WEBVTT FILE 1 00:00:01.489 --> 00:00:04.489 (soft somber music) 2 00:00:02.000 --> 00:00:07.000 Downloaded from YTS.MX 3 00:00:08.000 --> 00:00:13.000 Official YIFY movies site: YTS.MX 4 00:00:19.471 --> 00:00:22.221 (heart thumping) 5 00:01:27.874 --> 00:01:30.541 (clock ticking) 6 00:01:51.926 --> 00:01:53.415 (foreboding orchestral music) 7 00:01:53.415 --> 00:01:56.165 (Jimmy grunting) 8 00:01:59.916 --> 00:02:03.583 (Jimmy weeping and yelling) 9 00:02:23.697 --> 00:02:26.447 (fire crackling) 10 00:02:38.601 --> 00:02:41.459 - [Susan] (chuckles) You're gimpy. 11 00:02:41.459 --> 00:02:44.812 (playful organ music) 12 00:02:44.812 --> 00:02:47.729 Oh but dad's goin' all crazy on us. 13 00:03:14.735 --> 00:03:17.735 (cellphone ringing) 14 00:03:28.272 --> 00:03:31.272 (soft somber music) 15 00:04:15.812 --> 00:04:18.812 (soft serene music) 16 00:04:41.450 --> 00:04:43.223 - How'd you sleep last night, baby? 17 00:04:46.095 --> 00:04:46.928 - Fine. 18 00:04:53.060 --> 00:04:54.627 - Your mom called, 19 00:04:54.627 --> 00:04:56.190 so you won't have to worry 'bout catchin' the bus. 20 00:04:56.190 --> 00:04:58.808 She's gonna pick you up. 21 00:04:58.808 --> 00:04:59.641 - Okay. 22 00:05:01.770 --> 00:05:03.670 - I'm glad you came over this weekend. 23 00:05:10.360 --> 00:05:12.460 Hey, maybe next weekend we can go bowling. 24 00:05:15.100 --> 00:05:15.933 - Sure, dad. 25 00:05:17.903 --> 00:05:18.850 (car horn honking) 26 00:05:18.850 --> 00:05:20.073 I gotta go. - Hey. 27 00:05:21.290 --> 00:05:22.740 - I gotta go or I'll be late. 28 00:05:23.850 --> 00:05:25.203 See ya in two weeks. 29 00:05:27.450 --> 00:05:28.283 - Love you, too. 30 00:05:33.218 --> 00:05:36.551 (soft orchestral music) 31 00:06:03.301 --> 00:06:05.413 (cellphone ringing) 32 00:06:05.413 --> 00:06:06.853 - [Susan] What do you want me to do, Jimmy? 33 00:06:06.853 --> 00:06:09.250 - I want you to stop fillin' her head with that-- 34 00:06:09.250 --> 00:06:11.970 - Oh no, you are not gonna blame this on me. 35 00:06:11.970 --> 00:06:13.880 I can't fix your relationship with her. 36 00:06:13.880 --> 00:06:16.950 - There's nothin' wrong with our relationship, Susan. 37 00:06:16.950 --> 00:06:19.750 - Maybe if you spent more time with her when she's there 38 00:06:19.750 --> 00:06:21.810 and not hide in your office all day. 39 00:06:21.810 --> 00:06:24.460 - I didn't have to work so hard to pay the alimony, 40 00:06:24.460 --> 00:06:28.110 the child support and the car payment then maybe. 41 00:06:28.110 --> 00:06:30.800 - No, I'm not gonna let you turn this around on me; 42 00:06:30.800 --> 00:06:32.431 not this time. 43 00:06:32.431 --> 00:06:35.598 (cellphone dial tone) 44 00:06:38.375 --> 00:06:41.708 (soft orchestral music) 45 00:06:47.237 --> 00:06:49.987 (birds chirping) 46 00:07:11.119 --> 00:07:12.130 - Hey I know, Mark. 47 00:07:12.130 --> 00:07:15.300 Look they didn't get their shipment, okay? 48 00:07:15.300 --> 00:07:16.900 I told them to go ahead and call Ricky. 49 00:07:16.900 --> 00:07:17.823 Hang on a minute. 50 00:07:19.240 --> 00:07:21.283 Mark, I'm gonna have to call you back. It's my ex-wife. 51 00:07:23.430 --> 00:07:25.900 Look I've got nothin' else to say about this, Susan. 52 00:07:25.900 --> 00:07:27.590 I'm tired of listenin' to this stuff. 53 00:07:27.590 --> 00:07:29.660 - Did you see the news? - What? 54 00:07:29.660 --> 00:07:31.070 No, I just came home for lunch. 55 00:07:31.070 --> 00:07:34.200 - Turn on the news, Jim! - What? 56 00:07:34.200 --> 00:07:37.200 (soft somber music) 57 00:07:40.300 --> 00:07:42.330 - [Reporter] Police say that the two young men 58 00:07:42.330 --> 00:07:44.420 entered the school around nine o'clock. 59 00:07:44.420 --> 00:07:46.370 They opened to fire on the inside, 60 00:07:46.370 --> 00:07:49.100 shooting staffers of the school and students. 61 00:07:49.100 --> 00:07:50.160 - Brittany. - Then eventually 62 00:07:50.160 --> 00:07:51.548 committing suicide on the inside. 63 00:07:51.548 --> 00:07:52.381 - Oh god. 64 00:07:52.381 --> 00:07:53.214 - [Reporter] Authorities have been 65 00:07:53.214 --> 00:07:55.402 surrounding the area and trying to make sure. 66 00:07:55.402 --> 00:07:58.902 (somber orchestral music) 67 00:08:01.705 --> 00:08:02.538 - Hi, Jim. 68 00:08:03.887 --> 00:08:04.720 - Pastor. 69 00:08:06.883 --> 00:08:08.723 - We thought you might be hungry, honey. 70 00:08:10.117 --> 00:08:12.467 I can just put in the refrigerator; it'll keep. 71 00:08:13.669 --> 00:08:17.103 (birds chirping) 72 00:08:17.103 --> 00:08:19.730 - (sighs) How you holdin' up? 73 00:08:28.196 --> 00:08:30.260 It was beautiful service. 74 00:08:30.260 --> 00:08:31.160 Beautiful service. 75 00:08:38.440 --> 00:08:39.300 Look, Jim. 76 00:08:39.300 --> 00:08:41.020 - If you're gonna come over here 77 00:08:41.020 --> 00:08:43.870 and give me the whole Brittany's in a better place thing, 78 00:08:44.754 --> 00:08:45.837 just save it. 79 00:08:48.819 --> 00:08:51.520 - Jim, times like these, it's perfectly normal to-- 80 00:08:51.520 --> 00:08:53.213 - To what, to question? 81 00:08:56.810 --> 00:08:57.923 To ask why? 82 00:09:04.150 --> 00:09:06.393 Look I know why you're here, Calvin. 83 00:09:07.230 --> 00:09:08.773 I appreciate the food. 84 00:09:10.860 --> 00:09:13.180 There's nothin' that you can say, 85 00:09:13.180 --> 00:09:14.320 there's nothin' that you can do 86 00:09:14.320 --> 00:09:16.473 and there's nothing anybody can do. 87 00:09:21.320 --> 00:09:24.698 - Jim, I'm just tryin' to-- 88 00:09:24.698 --> 00:09:27.203 - You know every time somethin' like this happens, 89 00:09:30.940 --> 00:09:34.673 you all say it's all in God's plan. 90 00:09:41.431 --> 00:09:43.764 What about my plans, Calvin? 91 00:09:45.900 --> 00:09:48.250 What about Brittany's plans?! 92 00:09:48.250 --> 00:09:49.293 Don't they matter? 93 00:09:50.890 --> 00:09:54.293 Why is it just some plans of some ghost that matter? 94 00:09:56.030 --> 00:09:57.330 - Jim, I'm just-- - Look. 95 00:10:01.160 --> 00:10:02.803 I know what your job is, Calvin. 96 00:10:05.000 --> 00:10:06.430 You're to come over here and remind me 97 00:10:06.430 --> 00:10:10.600 that God is in control and we aren't in control. 98 00:10:10.600 --> 00:10:12.180 You're supposed to say the right things. 99 00:10:12.180 --> 00:10:14.080 You're supposed to do the right thing. 100 00:10:15.860 --> 00:10:16.693 - Jim. 101 00:10:16.693 --> 00:10:19.573 - Just save it, Pastor! 102 00:10:23.980 --> 00:10:26.160 Save it for someone who can use it. 103 00:10:32.270 --> 00:10:34.920 Save it for someone that might find some peace in it. 104 00:10:36.590 --> 00:10:39.340 (Jimmy sniffing) 105 00:10:44.040 --> 00:10:45.423 It was a beautiful service. 106 00:10:47.810 --> 00:10:48.643 Thank you. 107 00:10:52.280 --> 00:10:56.440 And I appreciate everything that you did for Susan and me. 108 00:10:57.990 --> 00:11:00.773 But honestly Pastor, you can just stop. 109 00:11:05.910 --> 00:11:07.803 Thank you for the food, Carol. 110 00:11:08.670 --> 00:11:10.343 - I think it's time we should go, Carol. 111 00:11:11.930 --> 00:11:14.710 - If there's anything, anything at all 112 00:11:14.710 --> 00:11:17.877 that we can do, would you let us know? 113 00:11:40.462 --> 00:11:43.962 (somber orchestral music) 114 00:12:28.773 --> 00:12:31.523 (Jimmy coughing) 115 00:13:11.550 --> 00:13:14.467 (soft piano music) 116 00:13:31.480 --> 00:13:32.630 - [Jimmy] For you, dad. 117 00:13:36.699 --> 00:13:38.480 (foreboding music) 118 00:13:38.480 --> 00:13:39.640 - [Dad] Why do you always have to light 119 00:13:39.640 --> 00:13:41.663 one of those stinkin' candles? 120 00:13:47.150 --> 00:13:47.983 - [Jimmy] Dad? 121 00:13:49.440 --> 00:13:53.840 - What is it inside of you that makes you have this need 122 00:13:53.840 --> 00:13:56.160 to light one of those scented candles 123 00:13:57.060 --> 00:13:58.923 every time you think about me? 124 00:14:00.760 --> 00:14:01.610 - [Jimmy] You're. 125 00:14:02.970 --> 00:14:03.803 - Dead? 126 00:14:04.770 --> 00:14:05.963 Yes I am, Jimmy. 127 00:14:08.150 --> 00:14:10.803 What's it been, 17 years now? 128 00:14:11.810 --> 00:14:12.983 Good to see you, boy. 129 00:14:21.010 --> 00:14:24.243 15 years of service and all you get's a flag. 130 00:14:25.460 --> 00:14:28.610 12 different posts, movin' you, 131 00:14:28.610 --> 00:14:31.650 your brother and your mom 12 times 132 00:14:33.214 --> 00:14:34.683 and all you get's a flag. 133 00:14:41.487 --> 00:14:43.904 It don't seem right, does it? 134 00:14:47.780 --> 00:14:49.233 - You never came home. 135 00:14:50.340 --> 00:14:51.783 - Oh yeah, sorry 'bout that. 136 00:14:55.030 --> 00:14:58.303 Jimmy, I can tell you're strugglin' with this. 137 00:14:59.830 --> 00:15:01.143 C'mon, sit down. 138 00:15:06.690 --> 00:15:07.523 - Dad, 139 00:15:10.890 --> 00:15:12.043 what are you doin' here? 140 00:15:13.140 --> 00:15:14.990 - Well Jimmy, I thought it was time 141 00:15:14.990 --> 00:15:18.133 that you and I had a little talk. 142 00:15:19.570 --> 00:15:20.533 - A little talk? 143 00:15:21.760 --> 00:15:23.390 - [Dad] Yeah. 144 00:15:23.390 --> 00:15:25.263 - You wanna talk? - Yeah. 145 00:15:26.350 --> 00:15:27.863 - Now you wanna talk. 146 00:15:28.720 --> 00:15:31.110 You never had time to talk before you-- 147 00:15:31.110 --> 00:15:31.943 - What? 148 00:15:33.480 --> 00:15:35.220 You can say it, Jimmy. 149 00:15:35.220 --> 00:15:36.600 I know where I am. 150 00:15:36.600 --> 00:15:37.793 Before I died? 151 00:15:40.210 --> 00:15:41.783 - You didn't just die, Dad. 152 00:15:43.670 --> 00:15:44.840 You. 153 00:15:44.840 --> 00:15:45.673 You. 154 00:15:47.120 --> 00:15:48.103 - Say it, Jimmy. 155 00:15:50.600 --> 00:15:54.422 - Why? - Because you need to say it. 156 00:15:54.422 --> 00:15:56.593 You need to say it and accept it. 157 00:15:58.300 --> 00:15:59.813 - I need to accept it? 158 00:16:00.960 --> 00:16:02.013 - Yes, you do. 159 00:16:04.350 --> 00:16:06.230 - You killed yourself, dad. 160 00:16:06.230 --> 00:16:07.980 - There it is. 161 00:16:07.980 --> 00:16:10.260 - You left us! - I know. 162 00:16:10.260 --> 00:16:11.880 - You never said goodbye. 163 00:16:11.880 --> 00:16:13.910 You never said anything. - You're right. 164 00:16:13.910 --> 00:16:15.893 - Stop agreein' with me! 165 00:16:18.760 --> 00:16:19.923 You were a coward. 166 00:16:21.490 --> 00:16:23.283 You took a coward's way out. 167 00:16:25.760 --> 00:16:27.940 - Is that what you really think? 168 00:16:27.940 --> 00:16:29.363 - Yeah, that's what I think. 169 00:16:31.370 --> 00:16:35.780 - So you actually believe it was easy 170 00:16:35.780 --> 00:16:37.393 for me to pull that trigger. 171 00:16:42.970 --> 00:16:44.900 - This, this. 172 00:16:44.900 --> 00:16:46.550 I ain't havin' this conversation. 173 00:16:48.662 --> 00:16:49.495 You're not real. 174 00:16:50.960 --> 00:16:52.053 - Look at me, Jimmy. 175 00:16:54.000 --> 00:16:55.313 Do I look real to you? 176 00:16:58.610 --> 00:17:02.373 - You are a figment of my imagination. 177 00:17:03.980 --> 00:17:06.223 You're a product of my grief, 178 00:17:08.203 --> 00:17:09.036 plus this. 179 00:17:10.240 --> 00:17:15.240 - Now that, that's somethin' I really miss. 180 00:17:17.790 --> 00:17:19.540 - I ain't havin' this conversation. 