1 00:00:01,489 --> 00:00:04,489 (soft somber music) 2 00:00:02,000 --> 00:00:07,000 Downloaded from YTS.MX 3 00:00:08,000 --> 00:00:13,000 Official YIFY movies site: YTS.MX 4 00:00:19,471 --> 00:00:22,221 (heart thumping) 5 00:01:27,874 --> 00:01:30,541 (clock ticking) 6 00:01:51,926 --> 00:01:53,415 (foreboding orchestral music) 7 00:01:53,415 --> 00:01:56,165 (Jimmy grunting) 8 00:01:59,916 --> 00:02:03,583 (Jimmy weeping and yelling) 9 00:02:23,697 --> 00:02:26,447 (fire crackling) 10 00:02:38,601 --> 00:02:41,459 - [Susan] (chuckles) You're gimpy. 11 00:02:41,459 --> 00:02:44,812 (playful organ music) 12 00:02:44,812 --> 00:02:47,729 Oh but dad's goin' all crazy on us. 13 00:03:14,735 --> 00:03:17,735 (cellphone ringing) 14 00:03:28,272 --> 00:03:31,272 (soft somber music) 15 00:04:15,812 --> 00:04:18,812 (soft serene music) 16 00:04:41,450 --> 00:04:43,223 - How'd you sleep last night, baby? 17 00:04:46,095 --> 00:04:46,928 - Fine. 18 00:04:53,060 --> 00:04:54,627 - Your mom called, 19 00:04:54,627 --> 00:04:56,190 so you won't have to worry 'bout catchin' the bus. 20 00:04:56,190 --> 00:04:58,808 She's gonna pick you up. 21 00:04:58,808 --> 00:04:59,641 - Okay. 22 00:05:01,770 --> 00:05:03,670 - I'm glad you came over this weekend. 23 00:05:10,360 --> 00:05:12,460 Hey, maybe next weekend we can go bowling. 24 00:05:15,100 --> 00:05:15,933 - Sure, dad. 25 00:05:17,903 --> 00:05:18,850 (car horn honking) 26 00:05:18,850 --> 00:05:20,073 I gotta go. - Hey. 27 00:05:21,290 --> 00:05:22,740 - I gotta go or I'll be late. 28 00:05:23,850 --> 00:05:25,203 See ya in two weeks. 29 00:05:27,450 --> 00:05:28,283 - Love you, too. 30 00:05:33,218 --> 00:05:36,551 (soft orchestral music) 31 00:06:03,301 --> 00:06:05,413 (cellphone ringing) 32 00:06:05,413 --> 00:06:06,853 - [Susan] What do you want me to do, Jimmy? 33 00:06:06,853 --> 00:06:09,250 - I want you to stop fillin' her head with that-- 34 00:06:09,250 --> 00:06:11,970 - Oh no, you are not gonna blame this on me. 35 00:06:11,970 --> 00:06:13,880 I can't fix your relationship with her. 36 00:06:13,880 --> 00:06:16,950 - There's nothin' wrong with our relationship, Susan. 37 00:06:16,950 --> 00:06:19,750 - Maybe if you spent more time with her when she's there 38 00:06:19,750 --> 00:06:21,810 and not hide in your office all day. 39 00:06:21,810 --> 00:06:24,460 - I didn't have to work so hard to pay the alimony, 40 00:06:24,460 --> 00:06:28,110 the child support and the car payment then maybe. 41 00:06:28,110 --> 00:06:30,800 - No, I'm not gonna let you turn this around on me; 42 00:06:30,800 --> 00:06:32,431 not this time. 43 00:06:32,431 --> 00:06:35,598 (cellphone dial tone) 44 00:06:38,375 --> 00:06:41,708 (soft orchestral music) 45 00:06:47,237 --> 00:06:49,987 (birds chirping) 46 00:07:11,119 --> 00:07:12,130 - Hey I know, Mark. 47 00:07:12,130 --> 00:07:15,300 Look they didn't get their shipment, okay? 48 00:07:15,300 --> 00:07:16,900 I told them to go ahead and call Ricky. 49 00:07:16,900 --> 00:07:17,823 Hang on a minute. 50 00:07:19,240 --> 00:07:21,283 Mark, I'm gonna have to call you back. It's my ex-wife. 51 00:07:23,430 --> 00:07:25,900 Look I've got nothin' else to say about this, Susan. 52 00:07:25,900 --> 00:07:27,590 I'm tired of listenin' to this stuff. 53 00:07:27,590 --> 00:07:29,660 - Did you see the news? - What? 54 00:07:29,660 --> 00:07:31,070 No, I just came home for lunch. 55 00:07:31,070 --> 00:07:34,200 - Turn on the news, Jim! - What? 56 00:07:34,200 --> 00:07:37,200 (soft somber music) 57 00:07:40,300 --> 00:07:42,330 - [Reporter] Police say that the two young men 58 00:07:42,330 --> 00:07:44,420 entered the school around nine o'clock. 59 00:07:44,420 --> 00:07:46,370 They opened to fire on the inside, 60 00:07:46,370 --> 00:07:49,100 shooting staffers of the school and students. 61 00:07:49,100 --> 00:07:50,160 - Brittany. - Then eventually 62 00:07:50,160 --> 00:07:51,548 committing suicide on the inside. 63 00:07:51,548 --> 00:07:52,381 - Oh god. 64 00:07:52,381 --> 00:07:53,214 - [Reporter] Authorities have been 65 00:07:53,214 --> 00:07:55,402 surrounding the area and trying to make sure. 66 00:07:55,402 --> 00:07:58,902 (somber orchestral music) 67 00:08:01,705 --> 00:08:02,538 - Hi, Jim. 68 00:08:03,887 --> 00:08:04,720 - Pastor. 69 00:08:06,883 --> 00:08:08,723 - We thought you might be hungry, honey. 70 00:08:10,117 --> 00:08:12,467 I can just put in the refrigerator; it'll keep. 71 00:08:13,669 --> 00:08:17,103 (birds chirping) 72 00:08:17,103 --> 00:08:19,730 - (sighs) How you holdin' up? 73 00:08:28,196 --> 00:08:30,260 It was beautiful service. 74 00:08:30,260 --> 00:08:31,160 Beautiful service. 75 00:08:38,440 --> 00:08:39,300 Look, Jim. 76 00:08:39,300 --> 00:08:41,020 - If you're gonna come over here 77 00:08:41,020 --> 00:08:43,870 and give me the whole Brittany's in a better place thing, 78 00:08:44,754 --> 00:08:45,837 just save it. 79 00:08:48,819 --> 00:08:51,520 - Jim, times like these, it's perfectly normal to-- 80 00:08:51,520 --> 00:08:53,213 - To what, to question? 81 00:08:56,810 --> 00:08:57,923 To ask why? 82 00:09:04,150 --> 00:09:06,393 Look I know why you're here, Calvin. 83 00:09:07,230 --> 00:09:08,773 I appreciate the food. 84 00:09:10,860 --> 00:09:13,180 There's nothin' that you can say, 85 00:09:13,180 --> 00:09:14,320 there's nothin' that you can do 86 00:09:14,320 --> 00:09:16,473 and there's nothing anybody can do. 87 00:09:21,320 --> 00:09:24,698 - Jim, I'm just tryin' to-- 88 00:09:24,698 --> 00:09:27,203 - You know every time somethin' like this happens, 89 00:09:30,940 --> 00:09:34,673 you all say it's all in God's plan. 90 00:09:41,431 --> 00:09:43,764 What about my plans, Calvin? 91 00:09:45,900 --> 00:09:48,250 What about Brittany's plans?! 92 00:09:48,250 --> 00:09:49,293 Don't they matter? 93 00:09:50,890 --> 00:09:54,293 Why is it just some plans of some ghost that matter? 94 00:09:56,030 --> 00:09:57,330 - Jim, I'm just-- - Look. 95 00:10:01,160 --> 00:10:02,803 I know what your job is, Calvin. 96 00:10:05,000 --> 00:10:06,430 You're to come over here and remind me 97 00:10:06,430 --> 00:10:10,600 that God is in control and we aren't in control. 98 00:10:10,600 --> 00:10:12,180 You're supposed to say the right things. 99 00:10:12,180 --> 00:10:14,080 You're supposed to do the right thing. 100 00:10:15,860 --> 00:10:16,693 - Jim. 101 00:10:16,693 --> 00:10:19,573 - Just save it, Pastor! 102 00:10:23,980 --> 00:10:26,160 Save it for someone who can use it. 103 00:10:32,270 --> 00:10:34,920 Save it for someone that might find some peace in it. 104 00:10:36,590 --> 00:10:39,340 (Jimmy sniffing) 105 00:10:44,040 --> 00:10:45,423 It was a beautiful service. 106 00:10:47,810 --> 00:10:48,643 Thank you. 107 00:10:52,280 --> 00:10:56,440 And I appreciate everything that you did for Susan and me. 108 00:10:57,990 --> 00:11:00,773 But honestly Pastor, you can just stop. 109 00:11:05,910 --> 00:11:07,803 Thank you for the food, Carol. 110 00:11:08,670 --> 00:11:10,343 - I think it's time we should go, Carol. 111 00:11:11,930 --> 00:11:14,710 - If there's anything, anything at all 112 00:11:14,710 --> 00:11:17,877 that we can do, would you let us know? 113 00:11:40,462 --> 00:11:43,962 (somber orchestral music) 114 00:12:28,773 --> 00:12:31,523 (Jimmy coughing) 115 00:13:11,550 --> 00:13:14,467 (soft piano music) 116 00:13:31,480 --> 00:13:32,630 - [Jimmy] For you, dad. 117 00:13:36,699 --> 00:13:38,480 (foreboding music) 118 00:13:38,480 --> 00:13:39,640 - [Dad] Why do you always have to light 119 00:13:39,640 --> 00:13:41,663 one of those stinkin' candles? 120 00:13:47,150 --> 00:13:47,983 - [Jimmy] Dad? 121 00:13:49,440 --> 00:13:53,840 - What is it inside of you that makes you have this need 122 00:13:53,840 --> 00:13:56,160 to light one of those scented candles 123 00:13:57,060 --> 00:13:58,923 every time you think about me? 124 00:14:00,760 --> 00:14:01,610 - [Jimmy] You're. 125 00:14:02,970 --> 00:14:03,803 - Dead? 126 00:14:04,770 --> 00:14:05,963 Yes I am, Jimmy. 127 00:14:08,150 --> 00:14:10,803 What's it been, 17 years now? 128 00:14:11,810 --> 00:14:12,983 Good to see you, boy. 129 00:14:21,010 --> 00:14:24,243 15 years of service and all you get's a flag. 130 00:14:25,460 --> 00:14:28,610 12 different posts, movin' you, 131 00:14:28,610 --> 00:14:31,650 your brother and your mom 12 times 132 00:14:33,214 --> 00:14:34,683 and all you get's a flag. 133 00:14:41,487 --> 00:14:43,904 It don't seem right, does it? 134 00:14:47,780 --> 00:14:49,233 - You never came home. 135 00:14:50,340 --> 00:14:51,783 - Oh yeah, sorry 'bout that. 136 00:14:55,030 --> 00:14:58,303 Jimmy, I can tell you're strugglin' with this. 137 00:14:59,830 --> 00:15:01,143 C'mon, sit down. 138 00:15:06,690 --> 00:15:07,523 - Dad, 139 00:15:10,890 --> 00:15:12,043 what are you doin' here? 140 00:15:13,140 --> 00:15:14,990 - Well Jimmy, I thought it was time 141 00:15:14,990 --> 00:15:18,133 that you and I had a little talk. 142 00:15:19,570 --> 00:15:20,533 - A little talk? 143 00:15:21,760 --> 00:15:23,390 - [Dad] Yeah. 144 00:15:23,390 --> 00:15:25,263 - You wanna talk? - Yeah. 145 00:15:26,350 --> 00:15:27,863 - Now you wanna talk. 146 00:15:28,720 --> 00:15:31,110 You never had time to talk before you-- 147 00:15:31,110 --> 00:15:31,943 - What? 148 00:15:33,480 --> 00:15:35,220 You can say it, Jimmy. 