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What's wrong with you?
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These people have paid to come and watch.
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-Where do you think you are going?
-Hey, man, we're waiting for you.
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-Come on, sing a song.
-No please, I'll handle it.
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This girl paid to come and listen to
a song by Louw… Louw… Louw van Lier.
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Keep quiet, please.
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I don't give a damn who he thinks he is.
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Just give us a song.
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No.
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I'll send you to your grave!
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Who do you think you are?
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Everybody told me
Louw van Lier is a nobody.
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But for Karien's sake,
I decided to give you another chance.
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Now I see they're right. You are a nobody.
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And don't think you can
ever come back here!
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Nobody… will give you a chance again!
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Because nobody
will ever remember you!
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Matewis!
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The boxes.
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Matewis!
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Sorry, did you… leave it, I will.
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Perfect timing, as always!
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I'm done.
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Why didn't you mention
anything about Louw coming?
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I only found out this morning.
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This morning?
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I told him our home will always be open.
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He's my brother, Matewis.
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He grew up here.
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What about our meeting with Wim?
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You'll just have to handle it on your own.
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Alright?
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I have an appointment with the bank.
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I'll first have to hear what they say.
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You know it's not going
to help the situation.
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Sell me the place, you won't
get another offer like this.
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Matewis…
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I think the time has come for you
to accept that you're not a farmer.
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Is everything okay? I was getting worried.
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I'm seated in the passage
Where the sun can sing
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It's quiet in the corner and it's cold
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Can you see what the wind
And the rain does to me
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Sun catcher
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I'm asking you nicely
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Let it shine for me again
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Can I help you carry anything?
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Your guitar?
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No, it's not necessary, thank you.
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Let's go inside.
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I thought you might like
to be in your old room.
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We just use it as a storeroom.
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I think there will be a
few shocked faces in town
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when they see how much you resemble him.
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Almost as if his ghost
is roaming the streets.
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Remember when I took this one?
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It was the day I think we all knew.
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I don't take photos anymore.
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What's more to see?
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It's always the same.
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Nothing changes.
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It would probably help
me if I ever go blind.
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But luckily my brother is here.
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So finally we will have some excitement.
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Matewis is somewhere on the farm.
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We had to lay off some people.
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So he will probably try to convince
you to help him with a few things.
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Thank you.
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That I can stay here.
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Of course.
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I told you so, anytime.
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It's good that you came.
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I've missed you.
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-You were unbelievable!
-Thank you.
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There you go. Excuse me.
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I'll be back.
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Hey, what's wrong?
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Aren't you excited?
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So now you have everything
you've always wanted.
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What I wanted?
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I thought it was what we wanted?
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Hey, hey, hey, what's going on?
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You…
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should be proud of me.
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Of course, I'm proud.
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So what then?
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Sometimes I think
you don't really love me.
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Did you have to bring that up now?
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Hmm?
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Can't you… I…
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I've just had the biggest
show of my career.
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How…
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How can you be so selfish?
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-Yes, I am selfish.
-Yes.
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I'm so sorry Louw, you were unbelievable.
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I can see you are so happy.
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Now you have everything
you've always wanted.
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Nothing!
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Typical!
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-You know what?
-What?
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You will never do it!
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I really thought that tonight
would be the perfect night.
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-So I…
-Louw! Louw!
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I'll… I'll be there now. Hold on a moment.
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Karien.
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Hi.
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I wanted to wake you but I
thought you could do with the rest.
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I forgot my phone.
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I was afraid you'd try to phone.
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Remember Dad never allowed
us to ever touch that cup?
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I'm still too afraid to touch it.
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Have you eaten? I can make you something.
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No. Thank you. I…
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I'm just going for a walk.
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I can go with you.
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Come, come, come boys.
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Hurry up! Hurry up!
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We don't have the whole day.
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Can you lift it?
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Louw!
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Come and help!
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Come help, please! We
still have a lot of work to do.
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The guys don't know what they're doing!
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Let's go, let's go. Come on. That's it.
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Yes! Yes! Yes!
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Yes!
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Thank you.
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Porridge, huh? Porridge.
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Thanks. There's something
else I want you to do.
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Come.
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Sandra, this is a surprise.
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-I haven't seen you in a while.
-Sorry, I did knock, but I…
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Is Louw here?
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Oh, I saw him in town yesterday.
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Well, he drove past the school.
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He went for a walk.
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Hopefully, he doesn't run into Matewis,
else who knows what time he'll be back.
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Oh, I brought him something.
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Well it's for all of you
but I remember he likes it.
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Banana bread.
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It was always his favourite.
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You are welcome to wait a while.
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I'm just clearing up.
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No, I must get back.
I have a class just now.
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I'll tell Louw you were here.
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Okay.
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Tell him to pop in when he gets a chance.
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The children will be so excited
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to see a real musician for a change.
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Bye.
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It looks like it's all coming back to you.
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A few years ago…
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we almost lost everything.
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See those trees over on that side…
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that's where the fire started.
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I really feel sorry for that little guy.
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His father is Wim Cloete.
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Wim thinks he can own this whole town.
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He owns the farm next to us
and he has a few other farms.
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We…
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Marie…
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sold a section of the farm to his father.
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Oh.
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I didn't know.
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Nothing is going on there,
just a few dilapidated buildings.
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We've been using it for a couple
of years to store some broken stuff.
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Marie and I
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used to go there and shoot my Dad's gun.
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How's my sister doing?
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You know her.
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She has a heart of gold.
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She always makes time for everybody.
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She is helping out at
one of the shops in town.
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Are you finished?
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-Hmm.
-Can we go?
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Did you bring my guitar in?
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I…
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It was outside and I…
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Did you go through my clothing?
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I just unpacked it.
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I thought it might be good if
somebody took care of you.
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I am not a child! I don't need
anybody to take care of me!
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Would you like me to take it back outside?
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I'll add it to my list of a million
things I must do tomorrow.
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Is the food ready yet?
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It smells amazing.
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Yes, you can sit so long.
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Leave my stuff alone.
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I'm longing for you
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For the wind that wraps its arms around me
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That's how I'm longing
As the sun and the moon and the wind
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And the clouds pass me by
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Are you longing for me too?
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In the distant land where you live
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And are you longing
As the sun and the moon and the wind
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And the clouds pass you by
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That's how I'm longing
As the sun and the moon and the wind
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And the clouds pass me…
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Hey!
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Sorry, Sir.
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I… I didn't know you were there.
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No, no, don't worry. I just…
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I just got a fright.
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I'm Louw.
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Was it… Was it you that was singing?
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Uh, no… No, Sir.
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S… S… Sorry I bothered you.
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No, you, you didn't…
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Your coach phoned me.
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You didn't go to practice again.
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Do you want to disappoint me?
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Venter, look at your father
when he's talking to you.
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And that?
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Did you get into a fight again?
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N… N… No.
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No, Dad.
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What have I always told you?
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There are only two types
of people in this world.
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The hunters and the prey.
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The weak ones.
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Those who are left behind.
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And we…
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We are never the prey.
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I'll deliver the package if you like.
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If through it all, you get the time
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please drop that off as well.
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Okay, it's fine.
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Excuse me… Do you need help, Sir?
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Louw!
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Louw.
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My word! Please to meet you.
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Henk.
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Marie has told me so much about you.
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It's great that you're back in town.
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Hopefully, we'll get a
chance to hear you play.
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What?
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You said he must start playing again.
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I… sometimes listen to
your music while I'm working.
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Really… it's very deep.
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Thank you.
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Your ability… gift to capture emotion is,
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you know, the heart
and soul of a song, right?
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Well, there's a table back
there that needs me, um…
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I'll see you tomorrow.
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And… Louw.
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A pleasure meeting you.
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Likewise.
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Sometimes I help out at the shop.
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Matewis said so, yes.
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-Louw, I'm sorry…
-Marie, please it's…
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Louw! Marie!
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Here you are.
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I'm not following you, I promise.
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So when are visiting my class? Huh?
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I… I don't think…
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The children were excited when they heard
the famous Louw van Lier is in town.
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I played them some of your songs.
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Well, actually, some of them
have already been performed.
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I'm sorry. You should know me by now.
I get so carried away.
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So how does it feel being back in town?
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-Yes, I…
-It must be quite boring?
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-He's helping Matewis on the farm.
-Oh, really?
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Um… Do you know a…
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a child, Wim?
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-Wim's son?
-Oh, Venter?
267
00:25:07.458 --> 00:25:09.166
Wim Cloete's son. Yes.
268
00:25:09.250 --> 00:25:10.916
He's in our school.
269
00:25:11.000 --> 00:25:13.500
I mean, he attended
my class once or twice, but…
270
00:25:13.583 --> 00:25:16.500
He just sat there.
I think he was too shy to participate.
271
00:25:16.583 --> 00:25:17.958
Anyways…
272
00:25:18.916 --> 00:25:21.500
Uh, Sandra! I'm late again.
273
00:25:21.583 --> 00:25:25.791
Okay, Louw, it was so good to see you.
Come and visit! Please!
274
00:25:26.583 --> 00:25:28.666
Okay, guys. Bye.
275
00:25:31.458 --> 00:25:35.958
Wow! She has lots of energy.
She could give some to Eskom.
276
00:25:41.125 --> 00:25:42.625
Um, hey, when…
277
00:25:43.708 --> 00:25:45.333
When last did you see Mom?
278
00:25:46.166 --> 00:25:47.500
I go every week.
279
00:25:48.291 --> 00:25:50.791
I don't think she recognises me anymore.
280
00:25:50.875 --> 00:25:52.791
If you catch her on a good day…
281
00:25:54.625 --> 00:25:57.083
She often asks about Dad.
282
00:25:57.166 --> 00:26:00.333
I just say he's somewhere on the farm.
283
00:26:00.416 --> 00:26:02.458
It seems like it makes her happy.
284
00:26:05.250 --> 00:26:08.500
I'll see you back at the farm?
Yes, fine.