181 00:17:21.028 --> 00:17:22.273 You're just in my head. 182 00:17:23.410 --> 00:17:26.513 - You're right I am in your head. 183 00:17:27.820 --> 00:17:32.783 You see Jim, you and I we're really not so different. 184 00:17:33.790 --> 00:17:38.113 Your escape there, that's the same way I used to escape. 185 00:17:41.100 --> 00:17:41.933 Drinkin'. 186 00:17:43.210 --> 00:17:44.293 It's easy, isn't it? 187 00:17:45.510 --> 00:17:47.863 - What? - Your escape. 188 00:17:49.410 --> 00:17:52.630 The world just gets too tough. 189 00:17:52.630 --> 00:17:55.020 It gets too real. 190 00:17:55.020 --> 00:17:56.653 It gets too scary. 191 00:17:59.610 --> 00:18:03.703 But drinkin', that's an easy escape. 192 00:18:05.740 --> 00:18:06.693 - Scared? 193 00:18:07.550 --> 00:18:09.140 You? 194 00:18:09.140 --> 00:18:10.840 You were never scared of anything. 195 00:18:12.650 --> 00:18:13.483 - Oh, Jim. 196 00:18:14.440 --> 00:18:16.900 Son, I was scared of everything. 197 00:18:16.900 --> 00:18:19.093 Everything: the world, 198 00:18:20.040 --> 00:18:23.030 your mom, you and your brother. 199 00:18:23.030 --> 00:18:25.033 Well, I was terrified of my own self. 200 00:18:26.550 --> 00:18:29.490 - No no, that's a bunch of bull. 201 00:18:29.490 --> 00:18:31.083 You were a rock. 202 00:18:34.120 --> 00:18:37.083 - That's just what I let you guys believe, all of you. 203 00:18:39.680 --> 00:18:41.363 - Who says somethin' like that? 204 00:18:42.430 --> 00:18:44.793 How can you be scared of mom and us? 205 00:18:48.040 --> 00:18:50.120 - Your mom was a saint. 206 00:18:50.120 --> 00:18:53.180 She was perfect in every way. 207 00:18:53.180 --> 00:18:55.480 She loved everybody. 208 00:18:55.480 --> 00:18:59.620 She saw the best in everybody, even me. 209 00:18:59.620 --> 00:19:02.133 I didn't understand that, but she did. 210 00:19:03.490 --> 00:19:06.710 Now how am I supposed to live up to that? 211 00:19:06.710 --> 00:19:09.030 - She loved you, dad. 212 00:19:09.030 --> 00:19:12.180 - I know she did and I didn't know why. 213 00:19:12.180 --> 00:19:14.543 - No no, she loved you. 214 00:19:15.777 --> 00:19:16.610 I don't get it. 215 00:19:17.550 --> 00:19:22.440 You find someone like mom, someone that loves you. 216 00:19:22.440 --> 00:19:27.410 Someone that wanted to give you everything and you? 217 00:19:27.410 --> 00:19:29.180 - You can say it, Jim. 218 00:19:29.180 --> 00:19:30.013 I know. 219 00:19:31.200 --> 00:19:33.083 - You broke her heart, dad! 220 00:19:34.110 --> 00:19:34.943 - I know. 221 00:19:36.920 --> 00:19:37.753 - Why? 222 00:19:38.760 --> 00:19:40.520 Why'd you do it? 223 00:19:40.520 --> 00:19:41.670 Why'd you slap her around? 224 00:19:41.670 --> 00:19:43.603 Why'd you tear her down like that? 225 00:19:46.550 --> 00:19:48.300 - Because she was better than me 226 00:19:51.411 --> 00:19:52.561 and I hated her for it. 227 00:19:53.978 --> 00:19:56.380 But you know what's crazier than that? 228 00:19:56.380 --> 00:19:58.393 I hated myself for hatin' her. 229 00:19:59.890 --> 00:20:04.550 Jim, I was taught to always be the best, 230 00:20:04.550 --> 00:20:06.070 no matter what. 231 00:20:06.070 --> 00:20:10.080 At all cost, always be the best. 232 00:20:10.080 --> 00:20:11.410 The Army taught me that way. 233 00:20:11.410 --> 00:20:13.780 My dad taught me that way. 234 00:20:13.780 --> 00:20:16.490 I mean it didn't matter about anything else. 235 00:20:16.490 --> 00:20:18.850 Just whatever it was that I was doin', 236 00:20:18.850 --> 00:20:21.530 I had to always be the best. 237 00:20:21.530 --> 00:20:25.313 And when it came to your mother, I just could never do it. 238 00:20:26.330 --> 00:20:29.510 - Do what, live up to her expectations? 239 00:20:29.510 --> 00:20:32.253 - No Jim, live up to mine. 240 00:20:33.110 --> 00:20:36.060 Live up to my expectations. 241 00:20:36.060 --> 00:20:39.330 I could never be what or who she wanted me to be. 242 00:20:39.330 --> 00:20:43.700 - All she wanted from you is to love her and to love us. 243 00:20:43.700 --> 00:20:48.540 Just to be a good husband and a good father and you. 244 00:20:48.540 --> 00:20:50.200 - I couldn't do it. 245 00:20:50.200 --> 00:20:51.220 I couldn't do it, Jim. 246 00:20:51.220 --> 00:20:52.410 You're absolutely right. 247 00:20:52.410 --> 00:20:54.430 I couldn't do any of it. 248 00:20:54.430 --> 00:20:57.120 I couldn't be what she wanted me to be. 249 00:20:57.120 --> 00:21:00.380 I couldn't be what you guys needed me to be. 250 00:21:00.380 --> 00:21:01.780 I just didn't have it in me. 251 00:21:01.780 --> 00:21:03.090 I couldn't do any of it. 252 00:21:03.090 --> 00:21:04.660 You're absolutely right. 253 00:21:04.660 --> 00:21:05.707 It made me-- 254 00:21:07.680 --> 00:21:09.260 - What, 255 00:21:09.260 --> 00:21:10.203 sad? 256 00:21:11.290 --> 00:21:14.533 It made you feel sad, angry? 257 00:21:15.600 --> 00:21:17.000 - Weak. 258 00:21:17.000 --> 00:21:21.810 It made me feel weak and I hated feelin' weak. 259 00:21:21.810 --> 00:21:26.810 - So to be the big man, you had to knock us around? 260 00:21:27.227 --> 00:21:31.390 - [Dad] (chuckles softly) Oh, Jim. 261 00:21:31.390 --> 00:21:32.913 - Ya think this is funny? 262 00:21:36.020 --> 00:21:37.670 - What I think is funny, Jim, 263 00:21:37.670 --> 00:21:41.510 is that you think that we're so different. 264 00:21:41.510 --> 00:21:43.633 - I never laid a hand on anyone. 265 00:21:44.800 --> 00:21:46.223 - It doesn't matter, Jim. 266 00:21:47.120 --> 00:21:48.223 You're so stupid. 267 00:21:49.290 --> 00:21:54.290 You think just because you didn't hit Susan and Brittany 268 00:21:54.480 --> 00:21:58.300 that makes you a great dad and father. 269 00:21:58.300 --> 00:22:00.770 You think just because you didn't hit them 270 00:22:00.770 --> 00:22:02.520 that you weren't abusive. 271 00:22:02.520 --> 00:22:05.800 - I never abused them! - You ignored them. 272 00:22:06.970 --> 00:22:08.560 They weren't important enough to you, 273 00:22:08.560 --> 00:22:12.060 so you just didn't bother. - I love my daughter! 274 00:22:12.060 --> 00:22:15.040 - You love the idea of havin' a daughter. 275 00:22:15.040 --> 00:22:17.760 You love the idea of bein' a father and a husband. 276 00:22:17.760 --> 00:22:21.490 You love that, but you didn't want the responsibility 277 00:22:21.490 --> 00:22:22.740 that came with it. 278 00:22:22.740 --> 00:22:25.560 - You don't know what you're talkin' about! 279 00:22:25.560 --> 00:22:28.470 - I know exactly what I'm talkin' about, Jim. 280 00:22:28.470 --> 00:22:31.220 I know because I was the same way. 281 00:22:31.220 --> 00:22:35.320 I felt the same way; I did the same things. 282 00:22:35.320 --> 00:22:38.770 - If you hated us so much, then why'd you adopt us? 283 00:22:38.770 --> 00:22:40.397 Why did you even bother?! 284 00:22:47.950 --> 00:22:49.293 - Because of your mother. 285 00:22:50.550 --> 00:22:51.973 She wanted you guys. 286 00:22:55.010 --> 00:22:58.280 Your mother was best friends with your real mother 287 00:22:59.710 --> 00:23:02.960 and she was there by her side in the hospital 288 00:23:02.960 --> 00:23:06.683 after the accident and we agreed to take you guys. 289 00:23:08.690 --> 00:23:11.650 - So she knew our real mother? 290 00:23:11.650 --> 00:23:12.843 - We both did. 291 00:23:12.843 --> 00:23:15.480 Your real mother didn't have any family 292 00:23:15.480 --> 00:23:17.320 and she was scared to death that you boys 293 00:23:17.320 --> 00:23:19.253 would wind up in foster care; 294 00:23:20.330 --> 00:23:21.263 so we took you. 295 00:23:23.730 --> 00:23:25.630 - So you really didn't really want us? 296 00:23:26.760 --> 00:23:28.853 - Honestly, no. 297 00:23:30.790 --> 00:23:33.120 No, I didn't wanna be a dad. 298 00:23:33.120 --> 00:23:34.933 I didn't want the responsibility. 299 00:23:36.070 --> 00:23:37.763 I was just like you, Jim. 300 00:23:38.760 --> 00:23:40.540 You didn't want Brittany. 301 00:23:40.540 --> 00:23:42.920 You don't have to deny it now, Jim. 302 00:23:42.920 --> 00:23:44.603 You're just lyin' to yourself. 303 00:23:45.490 --> 00:23:48.860 - All I know is that I hated you while you were alive 304 00:23:48.860 --> 00:23:51.820 and I haven't given you a second thought since you died. 305 00:23:55.332 --> 00:23:56.393 - Then why am I here? 306 00:23:59.740 --> 00:24:00.833 - You're not here. 307 00:24:02.540 --> 00:24:03.723 You're here. 308 00:24:05.750 --> 00:24:07.653 - I've always been there, Jim. 309 00:24:08.550 --> 00:24:11.200 You can say all you want that you haven't given me 310 00:24:11.200 --> 00:24:13.260 a second thought since I died, 311 00:24:13.260 --> 00:24:15.260 but you're just lyin' to yourself again. 312 00:24:16.210 --> 00:24:18.193 I've been there the whole time. 313 00:24:19.230 --> 00:24:20.063 - But why? 314 00:24:24.420 --> 00:24:26.153 I knew you didn't care about us. 315 00:24:28.200 --> 00:24:31.740 I knew who and what you were. 316 00:24:31.740 --> 00:24:33.283 - Then why was I there, Jim? 317 00:24:35.420 --> 00:24:38.387 Because you've always known that we're not that different. 318 00:24:39.840 --> 00:24:42.850 - If we're the same, it's because you made me this way. 319 00:24:42.850 --> 00:24:46.593 - Maybe, but maybe that's just the way you're wired. 320 00:24:48.470 --> 00:24:49.820 - I want you outta my head. 321 00:24:51.160 --> 00:24:52.603 - I don't think you do, Jim. 322 00:24:53.600 --> 00:24:56.230 I think you've always needed me. 323 00:24:56.230 --> 00:24:59.350 See, as long as I'm up there in your head, 324 00:24:59.350 --> 00:25:00.773 you've got an excuse. 325 00:25:01.630 --> 00:25:05.540 Everything you are, everything you've done 326 00:25:05.540 --> 00:25:06.933 you can blame it on me. 327 00:25:08.230 --> 00:25:09.810 You can blame it on me 328 00:25:09.810 --> 00:25:12.520 and not take any responsibility for it. 329 00:25:12.520 --> 00:25:17.520 As long as I'm around, you can justify what you are. 330 00:25:17.700 --> 00:25:18.870 - That's not true. 331 00:25:18.870 --> 00:25:19.970 - It is true, Jim. 332 00:25:19.970 --> 00:25:24.190 For years you been usin' me to justify who you were. 333 00:25:24.190 --> 00:25:25.570 - Get outta here! 334 00:25:25.570 --> 00:25:26.867 - It's not that easy, Jim. 335 00:25:26.867 --> 00:25:29.130 - I want you outta my head. 336 00:25:29.130 --> 00:25:30.170 - It doesn't work that way. 337 00:25:30.170 --> 00:25:31.693 - Get away from me! 338 00:25:32.940 --> 00:25:35.953 - Only you can make that happen. 339 00:25:38.190 --> 00:25:39.313 - Shut up. 340 00:25:40.960 --> 00:25:44.613 I'm not you and I'm not gonna do that. 341 00:25:45.690 --> 00:25:47.130 - Why not? 342 00:25:47.130 --> 00:25:47.963 C'mon, Jim. 343 00:25:49.260 --> 00:25:52.423 Your wife left you, your daughter's gone. 344 00:25:53.350 --> 00:25:56.160 You hate your job, what've you got to lose? 345 00:25:56.160 --> 00:25:57.870 - Just because you couldn't handle it 346 00:25:57.870 --> 00:25:59.253 doesn't mean that I can't. 347 00:26:00.150 --> 00:26:04.500 - Is that what life's all about is just handling it? 348 00:26:04.500 --> 00:26:08.833 Yeah gettin' through another day; enduring the misery. 