And then, like, the hook-- 841 00:57:46.132 --> 00:57:48.760 The thing is like, "God, it's brutal out here." 842 00:57:48.843 --> 00:57:51.388 -I like that. "It's brutal out here." -You like that? Yeah. 843 00:57:52.013 --> 00:57:53.181 It's, like, punky. 844 00:57:53.264 --> 00:57:55.433 Sure. I like that. I actually do like that. 845 00:57:55.517 --> 00:57:57.435 -Okay. -I like that. I like that. 846 00:57:57.519 --> 00:57:58.770 God, it's brutal out here. 847 00:58:01.481 --> 00:58:02.482 Um. 848 00:58:02.565 --> 00:58:07.487 "brutal," um, take 1. And the only take. 849 00:58:08.196 --> 00:58:10.198 We wrote this yesterday. 850 00:58:10.281 --> 00:58:12.575 [Nigro] All right. Do you have latency or are you good? 851 00:58:12.659 --> 00:58:16.037 -I'm so-- I don't-- I can't hear it. -You can't hear-- Oh, right, because… 852 00:58:16.663 --> 00:58:17.664 Try now. 853 00:58:17.747 --> 00:58:21.251 ♪ I'm so insecure I think That I'll die before I drink ♪ 854 00:58:21.334 --> 00:58:22.377 -Good. -Is that cool? 855 00:58:22.460 --> 00:58:24.337 I'm just gonna eat the shit out of the mic. 856 00:58:24.421 --> 00:58:26.923 -Eat the shit out of it. -[headphones: music plays] 857 00:58:27.007 --> 00:58:28.133 It's four, right? 858 00:58:28.216 --> 00:58:32.137 -Four times. Give it to me. Three. Nine! -[laughs] 859 00:58:32.220 --> 00:58:35.932 ♪ I'm so insecure I think That I'll die before I drink ♪ 860 00:58:36.016 --> 00:58:39.769 ♪ I'm so caught up in the news Of who likes me and who hates you ♪ 861 00:58:39.853 --> 00:58:43.481 ♪ I'm so tired that I might Quit my job, start a new life ♪ 862 00:58:43.565 --> 00:58:47.277 ♪ And they'd all be so disappointed 'Cause I'm the girl that they exploited ♪ 863 00:58:47.360 --> 00:58:51.156 ♪ And I'm so sick of 17 Where's my **** teenage dream? ♪ 864 00:58:51.239 --> 00:58:54.951 ♪ If someone tells me one more time Enjoy your youth, I'm gonna cry ♪ 865 00:58:55.035 --> 00:58:58.747 ♪ And I wish I was someone else I'm anxious and no one can help ♪ 866 00:58:58.830 --> 00:59:02.792 ♪ And I wish I'd done this before And I wish people liked me more ♪ 867 00:59:04.002 --> 00:59:06.046 It's such a good song, Dan. I'm so glad-- 868 00:59:06.129 --> 00:59:09.466 -I'm so glad we made this just on a whim. -[laughs] 869 00:59:09.549 --> 00:59:10.884 Why not? Have fun, right? 870 00:59:10.967 --> 00:59:12.427 -Yeah. -Is that what we're here for? 871 00:59:12.510 --> 00:59:14.763 -Yeah. -No, there's no fun in making music ever. 872 00:59:14.846 --> 00:59:16.222 None. Especially our music. 873 00:59:16.306 --> 00:59:18.350 -It's very serious. -[Rodrigo groans] Depressing. 874 00:59:40.914 --> 00:59:44.250 [Rodrigo] I remember just feeling kind of trapped 875 00:59:45.085 --> 00:59:51.007 and kind of, like, flung into this situation that I wasn't prepared for. 876 00:59:51.091 --> 00:59:53.134 It was very, like, overnight. 877 00:59:53.218 --> 00:59:55.220 Like, all of a sudden, everyone's watching you, 878 00:59:55.303 --> 00:59:57.889 and I'm like, "Oh, my God. Did I actually ever want this?" 879 00:59:57.972 --> 00:59:59.557 It's, like, the big question. 