285
00:26:13.291 --> 00:26:14.291
Bye.
286
00:26:18.500 --> 00:26:20.500
It's a farm!
287
00:26:20.583 --> 00:26:23.666
There are always good times and bad times.
288
00:26:26.166 --> 00:26:27.666
I need your help.
289
00:26:29.083 --> 00:26:30.875
I've always paid!
290
00:26:33.375 --> 00:26:35.791
How long have I been one of your clients?
291
00:26:46.041 --> 00:26:47.666
P… P… Piggy!
292
00:27:03.666 --> 00:27:06.458
Nice!
293
00:27:29.500 --> 00:27:31.875
Please listen to me, Mrs. Malan.
294
00:28:23.041 --> 00:28:24.916
The world has become green.
295
00:28:27.416 --> 00:28:28.416
Yes.
296
00:28:30.000 --> 00:28:35.083
My dad has pushed the
workers hard the last few years.
297
00:28:37.208 --> 00:28:39.291
He sounds as if he can be quite strict.
298
00:28:43.875 --> 00:28:45.041
D… D…
299
00:28:47.250 --> 00:28:48.458
D… Do…
300
00:28:49.166 --> 00:28:50.875
Do you know…
301
00:28:50.958 --> 00:28:52.500
M… M…
302
00:28:52.583 --> 00:28:54.750
Miss… Naude?
303
00:28:56.166 --> 00:28:59.541
We were friends in high school.
304
00:29:02.291 --> 00:29:04.208
A… A… Are…
305
00:29:04.916 --> 00:29:07.458
Are you going to help in her class?
306
00:29:10.416 --> 00:29:11.416
No.
307
00:29:12.500 --> 00:29:13.583
I don't think so.
308
00:29:17.708 --> 00:29:19.125
H… Her…
309
00:29:22.416 --> 00:29:24.583
Her class…
310
00:29:24.666 --> 00:29:31.416
performed your version of
"I Miss You" last year.
311
00:29:33.666 --> 00:29:38.333
It seems like she really likes that one.
312
00:29:47.916 --> 00:29:49.041
That was unbelievable.
313
00:29:49.666 --> 00:29:51.208
I just needed to tell you that.
314
00:29:53.916 --> 00:29:55.125
Uh.… I um…
315
00:29:55.208 --> 00:29:57.958
I love the way you interpret the songs.
316
00:29:58.541 --> 00:30:00.375
I've never heard "I Miss You"
sound like that.
317
00:30:00.458 --> 00:30:03.000
With so much passion.
318
00:30:03.083 --> 00:30:04.958
The whole audience was enchanted.
319
00:30:06.791 --> 00:30:08.541
-Thank you.
-Karien.
320
00:30:09.375 --> 00:30:10.375
Louw.
321
00:30:11.333 --> 00:30:12.791
I think I have a card here somewhere.
322
00:30:17.000 --> 00:30:19.375
I know most of the club owners.
323
00:30:19.958 --> 00:30:22.666
Give me a call.
I'll arrange something for you.
324
00:30:25.583 --> 00:30:27.083
-Thank you.
-Pleasure.
325
00:30:28.125 --> 00:30:29.666
Karien… Yes.
326
00:30:37.708 --> 00:30:39.250
I…
327
00:30:39.333 --> 00:30:41.791
often listen to your…
328
00:30:43.958 --> 00:30:44.958
music.
329
00:30:46.166 --> 00:30:47.541
I'm sorry to hear that.
330
00:30:50.458 --> 00:30:53.750
So you like heartbreak songs?
331
00:30:55.625 --> 00:30:56.666
I…
332
00:30:57.875 --> 00:31:00.916
I… I like…
333
00:31:02.166 --> 00:31:03.666
to know that I…
334
00:31:05.541 --> 00:31:08.541
to know that I'm not alone.
335
00:31:09.250 --> 00:31:10.250
That…
336
00:31:11.125 --> 00:31:14.916
That there are other people who…
337
00:31:15.000 --> 00:31:16.416
I always thought…
338
00:31:17.750 --> 00:31:20.041
feeling that way would
make me more creative.
339
00:31:21.958 --> 00:31:23.833
But there comes a point where…
340
00:31:24.541 --> 00:31:26.916
where things get too
bad to write about them.
341
00:31:29.250 --> 00:31:30.958
I understand.
342
00:31:35.583 --> 00:31:39.166
Uh, uh, that's m… m… m… my dad.
343
00:31:39.250 --> 00:31:42.208
-I… I have to go…
-It's okay. It's okay.
344
00:31:44.208 --> 00:31:46.750
If you ever need anything,
come and look for me at the farm.
345
00:31:46.833 --> 00:31:48.166
T… Thank you.
346
00:31:54.625 --> 00:31:56.458
Where have you been? Huh?
347
00:31:57.500 --> 00:31:59.416
I told you to wait in the car. Huh?
348
00:32:00.125 --> 00:32:01.125
Get in.
349
00:32:12.583 --> 00:32:15.041
I know you don't think
I'm good enough for you.
350
00:32:15.125 --> 00:32:17.250
But I don't know what more I can do!
351
00:32:17.333 --> 00:32:19.291
I did not want to be a farmer.
352
00:32:19.375 --> 00:32:21.625
I did it for your father… for you!
353
00:32:21.708 --> 00:32:23.625
I… Your whole family!
354
00:32:24.250 --> 00:32:27.458
But everything I do,
it's not good enough for you.
355
00:32:28.166 --> 00:32:30.458
What do you expect when
I find out from the bank
356
00:32:30.541 --> 00:32:32.125
that we might lose our home?
357
00:32:32.208 --> 00:32:34.750
I can't live with so much
uncertainty every day…
358
00:32:34.833 --> 00:32:36.416
What do you want from me?
359
00:32:36.500 --> 00:32:38.666
Don't always run away
to the farm every time
360
00:32:38.750 --> 00:32:42.416
when things get tough or dark or unhappy.
361
00:32:43.041 --> 00:32:44.375
I can't talk to you about this.
362
00:32:44.458 --> 00:32:46.458
-I want to talk to you.
-Leave me alone!
363
00:32:58.833 --> 00:33:01.041
Louw, I didn't realise
you'd be back already.
364
00:33:03.916 --> 00:33:05.708
I only do it when I need to relax.
365
00:33:12.291 --> 00:33:15.208
And don't be worried,
it's only farm issues.
366
00:33:15.291 --> 00:33:16.958
Nothing for you to stress about.
367
00:33:17.541 --> 00:33:19.666
You left this place
behind a long time ago.
368
00:33:27.250 --> 00:33:28.958
Aren't you going to say something?
369
00:33:30.125 --> 00:33:31.583
You're just like Matewis.
370
00:33:32.375 --> 00:33:33.708
Why do you do this?
371
00:33:34.291 --> 00:33:37.541
Even when we were kids,
you'd lock yourself in the room
372
00:33:37.625 --> 00:33:39.500
and I had to get along on my own!
373
00:33:40.291 --> 00:33:43.291
And when you came out you'd
make as if nothing was wrong!
374
00:33:43.375 --> 00:33:45.666
I don't know how Karien survived with you!
375
00:33:51.833 --> 00:33:53.125
And you two?
376
00:33:55.375 --> 00:33:58.458
It seems the only thing that
can keep this farm alive is anger!
377
00:34:27.000 --> 00:34:28.916
The dancer was gone
378
00:34:29.000 --> 00:34:32.500
By midnight the moon was sad and beautiful
379
00:34:32.583 --> 00:34:35.125
And when the new morning
Arose from the mountain
380
00:34:35.208 --> 00:34:37.875
Grey birds were watching us
381
00:34:41.833 --> 00:34:46.291
Forty days and forty nights
382
00:34:46.375 --> 00:34:49.291
We're looking for the mystical farmer
383
00:34:50.125 --> 00:34:55.083
Like the black horses of midnight thoughts
384
00:34:55.166 --> 00:34:57.916
He keeps on his guard and watches
385
00:34:58.958 --> 00:35:02.500
Over his shoulder with a strange grin
386
00:35:02.583 --> 00:35:04.458
And danced in the night
387
00:35:04.541 --> 00:35:06.625
With the moon over his shoulder
388
00:35:06.708 --> 00:35:09.750
With an eye which bravely came closer
389
00:35:09.833 --> 00:35:12.541
To ask me my name
390
00:35:33.000 --> 00:35:35.500
P… P… P… Piggy.
391
00:35:35.583 --> 00:35:37.541
P… P… P… Piggy!
392
00:35:37.625 --> 00:35:40.708
Wow, Piggy,
but you've got some pair of tits.
393
00:35:40.791 --> 00:35:43.250
They're almost bigger than Miss Naude's.
394
00:35:43.333 --> 00:35:44.666
P… P… Piggy.
395
00:35:44.750 --> 00:35:47.500
Should I get you one of
my sisters br….br…. bras?
396
00:35:47.583 --> 00:35:50.083
P… P… Piggy. I'm talking to you.
397
00:35:50.166 --> 00:35:51.958
P… P… Piggy.
398
00:35:53.708 --> 00:35:55.416
Leave me!
399
00:35:55.500 --> 00:35:57.458
-Leave me…
-Geez!
400
00:35:57.541 --> 00:36:00.333
Piggy got himself
a nice pair of balls this holiday.
401
00:36:01.166 --> 00:36:03.291
Hey, hey!
402
00:36:03.375 --> 00:36:04.916
Hey, what's going on?
403
00:36:05.000 --> 00:36:06.083
Hey!
404
00:36:06.791 --> 00:36:08.083
Venter, Venter!
405
00:36:08.166 --> 00:36:09.125
Stop.
406
00:36:09.208 --> 00:36:10.458
Boys.
407
00:36:10.541 --> 00:36:11.708
Out.
408
00:36:11.791 --> 00:36:13.500
Hey! I'm warning you!
409
00:36:18.250 --> 00:36:19.250
Venter?