349 00:26:10.340 --> 00:26:12.260 - It's my life, dad. 350 00:26:12.260 --> 00:26:15.220 I'll handle mine my way, you handle yours yours. 351 00:26:15.220 --> 00:26:18.730 - Oh yeah, you done a real good job of that so far. 352 00:26:18.730 --> 00:26:20.220 Haven't you, son? 353 00:26:20.220 --> 00:26:21.550 - What do you know? 354 00:26:21.550 --> 00:26:24.993 - I know everything that you know, Jim. 355 00:26:26.110 --> 00:26:26.943 - Right 356 00:26:27.930 --> 00:26:29.680 'cause we're the same. 357 00:26:29.680 --> 00:26:32.023 - You don't get it Jim, do ya? 358 00:26:33.870 --> 00:26:34.703 I am you. 359 00:26:39.750 --> 00:26:40.803 - You're not me. 360 00:26:41.810 --> 00:26:44.570 - Who do you think you've been talkin' to, Jim? 361 00:26:44.570 --> 00:26:46.920 Do you think I've really been standin' here 362 00:26:46.920 --> 00:26:49.490 havin' this conversation with you? 363 00:26:49.490 --> 00:26:51.080 You're thinkin' 'bout all this stuff 364 00:26:51.080 --> 00:26:53.310 because it's in your head, Jim. 365 00:26:53.310 --> 00:26:56.713 So son, please just go on and do it. 366 00:26:58.740 --> 00:26:59.763 - I can't. 367 00:27:01.490 --> 00:27:02.673 I can't. 368 00:27:03.830 --> 00:27:06.397 - What, you don't think you have it in you? 369 00:27:07.890 --> 00:27:09.563 I didn't think I had it in me. 370 00:27:10.480 --> 00:27:13.300 Jim, this can all end. 371 00:27:13.300 --> 00:27:16.203 All the pain, all the suffering. 372 00:27:17.070 --> 00:27:19.430 You'll be right back with Brittany. 373 00:27:19.430 --> 00:27:21.543 You could start makin' up for lost time. 374 00:27:25.658 --> 00:27:29.958 - I can't. 375 00:27:29.958 --> 00:27:30.791 I can't. 376 00:27:33.798 --> 00:27:34.631 Can I? 377 00:27:38.408 --> 00:27:39.935 (eerie orchestral music) 378 00:27:39.935 --> 00:27:40.768 Dad? 379 00:27:44.235 --> 00:27:45.068 Dad? 380 00:28:27.421 --> 00:28:30.171 (Jimmy coughing) 381 00:29:06.740 --> 00:29:08.203 - Do you like the pain, Jim? 382 00:29:09.810 --> 00:29:12.337 The hurtin', not sleepin'. 383 00:29:15.960 --> 00:29:17.663 That's not really livin', Jim. 384 00:29:19.910 --> 00:29:21.790 If you're not really gonna live, 385 00:29:21.790 --> 00:29:23.203 then why deal with the pain? 386 00:29:24.982 --> 00:29:27.232 - I don't wanna hurt anymore. - I know, son. 387 00:29:28.720 --> 00:29:30.920 You've listened to me one time in your life, 388 00:29:32.120 --> 00:29:33.720 just listen to me one more time. 389 00:29:36.745 --> 00:29:38.590 - I don't wanna hurt. 390 00:29:38.590 --> 00:29:40.800 - Then stop the hurt, Jim. 391 00:29:40.800 --> 00:29:42.943 Stop the pain. - Stop the pain. 392 00:29:46.380 --> 00:29:47.213 It's time. 393 00:29:49.698 --> 00:29:50.680 - It's okay, Jim. 394 00:29:50.680 --> 00:29:54.692 It'll all be over soon and you won't have to hurt anymore. 395 00:29:54.692 --> 00:29:56.720 - I don't wanna hurt anymore. 396 00:29:56.720 --> 00:29:58.020 - You'll be with Brittany. 397 00:29:59.452 --> 00:30:00.553 - I miss her so much. 398 00:30:04.202 --> 00:30:07.597 (weeps) I love you, Brittany. - I love you too, dad. 399 00:30:07.597 --> 00:30:10.264 (Jimmy gasping) 400 00:30:14.488 --> 00:30:16.238 - Stay away from her! 401 00:30:17.178 --> 00:30:19.952 (somber orchestral music) 402 00:30:19.952 --> 00:30:22.285 - What are you doing, daddy? 403 00:30:32.956 --> 00:30:33.873 - Oh, baby. 404 00:30:34.810 --> 00:30:35.990 I love you so much. 405 00:30:35.990 --> 00:30:36.823 I'm sorry. 406 00:30:38.460 --> 00:30:40.130 - What's happening, daddy? 407 00:30:40.130 --> 00:30:42.360 - It doesn't matter, it doesn't matter. 408 00:30:42.360 --> 00:30:43.510 Just lemme look at you. 409 00:30:45.180 --> 00:30:47.163 - Daddy, we need to talk. 410 00:30:48.450 --> 00:30:52.367 - Okay absolutely, whatever you wanna talk about. 411 00:30:52.367 --> 00:30:53.643 - No, not here. - What? 412 00:30:55.773 --> 00:30:57.910 - In my dresser, second drawer. 413 00:30:57.910 --> 00:30:59.584 There's a box. 414 00:30:59.584 --> 00:31:01.820 I need you to get that box and bring it to me. 415 00:31:01.820 --> 00:31:03.170 Please don't look in the box, daddy. 416 00:31:03.170 --> 00:31:04.003 Just get it. 417 00:31:05.334 --> 00:31:07.803 - Okay. - No, not here. 418 00:31:09.610 --> 00:31:12.360 I need you to get the box and bring it to my spot. 419 00:31:12.360 --> 00:31:13.720 - Your spot? 420 00:31:13.720 --> 00:31:16.230 - I have a spot that you and mom didn't know about. 421 00:31:16.230 --> 00:31:18.750 Go out the back door and up the hill. 422 00:31:18.750 --> 00:31:20.410 Look for the ribbons. 423 00:31:20.410 --> 00:31:22.793 - The ribbons? - On the trees. 424 00:31:24.890 --> 00:31:25.723 - Honey. 425 00:31:25.723 --> 00:31:28.363 - Please daddy, we need to talk. 426 00:31:30.000 --> 00:31:30.833 - Brittany, 427 00:31:32.140 --> 00:31:34.413 I just got you here. 428 00:32:24.170 --> 00:32:26.170 - [Brittany] Please don't look in the box, daddy. 429 00:32:26.170 --> 00:32:27.007 Just get it. 430 00:32:28.141 --> 00:32:33.141 ("I Don't Know What to Pray" by Stephanie Rabus) 431 00:32:38.795 --> 00:32:43.795 ♪ I don't know what to pray ♪ 432 00:32:45.020 --> 00:32:50.020 ♪ I don't know what to say ♪ 433 00:32:52.058 --> 00:32:57.058 ♪ So take these tears from my heart as my worship ♪ 434 00:32:58.770 --> 00:33:03.770 ♪ All these fears in my mind I lay them down ♪ 435 00:33:04.413 --> 00:33:07.311 ♪ I don't know what to do ♪ 436 00:33:07.311 --> 00:33:10.228 (leaves crunching) 437 00:33:11.074 --> 00:33:16.074 ♪ But to rest in you ♪ 438 00:33:18.297 --> 00:33:23.297 ♪ I don't know how long I can be here in this place ♪ 439 00:33:25.022 --> 00:33:29.725 ♪ The only thing I know to do is praise ♪ 440 00:33:29.725 --> 00:33:34.725 ♪ 'Cause I don't know what to pray ♪ 441 00:33:36.298 --> 00:33:39.965 ♪ I don't know what to pray ♪ 442 00:33:44.423 --> 00:33:46.690 - I built it about four years ago 443 00:33:46.690 --> 00:33:48.690 when you and mom started fighting a lot. 444 00:33:50.360 --> 00:33:52.040 It's just far enough away from the house 445 00:33:52.040 --> 00:33:53.390 that I can't hear you guys. 446 00:33:54.520 --> 00:33:59.083 I tried other places: the attic, the basement. 447 00:34:00.520 --> 00:34:03.970 But the only place that it was really quiet is out here. 448 00:34:13.975 --> 00:34:16.975 After mom moved out, there was fear. 449 00:34:18.240 --> 00:34:21.973 You were at work or something, so I came out here. 450 00:34:24.260 --> 00:34:25.093 - Why? 451 00:34:26.140 --> 00:34:26.973 - To cry. 452 00:34:28.925 --> 00:34:30.842 I came out here to cry. 453 00:34:33.400 --> 00:34:36.330 You told me I need to be strong, daddy. 454 00:34:36.330 --> 00:34:39.660 You told me that I need to handle this like an adult. 455 00:34:39.660 --> 00:34:40.890 I'm not an adult, daddy. 456 00:34:40.890 --> 00:34:42.083 I'm a little girl. 457 00:34:43.910 --> 00:34:46.970 I'm a little girl that needed her daddy to hold her, 458 00:34:46.970 --> 00:34:49.213 to tell her that it was okay to be sad. 459 00:34:50.340 --> 00:34:52.023 To let her cry on his shoulder. 460 00:34:53.130 --> 00:34:54.420 To be angry. 461 00:34:54.420 --> 00:34:57.270 To be angry that she didn't have her mom and dad anymore. 462 00:34:58.373 --> 00:35:00.260 - Brittany, I-- 463 00:35:00.260 --> 00:35:02.510 - You couldn't be that, could you? 464 00:35:02.510 --> 00:35:03.760 I know, dad. 465 00:35:03.760 --> 00:35:05.273 I know that's not who you are. 466 00:35:06.120 --> 00:35:08.610 You wanted me to be a good little soldier 467 00:35:08.610 --> 00:35:09.783 and just deal with it. 468 00:35:10.667 --> 00:35:13.380 Just accept it, but I couldn't. 469 00:35:13.380 --> 00:35:14.280 I didn't know how. 470 00:35:17.510 --> 00:35:20.003 - Brittany, I know I've messed up. 471 00:35:20.003 --> 00:35:21.363 I messed up big time, 472 00:35:23.860 --> 00:35:27.900 but we have a second chance right now and I can do better. 473 00:35:27.900 --> 00:35:30.853 I can say the right things and do the right things. 474 00:35:33.380 --> 00:35:35.130 - It doesn't work like that, daddy. 475 00:35:37.006 --> 00:35:37.839 - What? 476 00:35:38.683 --> 00:35:41.997 - There's things we both need to say, things I need to do. 477 00:35:41.997 --> 00:35:43.473 It's why I'm here now. 478 00:35:45.050 --> 00:35:46.719 - Well then just tell me what I need to say, 479 00:35:46.719 --> 00:35:50.820 tell me what I need to do just so you can stay. 480 00:35:50.820 --> 00:35:52.480 - I can't stay, daddy. 481 00:35:52.480 --> 00:35:53.510 - But I need you. 482 00:35:53.510 --> 00:35:55.010 There's so many things I didn't say. 483 00:35:55.010 --> 00:35:56.760 There's so many things I didn't do. 484 00:35:58.592 --> 00:35:59.425 - I knew. 485 00:36:00.460 --> 00:36:02.429 You didn't have to say it. 486 00:36:02.429 --> 00:36:03.920 I know you have a hard time. 487 00:36:03.920 --> 00:36:05.350 - No, no Brit. 488 00:36:05.350 --> 00:36:08.743 I did have a hard time, but not anymore. 489 00:36:10.180 --> 00:36:12.170 I understand where I've messed up 490 00:36:12.170 --> 00:36:14.810 and I can do better this time. 491 00:36:14.810 --> 00:36:17.073 You know, my father. 492 00:36:18.480 --> 00:36:21.170 No, I'm not gonna blame him for this. 493 00:36:21.170 --> 00:36:22.013 This is all me. 494 00:36:23.040 --> 00:36:26.720 Look, all I know is I can make up for this. 495 00:36:26.720 --> 00:36:27.673 I can do better. 496 00:36:31.410 --> 00:36:32.823 Just gimme that chance now, 497 00:36:35.110 --> 00:36:36.103 so you can stay. 498 00:36:37.631 --> 00:36:39.710 - We don't have a lot of time, daddy. 499 00:36:39.710 --> 00:36:41.010 - Maybe I can come to you, 500 00:36:41.860 --> 00:36:43.647 that way you wouldn't have to stay. 501 00:36:43.647 --> 00:36:46.653 I could come to you and we could get this worked out. 502 00:36:47.530 --> 00:36:49.850 - No, dad. 503 00:36:49.850 --> 00:36:52.100 If you do what grandpa tells you to do, 504 00:36:52.100 --> 00:36:53.450 we'll never see each other. 505 00:36:58.410 --> 00:37:01.840 D'you remember the trip we took to Florida, the beach trip? 506 00:37:02.970 --> 00:37:03.843 - Yeah. 507 00:37:05.250 --> 00:37:08.073 Your mother fell asleep and she was burned to a crisp. 508 00:37:10.430 --> 00:37:11.833 What were you, seven or eight? 509 00:37:13.883 --> 00:37:15.800 - And I just learned how to swim. 510 00:37:15.800 --> 00:37:18.320 - You thought you were so grown up. 511 00:37:18.320 --> 00:37:19.840 You wouldn't have anything to do 512 00:37:19.840 --> 00:37:21.690 with those floaties your mom brought. 513 00:37:22.720 --> 00:37:25.347 You said, "Floaties--" - "Are for babies." 514 00:37:27.869 --> 00:37:31.620 - (chuckles softly) You were so stubborn, 515 00:37:31.620 --> 00:37:33.995 thought you were so grown up. 516 00:37:33.995 --> 00:37:35.145 - Now or from the past? 517 00:37:39.344 --> 00:37:41.592 But do you remember what happened on that trip? 518 00:37:41.592 --> 00:37:44.142 (birds chirping) 519 00:37:44.142 --> 00:37:44.975 - Yeah. 520 00:37:46.660 --> 00:37:49.723 I told you not to go too far out with the raft. 521 00:37:51.080 --> 00:37:53.480 I took my eyes off from you for just one minute, 522 00:37:55.510 --> 00:37:58.030 and I turned around and you were gone. 523 00:37:58.030 --> 00:38:01.073 You were out past the break of water and you were so scared. 