149 00:15:35,220 --> 00:15:36,600 I know where I am. 150 00:15:36,600 --> 00:15:37,793 Before I died? 151 00:15:40,210 --> 00:15:41,783 - You didn't just die, Dad. 152 00:15:43,670 --> 00:15:44,840 You. 153 00:15:44,840 --> 00:15:45,673 You. 154 00:15:47,120 --> 00:15:48,103 - Say it, Jimmy. 155 00:15:50,600 --> 00:15:54,422 - Why? - Because you need to say it. 156 00:15:54,422 --> 00:15:56,593 You need to say it and accept it. 157 00:15:58,300 --> 00:15:59,813 - I need to accept it? 158 00:16:00,960 --> 00:16:02,013 - Yes, you do. 159 00:16:04,350 --> 00:16:06,230 - You killed yourself, dad. 160 00:16:06,230 --> 00:16:07,980 - There it is. 161 00:16:07,980 --> 00:16:10,260 - You left us! - I know. 162 00:16:10,260 --> 00:16:11,880 - You never said goodbye. 163 00:16:11,880 --> 00:16:13,910 You never said anything. - You're right. 164 00:16:13,910 --> 00:16:15,893 - Stop agreein' with me! 165 00:16:18,760 --> 00:16:19,923 You were a coward. 166 00:16:21,490 --> 00:16:23,283 You took a coward's way out. 167 00:16:25,760 --> 00:16:27,940 - Is that what you really think? 168 00:16:27,940 --> 00:16:29,363 - Yeah, that's what I think. 169 00:16:31,370 --> 00:16:35,780 - So you actually believe it was easy 170 00:16:35,780 --> 00:16:37,393 for me to pull that trigger. 171 00:16:42,970 --> 00:16:44,900 - This, this. 172 00:16:44,900 --> 00:16:46,550 I ain't havin' this conversation. 173 00:16:48,662 --> 00:16:49,495 You're not real. 174 00:16:50,960 --> 00:16:52,053 - Look at me, Jimmy. 175 00:16:54,000 --> 00:16:55,313 Do I look real to you? 176 00:16:58,610 --> 00:17:02,373 - You are a figment of my imagination. 177 00:17:03,980 --> 00:17:06,223 You're a product of my grief, 178 00:17:08,203 --> 00:17:09,036 plus this. 179 00:17:10,240 --> 00:17:15,240 - Now that, that's somethin' I really miss. 180 00:17:17,790 --> 00:17:19,540 - I ain't havin' this conversation. 181 00:17:21,028 --> 00:17:22,273 You're just in my head. 182 00:17:23,410 --> 00:17:26,513 - You're right I am in your head. 183 00:17:27,820 --> 00:17:32,783 You see Jim, you and I we're really not so different. 184 00:17:33,790 --> 00:17:38,113 Your escape there, that's the same way I used to escape. 185 00:17:41,100 --> 00:17:41,933 Drinkin'. 186 00:17:43,210 --> 00:17:44,293 It's easy, isn't it? 187 00:17:45,510 --> 00:17:47,863 - What? - Your escape. 188 00:17:49,410 --> 00:17:52,630 The world just gets too tough. 189 00:17:52,630 --> 00:17:55,020 It gets too real. 190 00:17:55,020 --> 00:17:56,653 It gets too scary. 191 00:17:59,610 --> 00:18:03,703 But drinkin', that's an easy escape. 192 00:18:05,740 --> 00:18:06,693 - Scared? 193 00:18:07,550 --> 00:18:09,140 You? 194 00:18:09,140 --> 00:18:10,840 You were never scared of anything. 195 00:18:12,650 --> 00:18:13,483 - Oh, Jim. 196 00:18:14,440 --> 00:18:16,900 Son, I was scared of everything. 197 00:18:16,900 --> 00:18:19,093 Everything: the world, 198 00:18:20,040 --> 00:18:23,030 your mom, you and your brother. 199 00:18:23,030 --> 00:18:25,033 Well, I was terrified of my own self. 200 00:18:26,550 --> 00:18:29,490 - No no, that's a bunch of bull. 201 00:18:29,490 --> 00:18:31,083 You were a rock. 202 00:18:34,120 --> 00:18:37,083 - That's just what I let you guys believe, all of you. 203 00:18:39,680 --> 00:18:41,363 - Who says somethin' like that? 204 00:18:42,430 --> 00:18:44,793 How can you be scared of mom and us? 205 00:18:48,040 --> 00:18:50,120 - Your mom was a saint. 206 00:18:50,120 --> 00:18:53,180 She was perfect in every way. 207 00:18:53,180 --> 00:18:55,480 She loved everybody. 208 00:18:55,480 --> 00:18:59,620 She saw the best in everybody, even me. 209 00:18:59,620 --> 00:19:02,133 I didn't understand that, but she did. 210 00:19:03,490 --> 00:19:06,710 Now how am I supposed to live up to that? 211 00:19:06,710 --> 00:19:09,030 - She loved you, dad. 212 00:19:09,030 --> 00:19:12,180 - I know she did and I didn't know why. 213 00:19:12,180 --> 00:19:14,543 - No no, she loved you. 214 00:19:15,777 --> 00:19:16,610 I don't get it. 215 00:19:17,550 --> 00:19:22,440 You find someone like mom, someone that loves you. 216 00:19:22,440 --> 00:19:27,410 Someone that wanted to give you everything and you? 217 00:19:27,410 --> 00:19:29,180 - You can say it, Jim. 218 00:19:29,180 --> 00:19:30,013 I know. 219 00:19:31,200 --> 00:19:33,083 - You broke her heart, dad! 220 00:19:34,110 --> 00:19:34,943 - I know. 221 00:19:36,920 --> 00:19:37,753 - Why? 222 00:19:38,760 --> 00:19:40,520 Why'd you do it? 223 00:19:40,520 --> 00:19:41,670 Why'd you slap her around? 224 00:19:41,670 --> 00:19:43,603 Why'd you tear her down like that? 225 00:19:46,550 --> 00:19:48,300 - Because she was better than me 226 00:19:51,411 --> 00:19:52,561 and I hated her for it. 227 00:19:53,978 --> 00:19:56,380 But you know what's crazier than that? 228 00:19:56,380 --> 00:19:58,393 I hated myself for hatin' her. 229 00:19:59,890 --> 00:20:04,550 Jim, I was taught to always be the best, 230 00:20:04,550 --> 00:20:06,070 no matter what. 231 00:20:06,070 --> 00:20:10,080 At all cost, always be the best. 232 00:20:10,080 --> 00:20:11,410 The Army taught me that way. 233 00:20:11,410 --> 00:20:13,780 My dad taught me that way. 234 00:20:13,780 --> 00:20:16,490 I mean it didn't matter about anything else. 235 00:20:16,490 --> 00:20:18,850 Just whatever it was that I was doin', 236 00:20:18,850 --> 00:20:21,530 I had to always be the best. 237 00:20:21,530 --> 00:20:25,313 And when it came to your mother, I just could never do it. 238 00:20:26,330 --> 00:20:29,510 - Do what, live up to her expectations? 239 00:20:29,510 --> 00:20:32,253 - No Jim, live up to mine. 240 00:20:33,110 --> 00:20:36,060 Live up to my expectations. 241 00:20:36,060 --> 00:20:39,330 I could never be what or who she wanted me to be. 242 00:20:39,330 --> 00:20:43,700 - All she wanted from you is to love her and to love us. 243 00:20:43,700 --> 00:20:48,540 Just to be a good husband and a good father and you. 244 00:20:48,540 --> 00:20:50,200 - I couldn't do it. 245 00:20:50,200 --> 00:20:51,220 I couldn't do it, Jim. 246 00:20:51,220 --> 00:20:52,410 You're absolutely right. 247 00:20:52,410 --> 00:20:54,430 I couldn't do any of it. 248 00:20:54,430 --> 00:20:57,120 I couldn't be what she wanted me to be. 249 00:20:57,120 --> 00:21:00,380 I couldn't be what you guys needed me to be. 250 00:21:00,380 --> 00:21:01,780 I just didn't have it in me. 251 00:21:01,780 --> 00:21:03,090 I couldn't do any of it. 252 00:21:03,090 --> 00:21:04,660 You're absolutely right. 253 00:21:04,660 --> 00:21:05,707 It made me-- 254 00:21:07,680 --> 00:21:09,260 - What, 255 00:21:09,260 --> 00:21:10,203 sad? 256 00:21:11,290 --> 00:21:14,533 It made you feel sad, angry? 257 00:21:15,600 --> 00:21:17,000 - Weak. 258 00:21:17,000 --> 00:21:21,810 It made me feel weak and I hated feelin' weak. 259 00:21:21,810 --> 00:21:26,810 - So to be the big man, you had to knock us around? 260 00:21:27,227 --> 00:21:31,390 - [Dad] (chuckles softly) Oh, Jim. 261 00:21:31,390 --> 00:21:32,913 - Ya think this is funny? 262 00:21:36,020 --> 00:21:37,670 - What I think is funny, Jim, 263 00:21:37,670 --> 00:21:41,510 is that you think that we're so different. 264 00:21:41,510 --> 00:21:43,633 - I never laid a hand on anyone. 265 00:21:44,800 --> 00:21:46,223 - It doesn't matter, Jim. 266 00:21:47,120 --> 00:21:48,223 You're so stupid. 267 00:21:49,290 --> 00:21:54,290 You think just because you didn't hit Susan and Brittany 268 00:21:54,480 --> 00:21:58,300 that makes you a great dad and father. 269 00:21:58,300 --> 00:22:00,770 You think just because you didn't hit them 270 00:22:00,770 --> 00:22:02,520 that you weren't abusive. 271 00:22:02,520 --> 00:22:05,800 - I never abused them! - You ignored them. 272 00:22:06,970 --> 00:22:08,560 They weren't important enough to you, 273 00:22:08,560 --> 00:22:12,060 so you just didn't bother. - I love my daughter! 274 00:22:12,060 --> 00:22:15,040 - You love the idea of havin' a daughter. 275 00:22:15,040 --> 00:22:17,760 You love the idea of bein' a father and a husband. 276 00:22:17,760 --> 00:22:21,490 You love that, but you didn't want the responsibility 277 00:22:21,490 --> 00:22:22,740 that came with it. 278 00:22:22,740 --> 00:22:25,560 - You don't know what you're talkin' about! 279 00:22:25,560 --> 00:22:28,470 - I know exactly what I'm talkin' about, Jim. 280 00:22:28,470 --> 00:22:31,220 I know because I was the same way. 281 00:22:31,220 --> 00:22:35,320 I felt the same way; I did the same things. 282 00:22:35,320 --> 00:22:38,770 - If you hated us so much, then why'd you adopt us? 283 00:22:38,770 --> 00:22:40,397 Why did you even bother?! 284 00:22:47,950 --> 00:22:49,293 - Because of your mother. 285 00:22:50,550 --> 00:22:51,973 She wanted you guys. 286 00:22:55,010 --> 00:22:58,280 Your mother was best friends with your real mother 287 00:22:59,710 --> 00:23:02,960 and she was there by her side in the hospital 288 00:23:02,960 --> 00:23:06,683 after the accident and we agreed to take you guys. 289 00:23:08,690 --> 00:23:11,650 - So she knew our real mother? 290 00:23:11,650 --> 00:23:12,843 - We both did. 291 00:23:12,843 --> 00:23:15,480 Your real mother didn't have any family 292 00:23:15,480 --> 00:23:17,320 and she was scared to death that you boys 293 00:23:17,320 --> 00:23:19,253 would wind up in foster care; 294 00:23:20,330 --> 00:23:21,263 so we took you. 295 00:23:23,730 --> 00:23:25,630 - So you really didn't really want us? 296 00:23:26,760 --> 00:23:28,853 - Honestly, no. 297 00:23:30,790 --> 00:23:33,120 No, I didn't wanna be a dad. 298 00:23:33,120 --> 00:23:34,933 I didn't want the responsibility. 