410
00:36:24.500 --> 00:36:26.000
S… Sorry, Sir…
411
00:36:26.083 --> 00:36:28.500
Pl… Please don't phone my parents.
412
00:36:28.583 --> 00:36:31.208
-P… P… Please…
-Okay, okay, okay.
413
00:36:32.166 --> 00:36:33.208
Who can I call then?
414
00:36:40.750 --> 00:36:42.458
Do you want to talk about it?
415
00:36:42.541 --> 00:36:43.958
Uh… no.
416
00:36:44.750 --> 00:36:47.708
S… S… Sorry that I bothered you.
417
00:36:47.791 --> 00:36:48.791
Not at all.
418
00:36:49.916 --> 00:36:50.916
I'm glad you did.
419
00:36:54.666 --> 00:36:58.791
Did you take music lessons
when you were at school?
420
00:36:58.875 --> 00:37:00.500
-Louw…
-No…
421
00:37:02.333 --> 00:37:04.875
So kind of you to come and visit me.
422
00:37:04.958 --> 00:37:06.791
Well… us.
423
00:37:06.875 --> 00:37:08.791
Hello Venter, it's good to see you again.
424
00:37:08.875 --> 00:37:10.166
Hello, Miss Naude.
425
00:37:11.041 --> 00:37:13.833
Okay, so I told my children
you were going to pop in.
426
00:37:13.916 --> 00:37:15.750
They're so excited to see you.
427
00:37:15.833 --> 00:37:17.000
Yes, bu… uh…
428
00:37:22.166 --> 00:37:26.166
Look if you can bring me the sun
429
00:37:30.375 --> 00:37:35.708
There's a song that the sun can sing
430
00:37:38.666 --> 00:37:43.041
It's quiet in the corner
In the cold season
431
00:37:46.333 --> 00:37:51.250
Can you see what the wind
And the rain does to me
432
00:38:02.166 --> 00:38:04.458
I'm asking you nicely
433
00:38:04.541 --> 00:38:09.500
Let it shine for me again
434
00:38:12.333 --> 00:38:14.125
Well done, guys. Okay.
435
00:38:14.208 --> 00:38:16.583
Continue so long with what
we started working on yesterday
436
00:38:16.666 --> 00:38:18.958
and next time we can ask
Louw a few questions. Okay?
437
00:38:20.083 --> 00:38:21.208
Quiet.
438
00:38:26.250 --> 00:38:28.291
Hey, are you okay?
439
00:38:30.833 --> 00:38:31.916
I can't do this.
440
00:38:33.750 --> 00:38:35.125
Don't stress, they don't bite.
441
00:38:35.208 --> 00:38:37.041
I told you I can't do this!
442
00:38:37.958 --> 00:38:39.041
We need to go.
443
00:38:41.166 --> 00:38:42.208
Louw?
444
00:38:42.958 --> 00:38:44.000
Louw.
445
00:38:44.083 --> 00:38:45.708
Can't you see I'm not ready for this?
446
00:38:53.708 --> 00:38:55.916
Sorry, when I saw you I thought you…
447
00:38:56.000 --> 00:38:57.250
What? Hmm?
448
00:38:58.333 --> 00:39:00.041
What did you think? I was here to see you?
449
00:39:01.000 --> 00:39:02.791
-No, I…
-Don't!
450
00:39:04.833 --> 00:39:06.416
You were always like this.
451
00:39:09.166 --> 00:39:10.416
Leave me alone.
452
00:39:22.083 --> 00:39:24.041
I told you not this one!
453
00:39:24.125 --> 00:39:26.041
Mrs. Malan, let's find the right one.
454
00:39:26.125 --> 00:39:29.083
Philip, tell her to get away from me.
455
00:39:29.166 --> 00:39:30.958
Let's go and sit, Mrs. Malan. Come.
456
00:39:31.625 --> 00:39:33.291
We're just going to sit for a bit.
457
00:39:34.916 --> 00:39:36.041
There you go.
458
00:39:36.125 --> 00:39:38.500
Can you give me the beige jersey, please?
459
00:39:43.166 --> 00:39:44.791
-There you go.
-Thank you.
460
00:39:49.625 --> 00:39:51.250
She never listens to me.
461
00:39:52.041 --> 00:39:56.791
I've told her, this one is my favourite.
462
00:40:05.708 --> 00:40:06.833
Hey.
463
00:40:06.916 --> 00:40:08.041
Hey, Mom.
464
00:40:08.916 --> 00:40:10.375
Hey, Mommy, it's me.
465
00:40:10.458 --> 00:40:11.833
I'm here.
466
00:40:22.666 --> 00:40:25.833
I love looking at this
photo of the two of you.
467
00:40:27.083 --> 00:40:28.750
You look so happy.
468
00:40:29.375 --> 00:40:30.791
Did you bring her with you?
469
00:40:30.875 --> 00:40:33.083
I would love to meet her.
470
00:40:33.166 --> 00:40:34.166
Your dad as well.
471
00:40:35.125 --> 00:40:36.791
Mom, she um…
472
00:40:40.708 --> 00:40:42.500
She really wanted to be here, Mom.
473
00:40:43.250 --> 00:40:45.750
Marie got those CDs for your dad.
474
00:40:48.541 --> 00:40:49.708
What CDs?
475
00:40:49.791 --> 00:40:51.375
I couldn't believe it myself.
476
00:40:52.958 --> 00:40:55.916
I always tell them how famous my son is
477
00:40:56.000 --> 00:40:58.250
but I don't think they believe me.
478
00:40:59.416 --> 00:41:01.250
But I always knew.
479
00:41:01.333 --> 00:41:05.083
You have this inner strength within you.
480
00:41:06.833 --> 00:41:10.291
You always made me so proud.
481
00:41:14.708 --> 00:41:16.958
Mrs. Malan, it's time for your medication.
482
00:41:26.833 --> 00:41:28.125
Thank you very much.
483
00:41:38.083 --> 00:41:39.833
Thank you very much, my dear.
484
00:41:43.750 --> 00:41:46.458
Don't you want to play something for me?
485
00:42:17.791 --> 00:42:20.458
It's nice to just feel
normal again for a change.
486
00:42:23.333 --> 00:42:26.250
All I get these days
are pitiful looks. As if…
487
00:42:27.583 --> 00:42:29.750
I'm suffering from some terminal illness.
488
00:42:31.333 --> 00:42:32.791
Except Matewis.
489
00:42:34.041 --> 00:42:36.583
I guess he just doesn't know any better.
490
00:42:41.791 --> 00:42:43.041
Karien is dead.
491
00:42:43.916 --> 00:42:46.875
And… I cannot change it.
492
00:42:48.500 --> 00:42:49.541
Nobody can.
493
00:42:53.583 --> 00:42:54.583
And…
494
00:42:55.333 --> 00:42:57.541
I know you blame me for leaving.
495
00:42:58.208 --> 00:42:59.250
And that's okay.
496
00:43:00.250 --> 00:43:02.250
I know you didn't have a choice.
497
00:43:04.291 --> 00:43:05.625
You also had dreams.
498
00:43:08.291 --> 00:43:10.125
Mom needs me here.
499
00:43:10.208 --> 00:43:13.750
I think she would've been in a
much worse condition if I also left.
500
00:43:17.166 --> 00:43:18.208
I went to see her.
501
00:43:20.041 --> 00:43:22.041
I tried not to tell you.
502
00:43:26.583 --> 00:43:28.875
She thought I was Dad.
503
00:43:32.333 --> 00:43:33.666
-What?
-I'm sorry.
504
00:43:34.208 --> 00:43:35.500
-I'm sorry.
-What?
505
00:43:36.166 --> 00:43:38.458
I told you, you look alike.
506
00:43:44.208 --> 00:43:45.791
What did she say?
507
00:43:48.541 --> 00:43:50.041
Something about CD's,
508
00:43:51.208 --> 00:43:52.708
that you supposedly bought.
509
00:43:53.416 --> 00:43:54.458
Oh.
510
00:43:57.750 --> 00:43:58.833
Wait here.
511
00:44:21.666 --> 00:44:25.291
Dad asked me to get these
when I came to see you in Pretoria.
512
00:44:26.875 --> 00:44:30.416
He also didn't have a CD player,
so I had to get him that too.
513
00:44:36.291 --> 00:44:39.041
I don't think he ever listened to it.
514
00:44:39.958 --> 00:44:41.375
But just to have it…
515
00:44:42.541 --> 00:44:44.291
meant so much to him.
516
00:44:47.166 --> 00:44:50.250
He wasn't very impressed
that you used Mom's surname.
517
00:44:51.250 --> 00:44:52.833
But I think he understood.
518
00:44:55.208 --> 00:44:57.166
I remember when you came to get them.
519
00:44:58.250 --> 00:45:01.500
I even drew a heart because
I thought it was for you.
520
00:45:05.541 --> 00:45:07.250
If I knew it was for…
521
00:45:07.333 --> 00:45:08.333
What?
522
00:45:08.875 --> 00:45:10.541
That it was for Dad?
523
00:45:11.916 --> 00:45:14.041
You probably wouldn't have given it to me.
524
00:45:15.375 --> 00:45:16.625
No…
525
00:45:16.708 --> 00:45:18.208
probably not.
526
00:45:22.291 --> 00:45:23.291
Marie.
527
00:45:26.208 --> 00:45:29.625
Thank you that you were always
the one who tried to keep us together.
528
00:46:05.500 --> 00:46:07.583
I thought you'd still be at school?
529
00:46:07.666 --> 00:46:12.375
I bunked one of my c… c… classes.
530
00:46:15.166 --> 00:46:16.833
Were you just playing now?
531
00:46:18.250 --> 00:46:19.291
No.
532
00:46:20.041 --> 00:46:21.208
I…
533
00:46:21.291 --> 00:46:22.500
I'm just thinking.
534
00:46:27.625 --> 00:46:28.875
I um…
535
00:46:30.166 --> 00:46:32.166
I know people don't
listen to CDs anymore but…
536
00:46:38.625 --> 00:46:42.375
Miss Naude said you
attended her class a few times?