524 00:38:05.200 --> 00:38:07.030 - Do you remember what we did? 525 00:38:07.030 --> 00:38:08.880 - Yeah, I ran across the beach. 526 00:38:08.880 --> 00:38:10.120 I jumped out in the water 527 00:38:10.120 --> 00:38:12.573 and I swam out to get you and bring you back in. 528 00:38:15.947 --> 00:38:17.697 It took you an hour to quit cryin'. 529 00:38:19.897 --> 00:38:21.796 - You saved me, daddy. 530 00:38:21.796 --> 00:38:25.660 I was scared, I was lost. 531 00:38:25.660 --> 00:38:27.110 You saved me. 532 00:38:27.110 --> 00:38:29.970 - I should've never taken my eyes off of you. 533 00:38:29.970 --> 00:38:32.150 I can't even remember why I did. 534 00:38:32.150 --> 00:38:35.653 - You and mom arguing 'bout something stupid, 535 00:38:36.690 --> 00:38:38.830 'bout the sunscreen or something. 536 00:38:38.830 --> 00:38:40.830 - I remember turning my head towards her 537 00:38:41.990 --> 00:38:44.140 and then when I turned back, you were gone. 538 00:38:45.460 --> 00:38:46.853 Honey, I am so sorry. 539 00:38:48.070 --> 00:38:49.817 - It's okay, daddy. 540 00:38:49.817 --> 00:38:51.700 Sometimes we turn our eyes away 541 00:38:51.700 --> 00:38:54.843 from what we should be looking at, get distracted. 542 00:38:57.012 --> 00:38:59.327 It only takes that second 543 00:38:59.327 --> 00:39:00.530 for our attention to be somewhere else 544 00:39:00.530 --> 00:39:01.930 for something bad to happen. 545 00:39:05.938 --> 00:39:08.101 But you saved me, daddy. 546 00:39:08.101 --> 00:39:11.570 I was scared, really scared. 547 00:39:11.570 --> 00:39:12.403 I was lost. 548 00:39:13.612 --> 00:39:15.328 You saved me. 549 00:39:15.328 --> 00:39:18.788 - That's just what daddies do, honey. 550 00:39:18.788 --> 00:39:21.705 - I know, but you need to know that 551 00:39:22.727 --> 00:39:26.084 fathers is there to save, not to harm. 552 00:39:26.084 --> 00:39:29.493 - Honey, I had no idea what was gonna happen at that school. 553 00:39:30.440 --> 00:39:33.870 I had no idea what was gonna be goin' on. 554 00:39:33.870 --> 00:39:36.310 - Is that what you think I'm talking about? 555 00:39:36.310 --> 00:39:39.880 Do you think I'm here because of what happened at school? 556 00:39:39.880 --> 00:39:42.230 Daddy, you can't stop the world from happening. 557 00:39:43.738 --> 00:39:45.288 It doesn't matter what you did. 558 00:39:48.027 --> 00:39:50.940 - But no Brit, but I should have. 559 00:39:50.940 --> 00:39:52.310 - You loved me. 560 00:39:52.310 --> 00:39:54.076 - I should've protected you. 561 00:39:54.076 --> 00:39:55.361 - You couldn't have known. 562 00:39:55.361 --> 00:39:56.640 - I should have, Brittany. 563 00:39:56.640 --> 00:39:58.250 I should've felt something. 564 00:39:58.250 --> 00:39:59.890 I should've been there. 565 00:39:59.890 --> 00:40:03.140 I should've done something, anything. 566 00:40:03.140 --> 00:40:04.410 - It's not your fault. 567 00:40:05.410 --> 00:40:06.630 - But I should have. 568 00:40:06.630 --> 00:40:08.720 I should've been a better father for you. 569 00:40:08.720 --> 00:40:11.120 I should've been a better dad to you. 570 00:40:11.120 --> 00:40:13.223 There's so many things I should've done. 571 00:40:15.850 --> 00:40:17.260 No, 572 00:40:17.260 --> 00:40:18.403 no no! 573 00:40:19.640 --> 00:40:20.580 Brittany, please! 574 00:40:23.482 --> 00:40:28.482 ♪ Accept these tears from my heart as my worship ♪ 575 00:40:29.919 --> 00:40:34.919 ♪ All these fears in my mind I lay them down ♪ 576 00:40:35.546 --> 00:40:40.546 ♪ I don't know what to do ♪ 577 00:40:41.979 --> 00:40:46.979 ♪ But to rest in you ♪ 578 00:40:49.372 --> 00:40:54.372 ♪ Don't know how long I can be here in this place ♪ 579 00:40:56.319 --> 00:40:57.152 - Faith? 580 00:40:57.152 --> 00:41:00.929 ♪ The only thing I know to do is praise ♪ 581 00:41:00.929 --> 00:41:05.179 ♪ 'Cause I don't know what to pray ♪ 582 00:41:07.010 --> 00:41:08.569 - Hope. 583 00:41:08.569 --> 00:41:13.569 ♪ I don't know what to pray ♪ 584 00:41:14.056 --> 00:41:17.679 ♪ I don't know what ♪ 585 00:41:17.679 --> 00:41:18.512 - Love. 586 00:41:18.512 --> 00:41:20.679 ♪ To pray ♪ 587 00:41:29.054 --> 00:41:31.054 - This place was a mess. 588 00:41:32.540 --> 00:41:37.053 - [Jimmy] Yeah, I couldn't bring myself to clean it; 589 00:41:38.930 --> 00:41:42.370 so I just left it the way you did. 590 00:41:42.370 --> 00:41:44.393 - Boy, I was a slob. 591 00:41:46.610 --> 00:41:48.263 - Yeah, but you're my slob. 592 00:41:58.640 --> 00:42:00.713 - Daddy, I have to go here in a minute. 593 00:42:01.630 --> 00:42:03.123 - No no, not yet. 594 00:42:03.123 --> 00:42:04.710 Just stay. 595 00:42:04.710 --> 00:42:07.963 - But before I do, there's something we need to talk about. 596 00:42:09.161 --> 00:42:11.163 - Okay, anything you want. 597 00:42:11.163 --> 00:42:12.496 Just stay, okay? 598 00:42:14.043 --> 00:42:17.593 - It's about what you said outside about being a better dad. 599 00:42:19.500 --> 00:42:22.643 - Yeah, I'm sorry about that, honey. 600 00:42:24.160 --> 00:42:25.950 I'm sorry I got so mad. 601 00:42:25.950 --> 00:42:30.357 I just don't know how to handle this, you know? 602 00:42:31.752 --> 00:42:33.970 - There's not a manual for it, daddy. 603 00:42:33.970 --> 00:42:35.620 You have to grieve. 604 00:42:35.620 --> 00:42:36.833 You have to let me go. 605 00:42:40.190 --> 00:42:42.193 - Brittany, I can't let you go. 606 00:42:44.180 --> 00:42:45.780 - Do you know where I am, daddy? 607 00:42:48.270 --> 00:42:49.360 - Honey. 608 00:42:49.360 --> 00:42:51.260 - [Brittany] Daddy, it's amazing. 609 00:42:51.260 --> 00:42:52.160 It's so beautiful. 610 00:42:53.713 --> 00:42:54.546 It's safe. 611 00:42:57.670 --> 00:42:59.820 - No, you should've stay with me. 612 00:42:59.820 --> 00:43:01.530 I coulda kept you safe. 613 00:43:01.530 --> 00:43:02.743 It was not your time. 614 00:43:03.926 --> 00:43:06.383 - We're not the ones that make that decision. 615 00:43:07.613 --> 00:43:09.023 I see that now. 616 00:43:12.860 --> 00:43:14.620 - Can I ask you somethin'? 617 00:43:18.630 --> 00:43:20.480 Did you ever feel like I've used you? 618 00:43:22.024 --> 00:43:25.074 - Like you hit me and stuff? 619 00:43:25.074 --> 00:43:26.070 Of course not. 620 00:43:26.070 --> 00:43:28.123 - No, that's not what I mean. 621 00:43:29.670 --> 00:43:31.937 Did you ever felt like I didn't love you 622 00:43:31.937 --> 00:43:33.363 or you weren't cared for? 623 00:43:38.390 --> 00:43:40.640 - Daddy, I always knew you that you loved me. 624 00:43:42.673 --> 00:43:46.213 I mean there were times, a lot of times 625 00:43:47.990 --> 00:43:52.990 when you were there, but you weren't really there 626 00:43:53.062 --> 00:43:55.062 if you know what I mean. 627 00:43:57.647 --> 00:43:59.083 Do you remember Angela? 628 00:44:00.380 --> 00:44:01.763 - Yeah, of course. 629 00:44:03.060 --> 00:44:05.613 She practically spent her fourth grade year here. 630 00:44:06.610 --> 00:44:07.993 - [Brittany] D'you know why? 631 00:44:08.980 --> 00:44:13.193 - I just assumed she was one of your BFFs or something. 632 00:44:14.950 --> 00:44:17.680 - It's because she didn't wanna go home. 633 00:44:17.680 --> 00:44:18.773 She's afraid to. 634 00:44:20.950 --> 00:44:21.783 - Why? 635 00:44:25.270 --> 00:44:26.283 - Because her dad. 636 00:44:28.180 --> 00:44:29.417 He used to-- 637 00:44:34.780 --> 00:44:36.380 - What are you sayin', Brittany? 638 00:44:38.300 --> 00:44:40.987 - When her mom wasn't around, he-- 639 00:44:42.500 --> 00:44:45.220 - No no, David's not like that. 640 00:44:45.220 --> 00:44:47.683 He wouldn't done anything like that. 641 00:44:47.683 --> 00:44:50.240 - It's why she never said anything. 642 00:44:50.240 --> 00:44:52.860 - He came over here all the time for cookouts. 643 00:44:52.860 --> 00:44:55.600 - She didn't think anyone would believe her. 644 00:44:55.600 --> 00:44:57.750 - He was practically a best friend of mine. 645 00:44:59.120 --> 00:45:01.970 - She tried to stay here every chance she could. 646 00:45:01.970 --> 00:45:03.293 She didn't wanna go home. 647 00:45:06.120 --> 00:45:07.773 - How do you know this stufF? 648 00:45:09.178 --> 00:45:11.163 You're just 11 year old girl. 649 00:45:13.100 --> 00:45:15.690 - Because that's the world we live in, dad. 650 00:45:15.690 --> 00:45:16.733 That's my point. 651 00:45:17.820 --> 00:45:19.270 It doesn't matter what you do 652 00:45:20.268 --> 00:45:22.680 or what do you think you should've done. 653 00:45:22.680 --> 00:45:25.280 You can't stop the world. 654 00:45:25.280 --> 00:45:28.180 You can't stop the world from happening. 655 00:45:28.180 --> 00:45:30.633 You can't protect me every minute of my life. 656 00:45:31.955 --> 00:45:33.555 You can't be there all the time, 657 00:45:34.490 --> 00:45:36.833 just like you couldn't have been at school today. 658 00:45:37.928 --> 00:45:39.283 It was just a Tuesday, dad. 659 00:45:40.120 --> 00:45:41.233 Just another Tuesday. 660 00:45:44.202 --> 00:45:45.703 All you can do is love, 661 00:45:46.750 --> 00:45:48.110 trust and-- 662 00:45:52.900 --> 00:45:55.113 - And what? - Pray, dad. 663 00:45:56.620 --> 00:45:59.443 Can pray that no matter what happens, 664 00:45:59.443 --> 00:46:01.093 it's part of God's plan. 665 00:46:02.860 --> 00:46:06.293 - You're not gonna go through that plan thing too, are you? 666 00:46:10.510 --> 00:46:12.000 What about your plans? 667 00:46:12.000 --> 00:46:14.300 What about your plans to become a nurse? 668 00:46:14.300 --> 00:46:15.293 What about those? 669 00:46:17.014 --> 00:46:19.328 - Veterinarian. 670 00:46:19.328 --> 00:46:21.513 - Veterinarian? 671 00:46:21.513 --> 00:46:24.004 When'd you decide to become a veterinarian? 672 00:46:24.004 --> 00:46:29.004 - Since I was seven, dad. (sighs) 673 00:46:30.678 --> 00:46:32.550 - Okay, what about those? 674 00:46:32.550 --> 00:46:33.873 What about those plans? 675 00:46:35.550 --> 00:46:36.953 - That was my plan. 676 00:46:37.870 --> 00:46:40.776 Just like it was your plan to do what you do. 677 00:46:40.776 --> 00:46:42.093 It doesn't mean it's God's plan. 678 00:46:44.690 --> 00:46:48.113 - Okay so why is his plans more important than ours, huh? 679 00:46:50.510 --> 00:46:51.693 Don't our plans matter? 680 00:46:53.270 --> 00:46:54.570 - 'Course they do. 681 00:46:54.570 --> 00:46:56.570 But they matter more to us because we think 682 00:46:56.570 --> 00:46:59.450 that they're the only thing that matters. 683 00:46:59.450 --> 00:47:01.250 God's plan is what matters the most. 684 00:47:03.820 --> 00:47:05.373 - When did you become so smart? 685 00:47:07.027 --> 00:47:08.581 - When you weren't looking. 686 00:47:08.581 --> 00:47:12.399 (soft somber music) 687 00:47:12.399 --> 00:47:16.232 - I should've been lookin' at you a lot harder 688 00:47:17.157 --> 00:47:18.763 and I should've protected you. 689 00:47:21.314 --> 00:47:23.543 - What good is protecting me my whole life 690 00:47:23.543 --> 00:47:25.493 when I can't grow up to protect you? 691 00:47:28.220 --> 00:47:29.113 - Protect me? 692 00:47:30.270 --> 00:47:31.103 From what? 693 00:47:32.110 --> 00:47:34.130 - From yourself, dad. 694 00:47:34.130 --> 00:47:35.380 From where you're headed. 