299 00:23:36,070 --> 00:23:37,763 I was just like you, Jim. 300 00:23:38,760 --> 00:23:40,540 You didn't want Brittany. 301 00:23:40,540 --> 00:23:42,920 You don't have to deny it now, Jim. 302 00:23:42,920 --> 00:23:44,603 You're just lyin' to yourself. 303 00:23:45,490 --> 00:23:48,860 - All I know is that I hated you while you were alive 304 00:23:48,860 --> 00:23:51,820 and I haven't given you a second thought since you died. 305 00:23:55,332 --> 00:23:56,393 - Then why am I here? 306 00:23:59,740 --> 00:24:00,833 - You're not here. 307 00:24:02,540 --> 00:24:03,723 You're here. 308 00:24:05,750 --> 00:24:07,653 - I've always been there, Jim. 309 00:24:08,550 --> 00:24:11,200 You can say all you want that you haven't given me 310 00:24:11,200 --> 00:24:13,260 a second thought since I died, 311 00:24:13,260 --> 00:24:15,260 but you're just lyin' to yourself again. 312 00:24:16,210 --> 00:24:18,193 I've been there the whole time. 313 00:24:19,230 --> 00:24:20,063 - But why? 314 00:24:24,420 --> 00:24:26,153 I knew you didn't care about us. 315 00:24:28,200 --> 00:24:31,740 I knew who and what you were. 316 00:24:31,740 --> 00:24:33,283 - Then why was I there, Jim? 317 00:24:35,420 --> 00:24:38,387 Because you've always known that we're not that different. 318 00:24:39,840 --> 00:24:42,850 - If we're the same, it's because you made me this way. 319 00:24:42,850 --> 00:24:46,593 - Maybe, but maybe that's just the way you're wired. 320 00:24:48,470 --> 00:24:49,820 - I want you outta my head. 321 00:24:51,160 --> 00:24:52,603 - I don't think you do, Jim. 322 00:24:53,600 --> 00:24:56,230 I think you've always needed me. 323 00:24:56,230 --> 00:24:59,350 See, as long as I'm up there in your head, 324 00:24:59,350 --> 00:25:00,773 you've got an excuse. 325 00:25:01,630 --> 00:25:05,540 Everything you are, everything you've done 326 00:25:05,540 --> 00:25:06,933 you can blame it on me. 327 00:25:08,230 --> 00:25:09,810 You can blame it on me 328 00:25:09,810 --> 00:25:12,520 and not take any responsibility for it. 329 00:25:12,520 --> 00:25:17,520 As long as I'm around, you can justify what you are. 330 00:25:17,700 --> 00:25:18,870 - That's not true. 331 00:25:18,870 --> 00:25:19,970 - It is true, Jim. 332 00:25:19,970 --> 00:25:24,190 For years you been usin' me to justify who you were. 333 00:25:24,190 --> 00:25:25,570 - Get outta here! 334 00:25:25,570 --> 00:25:26,867 - It's not that easy, Jim. 335 00:25:26,867 --> 00:25:29,130 - I want you outta my head. 336 00:25:29,130 --> 00:25:30,170 - It doesn't work that way. 337 00:25:30,170 --> 00:25:31,693 - Get away from me! 338 00:25:32,940 --> 00:25:35,953 - Only you can make that happen. 339 00:25:38,190 --> 00:25:39,313 - Shut up. 340 00:25:40,960 --> 00:25:44,613 I'm not you and I'm not gonna do that. 341 00:25:45,690 --> 00:25:47,130 - Why not? 342 00:25:47,130 --> 00:25:47,963 C'mon, Jim. 343 00:25:49,260 --> 00:25:52,423 Your wife left you, your daughter's gone. 344 00:25:53,350 --> 00:25:56,160 You hate your job, what've you got to lose? 345 00:25:56,160 --> 00:25:57,870 - Just because you couldn't handle it 346 00:25:57,870 --> 00:25:59,253 doesn't mean that I can't. 347 00:26:00,150 --> 00:26:04,500 - Is that what life's all about is just handling it? 348 00:26:04,500 --> 00:26:08,833 Yeah gettin' through another day; enduring the misery. 349 00:26:10,340 --> 00:26:12,260 - It's my life, dad. 350 00:26:12,260 --> 00:26:15,220 I'll handle mine my way, you handle yours yours. 351 00:26:15,220 --> 00:26:18,730 - Oh yeah, you done a real good job of that so far. 352 00:26:18,730 --> 00:26:20,220 Haven't you, son? 353 00:26:20,220 --> 00:26:21,550 - What do you know? 354 00:26:21,550 --> 00:26:24,993 - I know everything that you know, Jim. 355 00:26:26,110 --> 00:26:26,943 - Right 356 00:26:27,930 --> 00:26:29,680 'cause we're the same. 357 00:26:29,680 --> 00:26:32,023 - You don't get it Jim, do ya? 358 00:26:33,870 --> 00:26:34,703 I am you. 359 00:26:39,750 --> 00:26:40,803 - You're not me. 360 00:26:41,810 --> 00:26:44,570 - Who do you think you've been talkin' to, Jim? 361 00:26:44,570 --> 00:26:46,920 Do you think I've really been standin' here 362 00:26:46,920 --> 00:26:49,490 havin' this conversation with you? 363 00:26:49,490 --> 00:26:51,080 You're thinkin' 'bout all this stuff 364 00:26:51,080 --> 00:26:53,310 because it's in your head, Jim. 365 00:26:53,310 --> 00:26:56,713 So son, please just go on and do it. 366 00:26:58,740 --> 00:26:59,763 - I can't. 367 00:27:01,490 --> 00:27:02,673 I can't. 368 00:27:03,830 --> 00:27:06,397 - What, you don't think you have it in you? 369 00:27:07,890 --> 00:27:09,563 I didn't think I had it in me. 370 00:27:10,480 --> 00:27:13,300 Jim, this can all end. 371 00:27:13,300 --> 00:27:16,203 All the pain, all the suffering. 372 00:27:17,070 --> 00:27:19,430 You'll be right back with Brittany. 373 00:27:19,430 --> 00:27:21,543 You could start makin' up for lost time. 374 00:27:25,658 --> 00:27:29,958 - I can't. 375 00:27:29,958 --> 00:27:30,791 I can't. 376 00:27:33,798 --> 00:27:34,631 Can I? 377 00:27:38,408 --> 00:27:39,935 (eerie orchestral music) 378 00:27:39,935 --> 00:27:40,768 Dad? 379 00:27:44,235 --> 00:27:45,068 Dad? 380 00:28:27,421 --> 00:28:30,171 (Jimmy coughing) 381 00:29:06,740 --> 00:29:08,203 - Do you like the pain, Jim? 382 00:29:09,810 --> 00:29:12,337 The hurtin', not sleepin'. 383 00:29:15,960 --> 00:29:17,663 That's not really livin', Jim. 384 00:29:19,910 --> 00:29:21,790 If you're not really gonna live, 385 00:29:21,790 --> 00:29:23,203 then why deal with the pain? 386 00:29:24,982 --> 00:29:27,232 - I don't wanna hurt anymore. - I know, son. 387 00:29:28,720 --> 00:29:30,920 You've listened to me one time in your life, 388 00:29:32,120 --> 00:29:33,720 just listen to me one more time. 389 00:29:36,745 --> 00:29:38,590 - I don't wanna hurt. 390 00:29:38,590 --> 00:29:40,800 - Then stop the hurt, Jim. 391 00:29:40,800 --> 00:29:42,943 Stop the pain. - Stop the pain. 392 00:29:46,380 --> 00:29:47,213 It's time. 393 00:29:49,698 --> 00:29:50,680 - It's okay, Jim. 394 00:29:50,680 --> 00:29:54,692 It'll all be over soon and you won't have to hurt anymore. 395 00:29:54,692 --> 00:29:56,720 - I don't wanna hurt anymore. 396 00:29:56,720 --> 00:29:58,020 - You'll be with Brittany. 397 00:29:59,452 --> 00:30:00,553 - I miss her so much. 398 00:30:04,202 --> 00:30:07,597 (weeps) I love you, Brittany. - I love you too, dad. 399 00:30:07,597 --> 00:30:10,264 (Jimmy gasping) 400 00:30:14,488 --> 00:30:16,238 - Stay away from her! 401 00:30:17,178 --> 00:30:19,952 (somber orchestral music) 402 00:30:19,952 --> 00:30:22,285 - What are you doing, daddy? 403 00:30:32,956 --> 00:30:33,873 - Oh, baby. 404 00:30:34,810 --> 00:30:35,990 I love you so much. 405 00:30:35,990 --> 00:30:36,823 I'm sorry. 406 00:30:38,460 --> 00:30:40,130 - What's happening, daddy? 407 00:30:40,130 --> 00:30:42,360 - It doesn't matter, it doesn't matter. 408 00:30:42,360 --> 00:30:43,510 Just lemme look at you. 409 00:30:45,180 --> 00:30:47,163 - Daddy, we need to talk. 410 00:30:48,450 --> 00:30:52,367 - Okay absolutely, whatever you wanna talk about. 411 00:30:52,367 --> 00:30:53,643 - No, not here. - What? 412 00:30:55,773 --> 00:30:57,910 - In my dresser, second drawer. 413 00:30:57,910 --> 00:30:59,584 There's a box. 414 00:30:59,584 --> 00:31:01,820 I need you to get that box and bring it to me. 415 00:31:01,820 --> 00:31:03,170 Please don't look in the box, daddy. 416 00:31:03,170 --> 00:31:04,003 Just get it. 417 00:31:05,334 --> 00:31:07,803 - Okay. - No, not here. 418 00:31:09,610 --> 00:31:12,360 I need you to get the box and bring it to my spot. 419 00:31:12,360 --> 00:31:13,720 - Your spot? 420 00:31:13,720 --> 00:31:16,230 - I have a spot that you and mom didn't know about. 421 00:31:16,230 --> 00:31:18,750 Go out the back door and up the hill. 422 00:31:18,750 --> 00:31:20,410 Look for the ribbons. 423 00:31:20,410 --> 00:31:22,793 - The ribbons? - On the trees. 424 00:31:24,890 --> 00:31:25,723 - Honey. 425 00:31:25,723 --> 00:31:28,363 - Please daddy, we need to talk. 426 00:31:30,000 --> 00:31:30,833 - Brittany, 427 00:31:32,140 --> 00:31:34,413 I just got you here. 428 00:32:24,170 --> 00:32:26,170 - [Brittany] Please don't look in the box, daddy. 429 00:32:26,170 --> 00:32:27,007 Just get it. 430 00:32:28,141 --> 00:32:33,141 ("I Don't Know What to Pray" by Stephanie Rabus) 431 00:32:38,795 --> 00:32:43,795 ♪ I don't know what to pray ♪ 432 00:32:45,020 --> 00:32:50,020 ♪ I don't know what to say ♪ 433 00:32:52,058 --> 00:32:57,058 ♪ So take these tears from my heart as my worship ♪ 434 00:32:58,770 --> 00:33:03,770 ♪ All these fears in my mind I lay them down ♪ 435 00:33:04,413 --> 00:33:07,311 ♪ I don't know what to do ♪ 436 00:33:07,311 --> 00:33:10,228 (leaves crunching) 437 00:33:11,074 --> 00:33:16,074 ♪ But to rest in you ♪ 438 00:33:18,297 --> 00:33:23,297 ♪ I don't know how long I can be here in this place ♪ 439 00:33:25,022 --> 00:33:29,725 ♪ The only thing I know to do is praise ♪ 440 00:33:29,725 --> 00:33:34,725 ♪ 'Cause I don't know what to pray ♪ 441 00:33:36,298 --> 00:33:39,965 ♪ I don't know what to pray ♪ 442 00:33:44,423 --> 00:33:46,690 - I built it about four years ago 443 00:33:46,690 --> 00:33:48,690 when you and mom started fighting a lot. 444 00:33:50,360 --> 00:33:52,040 It's just far enough away from the house 445 00:33:52,040 --> 00:33:53,390 that I can't hear you guys. 446 00:33:54,520 --> 00:33:59,083 I tried other places: the attic, the basement. 