537
00:46:48.375 --> 00:46:50.250
My dad did not want me to do music.
538
00:46:52.583 --> 00:46:55.708
He never even attended one of my shows.
539
00:46:57.458 --> 00:47:00.458
And I always thought it was
because he was ashamed of me.
540
00:47:02.000 --> 00:47:04.958
And I used it… to drive me.
541
00:47:06.416 --> 00:47:08.083
To prove him wrong.
542
00:47:10.125 --> 00:47:14.500
C… C… Can you play something for me?
543
00:47:16.958 --> 00:47:19.541
I tell you what,
I'll play you something if…
544
00:47:20.375 --> 00:47:21.625
If you sing with me.
545
00:47:22.958 --> 00:47:24.291
No, no.
546
00:47:24.375 --> 00:47:26.125
I understand you're afraid, Venter.
547
00:47:26.833 --> 00:47:29.000
I am also afraid. Always.
548
00:47:30.125 --> 00:47:31.791
My throat becomes dry and…
549
00:47:32.583 --> 00:47:35.916
my heart beats so fast, it
feels like it's going to jump out.
550
00:47:37.291 --> 00:47:39.625
But I've learnt that it's
perhaps a good thing.
551
00:47:40.708 --> 00:47:43.208
It means I'm at the point of…
552
00:47:44.041 --> 00:47:45.458
doing something important.
553
00:47:49.416 --> 00:47:51.333
Do what makes you happy, Venter.
554
00:47:52.541 --> 00:47:54.416
Not what other people want you to do.
555
00:48:08.125 --> 00:48:10.166
I'm longing for you
556
00:48:11.250 --> 00:48:15.083
For the wind that wraps its arms around me
557
00:48:16.208 --> 00:48:21.041
That's how I'm longing
As the sun and the moon and the wind
558
00:48:21.125 --> 00:48:24.166
And the clouds pass me by
559
00:48:28.083 --> 00:48:30.166
Are you longing for me too?
560
00:48:31.166 --> 00:48:35.916
In the distant land where you live now
561
00:48:36.000 --> 00:48:41.166
And are you longing
As the sun and the moon and the wind
562
00:48:41.250 --> 00:48:44.625
And the clouds pass you by
563
00:48:48.000 --> 00:48:49.583
I'm longing for you
564
00:48:51.041 --> 00:48:55.083
I long because I really like you
565
00:48:56.083 --> 00:49:01.041
I am longing as the sun
And the moon and the wind
566
00:49:01.125 --> 00:49:04.958
And the clouds pass you by
567
00:49:07.708 --> 00:49:12.041
Blow wind
568
00:49:12.833 --> 00:49:16.000
Bring him back to me
569
00:49:18.125 --> 00:49:22.708
-Blow wind
-And the clouds pass me by
570
00:49:22.791 --> 00:49:25.583
Bring him back to me
571
00:49:28.000 --> 00:49:30.041
I'm longing for you
572
00:49:31.208 --> 00:49:34.625
For the wind that wraps its arms around…
573
00:49:35.833 --> 00:49:37.250
Are you okay?
574
00:49:41.750 --> 00:49:45.541
Venter, I know how difficult it is
to love somebody who hurts you.
575
00:49:47.416 --> 00:49:50.166
It feels as if you shouldn't love them.
576
00:49:52.875 --> 00:49:54.458
And sometimes we mustn't.
577
00:50:04.708 --> 00:50:06.750
Come in… Hey, come in.
578
00:50:06.833 --> 00:50:08.500
-Hi. Do you have a moment?
-Yes.
579
00:50:10.416 --> 00:50:12.041
I'm just marking.
580
00:50:14.875 --> 00:50:16.416
And I'm done!
581
00:50:18.000 --> 00:50:20.875
Don't worry, it's just a short exercise.
582
00:50:20.958 --> 00:50:23.583
It doesn't count towards their final mark.
583
00:50:24.541 --> 00:50:25.708
I…
584
00:50:28.708 --> 00:50:30.458
I came to apologise for the other day.
585
00:50:32.250 --> 00:50:34.833
-Louw, it's…
-I know you're trying to be friendly.
586
00:50:34.916 --> 00:50:36.041
So I'm…
587
00:50:37.333 --> 00:50:38.958
I'm sorry.
588
00:50:39.041 --> 00:50:43.166
I know I can sometimes
come across a bit too strong.
589
00:50:43.250 --> 00:50:46.125
I think that's why you broke up with me
in the first place.
590
00:50:46.208 --> 00:50:48.250
N… No. It…
591
00:50:48.833 --> 00:50:50.458
It wasn't that, I…
592
00:50:53.541 --> 00:50:54.958
I don't know. At that stage…
593
00:50:56.625 --> 00:50:58.750
I thought I wasn't good enough.
594
00:50:59.916 --> 00:51:02.208
I needed to find my own feet, you know.
595
00:51:04.375 --> 00:51:06.458
And it…
596
00:51:06.541 --> 00:51:10.458
didn't feel fair to drag somebody
with me into the unknown.
597
00:51:13.416 --> 00:51:16.583
-And look where I ended up!
-Hmm.
598
00:51:23.958 --> 00:51:26.500
I see you're still fascinated by France.
599
00:51:27.291 --> 00:51:29.041
And Asia.
600
00:51:30.166 --> 00:51:31.750
Did you ever go?
601
00:51:31.833 --> 00:51:35.125
No, no. Those are just gifts.
602
00:51:35.916 --> 00:51:38.666
I'm lucky if I get the chance
to leave the province.
603
00:51:41.750 --> 00:51:43.625
-I was there a few years ago.
-Paris?
604
00:51:43.708 --> 00:51:46.250
-To perform?
-No. No. I…
605
00:51:47.166 --> 00:51:49.041
Karien and I went.
606
00:51:50.541 --> 00:51:54.375
France, Germany, Holland.
607
00:51:54.458 --> 00:51:55.500
Wow.
608
00:51:58.291 --> 00:51:59.458
I think you'd love it.
609
00:52:06.416 --> 00:52:10.166
Was it easy for you
to leave here at the time?
610
00:52:12.583 --> 00:52:15.791
No, it's never easy to
leave everything behind.
611
00:52:17.208 --> 00:52:20.333
Family, friends and you
know how my father was.
612
00:52:23.500 --> 00:52:24.791
I don't know, I…
613
00:52:26.916 --> 00:52:28.291
My dreams weren't here.
614
00:52:29.750 --> 00:52:30.958
I had this…
615
00:52:31.791 --> 00:52:34.333
unbelievable desire to…
616
00:52:36.958 --> 00:52:38.000
I don't know?
617
00:52:38.083 --> 00:52:41.291
I think I would have gone crazy if
I had to stay here a moment longer.
618
00:52:43.000 --> 00:52:44.000
Yes.
619
00:52:47.541 --> 00:52:50.333
A few years ago I bought a backpack.
620
00:52:52.166 --> 00:52:53.958
Way too big for me.
621
00:52:54.041 --> 00:52:58.083
A place for everything, secret pockets.
You know, the whole nine yards.
622
00:52:58.166 --> 00:53:02.041
I had to make sure that there was
enough space in case I needed it.
623
00:53:03.500 --> 00:53:05.875
And then I put it next to my front door
624
00:53:05.958 --> 00:53:08.375
so it would always remind me that
625
00:53:08.458 --> 00:53:10.583
one day I would see the world.
626
00:53:10.666 --> 00:53:14.291
The children kept asking me:
"Ma'am, when are you going on your trip?"
627
00:53:15.208 --> 00:53:17.583
And I always had an excuse.
628
00:53:19.041 --> 00:53:21.625
I had to organise a school function or
629
00:53:21.708 --> 00:53:23.458
there was a sick family member.
630
00:53:26.375 --> 00:53:30.625
I eventually became so tired of it,
I hid it in the back of my cupboard.
631
00:53:42.166 --> 00:53:45.416
Well, if your offer still stands…
632
00:53:46.625 --> 00:53:48.083
I'd like to help in the class.
633
00:53:49.208 --> 00:53:52.333
But let's first give it a
try and see how it goes.
634
00:53:52.416 --> 00:53:53.416
Of course.
635
00:53:54.250 --> 00:53:56.375
The children are crazy about you.
636
00:53:56.458 --> 00:53:58.708
They keep asking me
when you're coming back.
637
00:53:58.791 --> 00:54:01.041
I want, I want to see if
Venter doesn't maybe…
638
00:54:03.166 --> 00:54:04.833
We can go and see if you want to.
639
00:54:08.083 --> 00:54:09.166
Oh, wow!
640
00:54:10.041 --> 00:54:11.750
And that unbelievable music.
641
00:54:11.833 --> 00:54:13.750
Have they done productions of them?
642
00:54:13.833 --> 00:54:15.458
Haven't gone that big yet.
643
00:54:15.541 --> 00:54:17.666
-Hi, Venter.
-Did you play well?
644
00:54:18.333 --> 00:54:19.375
Yes.
645
00:54:23.166 --> 00:54:26.250
I take it he wasn't very happy
with some of the decisions.
646
00:54:26.333 --> 00:54:27.708
No.
647
00:54:27.791 --> 00:54:29.166
So, Louw's coming to help
us with the music class--
648
00:54:29.250 --> 00:54:30.958
Come, Venter, we're leaving.
649
00:54:31.041 --> 00:54:32.250
Yes, Dad.
650
00:54:33.791 --> 00:54:35.958
-See you on the farm.
-Bye.
651
00:54:37.791 --> 00:54:38.958
Hi, I'm Louw.
652
00:54:39.541 --> 00:54:40.833
That's right. The singer?
653
00:54:41.625 --> 00:54:44.333
My wife says you were
quite famous, in your day.
654
00:54:45.375 --> 00:54:47.333
Louw's going to help
out in the music class.
655
00:54:47.416 --> 00:54:48.791
Maybe Venter can join us?