880 01:00:00.934 --> 01:00:03.853 And I remember, like, loving the "Who am I if not exploited?" line. 881 01:00:03.937 --> 01:00:07.774 And I felt so-- I felt so angsty about it when I, like, wrote it. 882 01:00:07.857 --> 01:00:10.527 And I was like, "Yes, it's exactly what I want to say." 883 01:00:27.669 --> 01:00:30.088 That, like, period of my life was very strange. 884 01:00:30.171 --> 01:00:32.924 And I remember feeling, like, lonely. 885 01:00:33.008 --> 01:00:35.385 And I remember wanting a boyfriend very bad. 886 01:00:35.468 --> 01:00:38.555 And I remember that was, like, during a time 887 01:00:38.638 --> 01:00:41.391 where I, like, kind of looked through, 888 01:00:41.474 --> 01:00:44.769 like, what people said about me, like, online or in print. 889 01:00:45.311 --> 01:00:47.480 And I'm still reeling from this heartbreak 890 01:00:47.564 --> 01:00:50.775 and all of the drama that went all around it. 891 01:00:50.859 --> 01:00:52.444 We were finishing up the album. 892 01:00:53.528 --> 01:00:54.946 So much stuff was happening. 893 01:00:55.697 --> 01:00:57.782 Just, like, everything was coming to a head. 894 01:00:57.866 --> 01:01:01.745 -[instrumental music playing] -[bells ding] 895 01:01:10.378 --> 01:01:12.589 ["brutal" playing] 896 01:01:18.178 --> 01:01:22.223 ♪ I'm so insecure I think That I'll die before I drink ♪ 897 01:01:22.307 --> 01:01:26.019 ♪ I'm so caught up in the news Of who likes me and who hates you ♪ 898 01:01:26.102 --> 01:01:29.898 ♪ And I'm so tired that I might Quit my job, start a new life ♪ 899 01:01:29.981 --> 01:01:33.818 ♪ And they'd all be so disappointed 'Cause who am I if not exploited? ♪ 900 01:01:33.902 --> 01:01:37.655 ♪ I'm so sick of 17 Where's my **** teenage dream? ♪ 901 01:01:37.739 --> 01:01:41.576 ♪ If someone tells me one more time Enjoy your youth, I'm gonna cry ♪ 902 01:01:41.659 --> 01:01:45.413 ♪ And I don't stick up for myself I'm anxious and nothing can help ♪ 903 01:01:45.497 --> 01:01:49.292 ♪ And I wish I'd done this before And I wish people liked me more ♪ 904 01:01:49.376 --> 01:01:53.213 ♪ All I did was try my best This the kinda thanks I get ♪ 905 01:01:53.296 --> 01:01:55.423 ♪ Unrelentlessly upset ♪ 906 01:01:55.507 --> 01:01:56.883 [backing singers] ♪ Oh, oh, oh ♪ 907 01:01:56.966 --> 01:02:00.970 ♪ They say these are the golden years But I wish I could disappear ♪ 908 01:02:01.054 --> 01:02:02.847 ♪ Ego crush is so severe ♪ 909 01:02:02.931 --> 01:02:04.933 ♪ God, it's brutal out here ♪ 910 01:02:12.607 --> 01:02:16.403 ♪ I feel like no one wants me And I hate the way I'm perceived ♪ 911 01:02:16.486 --> 01:02:20.156 ♪ I only have two real friends And lately I'm a nervous wreck ♪ 912 01:02:20.240 --> 01:02:24.077 ♪ 'Cause I love people I don't like And I hate every song I write ♪ 913 01:02:24.160 --> 01:02:28.039 ♪ And I'm not cool, and I'm not smart And I can't even parallel park ♪ 914 01:02:28.123 --> 01:02:31.876 ♪ All I did was try my best This the kinda thanks I get ♪ 915 01:02:31.960 --> 01:02:34.129 ♪ Unrelentlessly upset ♪ 916 01:02:34.212 --> 01:02:35.547 [backing singers] ♪ Oh, oh, oh ♪ 917 01:02:35.630 --> 01:02:39.676 ♪ They say these are the golden years But I wish I could disappear ♪ 918 01:02:39.759 --> 01:02:41.553 ♪ Ego crush is so severe ♪ 919 01:02:41.636 --> 01:02:43.722 ♪ God, it's brutal out here ♪ 920 01:02:51.146 --> 01:02:53.314 [guitar solo] 921 01:03:07.620 --> 01:03:14.169 ♪ Got a broken ego, broken heart ♪ 922 01:03:16.796 --> 01:03:22.010 ♪ And God, I don't even know where ♪ 923 01:03:23.053 --> 01:03:24.512 ♪ To start ♪ 924 01:03:31.019 --> 01:03:32.645 [song ends] 925 01:03:41.112 --> 01:03:43.615 [Rodrigo] "hope ur ok" was the last song I finished on the album. 