447 00:34:00,520 --> 00:34:03,970 But the only place that it was really quiet is out here. 448 00:34:13,975 --> 00:34:16,975 After mom moved out, there was fear. 449 00:34:18,240 --> 00:34:21,973 You were at work or something, so I came out here. 450 00:34:24,260 --> 00:34:25,093 - Why? 451 00:34:26,140 --> 00:34:26,973 - To cry. 452 00:34:28,925 --> 00:34:30,842 I came out here to cry. 453 00:34:33,400 --> 00:34:36,330 You told me I need to be strong, daddy. 454 00:34:36,330 --> 00:34:39,660 You told me that I need to handle this like an adult. 455 00:34:39,660 --> 00:34:40,890 I'm not an adult, daddy. 456 00:34:40,890 --> 00:34:42,083 I'm a little girl. 457 00:34:43,910 --> 00:34:46,970 I'm a little girl that needed her daddy to hold her, 458 00:34:46,970 --> 00:34:49,213 to tell her that it was okay to be sad. 459 00:34:50,340 --> 00:34:52,023 To let her cry on his shoulder. 460 00:34:53,130 --> 00:34:54,420 To be angry. 461 00:34:54,420 --> 00:34:57,270 To be angry that she didn't have her mom and dad anymore. 462 00:34:58,373 --> 00:35:00,260 - Brittany, I-- 463 00:35:00,260 --> 00:35:02,510 - You couldn't be that, could you? 464 00:35:02,510 --> 00:35:03,760 I know, dad. 465 00:35:03,760 --> 00:35:05,273 I know that's not who you are. 466 00:35:06,120 --> 00:35:08,610 You wanted me to be a good little soldier 467 00:35:08,610 --> 00:35:09,783 and just deal with it. 468 00:35:10,667 --> 00:35:13,380 Just accept it, but I couldn't. 469 00:35:13,380 --> 00:35:14,280 I didn't know how. 470 00:35:17,510 --> 00:35:20,003 - Brittany, I know I've messed up. 471 00:35:20,003 --> 00:35:21,363 I messed up big time, 472 00:35:23,860 --> 00:35:27,900 but we have a second chance right now and I can do better. 473 00:35:27,900 --> 00:35:30,853 I can say the right things and do the right things. 474 00:35:33,380 --> 00:35:35,130 - It doesn't work like that, daddy. 475 00:35:37,006 --> 00:35:37,839 - What? 476 00:35:38,683 --> 00:35:41,997 - There's things we both need to say, things I need to do. 477 00:35:41,997 --> 00:35:43,473 It's why I'm here now. 478 00:35:45,050 --> 00:35:46,719 - Well then just tell me what I need to say, 479 00:35:46,719 --> 00:35:50,820 tell me what I need to do just so you can stay. 480 00:35:50,820 --> 00:35:52,480 - I can't stay, daddy. 481 00:35:52,480 --> 00:35:53,510 - But I need you. 482 00:35:53,510 --> 00:35:55,010 There's so many things I didn't say. 483 00:35:55,010 --> 00:35:56,760 There's so many things I didn't do. 484 00:35:58,592 --> 00:35:59,425 - I knew. 485 00:36:00,460 --> 00:36:02,429 You didn't have to say it. 486 00:36:02,429 --> 00:36:03,920 I know you have a hard time. 487 00:36:03,920 --> 00:36:05,350 - No, no Brit. 488 00:36:05,350 --> 00:36:08,743 I did have a hard time, but not anymore. 489 00:36:10,180 --> 00:36:12,170 I understand where I've messed up 490 00:36:12,170 --> 00:36:14,810 and I can do better this time. 491 00:36:14,810 --> 00:36:17,073 You know, my father. 492 00:36:18,480 --> 00:36:21,170 No, I'm not gonna blame him for this. 493 00:36:21,170 --> 00:36:22,013 This is all me. 494 00:36:23,040 --> 00:36:26,720 Look, all I know is I can make up for this. 495 00:36:26,720 --> 00:36:27,673 I can do better. 496 00:36:31,410 --> 00:36:32,823 Just gimme that chance now, 497 00:36:35,110 --> 00:36:36,103 so you can stay. 498 00:36:37,631 --> 00:36:39,710 - We don't have a lot of time, daddy. 499 00:36:39,710 --> 00:36:41,010 - Maybe I can come to you, 500 00:36:41,860 --> 00:36:43,647 that way you wouldn't have to stay. 501 00:36:43,647 --> 00:36:46,653 I could come to you and we could get this worked out. 502 00:36:47,530 --> 00:36:49,850 - No, dad. 503 00:36:49,850 --> 00:36:52,100 If you do what grandpa tells you to do, 504 00:36:52,100 --> 00:36:53,450 we'll never see each other. 505 00:36:58,410 --> 00:37:01,840 D'you remember the trip we took to Florida, the beach trip? 506 00:37:02,970 --> 00:37:03,843 - Yeah. 507 00:37:05,250 --> 00:37:08,073 Your mother fell asleep and she was burned to a crisp. 508 00:37:10,430 --> 00:37:11,833 What were you, seven or eight? 509 00:37:13,883 --> 00:37:15,800 - And I just learned how to swim. 510 00:37:15,800 --> 00:37:18,320 - You thought you were so grown up. 511 00:37:18,320 --> 00:37:19,840 You wouldn't have anything to do 512 00:37:19,840 --> 00:37:21,690 with those floaties your mom brought. 513 00:37:22,720 --> 00:37:25,347 You said, "Floaties--" - "Are for babies." 514 00:37:27,869 --> 00:37:31,620 - (chuckles softly) You were so stubborn, 515 00:37:31,620 --> 00:37:33,995 thought you were so grown up. 516 00:37:33,995 --> 00:37:35,145 - Now or from the past? 517 00:37:39,344 --> 00:37:41,592 But do you remember what happened on that trip? 518 00:37:41,592 --> 00:37:44,142 (birds chirping) 519 00:37:44,142 --> 00:37:44,975 - Yeah. 520 00:37:46,660 --> 00:37:49,723 I told you not to go too far out with the raft. 521 00:37:51,080 --> 00:37:53,480 I took my eyes off from you for just one minute, 522 00:37:55,510 --> 00:37:58,030 and I turned around and you were gone. 523 00:37:58,030 --> 00:38:01,073 You were out past the break of water and you were so scared. 524 00:38:05,200 --> 00:38:07,030 - Do you remember what we did? 525 00:38:07,030 --> 00:38:08,880 - Yeah, I ran across the beach. 526 00:38:08,880 --> 00:38:10,120 I jumped out in the water 527 00:38:10,120 --> 00:38:12,573 and I swam out to get you and bring you back in. 528 00:38:15,947 --> 00:38:17,697 It took you an hour to quit cryin'. 529 00:38:19,897 --> 00:38:21,796 - You saved me, daddy. 530 00:38:21,796 --> 00:38:25,660 I was scared, I was lost. 531 00:38:25,660 --> 00:38:27,110 You saved me. 532 00:38:27,110 --> 00:38:29,970 - I should've never taken my eyes off of you. 533 00:38:29,970 --> 00:38:32,150 I can't even remember why I did. 534 00:38:32,150 --> 00:38:35,653 - You and mom arguing 'bout something stupid, 535 00:38:36,690 --> 00:38:38,830 'bout the sunscreen or something. 536 00:38:38,830 --> 00:38:40,830 - I remember turning my head towards her 537 00:38:41,990 --> 00:38:44,140 and then when I turned back, you were gone. 538 00:38:45,460 --> 00:38:46,853 Honey, I am so sorry. 539 00:38:48,070 --> 00:38:49,817 - It's okay, daddy. 540 00:38:49,817 --> 00:38:51,700 Sometimes we turn our eyes away 541 00:38:51,700 --> 00:38:54,843 from what we should be looking at, get distracted. 542 00:38:57,012 --> 00:38:59,327 It only takes that second 543 00:38:59,327 --> 00:39:00,530 for our attention to be somewhere else 544 00:39:00,530 --> 00:39:01,930 for something bad to happen. 545 00:39:05,938 --> 00:39:08,101 But you saved me, daddy. 546 00:39:08,101 --> 00:39:11,570 I was scared, really scared. 547 00:39:11,570 --> 00:39:12,403 I was lost. 548 00:39:13,612 --> 00:39:15,328 You saved me. 549 00:39:15,328 --> 00:39:18,788 - That's just what daddies do, honey. 550 00:39:18,788 --> 00:39:21,705 - I know, but you need to know that 551 00:39:22,727 --> 00:39:26,084 fathers is there to save, not to harm. 552 00:39:26,084 --> 00:39:29,493 - Honey, I had no idea what was gonna happen at that school. 553 00:39:30,440 --> 00:39:33,870 I had no idea what was gonna be goin' on. 554 00:39:33,870 --> 00:39:36,310 - Is that what you think I'm talking about? 555 00:39:36,310 --> 00:39:39,880 Do you think I'm here because of what happened at school? 556 00:39:39,880 --> 00:39:42,230 Daddy, you can't stop the world from happening. 557 00:39:43,738 --> 00:39:45,288 It doesn't matter what you did. 558 00:39:48,027 --> 00:39:50,940 - But no Brit, but I should have. 559 00:39:50,940 --> 00:39:52,310 - You loved me. 560 00:39:52,310 --> 00:39:54,076 - I should've protected you. 561 00:39:54,076 --> 00:39:55,361 - You couldn't have known. 562 00:39:55,361 --> 00:39:56,640 - I should have, Brittany. 563 00:39:56,640 --> 00:39:58,250 I should've felt something. 564 00:39:58,250 --> 00:39:59,890 I should've been there. 565 00:39:59,890 --> 00:40:03,140 I should've done something, anything. 566 00:40:03,140 --> 00:40:04,410 - It's not your fault. 567 00:40:05,410 --> 00:40:06,630 - But I should have. 568 00:40:06,630 --> 00:40:08,720 I should've been a better father for you. 569 00:40:08,720 --> 00:40:11,120 I should've been a better dad to you. 570 00:40:11,120 --> 00:40:13,223 There's so many things I should've done. 571 00:40:15,850 --> 00:40:17,260 No, 572 00:40:17,260 --> 00:40:18,403 no no! 573 00:40:19,640 --> 00:40:20,580 Brittany, please! 574 00:40:23,482 --> 00:40:28,482 ♪ Accept these tears from my heart as my worship ♪ 575 00:40:29,919 --> 00:40:34,919 ♪ All these fears in my mind I lay them down ♪ 576 00:40:35,546 --> 00:40:40,546 ♪ I don't know what to do ♪ 577 00:40:41,979 --> 00:40:46,979 ♪ But to rest in you ♪ 578 00:40:49,372 --> 00:40:54,372 ♪ Don't know how long I can be here in this place ♪ 579 00:40:56,319 --> 00:40:57,152 - Faith? 