695 00:47:36.870 --> 00:47:39.103 Daddy, I need you to listen to me. 696 00:47:40.160 --> 00:47:42.290 I saw the look in your eyes upstairs 697 00:47:43.290 --> 00:47:44.690 and what you're about to do. 698 00:47:45.874 --> 00:47:47.300 You can't. 699 00:47:47.300 --> 00:47:51.003 You can't use my death as an excuse to not go on living. 700 00:47:51.980 --> 00:47:53.130 It isn't your time yet. 701 00:47:55.350 --> 00:47:56.183 - My time? 702 00:47:57.200 --> 00:47:58.650 - He isn't done with you yet. 703 00:47:59.686 --> 00:48:01.995 If you do what you're thinking about doing, 704 00:48:01.995 --> 00:48:04.403 there's no going back, no eternity. 705 00:48:05.399 --> 00:48:08.743 'Least not the one that I've seen. 706 00:48:08.743 --> 00:48:10.493 - What have you seen? 707 00:48:14.648 --> 00:48:15.898 What's it like? 708 00:48:20.114 --> 00:48:25.114 - It wasn't like anything that I've ever heard about before. 709 00:48:26.078 --> 00:48:29.330 There's not a brilliant white light, no choir of angels. 710 00:48:31.970 --> 00:48:34.433 There's a lot of people waiting to go through the gate. 711 00:48:36.950 --> 00:48:38.870 - So St. Peter isn't standin' there 712 00:48:38.870 --> 00:48:40.320 with the "Book of Life" then? 713 00:48:41.520 --> 00:48:44.123 - No, nothing like that. 714 00:48:46.040 --> 00:48:47.240 There didn't need to be. 715 00:48:48.230 --> 00:48:49.793 I'd already made that decision. 716 00:48:51.170 --> 00:48:54.973 There was no doubt of where I was going, but I saw him. 717 00:48:56.350 --> 00:48:57.183 - Him? 718 00:48:58.060 --> 00:48:59.723 - It's like my eyes were closed. 719 00:49:00.821 --> 00:49:03.560 Then when I opened them, he was there 720 00:49:04.803 --> 00:49:07.323 like 15 or 20 feet in front of me. 721 00:49:08.921 --> 00:49:11.820 He was smiling with his arms wide open 722 00:49:13.165 --> 00:49:15.273 like he was waiting for a hug or something. 723 00:49:17.107 --> 00:49:18.857 It's like I didn't know who he was, 724 00:49:19.810 --> 00:49:22.700 but also like I'd known him my whole life. 725 00:49:22.700 --> 00:49:24.120 Daddy, I ran to him. 726 00:49:24.120 --> 00:49:27.713 I ran to him without an ounce of fear and he hugged me. 727 00:49:28.854 --> 00:49:31.770 It was the warmest, safest hug that I've ever felt 728 00:49:33.111 --> 00:49:36.073 like being wrapped in a blanket in the middle of winter. 729 00:49:38.630 --> 00:49:39.830 - That sounds beautiful. 730 00:49:42.175 --> 00:49:43.008 - It is, daddy. 731 00:49:44.346 --> 00:49:45.596 I want you to see it too. 732 00:49:49.233 --> 00:49:53.623 (sighs) It's time, daddy. 733 00:49:55.071 --> 00:49:56.573 - No, not yet. 734 00:49:58.910 --> 00:50:02.010 - Daddy, there's someone coming to visit you. 735 00:50:02.010 --> 00:50:05.910 When they do you have to listen. 736 00:50:05.910 --> 00:50:08.393 Not just hear, listen. 737 00:50:10.380 --> 00:50:12.543 - Okay anything you want, 738 00:50:14.023 --> 00:50:16.273 just as long as I get to see you again, okay? 739 00:50:18.362 --> 00:50:19.650 - It's up to you, daddy. 740 00:50:19.650 --> 00:50:21.313 - Please don't go, not yet. 741 00:50:22.185 --> 00:50:24.032 - I have to go. 742 00:50:24.032 --> 00:50:25.132 You have to let me go. 743 00:50:26.343 --> 00:50:28.760 - I'm never gonna let you go. 744 00:50:31.215 --> 00:50:32.132 I love you. 745 00:50:33.277 --> 00:50:36.360 (somber piano music) 746 00:50:39.291 --> 00:50:41.958 (Jimmy sighing) 747 00:51:12.835 --> 00:51:15.502 (door knocking) 748 00:51:24.460 --> 00:51:25.960 Susan? 749 00:51:25.960 --> 00:51:26.793 - Hey, Jim. 750 00:51:28.470 --> 00:51:29.303 - Are you her? 751 00:51:30.450 --> 00:51:31.283 - Her who? 752 00:51:33.520 --> 00:51:34.353 - The Third. 753 00:51:38.020 --> 00:51:39.580 She told me about The Third. 754 00:51:39.580 --> 00:51:41.723 - Been hittin' the bottle pretty hard today, have we? 755 00:51:43.240 --> 00:51:44.373 - Yeah. - Figures. 756 00:51:49.010 --> 00:51:50.410 - So what're you doin' here? 757 00:51:55.040 --> 00:51:57.593 - Honestly, I don't know. 758 00:51:58.550 --> 00:52:01.513 I went home after the funeral and I couldn't stay there. 759 00:52:02.570 --> 00:52:03.500 I just couldn't. 760 00:52:03.500 --> 00:52:05.703 Everywhere I looked I saw her. 761 00:52:08.530 --> 00:52:10.893 - So you thought comin' here would be better. 762 00:52:11.800 --> 00:52:13.270 - I don't know what I thought, Jim. 763 00:52:13.270 --> 00:52:16.103 I just got in the car and I was here. 764 00:52:24.210 --> 00:52:27.857 - Can I get you somethin' to drink of somethin'? 765 00:52:31.270 --> 00:52:32.870 Look Susan, I don't know what's goin' on. 766 00:52:32.870 --> 00:52:34.480 - Just shut up, Jim! 767 00:52:34.480 --> 00:52:35.313 Please, just. 768 00:52:54.160 --> 00:52:56.543 - If you wanna talk. - She called me, Jim. 769 00:52:58.809 --> 00:53:00.930 - What? - From the school. 770 00:53:00.930 --> 00:53:03.820 But when the guy started shooting, she called me. 771 00:53:03.820 --> 00:53:08.750 - She what? - She was terrified, Jim. 772 00:53:08.750 --> 00:53:13.383 She was crying and she was whispering when she was hiding. 773 00:53:14.740 --> 00:53:15.573 - What'd she say? 774 00:53:15.573 --> 00:53:17.127 What did she say? - She was hysterical. 775 00:53:17.127 --> 00:53:18.830 I don't know what she said. 776 00:53:18.830 --> 00:53:22.083 Everybody was dying and I didn't know what to say. 777 00:53:23.310 --> 00:53:28.310 I told her I loved her and the phone went dead. (weeps) 778 00:53:29.607 --> 00:53:30.853 She was so scared, Jim. 779 00:53:37.949 --> 00:53:39.940 - I didn't know. 780 00:53:39.940 --> 00:53:44.940 - That's all I hear is the crying and saying I love you. 781 00:53:46.700 --> 00:53:48.840 Static (sobs) 782 00:53:56.597 --> 00:53:58.847 and I couldn't stop crying. 783 00:54:00.930 --> 00:54:03.683 That's all I do now is cry. 784 00:54:11.840 --> 00:54:12.673 - Susan. 785 00:54:14.133 --> 00:54:16.800 (Susan sobbing) 786 00:54:23.381 --> 00:54:26.464 (somber piano music) 787 00:54:40.960 --> 00:54:43.720 - It's just like the place at my house. 788 00:54:43.720 --> 00:54:46.573 Couldn't get her to keep up. (sniffles) 789 00:54:48.240 --> 00:54:49.073 - Teenagers. 790 00:54:53.220 --> 00:54:57.830 You know, she didn't get the chance to be a teenager. 791 00:54:57.830 --> 00:55:00.283 She didn't get the chance to do anything. 792 00:55:04.130 --> 00:55:08.173 - You know this is gonna sound strange, Susan; 793 00:55:12.190 --> 00:55:13.540 but I think she's at peace. 794 00:55:15.350 --> 00:55:16.183 - Peace? 795 00:55:18.020 --> 00:55:19.423 What are you talking about? 796 00:55:20.620 --> 00:55:24.590 She was shot in cold blood by a maniac. 797 00:55:24.590 --> 00:55:26.410 She died terrified and afraid. 798 00:55:26.410 --> 00:55:27.803 What's peaceful about that? 799 00:55:27.803 --> 00:55:29.713 - With not what happened, Susan. 800 00:55:32.456 --> 00:55:33.289 I'm talkin' now. 801 00:55:40.130 --> 00:55:41.930 - Pastor Reichart stop by here, too? 802 00:55:46.670 --> 00:55:49.470 I never took you for the kind that listen to that stuff. 803 00:56:00.217 --> 00:56:02.323 - It wasn't Pastor Reichart; 804 00:56:09.141 --> 00:56:10.974 it was something else. 805 00:56:16.091 --> 00:56:16.924 I don't know that I believe in 806 00:56:16.924 --> 00:56:19.370 all of this afterlife/Heaven thing, 807 00:56:19.370 --> 00:56:21.857 you know, but I was just-- 808 00:56:23.240 --> 00:56:24.103 - Searching? 809 00:56:25.440 --> 00:56:27.453 - Yeah, searching. 810 00:56:28.860 --> 00:56:29.693 - I understand. 811 00:56:33.490 --> 00:56:35.050 Jim? 812 00:56:35.050 --> 00:56:36.133 - [Jim] Yeah. 813 00:56:39.569 --> 00:56:41.600 - What happened? 814 00:56:41.600 --> 00:56:43.283 I mean between us. 815 00:56:45.440 --> 00:56:48.380 - God Susan, I don't know. 816 00:56:48.380 --> 00:56:50.743 I've been tryin' to figure out a lotta things lately. 817 00:56:52.480 --> 00:56:54.670 - Couldn't it have just been eazy? 818 00:56:58.880 --> 00:57:01.442 - I never expected it to be easy. 819 00:57:01.442 --> 00:57:03.530 - Doesn't have to be so hard. 820 00:57:03.530 --> 00:57:04.920 - Right? 821 00:57:04.920 --> 00:57:05.753 Exactly. 822 00:57:07.420 --> 00:57:09.870 They never tell you how hard marriage is gonna be 823 00:57:11.142 --> 00:57:14.543 or bein' a parent or just life in general. 824 00:57:20.779 --> 00:57:23.184 I just wish I could've been better. 825 00:57:23.184 --> 00:57:24.017 - Better what? 826 00:57:28.195 --> 00:57:31.283 - A better husband, a better father. 827 00:57:32.760 --> 00:57:34.230 Just a better man, period. 828 00:57:34.230 --> 00:57:36.680 - You can't blame yourself for everything, Jimmy. 829 00:57:37.940 --> 00:57:39.063 It's not your fault. 830 00:57:42.048 --> 00:57:44.881 (Jimmy sniffling) 831 00:57:46.440 --> 00:57:47.433 What's this? 832 00:57:52.190 --> 00:57:55.423 - Susan, why are you here? 833 00:57:57.261 --> 00:57:58.094 - What? 834 00:58:00.908 --> 00:58:02.780 - Did you just come to reminisce 835 00:58:02.780 --> 00:58:05.397 or talk about old times or somethin'? 836 00:58:13.660 --> 00:58:16.753 - Maybe because a part of her is still here. 837 00:58:19.400 --> 00:58:21.843 I mean I'm just sittin' here in her room. 838 00:58:22.770 --> 00:58:26.500 I think to myself that she's gonna walk 839 00:58:26.500 --> 00:58:27.903 through that door any minute. 840 00:58:29.244 --> 00:58:32.013 Tell me all about her day. (weeps) 841 00:58:35.593 --> 00:58:38.100 I could smell her, Jimmy. 842 00:58:38.100 --> 00:58:41.040 I can feel her in here. 843 00:58:41.040 --> 00:58:44.307 I mean I know she's not here, but yes. 844 00:58:47.030 --> 00:58:47.863 Yes, she is. 845 00:58:49.460 --> 00:58:54.323 I think a part of her will always be here. (sniffles) 846 00:58:56.907 --> 00:59:00.080 You know after the funeral, I went back to my house 847 00:59:00.950 --> 00:59:03.280 and I went into her room at my place. 848 00:59:03.280 --> 00:59:05.083 I sat in her bed and I cried. 849 00:59:05.950 --> 00:59:09.373 I buried my head in her pillow when I cried. 850 00:59:10.300 --> 00:59:11.673 I could smell her, Jimmy. 851 00:59:14.280 --> 00:59:17.890 I thought to myself, this pillow's only a year old. 852 00:59:19.458 --> 00:59:21.125 I sit in here, this. 853 00:59:23.739 --> 00:59:24.739 This is her. 854 00:59:25.701 --> 00:59:27.618 This is her whole life. 855 00:59:31.342 --> 00:59:34.633 I guess needed to just be here. 856 00:59:44.130 --> 00:59:45.123 - I don't know. 857 00:59:47.521 --> 00:59:49.081 I don't know what it is. 858 00:59:49.081 --> 00:59:50.693 Where'd you find it? 859 00:59:50.693 --> 00:59:51.873 - It was in her dresser. 860 00:59:54.701 --> 00:59:57.247 She told me to go get it before I-- 861 00:59:58.620 --> 00:59:59.453 - What? 862 01:00:02.739 --> 01:00:06.863 - I don't know, I just remembered from earlier. 863 01:00:10.950 --> 01:00:12.400 - Were you expecting someone? 864 01:00:13.526 --> 01:00:16.720 - What? - You asked if I was her. 865 01:00:16.720 --> 01:00:18.817 Were you expecting someone? 