926 01:03:43.698 --> 01:03:48.703 I really wanted to write a folksy, singer-songwritery, storytelling song 927 01:03:48.787 --> 01:03:50.747 that ended the album on a hopeful note. 928 01:03:51.247 --> 01:03:54.125 I think even in the midst of all the heartbreak and pain 929 01:03:54.209 --> 01:03:55.794 that I was talking about in the album, 930 01:03:55.877 --> 01:03:58.421 there's so much hope that goes along with ending a relationship 931 01:03:58.505 --> 01:04:00.382 and starting a new chapter. 932 01:04:08.223 --> 01:04:09.891 Some of my favorite lyrics are in that song. 933 01:04:09.974 --> 01:04:13.061 I really like the, "I hope he took his bad deal and made a royal flush." 934 01:04:13.144 --> 01:04:15.522 I was writing that song in my bedroom or living room or something. 935 01:04:15.605 --> 01:04:18.149 I remember going into the other room where my dad was, and I was like, 936 01:04:18.233 --> 01:04:21.069 "Hey, Dad. What's the best card hand that you can have?" 937 01:04:21.152 --> 01:04:23.697 He goes, "Royal flush." I'm like, "Perfect. That rhymes with something." 938 01:04:23.780 --> 01:04:26.241 I go back in and, like, put it in the song. 939 01:04:29.786 --> 01:04:31.913 [Rodrigo] What do you think about the track listing? 940 01:04:31.996 --> 01:04:34.582 [Nigro laughs] Let's get this in. We'll talk about it later. 941 01:04:34.666 --> 01:04:35.959 -I have lots of thoughts. -Okay. 942 01:04:36.459 --> 01:04:39.629 [Nigro] But let's make some, let's make some steps. 943 01:04:39.713 --> 01:04:43.258 I just-- I just want, um, "brutal" to be the first track. 944 01:04:43.341 --> 01:04:45.301 -You really do? -I really do. 945 01:04:46.636 --> 01:04:48.930 [Nigro sighs] Then I have my work cut out for me this weekend. 946 01:04:49.014 --> 01:04:50.015 I know. 947 01:04:50.098 --> 01:04:51.516 [Nigro coughs] 948 01:04:51.599 --> 01:04:55.020 Wait. Sorry. I wasn't ready. I wasn't ready. I wasn't ready. 949 01:04:55.103 --> 01:04:56.104 Okay. I'm ready. 950 01:04:57.022 --> 01:05:03.403 ♪ And when the clouds won't iron out And the monsters creep into your house ♪ 951 01:05:03.486 --> 01:05:07.115 ♪ And every door is hard to close ♪ 952 01:05:07.782 --> 01:05:09.743 ♪ Well, I hope you know ♪ 953 01:05:11.828 --> 01:05:13.121 [recording plays] 954 01:05:13.204 --> 01:05:16.875 [Nigro] Cool. I think-- Cool. That's good. That's great. 955 01:05:16.958 --> 01:05:19.878 I have a co-- Do like two takes, and then I have some thoughts. 956 01:05:19.961 --> 01:05:20.962 All right. 957 01:05:21.046 --> 01:05:22.964 I want you to get used to singing it on the mic. 958 01:05:23.048 --> 01:05:25.216 Do you want the click louder? Are you fine with-- 959 01:05:25.300 --> 01:05:28.011 -Can I have my voice louder? -Your voice louder? 960 01:05:28.094 --> 01:05:29.512 Yeah. I'm a narcissist. 