580 00:40:57,152 --> 00:41:00,929 ♪ The only thing I know to do is praise ♪ 581 00:41:00,929 --> 00:41:05,179 ♪ 'Cause I don't know what to pray ♪ 582 00:41:07,010 --> 00:41:08,569 - Hope. 583 00:41:08,569 --> 00:41:13,569 ♪ I don't know what to pray ♪ 584 00:41:14,056 --> 00:41:17,679 ♪ I don't know what ♪ 585 00:41:17,679 --> 00:41:18,512 - Love. 586 00:41:18,512 --> 00:41:20,679 ♪ To pray ♪ 587 00:41:29,054 --> 00:41:31,054 - This place was a mess. 588 00:41:32,540 --> 00:41:37,053 - [Jimmy] Yeah, I couldn't bring myself to clean it; 589 00:41:38,930 --> 00:41:42,370 so I just left it the way you did. 590 00:41:42,370 --> 00:41:44,393 - Boy, I was a slob. 591 00:41:46,610 --> 00:41:48,263 - Yeah, but you're my slob. 592 00:41:58,640 --> 00:42:00,713 - Daddy, I have to go here in a minute. 593 00:42:01,630 --> 00:42:03,123 - No no, not yet. 594 00:42:03,123 --> 00:42:04,710 Just stay. 595 00:42:04,710 --> 00:42:07,963 - But before I do, there's something we need to talk about. 596 00:42:09,161 --> 00:42:11,163 - Okay, anything you want. 597 00:42:11,163 --> 00:42:12,496 Just stay, okay? 598 00:42:14,043 --> 00:42:17,593 - It's about what you said outside about being a better dad. 599 00:42:19,500 --> 00:42:22,643 - Yeah, I'm sorry about that, honey. 600 00:42:24,160 --> 00:42:25,950 I'm sorry I got so mad. 601 00:42:25,950 --> 00:42:30,357 I just don't know how to handle this, you know? 602 00:42:31,752 --> 00:42:33,970 - There's not a manual for it, daddy. 603 00:42:33,970 --> 00:42:35,620 You have to grieve. 604 00:42:35,620 --> 00:42:36,833 You have to let me go. 605 00:42:40,190 --> 00:42:42,193 - Brittany, I can't let you go. 606 00:42:44,180 --> 00:42:45,780 - Do you know where I am, daddy? 607 00:42:48,270 --> 00:42:49,360 - Honey. 608 00:42:49,360 --> 00:42:51,260 - [Brittany] Daddy, it's amazing. 609 00:42:51,260 --> 00:42:52,160 It's so beautiful. 610 00:42:53,713 --> 00:42:54,546 It's safe. 611 00:42:57,670 --> 00:42:59,820 - No, you should've stay with me. 612 00:42:59,820 --> 00:43:01,530 I coulda kept you safe. 613 00:43:01,530 --> 00:43:02,743 It was not your time. 614 00:43:03,926 --> 00:43:06,383 - We're not the ones that make that decision. 615 00:43:07,613 --> 00:43:09,023 I see that now. 616 00:43:12,860 --> 00:43:14,620 - Can I ask you somethin'? 617 00:43:18,630 --> 00:43:20,480 Did you ever feel like I've used you? 618 00:43:22,024 --> 00:43:25,074 - Like you hit me and stuff? 619 00:43:25,074 --> 00:43:26,070 Of course not. 620 00:43:26,070 --> 00:43:28,123 - No, that's not what I mean. 621 00:43:29,670 --> 00:43:31,937 Did you ever felt like I didn't love you 622 00:43:31,937 --> 00:43:33,363 or you weren't cared for? 623 00:43:38,390 --> 00:43:40,640 - Daddy, I always knew you that you loved me. 624 00:43:42,673 --> 00:43:46,213 I mean there were times, a lot of times 625 00:43:47,990 --> 00:43:52,990 when you were there, but you weren't really there 626 00:43:53,062 --> 00:43:55,062 if you know what I mean. 627 00:43:57,647 --> 00:43:59,083 Do you remember Angela? 628 00:44:00,380 --> 00:44:01,763 - Yeah, of course. 629 00:44:03,060 --> 00:44:05,613 She practically spent her fourth grade year here. 630 00:44:06,610 --> 00:44:07,993 - [Brittany] D'you know why? 631 00:44:08,980 --> 00:44:13,193 - I just assumed she was one of your BFFs or something. 632 00:44:14,950 --> 00:44:17,680 - It's because she didn't wanna go home. 633 00:44:17,680 --> 00:44:18,773 She's afraid to. 634 00:44:20,950 --> 00:44:21,783 - Why? 635 00:44:25,270 --> 00:44:26,283 - Because her dad. 636 00:44:28,180 --> 00:44:29,417 He used to-- 637 00:44:34,780 --> 00:44:36,380 - What are you sayin', Brittany? 638 00:44:38,300 --> 00:44:40,987 - When her mom wasn't around, he-- 639 00:44:42,500 --> 00:44:45,220 - No no, David's not like that. 640 00:44:45,220 --> 00:44:47,683 He wouldn't done anything like that. 641 00:44:47,683 --> 00:44:50,240 - It's why she never said anything. 642 00:44:50,240 --> 00:44:52,860 - He came over here all the time for cookouts. 643 00:44:52,860 --> 00:44:55,600 - She didn't think anyone would believe her. 644 00:44:55,600 --> 00:44:57,750 - He was practically a best friend of mine. 645 00:44:59,120 --> 00:45:01,970 - She tried to stay here every chance she could. 646 00:45:01,970 --> 00:45:03,293 She didn't wanna go home. 647 00:45:06,120 --> 00:45:07,773 - How do you know this stufF? 648 00:45:09,178 --> 00:45:11,163 You're just 11 year old girl. 649 00:45:13,100 --> 00:45:15,690 - Because that's the world we live in, dad. 650 00:45:15,690 --> 00:45:16,733 That's my point. 651 00:45:17,820 --> 00:45:19,270 It doesn't matter what you do 652 00:45:20,268 --> 00:45:22,680 or what do you think you should've done. 653 00:45:22,680 --> 00:45:25,280 You can't stop the world. 654 00:45:25,280 --> 00:45:28,180 You can't stop the world from happening. 655 00:45:28,180 --> 00:45:30,633 You can't protect me every minute of my life. 656 00:45:31,955 --> 00:45:33,555 You can't be there all the time, 657 00:45:34,490 --> 00:45:36,833 just like you couldn't have been at school today. 658 00:45:37,928 --> 00:45:39,283 It was just a Tuesday, dad. 659 00:45:40,120 --> 00:45:41,233 Just another Tuesday. 660 00:45:44,202 --> 00:45:45,703 All you can do is love, 661 00:45:46,750 --> 00:45:48,110 trust and-- 662 00:45:52,900 --> 00:45:55,113 - And what? - Pray, dad. 663 00:45:56,620 --> 00:45:59,443 Can pray that no matter what happens, 664 00:45:59,443 --> 00:46:01,093 it's part of God's plan. 665 00:46:02,860 --> 00:46:06,293 - You're not gonna go through that plan thing too, are you? 666 00:46:10,510 --> 00:46:12,000 What about your plans? 667 00:46:12,000 --> 00:46:14,300 What about your plans to become a nurse? 668 00:46:14,300 --> 00:46:15,293 What about those? 669 00:46:17,014 --> 00:46:19,328 - Veterinarian. 670 00:46:19,328 --> 00:46:21,513 - Veterinarian? 671 00:46:21,513 --> 00:46:24,004 When'd you decide to become a veterinarian? 672 00:46:24,004 --> 00:46:29,004 - Since I was seven, dad. (sighs) 673 00:46:30,678 --> 00:46:32,550 - Okay, what about those? 674 00:46:32,550 --> 00:46:33,873 What about those plans? 675 00:46:35,550 --> 00:46:36,953 - That was my plan. 676 00:46:37,870 --> 00:46:40,776 Just like it was your plan to do what you do. 677 00:46:40,776 --> 00:46:42,093 It doesn't mean it's God's plan. 678 00:46:44,690 --> 00:46:48,113 - Okay so why is his plans more important than ours, huh? 679 00:46:50,510 --> 00:46:51,693 Don't our plans matter? 680 00:46:53,270 --> 00:46:54,570 - 'Course they do. 681 00:46:54,570 --> 00:46:56,570 But they matter more to us because we think 682 00:46:56,570 --> 00:46:59,450 that they're the only thing that matters. 683 00:46:59,450 --> 00:47:01,250 God's plan is what matters the most. 684 00:47:03,820 --> 00:47:05,373 - When did you become so smart? 685 00:47:07,027 --> 00:47:08,581 - When you weren't looking. 686 00:47:08,581 --> 00:47:12,399 (soft somber music) 687 00:47:12,399 --> 00:47:16,232 - I should've been lookin' at you a lot harder 688 00:47:17,157 --> 00:47:18,763 and I should've protected you. 689 00:47:21,314 --> 00:47:23,543 - What good is protecting me my whole life 690 00:47:23,543 --> 00:47:25,493 when I can't grow up to protect you? 691 00:47:28,220 --> 00:47:29,113 - Protect me? 692 00:47:30,270 --> 00:47:31,103 From what? 693 00:47:32,110 --> 00:47:34,130 - From yourself, dad. 694 00:47:34,130 --> 00:47:35,380 From where you're headed. 695 00:47:36,870 --> 00:47:39,103 Daddy, I need you to listen to me. 696 00:47:40,160 --> 00:47:42,290 I saw the look in your eyes upstairs 697 00:47:43,290 --> 00:47:44,690 and what you're about to do. 698 00:47:45,874 --> 00:47:47,300 You can't. 699 00:47:47,300 --> 00:47:51,003 You can't use my death as an excuse to not go on living. 700 00:47:51,980 --> 00:47:53,130 It isn't your time yet. 701 00:47:55,350 --> 00:47:56,183 - My time? 702 00:47:57,200 --> 00:47:58,650 - He isn't done with you yet. 703 00:47:59,686 --> 00:48:01,995 If you do what you're thinking about doing, 704 00:48:01,995 --> 00:48:04,403 there's no going back, no eternity. 705 00:48:05,399 --> 00:48:08,743 'Least not the one that I've seen. 706 00:48:08,743 --> 00:48:10,493 - What have you seen? 707 00:48:14,648 --> 00:48:15,898 What's it like? 708 00:48:20,114 --> 00:48:25,114 - It wasn't like anything that I've ever heard about before. 709 00:48:26,078 --> 00:48:29,330 There's not a brilliant white light, no choir of angels. 710 00:48:31,970 --> 00:48:34,433 There's a lot of people waiting to go through the gate. 711 00:48:36,950 --> 00:48:38,870 - So St. Peter isn't standin' there 712 00:48:38,870 --> 00:48:40,320 with the "Book of Life" then? 713 00:48:41,520 --> 00:48:44,123 - No, nothing like that. 714 00:48:46,040 --> 00:48:47,240 There didn't need to be. 715 00:48:48,230 --> 00:48:49,793 I'd already made that decision. 716 00:48:51,170 --> 00:48:54,973 There was no doubt of where I was going, but I saw him. 717 00:48:56,350 --> 00:48:57,183 - Him? 718 00:48:58,060 --> 00:48:59,723 - It's like my eyes were closed. 719 00:49:00,821 --> 00:49:03,560 Then when I opened them, he was there 720 00:49:04,803 --> 00:49:07,323 like 15 or 20 feet in front of me. 721 00:49:08,921 --> 00:49:11,820 He was smiling with his arms wide open 722 00:49:13,165 --> 00:49:15,273 like he was waiting for a hug or something. 