656
00:54:49.458 --> 00:54:50.625
How do you know my son?
657
00:54:51.125 --> 00:54:52.166
Oh, from the farm.
658
00:54:52.250 --> 00:54:54.750
We chatted a bit while you were
talking to my brother-in-law.
659
00:54:54.833 --> 00:54:58.333
Yes, well maybe you can talk some
sense into him to accept my offer.
660
00:55:02.416 --> 00:55:03.541
Venter, we're leaving.
661
00:55:04.166 --> 00:55:05.166
Yes Dad.
662
00:55:05.958 --> 00:55:07.583
Not the most pleasant man, is he?
663
00:55:07.666 --> 00:55:08.708
No.
664
00:55:15.041 --> 00:55:16.333
I'm late!
665
00:55:21.458 --> 00:55:22.541
Morning.
666
00:55:22.625 --> 00:55:23.708
Hey.
667
00:55:25.750 --> 00:55:27.333
What a handsome brother I have.
668
00:55:28.458 --> 00:55:31.791
I thought I'd try to make a good
first impression in front of the children.
669
00:55:31.875 --> 00:55:33.750
Well, um, second impression.
670
00:55:34.625 --> 00:55:36.291
We can drive together if you'd like.
671
00:55:36.375 --> 00:55:37.791
I'm working at the shop today
672
00:55:37.875 --> 00:55:40.208
and I'm sure Sandra
won't mind dropping you off.
673
00:55:40.291 --> 00:55:41.625
No, it's fine, thank you.
674
00:55:42.375 --> 00:55:43.916
Oh, damn, I must go.
675
00:55:44.000 --> 00:55:46.458
Not that Henk minds if I'm late but still.
676
00:55:47.875 --> 00:55:49.000
-See you tonight.
-Yes.
677
00:55:49.083 --> 00:55:50.125
-Bye.
-Bye.
678
00:55:50.708 --> 00:55:51.958
Bye, Matewis.
679
00:55:54.208 --> 00:55:55.541
Matewis.
680
00:57:47.666 --> 00:57:49.291
Welcome to voicemail.
681
00:57:49.375 --> 00:57:52.958
You have one new message.
682
00:57:53.041 --> 00:57:54.875
Hi Marie.
683
00:57:54.958 --> 00:57:57.791
I'm just making sure
you're still coming in today.
684
00:57:58.708 --> 00:58:01.166
I'm waiting with bated breath.
685
00:58:01.250 --> 00:58:02.750
I'll see you shortly.
686
00:58:04.125 --> 00:58:05.916
To repeat this message, press one.
687
00:58:08.166 --> 00:58:10.875
Blow wind
688
00:58:10.958 --> 00:58:12.291
Nice.
689
00:58:13.000 --> 00:58:15.791
Bring him back to me
690
00:58:18.041 --> 00:58:21.375
Blow wind
691
00:58:22.958 --> 00:58:26.208
Bring him back to me
692
00:58:35.791 --> 00:58:37.375
That was…
693
00:58:37.458 --> 00:58:38.750
beautiful.
694
00:58:39.750 --> 00:58:41.791
I couldn't have done it better myself.
695
00:58:41.875 --> 00:58:43.041
Fantastic.
696
00:58:43.125 --> 00:58:45.500
You see, coming from a real musician.
697
00:58:46.250 --> 00:58:50.125
Okay. Let's show him what
we've practised for the festival.
698
00:58:51.416 --> 00:58:53.666
-Be good. See you.
-Bye.
699
00:58:54.291 --> 00:58:56.250
There you go. Bye.
700
00:59:00.166 --> 00:59:01.166
Bye.
701
00:59:03.666 --> 00:59:05.916
You've always had such beautiful hands.
702
00:59:07.500 --> 00:59:08.791
So, um…
703
00:59:09.458 --> 00:59:11.375
What are you still
planning for the festival?
704
00:59:11.458 --> 00:59:13.208
Oh, still a few songs.
705
00:59:13.291 --> 00:59:14.625
We must open with the National Anthem.
706
00:59:14.708 --> 00:59:16.125
After that,
I thought we could do "Sun Catcher".
707
00:59:16.208 --> 00:59:19.291
And then we must decide which
other songs we are going to do.
708
00:59:20.291 --> 00:59:23.416
I was wondering if Venter
doesn't want to sing something.
709
00:59:23.500 --> 00:59:24.833
If it's okay with you?
710
00:59:24.916 --> 00:59:26.083
Yes, of course.
711
00:59:26.666 --> 00:59:28.458
Yes, I think he, he needs it.
712
00:59:28.541 --> 00:59:30.041
You know, if my dad…
713
00:59:30.666 --> 00:59:31.833
Excuse me.
714
00:59:32.541 --> 00:59:33.916
Venter, can I have a quick word with you?
715
00:59:34.000 --> 00:59:35.125
Hey, P…P…P…Piggy!
716
00:59:43.375 --> 00:59:44.500
Venter, at the festival,
717
00:59:44.583 --> 00:59:49.958
I thought it would be a great
opportunity for you to show your talent.
718
00:59:50.625 --> 00:59:52.500
Miss Naude said you can take part.
719
00:59:52.583 --> 00:59:57.416
My d… dad said I'm not
supposed to speak to you.
720
00:59:57.500 --> 00:59:59.750
Venter, your voice, it's…
721
01:00:01.291 --> 01:00:03.250
It's really something special.
722
01:00:04.625 --> 01:00:05.875
I, I…
723
01:00:05.958 --> 01:00:08.125
I must g… go.
724
01:00:08.708 --> 01:00:09.708
Leave me alone.
725
01:00:09.791 --> 01:00:11.458
You have a talent, Venter.
726
01:00:13.583 --> 01:00:15.583
And it would be a shame
if you allow your dad to…
727
01:00:15.666 --> 01:00:17.875
And what about you? Huh?
728
01:00:17.958 --> 01:00:20.416
You say I mustn't waste my talent.
729
01:00:20.500 --> 01:00:21.875
But what about yours?
730
01:00:22.500 --> 01:00:24.208
My dad says you only came back
731
01:00:24.291 --> 01:00:27.291
because you made an
ass of yourself in Pretoria.
732
01:00:33.958 --> 01:00:35.791
-I'm sorry.
-Your dad is right.
733
01:00:37.000 --> 01:00:38.625
I did make an idiot of myself.
734
01:00:39.750 --> 01:00:41.791
But it's no excuse for what he's doing.
735
01:00:43.333 --> 01:00:46.250
You deserve better, Venter.
736
01:00:46.333 --> 01:00:47.916
You must believe it.
737
01:00:49.041 --> 01:00:50.041
I…
738
01:00:50.958 --> 01:00:52.125
I must go.
739
01:00:54.541 --> 01:00:55.541
Venter.
740
01:01:32.875 --> 01:01:34.791
Sorry, where did you say Matewis is?
741
01:01:34.875 --> 01:01:36.875
A meeting with our accountant.
742
01:01:36.958 --> 01:01:38.333
He didn't tell me why.
743
01:01:41.458 --> 01:01:44.250
So, how's it going at the school?
744
01:01:44.333 --> 01:01:47.208
I'm sure the children love it.
745
01:01:47.291 --> 01:01:51.541
And Sandra probably
hasn't felt this good in a while.
746
01:01:53.416 --> 01:01:54.750
It went well.
747
01:01:54.833 --> 01:01:56.458
Stressful, but good.
748
01:01:58.083 --> 01:01:59.500
I…
749
01:02:00.125 --> 01:02:01.791
spoke to Venter, but he…
750
01:02:02.791 --> 01:02:05.041
Well his, his dad is…
751
01:02:12.208 --> 01:02:16.458
Remember the time when you
entered the school's talent festival?
752
01:02:17.458 --> 01:02:21.791
You knew you'd win but you only
wanted to see how upset Dad would be.
753
01:02:22.625 --> 01:02:23.666
Yes.
754
01:02:25.916 --> 01:02:29.666
It's not easy for everybody
to leave the known behind.
755
01:02:30.250 --> 01:02:32.166
Especially not the people around here.
756
01:02:33.000 --> 01:02:34.250
But you're different.
757
01:02:36.375 --> 01:02:39.041
You'll never be someone who fits in a box.
758
01:02:44.208 --> 01:02:45.291
And
759
01:02:45.375 --> 01:02:48.083
as much as I enjoy having you here.
760
01:02:49.625 --> 01:02:51.625
It breaks my heart to see you like this.
761
01:02:58.875 --> 01:03:00.625
I saw your lyrics.
762
01:03:01.708 --> 01:03:04.750
Not on purpose. It fell.
763
01:03:08.083 --> 01:03:09.791
You wrote her a song.
764
01:03:12.500 --> 01:03:14.791
I was busy writing it but I…
765
01:03:16.041 --> 01:03:17.250
I couldn't finish it.
766
01:03:19.750 --> 01:03:20.833
I…
767
01:03:21.416 --> 01:03:22.625
I never knew why.
768
01:03:23.250 --> 01:03:24.583
But…
769
01:03:24.666 --> 01:03:25.958
today when…
770
01:03:27.416 --> 01:03:29.041
when I saw the children sing.
771
01:03:30.041 --> 01:03:32.583
The innocent joy on their faces.
772
01:03:33.625 --> 01:03:34.958
There was no guard.
773
01:03:35.750 --> 01:03:38.375
They didn't pretend to be something else.
774
01:03:40.666 --> 01:03:41.791
Then I realised…
775
01:03:46.041 --> 01:03:47.791
what a liar I am.
776
01:03:51.416 --> 01:03:52.625
I loved Karien.
777
01:03:55.458 --> 01:03:57.208
She made me feel it was…
778
01:03:58.500 --> 01:04:02.791
worthwhile leaving everything behind,
my friends and my family.
779
01:04:05.583 --> 01:04:07.166
But there was always something.
780
01:04:09.291 --> 01:04:11.500
Something that stopped
me from telling her.