961 01:05:30.013 --> 01:05:31.139 Hold on. 962 01:05:31.222 --> 01:05:33.224 [speakers: "hope ur ok" instrumentals playing] 963 01:05:46.571 --> 01:05:48.156 [song ends] 964 01:05:49.866 --> 01:05:52.202 -I think we might have done it, Dan! -Yeah? 965 01:05:52.285 --> 01:05:53.328 Should I print it? 966 01:05:53.411 --> 01:05:54.996 -Yeah. -Yeah. You feel good about it? 967 01:05:55.080 --> 01:05:56.915 I'm gonna cry! 968 01:05:56.998 --> 01:05:58.291 [Nigro laughs] 969 01:05:59.042 --> 01:06:01.795 -I'm gonna cry. -What-- What a sad time. What a sad time. 970 01:06:01.878 --> 01:06:04.255 -It's so weird. -[Nigro chuckles] 971 01:06:04.339 --> 01:06:08.677 It's so weird. Literally a year of my life spent in this studio. 972 01:06:10.428 --> 01:06:13.473 [Nigro] I know. Nothing will ever be the same. 973 01:06:13.973 --> 01:06:16.101 No. Hopefully not. 974 01:06:16.184 --> 01:06:19.062 Hopefully it won't be so sad in the next **** record. 975 01:06:19.145 --> 01:06:22.857 [Nigro chuckling] It's like-- it's a bittersweet feeling. 976 01:06:22.941 --> 01:06:25.110 [Rodrigo chuckles] I know. So bittersweet. 977 01:06:25.193 --> 01:06:28.363 It's definitely, like, the-last-day-of-school feeling. 978 01:06:35.245 --> 01:06:38.873 Coming from this place of hurt and devastation, 979 01:06:38.957 --> 01:06:42.711 and you manage to turn it into something that you're proud of 980 01:06:42.794 --> 01:06:44.629 and something that other people can enjoy, 981 01:06:44.713 --> 01:06:51.678 and something that brings acceptance and, like, light and joy into the world, 982 01:06:51.761 --> 01:06:53.471 there's, like, nothing better than that. 983 01:06:53.555 --> 01:06:55.807 And there's, like, not a day that, like, goes by 984 01:06:55.890 --> 01:06:58.143 that I'm not grateful for that opportunity 985 01:06:58.226 --> 01:07:01.563 and so proud of myself that I, like, did that too. 986 01:07:07.402 --> 01:07:10.947 I've grown, like, five years' worth… [chuckles] …in, like, one year. 987 01:07:11.031 --> 01:07:14.367 I think I'm so much of a different person in a good way. 988 01:07:14.451 --> 01:07:18.621 I think I had to learn how to have, like, thick skin and how to stand up for myself. 989 01:07:18.705 --> 01:07:21.499 And I think I just wanted to tell people what was going on 990 01:07:21.583 --> 01:07:25.045 in the depths of my heart and in the back of my head 991 01:07:25.128 --> 01:07:27.464 in a way that was proud. 992 01:07:30.633 --> 01:07:34.763 I think there's something so powerful about that, especially as a young woman. 993 01:07:55.909 --> 01:07:57.243 [engine stops] 994 01:08:04.709 --> 01:08:07.087 ["hope ur ok" playing] 995 01:08:17.972 --> 01:08:23.937 ♪ I knew a boy once when I was small A towhead blond with eyes of salt ♪ 996 01:08:24.020 --> 01:08:26.815 ♪ He played the drum In the marching band ♪ 997 01:08:30.026 --> 01:08:36.282 ♪ His parents cared more about the Bible Than being good to their own child ♪ 998 01:08:36.366 --> 01:08:39.160 ♪ He wore long sleeves 'cause of his dad ♪ 999 01:08:41.496 --> 01:08:45.792 ♪ And somehow we fell out of touch ♪ 1000 01:08:47.210 --> 01:08:52.048 ♪ Hope he took his bad deal And made a royal flush ♪ 1001 01:08:53.800 --> 