723 00:49:17,107 --> 00:49:18,857 It's like I didn't know who he was, 724 00:49:19,810 --> 00:49:22,700 but also like I'd known him my whole life. 725 00:49:22,700 --> 00:49:24,120 Daddy, I ran to him. 726 00:49:24,120 --> 00:49:27,713 I ran to him without an ounce of fear and he hugged me. 727 00:49:28,854 --> 00:49:31,770 It was the warmest, safest hug that I've ever felt 728 00:49:33,111 --> 00:49:36,073 like being wrapped in a blanket in the middle of winter. 729 00:49:38,630 --> 00:49:39,830 - That sounds beautiful. 730 00:49:42,175 --> 00:49:43,008 - It is, daddy. 731 00:49:44,346 --> 00:49:45,596 I want you to see it too. 732 00:49:49,233 --> 00:49:53,623 (sighs) It's time, daddy. 733 00:49:55,071 --> 00:49:56,573 - No, not yet. 734 00:49:58,910 --> 00:50:02,010 - Daddy, there's someone coming to visit you. 735 00:50:02,010 --> 00:50:05,910 When they do you have to listen. 736 00:50:05,910 --> 00:50:08,393 Not just hear, listen. 737 00:50:10,380 --> 00:50:12,543 - Okay anything you want, 738 00:50:14,023 --> 00:50:16,273 just as long as I get to see you again, okay? 739 00:50:18,362 --> 00:50:19,650 - It's up to you, daddy. 740 00:50:19,650 --> 00:50:21,313 - Please don't go, not yet. 741 00:50:22,185 --> 00:50:24,032 - I have to go. 742 00:50:24,032 --> 00:50:25,132 You have to let me go. 743 00:50:26,343 --> 00:50:28,760 - I'm never gonna let you go. 744 00:50:31,215 --> 00:50:32,132 I love you. 745 00:50:33,277 --> 00:50:36,360 (somber piano music) 746 00:50:39,291 --> 00:50:41,958 (Jimmy sighing) 747 00:51:12,835 --> 00:51:15,502 (door knocking) 748 00:51:24,460 --> 00:51:25,960 Susan? 749 00:51:25,960 --> 00:51:26,793 - Hey, Jim. 750 00:51:28,470 --> 00:51:29,303 - Are you her? 751 00:51:30,450 --> 00:51:31,283 - Her who? 752 00:51:33,520 --> 00:51:34,353 - The Third. 753 00:51:38,020 --> 00:51:39,580 She told me about The Third. 754 00:51:39,580 --> 00:51:41,723 - Been hittin' the bottle pretty hard today, have we? 755 00:51:43,240 --> 00:51:44,373 - Yeah. - Figures. 756 00:51:49,010 --> 00:51:50,410 - So what're you doin' here? 757 00:51:55,040 --> 00:51:57,593 - Honestly, I don't know. 758 00:51:58,550 --> 00:52:01,513 I went home after the funeral and I couldn't stay there. 759 00:52:02,570 --> 00:52:03,500 I just couldn't. 760 00:52:03,500 --> 00:52:05,703 Everywhere I looked I saw her. 761 00:52:08,530 --> 00:52:10,893 - So you thought comin' here would be better. 762 00:52:11,800 --> 00:52:13,270 - I don't know what I thought, Jim. 763 00:52:13,270 --> 00:52:16,103 I just got in the car and I was here. 764 00:52:24,210 --> 00:52:27,857 - Can I get you somethin' to drink of somethin'? 765 00:52:31,270 --> 00:52:32,870 Look Susan, I don't know what's goin' on. 766 00:52:32,870 --> 00:52:34,480 - Just shut up, Jim! 767 00:52:34,480 --> 00:52:35,313 Please, just. 768 00:52:54,160 --> 00:52:56,543 - If you wanna talk. - She called me, Jim. 769 00:52:58,809 --> 00:53:00,930 - What? - From the school. 770 00:53:00,930 --> 00:53:03,820 But when the guy started shooting, she called me. 771 00:53:03,820 --> 00:53:08,750 - She what? - She was terrified, Jim. 772 00:53:08,750 --> 00:53:13,383 She was crying and she was whispering when she was hiding. 773 00:53:14,740 --> 00:53:15,573 - What'd she say? 774 00:53:15,573 --> 00:53:17,127 What did she say? - She was hysterical. 775 00:53:17,127 --> 00:53:18,830 I don't know what she said. 776 00:53:18,830 --> 00:53:22,083 Everybody was dying and I didn't know what to say. 777 00:53:23,310 --> 00:53:28,310 I told her I loved her and the phone went dead. (weeps) 778 00:53:29,607 --> 00:53:30,853 She was so scared, Jim. 779 00:53:37,949 --> 00:53:39,940 - I didn't know. 780 00:53:39,940 --> 00:53:44,940 - That's all I hear is the crying and saying I love you. 781 00:53:46,700 --> 00:53:48,840 Static (sobs) 782 00:53:56,597 --> 00:53:58,847 and I couldn't stop crying. 783 00:54:00,930 --> 00:54:03,683 That's all I do now is cry. 784 00:54:11,840 --> 00:54:12,673 - Susan. 785 00:54:14,133 --> 00:54:16,800 (Susan sobbing) 786 00:54:23,381 --> 00:54:26,464 (somber piano music) 787 00:54:40,960 --> 00:54:43,720 - It's just like the place at my house. 788 00:54:43,720 --> 00:54:46,573 Couldn't get her to keep up. (sniffles) 789 00:54:48,240 --> 00:54:49,073 - Teenagers. 790 00:54:53,220 --> 00:54:57,830 You know, she didn't get the chance to be a teenager. 791 00:54:57,830 --> 00:55:00,283 She didn't get the chance to do anything. 792 00:55:04,130 --> 00:55:08,173 - You know this is gonna sound strange, Susan; 793 00:55:12,190 --> 00:55:13,540 but I think she's at peace. 794 00:55:15,350 --> 00:55:16,183 - Peace? 795 00:55:18,020 --> 00:55:19,423 What are you talking about? 796 00:55:20,620 --> 00:55:24,590 She was shot in cold blood by a maniac. 797 00:55:24,590 --> 00:55:26,410 She died terrified and afraid. 798 00:55:26,410 --> 00:55:27,803 What's peaceful about that? 799 00:55:27,803 --> 00:55:29,713 - With not what happened, Susan. 800 00:55:32,456 --> 00:55:33,289 I'm talkin' now. 801 00:55:40,130 --> 00:55:41,930 - Pastor Reichart stop by here, too? 802 00:55:46,670 --> 00:55:49,470 I never took you for the kind that listen to that stuff. 803 00:56:00,217 --> 00:56:02,323 - It wasn't Pastor Reichart; 804 00:56:09,141 --> 00:56:10,974 it was something else. 805 00:56:16,091 --> 00:56:16,924 I don't know that I believe in 806 00:56:16,924 --> 00:56:19,370 all of this afterlife/Heaven thing, 807 00:56:19,370 --> 00:56:21,857 you know, but I was just-- 808 00:56:23,240 --> 00:56:24,103 - Searching? 809 00:56:25,440 --> 00:56:27,453 - Yeah, searching. 810 00:56:28,860 --> 00:56:29,693 - I understand. 811 00:56:33,490 --> 00:56:35,050 Jim? 812 00:56:35,050 --> 00:56:36,133 - [Jim] Yeah. 813 00:56:39,569 --> 00:56:41,600 - What happened? 814 00:56:41,600 --> 00:56:43,283 I mean between us. 815 00:56:45,440 --> 00:56:48,380 - God Susan, I don't know. 816 00:56:48,380 --> 00:56:50,743 I've been tryin' to figure out a lotta things lately. 817 00:56:52,480 --> 00:56:54,670 - Couldn't it have just been eazy? 818 00:56:58,880 --> 00:57:01,442 - I never expected it to be easy. 819 00:57:01,442 --> 00:57:03,530 - Doesn't have to be so hard. 820 00:57:03,530 --> 00:57:04,920 - Right? 821 00:57:04,920 --> 00:57:05,753 Exactly. 822 00:57:07,420 --> 00:57:09,870 They never tell you how hard marriage is gonna be 823 00:57:11,142 --> 00:57:14,543 or bein' a parent or just life in general. 824 00:57:20,779 --> 00:57:23,184 I just wish I could've been better. 825 00:57:23,184 --> 00:57:24,017 - Better what? 826 00:57:28,195 --> 00:57:31,283 - A better husband, a better father. 827 00:57:32,760 --> 00:57:34,230 Just a better man, period. 828 00:57:34,230 --> 00:57:36,680 - You can't blame yourself for everything, Jimmy. 829 00:57:37,940 --> 00:57:39,063 It's not your fault. 830 00:57:42,048 --> 00:57:44,881 (Jimmy sniffling) 831 00:57:46,440 --> 00:57:47,433 What's this? 832 00:57:52,190 --> 00:57:55,423 - Susan, why are you here? 833 00:57:57,261 --> 00:57:58,094 - What? 834 00:58:00,908 --> 00:58:02,780 - Did you just come to reminisce 835 00:58:02,780 --> 00:58:05,397 or talk about old times or somethin'? 836 00:58:13,660 --> 00:58:16,753 - Maybe because a part of her is still here. 837 00:58:19,400 --> 00:58:21,843 I mean I'm just sittin' here in her room. 838 00:58:22,770 --> 00:58:26,500 I think to myself that she's gonna walk 839 00:58:26,500 --> 00:58:27,903 through that door any minute. 840 00:58:29,244 --> 00:58:32,013 Tell me all about her day. (weeps) 841 00:58:35,593 --> 00:58:38,100 I could smell her, Jimmy. 842 00:58:38,100 --> 00:58:41,040 I can feel her in here. 843 00:58:41,040 --> 00:58:44,307 I mean I know she's not here, but yes. 844 00:58:47,030 --> 00:58:47,863 Yes, she is. 845 00:58:49,460 --> 00:58:54,323 I think a part of her will always be here. (sniffles) 846 00:58:56,907 --> 00:59:00,080 You know after the funeral, I went back to my house 847 00:59:00,950 --> 00:59:03,280 and I went into her room at my place. 848 00:59:03,280 --> 00:59:05,083 I sat in her bed and I cried. 849 00:59:05,950 --> 00:59:09,373 I buried my head in her pillow when I cried. 850 00:59:10,300 --> 00:59:11,673 I could smell her, Jimmy. 851 00:59:14,280 --> 00:59:17,890 I thought to myself, this pillow's only a year old. 852 00:59:19,458 --> 00:59:21,125 I sit in here, this. 853 00:59:23,739 --> 00:59:24,739 This is her. 854 00:59:25,701 --> 00:59:27,618 This is her whole life. 855 00:59:31,342 --> 00:59:34,633 I guess needed to just be here. 856 00:59:44,130 --> 00:59:45,123 - I don't know. 857 00:59:47,521 --> 00:59:49,081 I don't know what it is. 858 00:59:49,081 --> 00:59:50,693 Where'd you find it? 859 00:59:50,693 --> 00:59:51,873 - It was in her dresser. 860 00:59:54,701 --> 00:59:57,247 She told me to go get it before I-- 861 00:59:58,620 --> 00:59:59,453 - What? 862 01:00:02,739 --> 01:00:06,863 - I don't know, I just remembered from earlier. 863 01:00:10,950 --> 01:00:12,400 - Were you expecting someone? 864 01:00:13,526 --> 01:00:16,720 - What? - You asked if I was her. 865 01:00:16,720 --> 01:00:18,817 Were you expecting someone? 866 01:00:20,260 --> 01:00:21,220 - No. 867 01:00:21,220 --> 01:00:23,703 I mean, yeah. 868 01:00:26,242 --> 01:00:28,292 It's just been a really weird day, Susan. 869 01:00:29,512 --> 01:00:30,345 - I know. 870 01:00:33,250 --> 01:00:34,950 I can't believe she's gone either. 871 01:00:35,840 --> 01:00:36,760 Maybe I should go. 872 01:00:36,760 --> 01:00:37,593 - No wait, wait. 873 01:00:43,787 --> 01:00:47,230 Did Brittany ever talk to you about her Christianity? 