781
01:04:13.291 --> 01:04:15.666
As if it would make me weak…
782
01:04:17.041 --> 01:04:19.541
or give her too much power over me.
783
01:04:23.208 --> 01:04:25.625
And I slowly began pushing her away.
784
01:04:27.541 --> 01:04:29.166
I focused all my
785
01:04:29.250 --> 01:04:32.166
energy on my music and…
786
01:04:33.875 --> 01:04:35.916
to prove Dad wrong.
787
01:04:42.125 --> 01:04:44.541
I never told her how much I loved her.
788
01:05:04.750 --> 01:05:07.208
She never got the
opportunity to give this to me.
789
01:05:10.291 --> 01:05:13.791
She got so tired of waiting for me that…
790
01:05:16.875 --> 01:05:18.666
that she wanted to do it herself.
791
01:05:23.333 --> 01:05:24.333
Louw…
792
01:05:25.333 --> 01:05:27.833
You must stop blaming yourself.
793
01:05:29.416 --> 01:05:31.708
She knew that you loved her.
794
01:05:34.125 --> 01:05:35.833
Not the way I wanted her to know.
795
01:05:37.708 --> 01:05:39.750
And do you know how it feels to…
796
01:05:41.833 --> 01:05:45.583
always think that people must
lower their expectations to be with you.
797
01:05:48.416 --> 01:05:50.291
Every day of my life.
798
01:05:58.333 --> 01:06:01.375
Matewis always wanted a big family.
799
01:06:01.458 --> 01:06:02.500
Me too.
800
01:06:04.208 --> 01:06:06.750
But when we found out that
I couldn't have children…
801
01:06:09.250 --> 01:06:11.666
I could see how disappointed he was.
802
01:06:13.041 --> 01:06:14.958
He said he feels sorry for me but…
803
01:06:17.250 --> 01:06:19.458
I know he wishes I was somebody else.
804
01:06:24.416 --> 01:06:28.625
I think he even blames me
for the farm's barren land.
805
01:06:28.708 --> 01:06:30.125
The drought.
806
01:06:32.291 --> 01:06:34.375
As if I contaminated the entire farm.
807
01:06:36.791 --> 01:06:38.541
I am so sorry, Marie.
808
01:06:39.750 --> 01:06:41.541
I can see it on his face.
809
01:06:43.750 --> 01:06:45.083
How he thinks…
810
01:06:45.166 --> 01:06:47.166
about what his life could have been.
811
01:06:49.666 --> 01:06:51.750
It's easy to think about…
812
01:06:52.791 --> 01:06:56.250
what could have happened if
you made other choices in your life.
813
01:07:03.375 --> 01:07:05.583
I see what you're like
when you're with Henk.
814
01:07:08.583 --> 01:07:10.791
No, no it's beautiful. You…
815
01:07:12.833 --> 01:07:14.333
You even look different.
816
01:07:15.958 --> 01:07:17.625
Like the sister I knew.
817
01:07:19.500 --> 01:07:20.500
Happy.
818
01:07:23.125 --> 01:07:24.416
Do you think um…
819
01:07:25.583 --> 01:07:27.625
Do you think Matewis suspects anything?
820
01:07:28.291 --> 01:07:29.666
I don't think so.
821
01:07:30.666 --> 01:07:32.375
Henk said…
822
01:07:34.000 --> 01:07:35.875
It's probably nothing.
823
01:07:36.625 --> 01:07:39.791
But I forgot my phone here
today and Henk left a message
824
01:07:39.875 --> 01:07:41.583
and I didn't get it.
825
01:07:42.083 --> 01:07:45.666
-But you don't think he, he would…
-No.
826
01:07:46.916 --> 01:07:50.541
No, in any case, Henk
only asked where I was and,
827
01:07:50.625 --> 01:07:52.791
and there's nothing to tell, it's…
828
01:07:53.416 --> 01:07:56.625
We didn't do anything. It's just innocent.
829
01:07:59.666 --> 01:08:01.708
It's just nice to feel like…
830
01:08:03.458 --> 01:08:06.041
somebody is treating
me like something new.
831
01:08:09.625 --> 01:08:13.166
I think Matewis thinks I am
a broken piece of equipment.
832
01:08:16.375 --> 01:08:20.208
Probably means I belong with the
rest of the broken things on this farm.
833
01:08:27.000 --> 01:08:28.625
Can we have a word, please?
834
01:08:35.791 --> 01:08:37.708
I better go and check if he is okay.
835
01:08:38.541 --> 01:08:39.583
It's okay.
836
01:09:18.833 --> 01:09:25.166
I haven't h… heard this s… song before.
837
01:09:25.875 --> 01:09:27.541
I'm still trying to finish it.
838
01:09:27.625 --> 01:09:29.250
It's still very rough.
839
01:09:31.083 --> 01:09:32.791
I didn't think I'd see you again.
840
01:09:35.291 --> 01:09:41.083
I… wanted to c… come
and a… apologise, Sir.
841
01:09:41.166 --> 01:09:43.125
You've got nothing to apologise for.
842
01:09:43.708 --> 01:09:45.750
You sounded like the voice in my head.
843
01:09:46.833 --> 01:09:48.916
And it's good that you spoke for yourself.
844
01:09:58.958 --> 01:10:02.750
I… I don't care.
845
01:10:02.833 --> 01:10:04.250
I was wrong.
846
01:10:09.083 --> 01:10:11.750
I wish I was a better man
847
01:10:13.125 --> 01:10:15.333
One that you deserved
848
01:10:16.916 --> 01:10:19.000
Now I'm standing in shame
849
01:10:19.083 --> 01:10:21.291
This is my burden
850
01:10:30.875 --> 01:10:32.500
Do you want to sing it with me?
851
01:10:32.583 --> 01:10:34.958
I… can't.
852
01:10:37.666 --> 01:10:40.625
I wish I was a better man
853
01:10:40.708 --> 01:10:43.000
One that you deserved
854
01:10:43.875 --> 01:10:46.125
So I'm standing in shame
855
01:10:46.208 --> 01:10:48.500
This is my burden
856
01:10:50.250 --> 01:10:53.208
I wish I was a better man
857
01:10:54.416 --> 01:10:57.333
One that you deserved
858
01:10:57.416 --> 01:11:02.458
I keep stumbling again and again
859
01:11:03.541 --> 01:11:07.375
With prayers at night
860
01:11:08.875 --> 01:11:12.958
I wish I was a better man
861
01:11:13.041 --> 01:11:16.125
One that you deserved
862
01:11:17.166 --> 01:11:19.708
So I'm standing in shame
863
01:11:19.791 --> 01:11:22.250
This is my burden
864
01:11:22.333 --> 01:11:25.708
I wish I was a better man
865
01:11:25.791 --> 01:11:28.791
Like you deserved
866
01:11:28.875 --> 01:11:33.583
I'm stumbling again and again.
867
01:12:28.750 --> 01:12:30.666
There you go. Here.
868
01:12:31.416 --> 01:12:33.208
-If you want to practise.
-Thank you.
869
01:12:43.041 --> 01:12:45.416
Don't worry, I'll explain.
870
01:12:48.583 --> 01:12:49.666
It's okay.
871
01:12:51.958 --> 01:12:54.125
-Venter, get in the car.
-Wim, relax, please.
872
01:12:54.208 --> 01:12:57.416
This is what you enjoy.
To be alone with young boys.
873
01:12:57.500 --> 01:12:58.833
Dad!
874
01:12:58.916 --> 01:13:01.666
You're such a wuss.
No wonder you admire him.
875
01:13:01.750 --> 01:13:04.541
Wim please, we were just writing music.
876
01:13:04.625 --> 01:13:05.958
Is this what you want?
877
01:13:06.041 --> 01:13:08.166
To come from a family
that everybody laughs at.
878
01:13:08.250 --> 01:13:10.375
-On a farm where nothing grows?
-Yes.
879
01:13:11.250 --> 01:13:12.666
My family is not perfect.
880
01:13:13.500 --> 01:13:14.833
And we don't pretend to be.
881
01:13:14.916 --> 01:13:17.125
That's all I've seen since I've been here.
882
01:13:17.208 --> 01:13:19.458
People who run away from the truth.
883
01:13:19.541 --> 01:13:22.333
You should've heard how
your father spoke about you.
884
01:13:22.416 --> 01:13:23.833
How ashamed he was of you.
885
01:13:23.916 --> 01:13:25.000
And me of him.
886
01:13:25.083 --> 01:13:27.083
I didn't even want his name.
887
01:13:27.166 --> 01:13:29.666
Well fortunately for him
he had two children like you.
888
01:13:29.750 --> 01:13:31.708
Because between you
and your infertile sister
889
01:13:31.791 --> 01:13:33.416
there'll be nothing left of his name.
890
01:13:34.666 --> 01:13:35.666
No!
891
01:13:41.833 --> 01:13:43.458
-Louw!
-Don't touch him!
892
01:13:43.541 --> 01:13:44.541
Venter!
893
01:13:48.833 --> 01:13:50.125
No. No!
894
01:13:54.625 --> 01:13:56.916
Venter, get in the car!
895
01:15:50.666 --> 01:15:52.916
I'm sorry I wasn't here when…
896
01:15:58.333 --> 01:16:02.583
I… don't think you wanted
me here in any way.
897
01:16:03.333 --> 01:16:05.500
It probably worked
out best for both of us.
898
01:16:12.208 --> 01:16:13.916
You've always been with me.
899
01:16:15.500 --> 01:16:17.041
In the back of my mind.
900
01:16:19.375 --> 01:16:21.750
Busy telling me that
I'm not going to make it.
901
01:16:25.500 --> 01:16:28.916
The… anger that it provoked in me.
902
01:16:30.083 --> 01:16:31.333
I used it…
903
01:16:32.833 --> 01:16:34.458
to drive myself.
904
01:16:35.791 --> 01:16:39.166
So that I could come back one day
and show you what I have achieved.