866 01:00:20.260 --> 01:00:21.220 - No. 867 01:00:21.220 --> 01:00:23.703 I mean, yeah. 868 01:00:26.242 --> 01:00:28.292 It's just been a really weird day, Susan. 869 01:00:29.512 --> 01:00:30.345 - I know. 870 01:00:33.250 --> 01:00:34.950 I can't believe she's gone either. 871 01:00:35.840 --> 01:00:36.760 Maybe I should go. 872 01:00:36.760 --> 01:00:37.593 - No wait, wait. 873 01:00:43.787 --> 01:00:47.230 Did Brittany ever talk to you about her Christianity? 874 01:00:47.230 --> 01:00:50.050 - Yeah, she went to Revival 875 01:00:50.050 --> 01:00:51.550 a few months ago with her friend. 876 01:00:51.550 --> 01:00:53.530 Said that's when it happened. 877 01:00:57.613 --> 01:00:59.413 - Did you ever talk to her about it? 878 01:01:00.500 --> 01:01:03.967 - No, but that didn't stop her from tellin' me. 879 01:01:07.758 --> 01:01:09.200 - What did she say? 880 01:01:09.200 --> 01:01:11.520 - Oh you know, just the same old stuff 881 01:01:11.520 --> 01:01:13.890 they always fill their heads with. 882 01:01:13.890 --> 01:01:17.880 Ask and ye shall receive, seek and ye shall find. 883 01:01:17.880 --> 01:01:18.763 That kinda stuff. 884 01:01:22.720 --> 01:01:25.520 - Did you ever believe any of it? 885 01:01:25.520 --> 01:01:27.020 - Any of that religious stuff? 886 01:01:29.000 --> 01:01:30.743 I don't know, not really. 887 01:01:31.910 --> 01:01:33.420 I haven't really seen anything 888 01:01:33.420 --> 01:01:35.070 that would make me believe in it. 889 01:01:36.225 --> 01:01:38.283 And now with this, 890 01:01:40.636 --> 01:01:41.686 I don't believe that. 891 01:01:44.660 --> 01:01:47.325 You know, I should go. 892 01:01:47.325 --> 01:01:49.390 (somber piano music) 893 01:01:49.390 --> 01:01:51.827 Thank you. (stammers) 894 01:02:14.610 --> 01:02:15.567 Do you mind? - No. 895 01:02:17.658 --> 01:02:19.075 No, I don't mind. 896 01:02:20.770 --> 01:02:21.603 - Thank you. 897 01:02:44.903 --> 01:02:47.660 I just wanted to say thank you, Jim. 898 01:02:47.660 --> 01:02:50.700 I needed, you know. 899 01:02:50.700 --> 01:02:52.793 - Yeah, I know. 900 01:02:54.780 --> 01:02:55.953 Don't worry about it. 901 01:02:58.794 --> 01:02:59.694 You gonna be okay? 902 01:03:02.760 --> 01:03:04.130 - You know if you ever need 903 01:03:04.130 --> 01:03:06.090 someone to talk to that you could... 904 01:03:07.960 --> 01:03:08.793 Well, you know. 905 01:03:10.400 --> 01:03:11.650 - Yeah, I know. 906 01:03:17.760 --> 01:03:20.093 - Maybe she wanted you to open it. 907 01:03:21.330 --> 01:03:23.380 Maybe that's why she put it in your head. 908 01:03:31.395 --> 01:03:35.062 ("I Cry Out" by Eric Ashby) 909 01:03:47.931 --> 01:03:52.931 ♪ When loss and tragedy comes ♪ 910 01:03:54.643 --> 01:03:59.643 ♪ And my heart and soul just wants to burn ♪ 911 01:04:00.128 --> 01:04:05.128 ♪ And nothing is all on earth ♪ 912 01:04:06.097 --> 01:04:09.319 ♪ Can get me through ♪ 913 01:04:09.319 --> 01:04:14.319 ♪ Through the storm ♪ 914 01:04:15.118 --> 01:04:18.577 ♪ I cry out to you Lord ♪ 915 01:04:18.577 --> 01:04:23.109 ♪ I cry out and give my plea ♪ 916 01:04:23.109 --> 01:04:27.157 ♪ Can you rescue me ♪ 917 01:04:27.157 --> 01:04:30.288 ♪ And it's from your love ♪ 918 01:04:30.288 --> 01:04:34.087 ♪ An infinite grace ♪ 919 01:04:34.087 --> 01:04:39.087 ♪ That I find mercy in your embrace ♪ 920 01:04:41.069 --> 01:04:43.704 ♪ Your embrace ♪ 921 01:04:43.704 --> 01:04:48.704 ♪ I cry out to you Lord ♪ 922 01:04:49.271 --> 01:04:51.469 ♪ Whoa ♪ 923 01:04:51.469 --> 01:04:55.770 ♪ You rescue me ♪ 924 01:04:55.770 --> 01:05:00.770 ♪ And it's from your love and infinite grace ♪ 925 01:05:02.695 --> 01:05:07.695 ♪ That I find mercy in your embrace ♪ 926 01:05:09.443 --> 01:05:14.443 ♪ Your embrace ♪ 927 01:05:16.163 --> 01:05:17.996 ♪ Ooh ♪ 928 01:05:32.450 --> 01:05:33.283 - No. 929 01:05:34.440 --> 01:05:35.273 No, 930 01:05:39.120 --> 01:05:40.263 that's impossible! 931 01:05:42.171 --> 01:05:44.823 - [Messenger] The impossible happens all the time; 932 01:05:44.823 --> 01:05:46.673 you just have to believe that it can. 933 01:05:50.570 --> 01:05:51.403 - Who are you? 934 01:05:52.340 --> 01:05:54.723 - I'm The Third of the three. 935 01:05:55.790 --> 01:05:56.690 - [Jim] The Third? 936 01:06:01.936 --> 01:06:05.340 Now I know my father and I know Brittany. 937 01:06:05.340 --> 01:06:09.230 But I don't know you. 938 01:06:09.230 --> 01:06:10.523 Have I seen you before? 939 01:06:12.170 --> 01:06:13.923 - That's exactly why I'm here, Jim. 940 01:06:14.850 --> 01:06:18.072 'Cause there's a lotta people you don't know. 941 01:06:18.072 --> 01:06:22.023 Think you know of them, think you know about them, 942 01:06:22.023 --> 01:06:24.220 but you don't know them. 943 01:06:24.220 --> 01:06:25.913 - But you look familiar to me. 944 01:06:27.090 --> 01:06:29.860 - You see me as someone from your past, 945 01:06:29.860 --> 01:06:31.623 but you don't know who I speak for. 946 01:06:33.640 --> 01:06:35.070 - Well then please enlighten me 947 01:06:35.070 --> 01:06:37.020 because I have no idea what's goin' on. 948 01:06:38.394 --> 01:06:40.690 - He was smiling with his arms wide open 949 01:06:41.970 --> 01:06:43.970 like was waiting for a hug or something. 950 01:06:47.249 --> 01:06:49.190 - You're him? 951 01:06:49.190 --> 01:06:50.223 You're Jesus? 952 01:06:51.270 --> 01:06:52.297 - No Jim, I'm not. 953 01:06:53.330 --> 01:06:56.313 I am but a messenger on his behalf. 954 01:07:02.230 --> 01:07:03.223 - So you're real? 955 01:07:05.320 --> 01:07:06.803 Jesus is real? 956 01:07:07.640 --> 01:07:08.857 - Do I look real to you? 957 01:07:10.043 --> 01:07:11.740 - I don't know. 958 01:07:11.740 --> 01:07:12.900 I don't know anything anymore. 959 01:07:12.900 --> 01:07:15.600 I don't know what's real and what's not. 960 01:07:15.600 --> 01:07:18.050 - There are times when our eyes deceive us. 961 01:07:18.050 --> 01:07:20.150 Sometimes we need to look with our hearts. 962 01:07:22.290 --> 01:07:24.670 - I don't know what any of that means. 963 01:07:24.670 --> 01:07:26.470 I don't know what any of this means. 964 01:07:27.960 --> 01:07:30.719 - You have been sayin' the same thing for a long time, 965 01:07:30.719 --> 01:07:32.820 wonderin' if he's real or not. 966 01:07:32.820 --> 01:07:34.260 And people come up with their own conclusions 967 01:07:34.260 --> 01:07:36.053 based on all sorts of things. 968 01:07:37.980 --> 01:07:41.530 - Maybe if you'd make it so people could see you, 969 01:07:41.530 --> 01:07:45.017 then maybe it would be easier for 'em. 970 01:07:46.150 --> 01:07:48.440 - Jim, you can see him anytime you want. 971 01:07:48.440 --> 01:07:51.170 You can see him in the birds in the sky, 972 01:07:51.170 --> 01:07:55.403 in smile on a baby's face, in nature, in love. 973 01:07:56.390 --> 01:07:57.393 He's everywhere. 974 01:07:58.350 --> 01:08:00.150 - That's not what I'm talkin' about. 975 01:08:01.010 --> 01:08:02.663 I mean, I went to Sunday School. 976 01:08:03.850 --> 01:08:06.750 You know, I read about Moses and the burning bush 977 01:08:06.750 --> 01:08:08.423 and Moses in Mount Sinai. 978 01:08:09.290 --> 01:08:12.510 I mean he was there, he was visible. 979 01:08:12.510 --> 01:08:14.310 He was right there in front of them. 980 01:08:17.696 --> 01:08:19.193 - You ever been to China, Jim? 981 01:08:20.450 --> 01:08:21.620 - No. 982 01:08:21.620 --> 01:08:23.220 - But you know people that have. 983 01:08:24.870 --> 01:08:26.394 - Yeah. 984 01:08:26.394 --> 01:08:28.740 - You ever flown in outer space? 985 01:08:28.740 --> 01:08:30.210 - No. 986 01:08:30.210 --> 01:08:33.530 - But you got to meet Jim Adams a few years ago, right? 987 01:08:33.530 --> 01:08:34.713 He's been to space. 988 01:08:35.700 --> 01:08:37.623 - Yeah, how did you? 989 01:08:39.950 --> 01:08:40.783 Yeah. 990 01:08:42.690 --> 01:08:43.917 - There's a lot of things you haven't seen 991 01:08:43.917 --> 01:08:46.500 and a lotta places you've never been, 992 01:08:46.500 --> 01:08:49.200 but do you ever doubt there's a China? 993 01:08:49.200 --> 01:08:53.040 Do you ever doubt that the world isn't really round? 994 01:08:53.040 --> 01:08:55.050 You never seen any of these things with your own eyes, 995 01:08:55.050 --> 01:08:57.240 but there's so much evidence 996 01:08:57.240 --> 01:09:00.163 from people have done these things that they must be true. 997 01:09:01.080 --> 01:09:03.600 Even though you haven't personally experienced them, 998 01:09:03.600 --> 01:09:04.800 you accept them as true. 999 01:09:06.080 --> 01:09:09.890 You believe even though you haven't seen them. 1000 01:09:09.890 --> 01:09:11.380 - That's different. 1001 01:09:11.380 --> 01:09:12.810 - Is it? 1002 01:09:12.810 --> 01:09:15.410 Believing without seeing is what faith is all about. 1003 01:09:16.280 --> 01:09:19.550 When you got married, you didn't have a crystal ball 1004 01:09:19.550 --> 01:09:22.440 to tell you the future or when you had Brittany, 1005 01:09:22.440 --> 01:09:24.590 you didn't have a crystal ball then either. 1006 01:09:25.900 --> 01:09:28.780 Did you believe you could successfully be married 1007 01:09:28.780 --> 01:09:30.763 or successfully have a child? 1008 01:09:31.800 --> 01:09:34.650 You did or you wouldn't have done either of these things. 1009 01:09:35.520 --> 01:09:37.503 Will you ultimately be successful? 1010 01:09:38.520 --> 01:09:39.373 Do you know that? 1011 01:09:40.320 --> 01:09:41.303 No, you don't. 1012 01:09:42.740 --> 01:09:45.743 But with faith in him and faith in yourself, 1013 01:09:46.580 --> 01:09:48.260 that what you can't see are still things 1014 01:09:48.260 --> 01:09:50.483 you can put your faith and confidence in. 1015 01:09:52.980 --> 01:09:54.191 - The marriage thing didn't turn out too well 1016 01:09:54.191 --> 01:09:55.693 for any of us, did it? 1017 01:09:57.460 --> 01:09:59.183 - [Messenger] Why do you think that is? 1018 01:10:01.110 --> 01:10:01.943 - I don't know. 1019 01:10:03.410 --> 01:10:07.910 I mean I guess she just wasn't who I thought she was 1020 01:10:07.910 --> 01:10:09.603 or the one I wanted. 1021 01:10:10.450 --> 01:10:12.213 I musta not been what she wanted. 1022 01:10:13.547 --> 01:10:15.183 - D'you feel like you really tried? 1023 01:10:16.770 --> 01:10:17.683 - Tried? 1024 01:10:18.710 --> 01:10:20.093 Man, that's all we did. 1025 01:10:21.300 --> 01:10:22.823 We went to counseling. 1026 01:10:23.700 --> 01:10:24.760 We talked to our friends. 1027 01:10:24.760 --> 01:10:26.070 We spent time apart. 1028 01:10:26.070 --> 01:10:27.910 We even called on our pastor 1029 01:10:27.910 --> 01:10:29.860 just to see what he would say about it. 1030 01:10:31.747 --> 01:10:34.493 - But you didn't talk to him; neither of you did. 1031 01:10:35.810 --> 01:10:36.643 - What? 1032 01:10:38.460 --> 01:10:39.910 - You didn't bring it to him. 1033 01:10:40.870 --> 01:10:44.550 So many times people think they can solve the problems 1034 01:10:44.550 --> 01:10:48.120 of the world by lookin' to the world for a solution. 1035 01:10:48.120 --> 01:10:52.243 But in a flawed world, your solutions can be flawed. 1036 01:10:53.970 --> 01:10:56.643 - Well at least it's an answer. 1037 01:10:58.710 --> 01:11:01.860 I mean people talk to Jesus all the time 1038 01:11:01.860 --> 01:11:03.450 and never get an answer. 