874 01:00:47,230 --> 01:00:50,050 - Yeah, she went to Revival 875 01:00:50,050 --> 01:00:51,550 a few months ago with her friend. 876 01:00:51,550 --> 01:00:53,530 Said that's when it happened. 877 01:00:57,613 --> 01:00:59,413 - Did you ever talk to her about it? 878 01:01:00,500 --> 01:01:03,967 - No, but that didn't stop her from tellin' me. 879 01:01:07,758 --> 01:01:09,200 - What did she say? 880 01:01:09,200 --> 01:01:11,520 - Oh you know, just the same old stuff 881 01:01:11,520 --> 01:01:13,890 they always fill their heads with. 882 01:01:13,890 --> 01:01:17,880 Ask and ye shall receive, seek and ye shall find. 883 01:01:17,880 --> 01:01:18,763 That kinda stuff. 884 01:01:22,720 --> 01:01:25,520 - Did you ever believe any of it? 885 01:01:25,520 --> 01:01:27,020 - Any of that religious stuff? 886 01:01:29,000 --> 01:01:30,743 I don't know, not really. 887 01:01:31,910 --> 01:01:33,420 I haven't really seen anything 888 01:01:33,420 --> 01:01:35,070 that would make me believe in it. 889 01:01:36,225 --> 01:01:38,283 And now with this, 890 01:01:40,636 --> 01:01:41,686 I don't believe that. 891 01:01:44,660 --> 01:01:47,325 You know, I should go. 892 01:01:47,325 --> 01:01:49,390 (somber piano music) 893 01:01:49,390 --> 01:01:51,827 Thank you. (stammers) 894 01:02:14,610 --> 01:02:15,567 Do you mind? - No. 895 01:02:17,658 --> 01:02:19,075 No, I don't mind. 896 01:02:20,770 --> 01:02:21,603 - Thank you. 897 01:02:44,903 --> 01:02:47,660 I just wanted to say thank you, Jim. 898 01:02:47,660 --> 01:02:50,700 I needed, you know. 899 01:02:50,700 --> 01:02:52,793 - Yeah, I know. 900 01:02:54,780 --> 01:02:55,953 Don't worry about it. 901 01:02:58,794 --> 01:02:59,694 You gonna be okay? 902 01:03:02,760 --> 01:03:04,130 - You know if you ever need 903 01:03:04,130 --> 01:03:06,090 someone to talk to that you could... 904 01:03:07,960 --> 01:03:08,793 Well, you know. 905 01:03:10,400 --> 01:03:11,650 - Yeah, I know. 906 01:03:17,760 --> 01:03:20,093 - Maybe she wanted you to open it. 907 01:03:21,330 --> 01:03:23,380 Maybe that's why she put it in your head. 908 01:03:31,395 --> 01:03:35,062 ("I Cry Out" by Eric Ashby) 909 01:03:47,931 --> 01:03:52,931 ♪ When loss and tragedy comes ♪ 910 01:03:54,643 --> 01:03:59,643 ♪ And my heart and soul just wants to burn ♪ 911 01:04:00,128 --> 01:04:05,128 ♪ And nothing is all on earth ♪ 912 01:04:06,097 --> 01:04:09,319 ♪ Can get me through ♪ 913 01:04:09,319 --> 01:04:14,319 ♪ Through the storm ♪ 914 01:04:15,118 --> 01:04:18,577 ♪ I cry out to you Lord ♪ 915 01:04:18,577 --> 01:04:23,109 ♪ I cry out and give my plea ♪ 916 01:04:23,109 --> 01:04:27,157 ♪ Can you rescue me ♪ 917 01:04:27,157 --> 01:04:30,288 ♪ And it's from your love ♪ 918 01:04:30,288 --> 01:04:34,087 ♪ An infinite grace ♪ 919 01:04:34,087 --> 01:04:39,087 ♪ That I find mercy in your embrace ♪ 920 01:04:41,069 --> 01:04:43,704 ♪ Your embrace ♪ 921 01:04:43,704 --> 01:04:48,704 ♪ I cry out to you Lord ♪ 922 01:04:49,271 --> 01:04:51,469 ♪ Whoa ♪ 923 01:04:51,469 --> 01:04:55,770 ♪ You rescue me ♪ 924 01:04:55,770 --> 01:05:00,770 ♪ And it's from your love and infinite grace ♪ 925 01:05:02,695 --> 01:05:07,695 ♪ That I find mercy in your embrace ♪ 926 01:05:09,443 --> 01:05:14,443 ♪ Your embrace ♪ 927 01:05:16,163 --> 01:05:17,996 ♪ Ooh ♪ 928 01:05:32,450 --> 01:05:33,283 - No. 929 01:05:34,440 --> 01:05:35,273 No, 930 01:05:39,120 --> 01:05:40,263 that's impossible! 931 01:05:42,171 --> 01:05:44,823 - [Messenger] The impossible happens all the time; 932 01:05:44,823 --> 01:05:46,673 you just have to believe that it can. 933 01:05:50,570 --> 01:05:51,403 - Who are you? 934 01:05:52,340 --> 01:05:54,723 - I'm The Third of the three. 935 01:05:55,790 --> 01:05:56,690 - [Jim] The Third? 936 01:06:01,936 --> 01:06:05,340 Now I know my father and I know Brittany. 937 01:06:05,340 --> 01:06:09,230 But I don't know you. 938 01:06:09,230 --> 01:06:10,523 Have I seen you before? 939 01:06:12,170 --> 01:06:13,923 - That's exactly why I'm here, Jim. 940 01:06:14,850 --> 01:06:18,072 'Cause there's a lotta people you don't know. 941 01:06:18,072 --> 01:06:22,023 Think you know of them, think you know about them, 942 01:06:22,023 --> 01:06:24,220 but you don't know them. 943 01:06:24,220 --> 01:06:25,913 - But you look familiar to me. 944 01:06:27,090 --> 01:06:29,860 - You see me as someone from your past, 945 01:06:29,860 --> 01:06:31,623 but you don't know who I speak for. 946 01:06:33,640 --> 01:06:35,070 - Well then please enlighten me 947 01:06:35,070 --> 01:06:37,020 because I have no idea what's goin' on. 948 01:06:38,394 --> 01:06:40,690 - He was smiling with his arms wide open 949 01:06:41,970 --> 01:06:43,970 like was waiting for a hug or something. 950 01:06:47,249 --> 01:06:49,190 - You're him? 951 01:06:49,190 --> 01:06:50,223 You're Jesus? 952 01:06:51,270 --> 01:06:52,297 - No Jim, I'm not. 953 01:06:53,330 --> 01:06:56,313 I am but a messenger on his behalf. 954 01:07:02,230 --> 01:07:03,223 - So you're real? 955 01:07:05,320 --> 01:07:06,803 Jesus is real? 956 01:07:07,640 --> 01:07:08,857 - Do I look real to you? 957 01:07:10,043 --> 01:07:11,740 - I don't know. 958 01:07:11,740 --> 01:07:12,900 I don't know anything anymore. 959 01:07:12,900 --> 01:07:15,600 I don't know what's real and what's not. 960 01:07:15,600 --> 01:07:18,050 - There are times when our eyes deceive us. 961 01:07:18,050 --> 01:07:20,150 Sometimes we need to look with our hearts. 962 01:07:22,290 --> 01:07:24,670 - I don't know what any of that means. 963 01:07:24,670 --> 01:07:26,470 I don't know what any of this means. 964 01:07:27,960 --> 01:07:30,719 - You have been sayin' the same thing for a long time, 965 01:07:30,719 --> 01:07:32,820 wonderin' if he's real or not. 966 01:07:32,820 --> 01:07:34,260 And people come up with their own conclusions 967 01:07:34,260 --> 01:07:36,053 based on all sorts of things. 968 01:07:37,980 --> 01:07:41,530 - Maybe if you'd make it so people could see you, 969 01:07:41,530 --> 01:07:45,017 then maybe it would be easier for 'em. 970 01:07:46,150 --> 01:07:48,440 - Jim, you can see him anytime you want. 971 01:07:48,440 --> 01:07:51,170 You can see him in the birds in the sky, 972 01:07:51,170 --> 01:07:55,403 in smile on a baby's face, in nature, in love. 973 01:07:56,390 --> 01:07:57,393 He's everywhere. 974 01:07:58,350 --> 01:08:00,150 - That's not what I'm talkin' about. 975 01:08:01,010 --> 01:08:02,663 I mean, I went to Sunday School. 976 01:08:03,850 --> 01:08:06,750 You know, I read about Moses and the burning bush 977 01:08:06,750 --> 01:08:08,423 and Moses in Mount Sinai. 978 01:08:09,290 --> 01:08:12,510 I mean he was there, he was visible. 979 01:08:12,510 --> 01:08:14,310 He was right there in front of them. 980 01:08:17,696 --> 01:08:19,193 - You ever been to China, Jim? 981 01:08:20,450 --> 01:08:21,620 - No. 982 01:08:21,620 --> 01:08:23,220 - But you know people that have. 983 01:08:24,870 --> 01:08:26,394 - Yeah. 984 01:08:26,394 --> 01:08:28,740 - You ever flown in outer space? 985 01:08:28,740 --> 01:08:30,210 - No. 986 01:08:30,210 --> 01:08:33,530 - But you got to meet Jim Adams a few years ago, right? 987 01:08:33,530 --> 01:08:34,713 He's been to space. 988 01:08:35,700 --> 01:08:37,623 - Yeah, how did you? 989 01:08:39,950 --> 01:08:40,783 Yeah. 990 01:08:42,690 --> 01:08:43,917 - There's a lot of things you haven't seen 991 01:08:43,917 --> 01:08:46,500 and a lotta places you've never been, 992 01:08:46,500 --> 01:08:49,200 but do you ever doubt there's a China? 993 01:08:49,200 --> 01:08:53,040 Do you ever doubt that the world isn't really round? 994 01:08:53,040 --> 01:08:55,050 You never seen any of these things with your own eyes, 995 01:08:55,050 --> 01:08:57,240 but there's so much evidence 996 01:08:57,240 --> 01:09:00,163 from people have done these things that they must be true. 997 01:09:01,080 --> 01:09:03,600 Even though you haven't personally experienced them, 998 01:09:03,600 --> 01:09:04,800 you accept them as true. 999 01:09:06,080 --> 01:09:09,890 You believe even though you haven't seen them. 1000 01:09:09,890 --> 01:09:11,380 - That's different. 1001 01:09:11,380 --> 01:09:12,810 - Is it? 1002 01:09:12,810 --> 01:09:15,410 Believing without seeing is what faith is all about. 1003 01:09:16,280 --> 01:09:19,550 When you got married, you didn't have a crystal ball 1004 01:09:19,550 --> 01:09:22,440 to tell you the future or when you had Brittany, 1005 01:09:22,440 --> 01:09:24,590 you didn't have a crystal ball then either. 1006 01:09:25,900 --> 01:09:28,780 Did you believe you could successfully be married 1007 01:09:28,780 --> 01:09:30,763 or successfully have a child? 1008 01:09:31,800 --> 01:09:34,650 You did or you wouldn't have done either of these things. 1009 01:09:35,520 --> 01:09:37,503 Will you ultimately be successful? 1010 01:09:38,520 --> 01:09:39,373 Do you know that? 1011 01:09:40,320 --> 01:09:41,303 No, you don't. 1012 01:09:42,740 --> 01:09:45,743 But with faith in him and faith in yourself, 1013 01:09:46,580 --> 01:09:48,260 that what you can't see are still things 1014 01:09:48,260 --> 01:09:50,483 you can put your faith and confidence in. 1015 01:09:52,980 --> 01:09:54,191 - The marriage thing didn't turn out too well 1016 01:09:54,191 --> 01:09:55,693 for any of us, did it? 1017 01:09:57,460 --> 01:09:59,183 - [Messenger] Why do you think that is? 1018 01:10:01,110 --> 01:10:01,943 - I don't know. 1019 01:10:03,410 --> 01:10:07,910 I mean I guess she just wasn't who I thought she was 1020 01:10:07,910 --> 01:10:09,603 or the one I wanted. 