905
01:16:44.125 --> 01:16:45.333
And now…
906
01:16:48.250 --> 01:16:51.333
Now I am exactly what you said I'd be.
907
01:16:54.750 --> 01:16:55.916
A failure.
908
01:16:59.583 --> 01:17:01.666
Not worthy of the Malan name.
909
01:17:03.666 --> 01:17:04.791
My mother's son.
910
01:17:06.541 --> 01:17:07.625
Not yours.
911
01:17:10.875 --> 01:17:12.458
Marie is struggling, Dad.
912
01:17:13.583 --> 01:17:15.416
She hides it well but I can see it.
913
01:17:19.875 --> 01:17:21.875
I always thought she was the strong one.
914
01:17:24.750 --> 01:17:25.791
Like you.
915
01:17:28.375 --> 01:17:30.666
She was the only one who
could stand up to you.
916
01:17:33.541 --> 01:17:36.791
She showed me the CDs she got for you.
917
01:17:40.000 --> 01:17:43.333
Hell, Dad, why couldn't you
just once say something positive?
918
01:17:45.166 --> 01:17:46.250
Just once.
919
01:17:47.833 --> 01:17:52.458
Mom did it so many, so many times
that it started feeling normal.
920
01:17:53.958 --> 01:17:56.416
But if something like that
could've come from you.
921
01:17:58.541 --> 01:18:00.625
Do you know what it would've meant to me?
922
01:18:05.583 --> 01:18:07.166
I wish you could have met Karien.
923
01:18:10.916 --> 01:18:12.208
Maybe then…
924
01:18:13.458 --> 01:18:15.541
you would've understood what I was doing.
925
01:18:18.166 --> 01:18:20.333
That I made the right choice back then.
926
01:18:23.458 --> 01:18:25.375
She always said what she was thinking.
927
01:18:26.000 --> 01:18:27.208
Not like us.
928
01:18:30.708 --> 01:18:31.916
Maybe then I would've
929
01:18:32.000 --> 01:18:34.375
been able to tell you everything
while you could still hear me.
930
01:18:36.250 --> 01:18:38.708
Before you became just
another voice in the wind.
931
01:18:43.333 --> 01:18:45.166
But I think it's time I realise that…
932
01:18:46.416 --> 01:18:49.583
me being here is not good for anybody.
933
01:18:50.500 --> 01:18:52.083
It only serves as a…
934
01:18:53.416 --> 01:18:55.416
memory that you cannot
run away from yourself,
935
01:18:55.500 --> 01:18:57.416
no matter how hard you try.
936
01:19:00.416 --> 01:19:01.416
But um…
937
01:19:03.083 --> 01:19:04.750
There's this boy.
938
01:19:07.166 --> 01:19:08.708
He reminds me a lot of myself.
939
01:19:11.666 --> 01:19:13.250
I want to tell him to run.
940
01:19:15.083 --> 01:19:16.958
To run and never turn back.
941
01:19:20.458 --> 01:19:21.833
What example am I for him?
942
01:19:23.291 --> 01:19:24.375
And his dad is…
943
01:19:27.583 --> 01:19:30.958
Let's just say, it makes me
think you were never that bad.
944
01:19:37.208 --> 01:19:39.083
Things could've been worse.
945
01:20:10.291 --> 01:20:11.458
Marie.
946
01:20:13.166 --> 01:20:14.208
Hey.
947
01:20:14.833 --> 01:20:16.083
It's Matewis.
948
01:20:17.291 --> 01:20:18.333
Hey.
949
01:20:18.875 --> 01:20:20.166
It's okay.
950
01:20:20.958 --> 01:20:22.291
What happened?
951
01:20:23.625 --> 01:20:24.875
You're bleeding…
952
01:20:24.958 --> 01:20:26.750
Let it go. It doesn't matter.
What happened?
953
01:20:27.916 --> 01:20:29.583
It's all my fault.
954
01:20:32.375 --> 01:20:33.375
Hey.
955
01:20:35.500 --> 01:20:36.625
Hey.
956
01:20:38.166 --> 01:20:39.250
Hey.
957
01:20:54.750 --> 01:20:57.125
I'm going to tell Matewis about Henk.
958
01:21:00.166 --> 01:21:02.291
I'm sure he already knows but…
959
01:21:03.500 --> 01:21:05.625
I just feel everything must just come out.
960
01:21:08.625 --> 01:21:10.500
I don't want any more secrets.
961
01:21:20.375 --> 01:21:22.125
It was just nice to…
962
01:21:23.666 --> 01:21:25.416
to feel loved again.
963
01:21:28.583 --> 01:21:30.666
That's something one
should never turn away.
964
01:21:40.458 --> 01:21:42.291
I'm going to try and get some sleep.
965
01:21:51.458 --> 01:21:53.250
I can't believe he hit you.
966
01:21:54.250 --> 01:21:57.750
-And now, this thing with Matewis.
-Yes.
967
01:21:57.833 --> 01:21:59.958
Marie is going to visit
him again tomorrow.
968
01:22:00.041 --> 01:22:01.666
See if he can come home.
969
01:22:06.291 --> 01:22:08.166
Is there anything else I can get you?
970
01:22:11.458 --> 01:22:13.208
Tell me about your trip.
971
01:22:14.916 --> 01:22:16.416
Where did you want to go to?
972
01:22:20.291 --> 01:22:26.083
Well, a few years ago I
saw a photo of a temple.
973
01:22:27.250 --> 01:22:29.041
The Tiger's Nest in Bhutan.
974
01:22:30.333 --> 01:22:32.166
It's built on the edge of a mountain.
975
01:22:33.041 --> 01:22:34.875
Almost as if it was there first and
976
01:22:34.958 --> 01:22:37.125
the mountain appeared around it later.
977
01:22:39.791 --> 01:22:40.958
Come sit here.
978
01:22:56.500 --> 01:22:57.875
Anyway, um…
979
01:22:58.541 --> 01:22:59.666
so…
980
01:23:00.333 --> 01:23:02.750
I remember just staring at the photo and
981
01:23:02.833 --> 01:23:06.375
I wondered how it must feel
to stand in such a holy place
982
01:23:06.458 --> 01:23:07.666
and peek over the edge.
983
01:23:09.333 --> 01:23:12.416
You know, just to feel the
foundation that you are standing on
984
01:23:13.166 --> 01:23:15.208
which has been there for centuries and
985
01:23:15.291 --> 01:23:17.500
it could slip away at any time.
986
01:23:35.083 --> 01:23:36.375
I suspected something.
987
01:23:41.125 --> 01:23:42.791
When I heard his voice message…
988
01:23:47.583 --> 01:23:49.125
it clarified everything.
989
01:23:53.458 --> 01:23:55.041
I wanted to confront him.
990
01:23:58.916 --> 01:24:00.666
I even thought of…
991
01:24:08.541 --> 01:24:10.291
But then I remembered your face.
992
01:24:12.708 --> 01:24:14.958
Joyful. Happy.
993
01:24:17.416 --> 01:24:19.500
Something you're not when you're with me.
994
01:24:20.500 --> 01:24:23.458
I've never really felt
that I make you happy.
995
01:24:27.208 --> 01:24:30.625
And I think your dad
also didn't think I could.
996
01:24:32.791 --> 01:24:34.625
That's how I always feel around you.
997
01:24:35.583 --> 01:24:38.250
As if you blame me because I can't…
998
01:24:38.333 --> 01:24:41.208
You're everything in my life.
999
01:24:45.750 --> 01:24:48.125
And just the idea of losing you.
1000
01:24:55.416 --> 01:24:56.458
Can I come in?
1001
01:25:02.375 --> 01:25:04.791
-Hi.
-Hi.
1002
01:25:09.958 --> 01:25:11.208
How did you handle it…
1003
01:25:13.291 --> 01:25:14.416
when you lost Karien?
1004
01:25:27.958 --> 01:25:32.083
First, I decided that my
life had ended right there.
1005
01:25:35.583 --> 01:25:36.750
That I also died.
1006
01:25:38.583 --> 01:25:42.416
I didn't go to Heaven or,
or Hell, I was just there.
1007
01:25:43.666 --> 01:25:46.291
As if something from outside
was controlling my body.
1008
01:25:48.833 --> 01:25:49.833
And…
1009
01:25:52.541 --> 01:25:54.833
it took me a long time…
1010
01:25:55.958 --> 01:25:57.250
to…
1011
01:25:59.041 --> 01:26:01.916
remember what it felt like to be happy.
1012
01:26:04.208 --> 01:26:05.250
And…
1013
01:26:05.833 --> 01:26:08.916
when I sit amongst all
the rubble on the farm…
1014
01:26:11.583 --> 01:26:13.708
and I look at all the broken and
1015
01:26:13.791 --> 01:26:16.166
rusted things that
people have thrown away.
1016
01:26:18.541 --> 01:26:21.541
Then I realised that everything,
once upon a time, was loved.
1017
01:26:23.375 --> 01:26:25.666
Or at least useful.
1018
01:26:27.958 --> 01:26:30.166
And I could see myself there.
1019
01:26:31.958 --> 01:26:33.208
And it made me think…
1020
01:26:35.166 --> 01:26:36.333
why I'm still here.
1021
01:26:36.416 --> 01:26:38.666
If I can't make people laugh or…
1022
01:26:39.791 --> 01:26:40.958
cry or
1023
01:26:41.625 --> 01:26:42.666
even feel?
1024
01:26:45.500 --> 01:26:46.541
Matewis…
1025
01:26:48.416 --> 01:26:50.000
there is only the present.
1026
01:26:53.375 --> 01:26:54.875
There's only the pain and…
1027
01:26:56.208 --> 01:26:59.750
the joy and the sorrow of the
past that must be left behind.
1028
01:27:01.291 --> 01:27:04.750
What we do now means something.
1029
01:27:07.458 --> 01:27:09.416
This is how we change our world.
1030
01:27:11.416 --> 01:27:13.250
I want to make your sister happy.
1031
01:27:17.291 --> 01:27:19.750
I know I'm the reason you are so unhappy.