1039 01:11:03.450 --> 01:11:05.500 - Just because it isn't the answer they want to hear, 1040 01:11:05.500 --> 01:11:07.200 it doesn't mean he doesn't answer. 1041 01:11:08.151 --> 01:11:09.510 You know how many times people pray 1042 01:11:09.510 --> 01:11:12.840 for what they want and how they want it? 1043 01:11:12.840 --> 01:11:15.050 Never take into consideration what they're praying for 1044 01:11:15.050 --> 01:11:16.643 is what they truly need. 1045 01:11:17.570 --> 01:11:18.970 They don't trust that he knows 1046 01:11:18.970 --> 01:11:21.283 what they need when they need it. 1047 01:11:22.540 --> 01:11:23.423 - Trust? 1048 01:11:24.860 --> 01:11:27.030 When we can't even see if Jesus 1049 01:11:27.030 --> 01:11:30.970 is gonna come through for us, you want us to trust in him? 1050 01:11:30.970 --> 01:11:34.290 - That right there is the very definition of faith. 1051 01:11:34.290 --> 01:11:36.060 - So why can't he just answer? 1052 01:11:36.060 --> 01:11:37.410 Why can't he just be heard? 1053 01:11:39.330 --> 01:11:43.323 - If everyone got everything they prayed for or asked for, 1054 01:11:44.340 --> 01:11:46.570 what would be the point of Heaven? 1055 01:11:46.570 --> 01:11:50.930 We've already established that the world is a sinful place. 1056 01:11:50.930 --> 01:11:53.540 And if the world was everything that Heaven is, 1057 01:11:53.540 --> 01:11:55.713 what would be the appeal of eternity? 1058 01:11:57.300 --> 01:12:00.670 Jim, salvation doesn't mean that everything in life 1059 01:12:00.670 --> 01:12:03.800 is gonna be great and easy and that you won't face 1060 01:12:03.800 --> 01:12:05.483 any trials and tribulations. 1061 01:12:06.320 --> 01:12:09.270 Salvation gives you a destination 1062 01:12:09.270 --> 01:12:12.103 once you face the trials and tribulations of the world. 1063 01:12:13.010 --> 01:12:14.610 - So we're just meant to suffer? 1064 01:12:15.450 --> 01:12:17.620 We're supposed to just suffer through this life 1065 01:12:17.620 --> 01:12:18.770 until we get to Heaven. 1066 01:12:19.930 --> 01:12:23.083 - The most worthwhile things in life require faith. 1067 01:12:24.580 --> 01:12:28.560 If you knew all the variables and never risked anything, 1068 01:12:28.560 --> 01:12:30.540 there would never be rewards. 1069 01:12:30.540 --> 01:12:33.720 If people never took a chance, there would be no success. 1070 01:12:33.720 --> 01:12:36.583 Now there might be less pain and failure, 1071 01:12:37.440 --> 01:12:40.240 but for sure there'd be no success. 1072 01:12:40.240 --> 01:12:44.423 And no success means failure and it's painful. 1073 01:12:46.110 --> 01:12:48.190 There are things in life that you simply 1074 01:12:48.190 --> 01:12:49.513 have to depend on faith. 1075 01:12:50.410 --> 01:12:53.510 There's a difference between knowing and believing. 1076 01:12:53.510 --> 01:12:57.060 Knowing is based on exhaustive knowledge. 1077 01:12:57.060 --> 01:13:01.020 But believing, it's putting your faith in something 1078 01:13:01.020 --> 01:13:02.713 with virtually no knowledge. 1079 01:13:06.780 --> 01:13:08.080 - Like the guy who didn't believe 1080 01:13:08.080 --> 01:13:09.580 that Jesus rose from the dead. 1081 01:13:10.600 --> 01:13:11.433 - Thomas? 1082 01:13:11.433 --> 01:13:14.550 Yes, he believed once he saw. 1083 01:13:14.550 --> 01:13:16.400 - So why can't you show me a miracle? 1084 01:13:18.360 --> 01:13:20.503 Show me a miracle, then I'll believe. 1085 01:13:21.550 --> 01:13:24.623 You bring Brittany back and I'll believe you. 1086 01:13:26.290 --> 01:13:28.170 - These are things that people have been dealing with 1087 01:13:28.170 --> 01:13:29.343 for a long time. 1088 01:13:30.510 --> 01:13:35.510 If believing isn't seeing, then faith is not seeing. 1089 01:13:35.880 --> 01:13:37.360 - Riddles. 1090 01:13:37.360 --> 01:13:39.260 Why do you all always talk in riddles? 1091 01:13:40.360 --> 01:13:44.423 Why can't things just be good or bad, right or wrong? 1092 01:13:45.790 --> 01:13:47.653 - If everything was always good, 1093 01:13:48.770 --> 01:13:50.510 would you really be able to appreciate 1094 01:13:50.510 --> 01:13:52.810 the majesty of eternity 1095 01:13:52.810 --> 01:13:55.963 or the greatness of what awaits you after this life? 1096 01:13:57.070 --> 01:13:58.620 - So I'm supposed to thank him. 1097 01:13:59.750 --> 01:14:04.333 Thank him for all of this, praising through the suffering? 1098 01:14:06.230 --> 01:14:09.113 You don't know this kind of pain. 1099 01:14:10.471 --> 01:14:11.840 - But he does. 1100 01:14:11.840 --> 01:14:13.203 He knows suffering, Jim. 1101 01:14:15.410 --> 01:14:17.519 - Yeah, the cross. 1102 01:14:17.519 --> 01:14:19.700 - No, not just the cross. 1103 01:14:19.700 --> 01:14:22.420 It's the pain associated with seeing something 1104 01:14:22.420 --> 01:14:26.853 you truly love turn away from him: humanity. 1105 01:14:28.090 --> 01:14:30.133 You lost Brittany to an evil man. 1106 01:14:31.080 --> 01:14:34.483 He's lost generations of Brittanys to the evil of man. 1107 01:14:37.878 --> 01:14:40.628 (mystical music) 1108 01:14:43.240 --> 01:14:44.610 Good afternoon, sir. 1109 01:14:44.610 --> 01:14:46.040 Can I ask you a question? 1110 01:14:46.040 --> 01:14:48.440 D'you know where you're going to spend eternity? 1111 01:14:50.308 --> 01:14:52.460 (door clanking) 1112 01:14:52.460 --> 01:14:54.110 - That was you? 1113 01:14:54.110 --> 01:14:55.650 - I told you. 1114 01:14:55.650 --> 01:14:56.713 I can be everywhere. 1115 01:14:59.837 --> 01:15:00.670 - Okay. 1116 01:15:01.550 --> 01:15:03.720 If you are who you say you are 1117 01:15:03.720 --> 01:15:05.960 and you say Jesus is who he is 1118 01:15:05.960 --> 01:15:08.973 and you all can be everywhere at any time, 1119 01:15:09.840 --> 01:15:11.810 then why didn't you stop it? 1120 01:15:11.810 --> 01:15:13.460 Why didn't you stop the shooting? 1121 01:15:14.730 --> 01:15:19.073 - Ah, the eternal question: why do bad things happen? 1122 01:15:20.270 --> 01:15:22.220 - I think that's a fair question, yeah. 1123 01:15:23.118 --> 01:15:25.370 - Sin's a terrible thing, Jim. 1124 01:15:25.370 --> 01:15:28.680 And it's prevalent everywhere in your society today. 1125 01:15:28.680 --> 01:15:30.670 Unfortunately, a lot of it gets passed off 1126 01:15:30.670 --> 01:15:32.760 as political correctness; 1127 01:15:32.760 --> 01:15:36.063 but I can assure you much of it is still sin. 1128 01:15:37.798 --> 01:15:39.620 When something like this happens, 1129 01:15:39.620 --> 01:15:42.340 the first question people ask believers is 1130 01:15:43.490 --> 01:15:45.140 where was God when this happened? 1131 01:15:46.140 --> 01:15:47.523 It's an easy excuse. 1132 01:15:49.180 --> 01:15:51.750 - Well, I can't blame 'em. 1133 01:15:51.750 --> 01:15:53.053 I've asked the same thing. 1134 01:15:54.851 --> 01:15:57.710 - You wanna know why he didn't get involved 1135 01:15:57.710 --> 01:15:59.410 when the bad things happened here? 1136 01:16:00.300 --> 01:16:02.750 At the same time, no one wants to admit 1137 01:16:02.750 --> 01:16:04.653 to that which is evident of him. 1138 01:16:05.530 --> 01:16:09.300 But here's the thing: He does get involved 1139 01:16:09.300 --> 01:16:13.070 with everything that goes on here, good and bad. 1140 01:16:13.070 --> 01:16:15.530 It's not that he allows it to happen; 1141 01:16:15.530 --> 01:16:18.710 it's that he allows people to make their own choices, 1142 01:16:18.710 --> 01:16:20.963 good and bad. 1143 01:16:22.290 --> 01:16:25.363 - No father should have to bury his own child. 1144 01:16:27.610 --> 01:16:31.230 And today, I had to lower my daughter's body 1145 01:16:31.230 --> 01:16:32.853 into a hole in the ground. 1146 01:16:34.810 --> 01:16:36.560 - You know what else you did today? 1147 01:16:37.630 --> 01:16:40.173 You finished the process of giving her to him. 1148 01:16:41.510 --> 01:16:43.430 She gave herself to him a few months ago, 1149 01:16:43.430 --> 01:16:46.463 but today her time on earth was finished. 1150 01:16:48.210 --> 01:16:49.860 You asked me a lotta questions today 1151 01:16:49.860 --> 01:16:51.410 and I've given you all the answers, 1152 01:16:51.410 --> 01:16:53.310 even the ones you didn't want to hear. 1153 01:16:55.760 --> 01:16:57.460 But why don't you ask the question 1154 01:16:57.460 --> 01:17:01.453 that you really wanna know, the real reason why I'm here? 1155 01:17:04.850 --> 01:17:07.593 - Alright fine, you want the question? 1156 01:17:10.610 --> 01:17:11.703 Why her? 1157 01:17:12.940 --> 01:17:14.603 Why an 11 year old girl? 1158 01:17:15.950 --> 01:17:18.560 She didn't even get a chance to live! 1159 01:17:18.560 --> 01:17:20.480 At least it could've been me. 1160 01:17:20.480 --> 01:17:23.140 I've already lived at least for some. 1161 01:17:23.140 --> 01:17:24.180 You want a question? 1162 01:17:24.180 --> 01:17:26.257 That's my question; why her?! 1163 01:17:28.020 --> 01:17:29.970 - Are you sure you want an explanation? 1164 01:17:31.000 --> 01:17:34.000 D'you really want to know why innocents suffer? 1165 01:17:34.000 --> 01:17:36.040 'Cause I don't think you do. 1166 01:17:36.040 --> 01:17:38.803 I think you're far better off with the than the answer. 1167 01:17:39.660 --> 01:17:40.913 - More riddles. 1168 01:17:43.169 --> 01:17:45.280 - What if you finally got an answer? 1169 01:17:45.280 --> 01:17:48.150 What if I gave you a satisfactory explanation? 1170 01:17:48.150 --> 01:17:49.993 What if the mystery were solved? 1171 01:17:51.800 --> 01:17:55.623 What if you asked why and actually got an answer? 1172 01:17:57.430 --> 01:17:59.240 - Well I don't know, 1173 01:17:59.240 --> 01:18:02.110 then maybe all of this would make sense. 1174 01:18:02.110 --> 01:18:03.763 - If this question were answered, 1175 01:18:05.020 --> 01:18:07.080 then you would be able to make peace 1176 01:18:07.080 --> 01:18:08.973 with the suffering of innocents. 1177 01:18:10.370 --> 01:18:12.470 Worse than innocent people suffering 1178 01:18:12.470 --> 01:18:14.940 is others watching the suffering unmoved 1179 01:18:14.940 --> 01:18:16.823 and that's exactly what would happen. 1180 01:18:18.100 --> 01:18:20.703 You'd no longer be bothered by their cries. 1181 01:18:21.550 --> 01:18:23.200 You would no longer feel their pain 1182 01:18:23.200 --> 01:18:25.150 'cause you'd know why it was happening. 1183 01:18:26.843 --> 01:18:31.843 If ya had an explanation, the pain wouldn't seem so bad 1184 01:18:32.440 --> 01:18:34.020 and you could tolerate the suffering 1185 01:18:34.020 --> 01:18:36.220 because you would know why it was happening. 1186 01:18:37.810 --> 01:18:39.660 - Well then what am I supposed to do? 1187 01:18:41.580 --> 01:18:42.413 - Look to him. 1188 01:18:43.610 --> 01:18:46.920 Don't look to the world to help to take your pain away 1189 01:18:48.070 --> 01:18:51.803 'cause the world can't do that, only Jesus can. 1190 01:18:52.870 --> 01:18:55.523 - So then everything just gets better? 1191 01:18:56.600 --> 01:18:59.730 - No, salvation doesn't excuse you 1192 01:18:59.730 --> 01:19:01.130 from the pain and suffering. 