01:08:58.013 ♪ Don't know if I'll see You again someday ♪ 1002 01:08:59.389 --> 01:09:01.433 ♪ But if you're out there ♪ 1003 01:09:04.519 --> 01:09:06.813 ♪ I hope that you're okay ♪ 1004 01:09:19.409 --> 01:09:25.540 ♪ My middle school friend grew up alone She raised her brothers on her own ♪ 1005 01:09:25.623 --> 01:09:28.376 ♪ Her parents hated who she loved ♪ 1006 01:09:31.588 --> 01:09:34.841 ♪ She couldn't wait to go to college ♪ 1007 01:09:34.924 --> 01:09:38.261 ♪ She was tired 'Cause she was brought into ♪ 1008 01:09:38.345 --> 01:09:42.015 ♪ A world where family was merely blood ♪ 1009 01:09:42.807 --> 01:09:47.645 ♪ Does she know how proud I am She was created ♪ 1010 01:09:49.022 --> 01:09:54.277 ♪ With the courage to unlearn All of their hatred? ♪ 1011 01:09:55.362 --> 01:09:59.366 ♪ We don't talk much But I just gotta say ♪ 1012 01:10:01.451 --> 01:10:02.660 ♪ I miss you ♪ 1013 01:10:05.997 --> 01:10:08.291 ♪ And I hope that you're okay ♪ 1014 01:10:08.375 --> 01:10:14.464 ♪ Address the letters To the holes in my butterfly wings ♪ 1015 01:10:14.547 --> 01:10:20.762 ♪ Nothing's forever Nothing's as good as it seems ♪ 1016 01:10:20.845 --> 01:10:26.935 ♪ And when the clouds won't iron out And the monsters creep into your house ♪ 1017 01:10:27.018 --> 01:10:29.854 ♪ And every door is hard to close ♪ 1018 01:10:31.398 --> 01:10:36.820 ♪ Well I hope you know how proud I am You were created ♪ 1019 01:10:38.154 --> 01:10:43.243 ♪ With the courage to unlearn All of their hatred ♪ 1020 01:10:44.160 --> 01:10:48.581 ♪ And God, I hope That you're happier today ♪ 1021 01:10:50.500 --> 01:10:52.127 ♪ 'Cause I love you ♪ 1022 01:10:55.130 --> 01:10:57.424 ♪ And I hope that you're okay ♪ 1023 01:10:57.507 --> 01:10:59.634 [music continuing] 1024 01:11:07.642 --> 01:11:09.978 ♪ I hope that you're okay ♪ 1025 01:11:10.061 --> 01:11:11.980 [music continues] 1026 01:11:47.349 --> 01:11:49.642 [music continues] 1027 01:12:07.660 --> 01:12:08.995 [song ends] 1028 01:12:10.997 --> 01:12:14.459 [Rodrigo] ♪ I know you're with somebody new ♪ 1029 01:12:14.542 --> 01:12:18.213 ♪ But I can't write a song That's not all about you ♪ 1030 01:12:18.296 --> 01:12:21.174 ♪ It's not fair, baby ♪ 1031 01:12:21.675 --> 01:12:24.678 ♪ How come it's so easy ♪ 1032 01:12:25.512 --> 01:12:28.848 ♪ For you to forget everything you said? ♪ 1033 01:12:29.683 --> 01:12:33.186 ♪ Like how I was the best girl That you'd ever met ♪ 1034 01:12:33.269 --> 01:12:36.773 ♪ Guess you take it back ♪ 1035 01:12:36.856 --> 01:12:40.485 ♪ Should've expected that ♪ 1036 01:12:42.946 --> 01:12:48.034 ♪ But when I say I'm fine I'm lying really well ♪ 1037 01:12:48.118 --> 01:12:51.996 ♪ 'Cause I can't love anyone else ♪ 1038 01:12:52.080 --> 01:12:55.166 ♪ And I'm so jealous that you can ♪ 1039 01:12:55.667 --> 01:12:58.878 ♪ Scared I'll never feel that again ♪ 1040 01:12:58.962 --> 01:13:03.800 ♪ 'Cause I still can't Call anyone "baby" ♪ 1041 01:13:03.883 --> 01:13:07.303 ♪ 'Cause "baby" is still you to me ♪ 1042 01:13:07.387 --> 01:13:10.724 ♪ Don't you think I wanna move on too? ♪ 1043 01:13:11.474 --> 01:13:17.689 ♪ But I can't love anyone the way The way I loved you ♪ 1044 01:13:19.399 --> 01:13:20.775 [song ends]