1032
01:27:29.791 --> 01:27:31.958
I think it's time to sell the farm.
1033
01:27:36.250 --> 01:27:38.125
It's not making any of us happy.
1034
01:27:39.708 --> 01:27:41.083
It's the best thing to do.
1035
01:28:04.583 --> 01:28:10.625
Long afloat on shipless oceans
1036
01:28:11.833 --> 01:28:17.458
Gave everything just to smile
1037
01:28:19.291 --> 01:28:24.541
Until your seeing eyes and fingers
1038
01:28:26.541 --> 01:28:31.333
Drew me to your island
1039
01:28:31.416 --> 01:28:32.458
Stop. Stop. Stop.
1040
01:28:34.041 --> 01:28:36.000
And you sang
1041
01:28:36.083 --> 01:28:37.291
It's perfect.
1042
01:28:37.375 --> 01:28:39.416
Sail to me
1043
01:28:41.041 --> 01:28:46.750
Sail to me, let my arms enfold you
1044
01:28:48.625 --> 01:28:50.000
Here I am
1045
01:28:52.333 --> 01:28:53.708
Here I am
1046
01:28:56.166 --> 01:28:59.250
I'm waiting to hold you
1047
01:29:02.500 --> 01:29:08.708
I'm so confused like the newly born child
1048
01:29:10.333 --> 01:29:15.583
So plagued like the tide
1049
01:29:17.500 --> 01:29:22.958
Must I stand in the middle of the waves
1050
01:29:24.208 --> 01:29:29.708
Or will I go and lie next to the dead
My bride
1051
01:29:31.333 --> 01:29:35.958
I'm waiting to hold you
1052
01:29:39.875 --> 01:29:41.750
Sail to me
1053
01:29:47.291 --> 01:29:48.791
Sail to me
1054
01:29:50.041 --> 01:29:54.833
I'm waiting to hold you
1055
01:30:34.458 --> 01:30:36.458
Look, I think we'll take
Witteberg this year.
1056
01:30:36.541 --> 01:30:38.041
-Absolutely.
-For sure.
1057
01:30:38.125 --> 01:30:39.166
Good afternoon gents.
1058
01:30:39.250 --> 01:30:41.000
-Good afternoon.
-How are you doing?
1059
01:30:41.083 --> 01:30:43.791
-Good.
-Ah, that's good.
1060
01:30:43.875 --> 01:30:45.541
We have a good team this year.
1061
01:30:45.625 --> 01:30:47.333
Yes, yes, yes.
1062
01:30:47.416 --> 01:30:49.000
Pity that Venter couldn't play.
1063
01:30:49.083 --> 01:30:50.041
Yes.
1064
01:30:50.125 --> 01:30:51.541
Freak accident, you say?
1065
01:30:51.625 --> 01:30:54.833
Yes. The child has a
habit of hurting himself.
1066
01:31:01.916 --> 01:31:02.916
Mr. Cloete.
1067
01:31:05.041 --> 01:31:06.458
Venter is a good boy.
1068
01:31:06.541 --> 01:31:08.875
He just needs the right
kind of encouragement.
1069
01:31:09.833 --> 01:31:12.041
You'll see. He's stronger than he looks.
1070
01:31:13.000 --> 01:31:14.000
Well…
1071
01:31:14.583 --> 01:31:16.833
I'll see you guys at the concert, right?
1072
01:31:16.916 --> 01:31:18.166
-Yeah.
-Yes, yes.
1073
01:31:20.041 --> 01:31:21.916
Listen can you tell me
why he is our coach.
1074
01:31:22.000 --> 01:31:23.625
Because he looks much more eager
1075
01:31:23.708 --> 01:31:25.958
to hear songs being
sung than to win the game.
1076
01:31:31.333 --> 01:31:33.041
-How you feeling?
-Okay.
1077
01:31:35.000 --> 01:31:36.125
I'm nervous.
1078
01:31:37.875 --> 01:31:39.250
It's going to be wonderful.
1079
01:31:40.791 --> 01:31:42.708
Have you seen Venter?
1080
01:31:42.791 --> 01:31:43.833
No.
1081
01:31:43.916 --> 01:31:45.500
Not since the whole…
1082
01:31:46.583 --> 01:31:47.666
Yeah.
1083
01:31:48.375 --> 01:31:49.833
I'm sure he is okay.
1084
01:32:02.416 --> 01:32:05.416
Just children of the wind
1085
01:32:18.666 --> 01:32:22.208
The next song is one that I wrote
1086
01:32:24.708 --> 01:32:27.375
as a tribute to somebody very special.
1087
01:32:34.250 --> 01:32:36.958
And I wish I could have
said it before it was too late.
1088
01:32:39.541 --> 01:32:45.125
So I hope it helps somebody here
to not make the same mistake.
1089
01:33:11.250 --> 01:33:13.083
The fucking man can't sing.
1090
01:33:16.041 --> 01:33:17.625
His being is crushed.
1091
01:33:21.875 --> 01:33:23.375
Watch him. He thinks he's big.
1092
01:33:32.166 --> 01:33:33.166
Listen.
1093
01:33:33.958 --> 01:33:36.500
Let's show them who's the better man.
1094
01:33:47.333 --> 01:33:49.750
This is my confession
1095
01:33:49.833 --> 01:33:52.833
My soul laid bare
1096
01:33:52.916 --> 01:33:55.958
A call to those who left me
1097
01:33:56.041 --> 01:33:59.083
Before I could say my say
1098
01:33:59.166 --> 01:34:02.041
I wish I was a better man
1099
01:34:02.125 --> 01:34:04.750
One that you deserved
1100
01:34:04.833 --> 01:34:07.708
So I'm standing in shame
1101
01:34:07.791 --> 01:34:09.791
This is my burden
1102
01:34:10.625 --> 01:34:13.333
I wish I was a better man
1103
01:34:13.416 --> 01:34:16.125
Which you deserved
1104
01:34:16.208 --> 01:34:20.791
I stumble again and again
1105
01:34:22.291 --> 01:34:26.541
With prayers in the wind
1106
01:34:27.500 --> 01:34:30.083
But my road is not finished yet
1107
01:34:30.166 --> 01:34:32.958
My time is not yet over
1108
01:34:33.041 --> 01:34:35.666
And before I go to the depths
1109
01:34:35.750 --> 01:34:38.583
There are still thoughts in my head
1110
01:34:38.666 --> 01:34:41.083
That I would meet you again
1111
01:34:41.166 --> 01:34:43.875
And my life has purpose
1112
01:34:43.958 --> 01:34:46.583
I promise you, my love
1113
01:34:46.666 --> 01:34:49.375
All of it that I still have
1114
01:34:49.458 --> 01:34:51.958
I wish I was a better man
1115
01:34:52.041 --> 01:34:55.166
One that you deserved
1116
01:34:55.250 --> 01:34:57.458
So I'm standing in shame
1117
01:34:57.541 --> 01:35:00.166
This is my burden
1118
01:35:00.250 --> 01:35:03.125
I wish I was a better man
1119
01:35:03.208 --> 01:35:05.458
Like you deserved
1120
01:35:05.541 --> 01:35:09.083
I stumble again and again
1121
01:35:10.291 --> 01:35:14.208
Prayers in the wind
1122
01:35:50.375 --> 01:35:52.375
-That was wonderful.
-Thank you.
1123
01:35:52.458 --> 01:35:55.208
-That song was wonderful.
-Thank you.
1124
01:35:57.541 --> 01:36:00.708
-Matewis.
-Congrats your show was unbelievable.
1125
01:36:00.791 --> 01:36:03.041
I didn't think that you
could sing like that.
1126
01:36:10.291 --> 01:36:11.791
So.
1127
01:36:11.875 --> 01:36:14.541
It looks like you two
were the heroes tonight.
1128
01:36:15.916 --> 01:36:16.958
W… w…w…w…
1129
01:36:18.000 --> 01:36:19.041
Wh… w…
1130
01:36:24.958 --> 01:36:30.083
When I stood on that stage
and saw you standing there alone,
1131
01:36:30.166 --> 01:36:34.708
angry at the whole world,
while everybody was so happy.
1132
01:36:35.625 --> 01:36:39.041
For the first time I realised
that I am better than you, Dad.
1133
01:36:39.875 --> 01:36:42.625
And I am also better off than you, Dad.
1134
01:36:44.708 --> 01:36:47.125
I just feel sorry for you, Dad.
1135
01:36:48.166 --> 01:36:51.333
That you lost so much in life.
1136
01:36:59.208 --> 01:37:00.791
Yes, drive safely.
1137
01:37:00.875 --> 01:37:02.041
Go well.
1138
01:37:05.083 --> 01:37:07.500
And, what did they say?
1139
01:37:07.583 --> 01:37:10.000
Well, they are not going
to bully me anymore.
1140
01:37:10.083 --> 01:37:11.250
Hopefully.
1141
01:37:12.166 --> 01:37:13.166
That's good.
1142
01:37:14.166 --> 01:37:15.208
So….
1143
01:37:15.958 --> 01:37:19.541
-I see you have a new guitar.
-Yes…
1144
01:37:19.625 --> 01:37:21.583
Not as nice as the other one.
1145
01:37:35.833 --> 01:37:38.000
-I'm on my way. See you tomorrow.
-Bye.
1146
01:37:38.083 --> 01:37:39.333
Have a good evening.
1147
01:37:41.708 --> 01:37:44.500
-What did he have to say?
-Oh, nothing.
1148
01:37:50.833 --> 01:37:51.875
Thank you.
1149
01:37:52.541 --> 01:37:53.583
For what?
1150
01:37:56.208 --> 01:37:58.250
That you…
1151
01:38:01.833 --> 01:38:04.583
helped me find what I thought…
1152
01:38:05.375 --> 01:38:06.958
was lost forever.
1153
01:38:09.458 --> 01:38:10.666
Of course.
1154
01:38:21.166 --> 01:38:22.083
Come.