1193 01:19:02.330 --> 01:19:05.060 Salvation gives you a destination 1194 01:19:05.060 --> 01:19:07.260 after you've endured the pain and suffering. 1195 01:19:08.210 --> 01:19:09.363 Brittany knew this. 1196 01:19:10.550 --> 01:19:12.083 She knew this despite everything 1197 01:19:12.083 --> 01:19:13.723 that was going on around her, 1198 01:19:15.699 --> 01:19:17.023 and she knew where she was going. 1199 01:19:19.280 --> 01:19:20.433 - So she's in eternity? 1200 01:19:24.732 --> 01:19:26.032 That's what she mentioned. 1201 01:19:26.960 --> 01:19:28.060 That's where she's at. 1202 01:19:30.390 --> 01:19:32.483 - She is and she's waiting. 1203 01:19:33.350 --> 01:19:34.450 She's waiting for you. 1204 01:19:36.470 --> 01:19:38.460 - You mean I can see her? 1205 01:19:38.460 --> 01:19:39.293 - Yes. 1206 01:19:40.240 --> 01:19:42.720 Mankind is always saying that seeing is believing 1207 01:19:43.720 --> 01:19:48.720 and I'm telling you, you got to believe in order to see. 1208 01:20:01.873 --> 01:20:03.373 - I wanna believe, 1209 01:20:07.143 --> 01:20:09.807 but it's just been so long since I had him. 1210 01:20:12.240 --> 01:20:15.403 I just don't know if I can believe anymore. 1211 01:20:19.192 --> 01:20:20.380 I just, 1212 01:20:20.380 --> 01:20:21.213 I can't. 1213 01:20:23.130 --> 01:20:23.963 - You can. 1214 01:20:25.560 --> 01:20:28.220 In all that you been searching for and longing for 1215 01:20:28.220 --> 01:20:29.953 can't be found here on earth. 1216 01:20:31.040 --> 01:20:35.713 It can only be found through him, though salvation. 1217 01:20:42.010 --> 01:20:44.013 - I'm just so tired. 1218 01:20:47.690 --> 01:20:49.823 I am tired of fighting. 1219 01:20:50.740 --> 01:20:52.513 I'm tired of failing. 1220 01:20:54.280 --> 01:20:55.113 - Of falling? 1221 01:20:56.900 --> 01:20:57.733 - Yeah. 1222 01:21:00.450 --> 01:21:01.613 Can you take that away? 1223 01:21:02.530 --> 01:21:07.530 - I can't, but he can and you can rest, Jim. 1224 01:21:09.433 --> 01:21:13.440 You can rest in him and you don't have to be afraid. 1225 01:21:13.440 --> 01:21:15.013 You can stop being afraid. 1226 01:21:16.380 --> 01:21:20.523 You heard from your dad, now listen to your real father. 1227 01:21:21.370 --> 01:21:23.380 - [Brittany] He saved me, daddy. 1228 01:21:23.380 --> 01:21:26.660 I was scared, really scared. 1229 01:21:26.660 --> 01:21:27.843 I was lost. 1230 01:21:29.107 --> 01:21:30.107 He saved me. 1231 01:21:32.777 --> 01:21:34.070 - I miss her so bad 1232 01:21:38.051 --> 01:21:40.430 and I didn't even get to say goodbye. 1233 01:21:40.430 --> 01:21:41.263 - I know. 1234 01:21:42.270 --> 01:21:45.403 I know all that and it's not too late. 1235 01:21:50.250 --> 01:21:51.083 - I need. 1236 01:21:54.360 --> 01:21:56.030 I need. 1237 01:21:56.030 --> 01:21:57.900 - He knows what you need. 1238 01:21:57.900 --> 01:21:58.900 He knows everything. 1239 01:22:00.020 --> 01:22:03.173 What you need is him in your heart. 1240 01:22:04.443 --> 01:22:05.943 - Then just take it then. 1241 01:22:09.450 --> 01:22:12.063 Take away the hurt; take away the pain. 1242 01:22:13.420 --> 01:22:15.853 I'm tired of carryin' this with me. 1243 01:22:21.320 --> 01:22:22.893 Please, just take it. 1244 01:22:24.930 --> 01:22:25.880 - Rest in him, Jim. 1245 01:22:31.925 --> 01:22:34.508 - I have no idea what I'm doing 1246 01:22:36.290 --> 01:22:39.103 and they say that you are the one 1247 01:22:39.103 --> 01:22:41.134 that can relieve me of this pain. 1248 01:22:41.134 --> 01:22:46.134 ♪ When life is not all that I hoped it would be ♪ 1249 01:22:47.827 --> 01:22:52.577 ♪ And my vision is so cloudy I can't see ♪ 1250 01:22:53.560 --> 01:22:57.823 - If this is what it takes, then this is what I wanna give. 1251 01:22:59.253 --> 01:23:03.503 ♪ Ooh so broken I fall to my knees ♪ 1252 01:23:06.750 --> 01:23:09.160 - I'm sorry for the sin in my life. 1253 01:23:09.160 --> 01:23:11.263 I'm sorry for all the trouble I've caused. 1254 01:23:12.182 --> 01:23:16.255 ♪ You rescue me ♪ 1255 01:23:16.255 --> 01:23:20.432 ♪ And it's from your love ♪ 1256 01:23:20.432 --> 01:23:23.453 - If you'll just forgive me. 1257 01:23:23.453 --> 01:23:28.453 ♪ That I find mercy in your embrace ♪ 1258 01:23:30.138 --> 01:23:32.721 ♪ Your embrace ♪ 1259 01:23:35.443 --> 01:23:40.265 - (weeps) I can't do this on my own. 1260 01:23:40.265 --> 01:23:42.432 I can't do this on my own. 1261 01:23:43.653 --> 01:23:48.653 ♪ And my heart and soul just wants to mourn ♪ 1262 01:23:49.201 --> 01:23:53.034 ♪ And nothing in all on earth ♪ 1263 01:23:54.326 --> 01:23:57.040 - I need you in my heart. 1264 01:23:57.040 --> 01:23:58.783 I need you to guide me. 1265 01:23:58.783 --> 01:24:01.952 ♪ I cry out to you Lord ♪ 1266 01:24:01.952 --> 01:24:03.376 ♪ I cry out ♪ 1267 01:24:03.376 --> 01:24:06.423 ♪ You hear my plea ♪ 1268 01:24:06.423 --> 01:24:10.365 ♪ You rescue me ♪ 1269 01:24:10.365 --> 01:24:15.365 ♪ And it's from your love and infinite grace ♪ 1270 01:24:17.426 --> 01:24:21.759 ♪ That I find mercy in your embrace ♪ 1271 01:24:42.800 --> 01:24:43.750 - You've come back. 1272 01:24:45.226 --> 01:24:46.059 - What? 1273 01:24:46.059 --> 01:24:47.363 What are you staring at? 1274 01:24:51.056 --> 01:24:51.889 What? 1275 01:24:51.889 --> 01:24:53.189 Why are you staring at me? 1276 01:24:54.980 --> 01:24:55.813 What?! 1277 01:24:57.000 --> 01:24:58.780 - Okay I get it, Brit. 1278 01:24:58.780 --> 01:24:59.613 I understand. 1279 01:25:00.580 --> 01:25:01.413 - Okay? 1280 01:25:02.580 --> 01:25:04.260 - I'm just so glad you're back. 1281 01:25:04.260 --> 01:25:06.243 I didn't think I would ever see you again. 1282 01:25:07.440 --> 01:25:08.700 - Back? 1283 01:25:08.700 --> 01:25:09.920 Back from where? 1284 01:25:09.920 --> 01:25:11.333 Dad, what are you talking about? 1285 01:25:11.333 --> 01:25:12.850 - Back from there. 1286 01:25:12.850 --> 01:25:14.360 Back from him. 1287 01:25:14.360 --> 01:25:17.190 I mean I can understand why you wouldn't wanna come back. 1288 01:25:17.190 --> 01:25:19.713 I mean it's gotta be unbelievable. 1289 01:25:20.560 --> 01:25:22.570 - Dad, you're kinda freaking me out. 1290 01:25:22.570 --> 01:25:24.130 - Look, it all makes sense now. 1291 01:25:24.130 --> 01:25:25.670 I understand. 1292 01:25:25.670 --> 01:25:26.503 - I gotta go. 1293 01:25:26.503 --> 01:25:27.513 - Wait a minute, go? 1294 01:25:28.440 --> 01:25:29.910 - I gotta go or I'll be late. 1295 01:25:29.910 --> 01:25:30.743 - Go where? 1296 01:25:30.743 --> 01:25:32.720 - I gotta go to school. 1297 01:25:32.720 --> 01:25:35.580 See ya in two weeks. - Wait wait wait. 1298 01:25:35.580 --> 01:25:36.630 Just a minute, honey. 1299 01:25:37.610 --> 01:25:39.010 - Dad. 1300 01:25:39.010 --> 01:25:40.923 - Look, he's given me a second chance. 1301 01:25:42.120 --> 01:25:43.970 - I'm gonna miss my bus, what? 1302 01:25:43.970 --> 01:25:46.944 - He's given me a second chance to make it right. 1303 01:25:46.944 --> 01:25:48.820 - I'm not gonna make it to school, dad. 1304 01:25:48.820 --> 01:25:51.090 - You're here with me right now, okay? 1305 01:25:51.090 --> 01:25:53.896 And he's given me another chance to make this right. 1306 01:25:53.896 --> 01:25:55.120 - My bus. 1307 01:25:55.120 --> 01:25:56.820 - Don't worry about the bus, okay? 1308 01:25:58.870 --> 01:26:00.470 Don't worry about anything. 1309 01:26:00.470 --> 01:26:01.303 Hold on. 1310 01:26:08.561 --> 01:26:09.880 - [Dispatcher] 911, what's your emergency? 1311 01:26:09.880 --> 01:26:13.360 - Yeah I need to report something, a shooting. 1312 01:26:13.360 --> 01:26:14.540 - [Dispatcher] Report what, sir? 1313 01:26:14.540 --> 01:26:15.560 What's the emergency? 1314 01:26:15.560 --> 01:26:19.037 - There's a shooting at Liberty Middle School. 1315 01:26:19.037 --> 01:26:20.680 - [Dispatcher] There's a shooter at the school? 1316 01:26:20.680 --> 01:26:21.730 Are you at the school, sir? 1317 01:26:21.730 --> 01:26:23.420 - No, I'm not there. 1318 01:26:23.420 --> 01:26:26.310 The shooting hasn't happened yet, but it's going to. 1319 01:26:26.310 --> 01:26:27.230 - [Dispatcher] Sir, are you-- 1320 01:26:27.230 --> 01:26:29.113 - Just get someone to the school now! 1321 01:26:31.570 --> 01:26:33.940 - Dad, what's going on? 1322 01:26:33.940 --> 01:26:35.669 - Hold on, hold on. 1323 01:26:35.669 --> 01:26:39.247 (inspirational piano music) 1324 01:26:39.247 --> 01:26:41.230 - [Brittany] What are you doing with that? 1325 01:26:41.230 --> 01:26:44.213 - Oh I'm sorry, honey. 1326 01:26:46.120 --> 01:26:47.927 I'm just so proud of you, you know? 1327 01:26:49.090 --> 01:26:49.923 - Whatever. 1328 01:26:49.923 --> 01:26:51.970 You gotta drive me to school. 1329 01:26:51.970 --> 01:26:52.803 - Yeah. 1330 01:26:55.500 --> 01:26:56.333 You know what? 1331 01:26:58.230 --> 01:27:00.130 We're gonna take the day off together. 1332 01:27:01.329 --> 01:27:02.162 - What? 1333 01:27:02.162 --> 01:27:02.995 - You're not gonna go to school 1334 01:27:02.995 --> 01:27:04.070 and I'm not gonna go to work. 1335 01:27:04.070 --> 01:27:06.083 - No school? - No school. 1336 01:27:06.950 --> 01:27:07.783 - Fine with me. 1337 01:27:09.302 --> 01:27:10.623 - You know what else, Brit? 1338 01:27:12.410 --> 01:27:15.590 Every day I promise you, you're gonna know 1339 01:27:15.590 --> 01:27:16.803 how much I love you. 1340 01:27:17.840 --> 01:27:19.190 Every day from here on out. 1341 01:27:23.782 --> 01:27:24.699 I love you. 1342 01:27:30.230 --> 01:27:35.230 So you wanna go get some breakfast? 1343 01:27:37.146 --> 01:27:38.380 - I'd like that, daddy. 1344 01:27:38.380 --> 01:27:40.283 Then maybe we can go rock climbing? 1345 01:27:41.240 --> 01:27:43.420 - Yeah, yeah sure. 1346 01:27:43.420 --> 01:27:46.140 Let's call your mom and see if she wants to go. 1347 01:27:46.140 --> 01:27:48.993 - As a family? - Sure, as a family. 1348 01:27:51.610 --> 01:27:54.580 ("Stay" by Jeff Kunzel) 1349 01:27:54.580 --> 01:27:57.483 ♪ Stay ♪ 1350 01:27:57.483 --> 01:28:00.933 ♪ With me ♪ 1351 01:28:00.933 --> 01:28:05.933 ♪ Just stay with me ♪ 1352 01:28:07.306 --> 01:28:12.306 ♪ Don't leave ♪ 1353 01:28:13.268 --> 01:28:18.268 ♪ Don't leave ♪ 1354 01:28:19.026 --> 01:28:24.026 ♪ You don't have to go ♪ 1355 01:28:25.035 --> 01:28:30.035 ♪ I'll be waitin' on those stairs ♪ 1356 01:28:32.146 --> 01:28:37.146 ♪ We don't have to turn (mumbles) ♪ 1357 01:28:38.522 --> 01:28:43.522 ♪ What will (mumbles) ♪ 1358 01:28:46.079 --> 01:28:49.542 ♪ Just stay ♪ 1359 01:28:49.542 --> 01:28:52.852 ♪ With me ♪ 1360 01:28:52.852 --> 01:28:57.852 ♪ Stay with me ♪ 1361 01:28:58.993 --> 01:29:03.993 ♪ Don't leave ♪ 1362 01:29:05.150 --> 01:29:10.150 ♪ Don't leave ♪ 1363 01:29:12.004 --> 01:29:15.111 ♪ Just stay ♪ 1364 01:29:15.111 --> 01:29:18.325 ♪ With me ♪ 1365 01:29:18.325 --> 01:29:23.325 ♪ Just stay with me ♪ 1366 01:29:25.256 --> 01:29:30.256 ♪ Don't leave ♪ 1367 01:29:31.213 --> 01:29:36.213 ♪ Don't leave ♪ 1368 01:29:36.967 --> 01:29:41.967 ♪ I know that you'll stay ♪ 1369 01:29:42.750 --> 01:29:47.750 ♪ I know life can be that way ♪ 1370 01:29:49.345 --> 01:29:54.345 ♪ I know the demons that you facin' now ♪ 1371 01:29:56.100 --> 01:30:01.100 ♪ I face mine every day ♪ 1372 01:30:02.833 --> 01:30:06.166 ♪ So why don't you stay ♪