1021 01:10:10,450 --> 01:10:12,213 I musta not been what she wanted. 1022 01:10:13,547 --> 01:10:15,183 - D'you feel like you really tried? 1023 01:10:16,770 --> 01:10:17,683 - Tried? 1024 01:10:18,710 --> 01:10:20,093 Man, that's all we did. 1025 01:10:21,300 --> 01:10:22,823 We went to counseling. 1026 01:10:23,700 --> 01:10:24,760 We talked to our friends. 1027 01:10:24,760 --> 01:10:26,070 We spent time apart. 1028 01:10:26,070 --> 01:10:27,910 We even called on our pastor 1029 01:10:27,910 --> 01:10:29,860 just to see what he would say about it. 1030 01:10:31,747 --> 01:10:34,493 - But you didn't talk to him; neither of you did. 1031 01:10:35,810 --> 01:10:36,643 - What? 1032 01:10:38,460 --> 01:10:39,910 - You didn't bring it to him. 1033 01:10:40,870 --> 01:10:44,550 So many times people think they can solve the problems 1034 01:10:44,550 --> 01:10:48,120 of the world by lookin' to the world for a solution. 1035 01:10:48,120 --> 01:10:52,243 But in a flawed world, your solutions can be flawed. 1036 01:10:53,970 --> 01:10:56,643 - Well at least it's an answer. 1037 01:10:58,710 --> 01:11:01,860 I mean people talk to Jesus all the time 1038 01:11:01,860 --> 01:11:03,450 and never get an answer. 1039 01:11:03,450 --> 01:11:05,500 - Just because it isn't the answer they want to hear, 1040 01:11:05,500 --> 01:11:07,200 it doesn't mean he doesn't answer. 1041 01:11:08,151 --> 01:11:09,510 You know how many times people pray 1042 01:11:09,510 --> 01:11:12,840 for what they want and how they want it? 1043 01:11:12,840 --> 01:11:15,050 Never take into consideration what they're praying for 1044 01:11:15,050 --> 01:11:16,643 is what they truly need. 1045 01:11:17,570 --> 01:11:18,970 They don't trust that he knows 1046 01:11:18,970 --> 01:11:21,283 what they need when they need it. 1047 01:11:22,540 --> 01:11:23,423 - Trust? 1048 01:11:24,860 --> 01:11:27,030 When we can't even see if Jesus 1049 01:11:27,030 --> 01:11:30,970 is gonna come through for us, you want us to trust in him? 1050 01:11:30,970 --> 01:11:34,290 - That right there is the very definition of faith. 1051 01:11:34,290 --> 01:11:36,060 - So why can't he just answer? 1052 01:11:36,060 --> 01:11:37,410 Why can't he just be heard? 1053 01:11:39,330 --> 01:11:43,323 - If everyone got everything they prayed for or asked for, 1054 01:11:44,340 --> 01:11:46,570 what would be the point of Heaven? 1055 01:11:46,570 --> 01:11:50,930 We've already established that the world is a sinful place. 1056 01:11:50,930 --> 01:11:53,540 And if the world was everything that Heaven is, 1057 01:11:53,540 --> 01:11:55,713 what would be the appeal of eternity? 1058 01:11:57,300 --> 01:12:00,670 Jim, salvation doesn't mean that everything in life 1059 01:12:00,670 --> 01:12:03,800 is gonna be great and easy and that you won't face 1060 01:12:03,800 --> 01:12:05,483 any trials and tribulations. 1061 01:12:06,320 --> 01:12:09,270 Salvation gives you a destination 1062 01:12:09,270 --> 01:12:12,103 once you face the trials and tribulations of the world. 1063 01:12:13,010 --> 01:12:14,610 - So we're just meant to suffer? 1064 01:12:15,450 --> 01:12:17,620 We're supposed to just suffer through this life 1065 01:12:17,620 --> 01:12:18,770 until we get to Heaven. 1066 01:12:19,930 --> 01:12:23,083 - The most worthwhile things in life require faith. 1067 01:12:24,580 --> 01:12:28,560 If you knew all the variables and never risked anything, 1068 01:12:28,560 --> 01:12:30,540 there would never be rewards. 1069 01:12:30,540 --> 01:12:33,720 If people never took a chance, there would be no success. 1070 01:12:33,720 --> 01:12:36,583 Now there might be less pain and failure, 1071 01:12:37,440 --> 01:12:40,240 but for sure there'd be no success. 1072 01:12:40,240 --> 01:12:44,423 And no success means failure and it's painful. 1073 01:12:46,110 --> 01:12:48,190 There are things in life that you simply 1074 01:12:48,190 --> 01:12:49,513 have to depend on faith. 1075 01:12:50,410 --> 01:12:53,510 There's a difference between knowing and believing. 1076 01:12:53,510 --> 01:12:57,060 Knowing is based on exhaustive knowledge. 1077 01:12:57,060 --> 01:13:01,020 But believing, it's putting your faith in something 1078 01:13:01,020 --> 01:13:02,713 with virtually no knowledge. 1079 01:13:06,780 --> 01:13:08,080 - Like the guy who didn't believe 1080 01:13:08,080 --> 01:13:09,580 that Jesus rose from the dead. 1081 01:13:10,600 --> 01:13:11,433 - Thomas? 1082 01:13:11,433 --> 01:13:14,550 Yes, he believed once he saw. 1083 01:13:14,550 --> 01:13:16,400 - So why can't you show me a miracle? 1084 01:13:18,360 --> 01:13:20,503 Show me a miracle, then I'll believe. 1085 01:13:21,550 --> 01:13:24,623 You bring Brittany back and I'll believe you. 1086 01:13:26,290 --> 01:13:28,170 - These are things that people have been dealing with 1087 01:13:28,170 --> 01:13:29,343 for a long time. 1088 01:13:30,510 --> 01:13:35,510 If believing isn't seeing, then faith is not seeing. 1089 01:13:35,880 --> 01:13:37,360 - Riddles. 1090 01:13:37,360 --> 01:13:39,260 Why do you all always talk in riddles? 1091 01:13:40,360 --> 01:13:44,423 Why can't things just be good or bad, right or wrong? 1092 01:13:45,790 --> 01:13:47,653 - If everything was always good, 1093 01:13:48,770 --> 01:13:50,510 would you really be able to appreciate 1094 01:13:50,510 --> 01:13:52,810 the majesty of eternity 1095 01:13:52,810 --> 01:13:55,963 or the greatness of what awaits you after this life? 1096 01:13:57,070 --> 01:13:58,620 - So I'm supposed to thank him. 1097 01:13:59,750 --> 01:14:04,333 Thank him for all of this, praising through the suffering? 1098 01:14:06,230 --> 01:14:09,113 You don't know this kind of pain. 1099 01:14:10,471 --> 01:14:11,840 - But he does. 1100 01:14:11,840 --> 01:14:13,203 He knows suffering, Jim. 1101 01:14:15,410 --> 01:14:17,519 - Yeah, the cross. 1102 01:14:17,519 --> 01:14:19,700 - No, not just the cross. 1103 01:14:19,700 --> 01:14:22,420 It's the pain associated with seeing something 1104 01:14:22,420 --> 01:14:26,853 you truly love turn away from him: humanity. 1105 01:14:28,090 --> 01:14:30,133 You lost Brittany to an evil man. 1106 01:14:31,080 --> 01:14:34,483 He's lost generations of Brittanys to the evil of man. 1107 01:14:37,878 --> 01:14:40,628 (mystical music) 1108 01:14:43,240 --> 01:14:44,610 Good afternoon, sir. 1109 01:14:44,610 --> 01:14:46,040 Can I ask you a question? 1110 01:14:46,040 --> 01:14:48,440 D'you know where you're going to spend eternity? 1111 01:14:50,308 --> 01:14:52,460 (door clanking) 1112 01:14:52,460 --> 01:14:54,110 - That was you? 1113 01:14:54,110 --> 01:14:55,650 - I told you. 1114 01:14:55,650 --> 01:14:56,713 I can be everywhere. 1115 01:14:59,837 --> 01:15:00,670 - Okay. 1116 01:15:01,550 --> 01:15:03,720 If you are who you say you are 1117 01:15:03,720 --> 01:15:05,960 and you say Jesus is who he is 1118 01:15:05,960 --> 01:15:08,973 and you all can be everywhere at any time, 1119 01:15:09,840 --> 01:15:11,810 then why didn't you stop it? 1120 01:15:11,810 --> 01:15:13,460 Why didn't you stop the shooting? 1121 01:15:14,730 --> 01:15:19,073 - Ah, the eternal question: why do bad things happen? 1122 01:15:20,270 --> 01:15:22,220 - I think that's a fair question, yeah. 1123 01:15:23,118 --> 01:15:25,370 - Sin's a terrible thing, Jim. 1124 01:15:25,370 --> 01:15:28,680 And it's prevalent everywhere in your society today. 1125 01:15:28,680 --> 01:15:30,670 Unfortunately, a lot of it gets passed off 1126 01:15:30,670 --> 01:15:32,760 as political correctness; 1127 01:15:32,760 --> 01:15:36,063 but I can assure you much of it is still sin. 1128 01:15:37,798 --> 01:15:39,620 When something like this happens, 1129 01:15:39,620 --> 01:15:42,340 the first question people ask believers is 1130 01:15:43,490 --> 01:15:45,140 where was God when this happened? 1131 01:15:46,140 --> 01:15:47,523 It's an easy excuse. 1132 01:15:49,180 --> 01:15:51,750 - Well, I can't blame 'em. 1133 01:15:51,750 --> 01:15:53,053 I've asked the same thing. 1134 01:15:54,851 --> 01:15:57,710 - You wanna know why he didn't get involved 1135 01:15:57,710 --> 01:15:59,410 when the bad things happened here? 1136 01:16:00,300 --> 01:16:02,750 At the same time, no one wants to admit 1137 01:16:02,750 --> 01:16:04,653 to that which is evident of him. 1138 01:16:05,530 --> 01:16:09,300 But here's the thing: He does get involved 1139 01:16:09,300 --> 01:16:13,070 with everything that goes on here, good and bad. 1140 01:16:13,070 --> 01:16:15,530 It's not that he allows it to happen; 1141 01:16:15,530 --> 01:16:18,710 it's that he allows people to make their own choices, 1142 01:16:18,710 --> 01:16:20,963 good and bad. 1143 01:16:22,290 --> 01:16:25,363 - No father should have to bury his own child. 1144 01:16:27,610 --> 01:16:31,230 And today, I had to lower my daughter's body 1145 01:16:31,230 --> 01:16:32,853 into a hole in the ground. 1146 01:16:34,810 --> 01:16:36,560 - You know what else you did today? 1147 01:16:37,630 --> 01:16:40,173 You finished the process of giving her to him. 1148 01:16:41,510 --> 01:16:43,430 She gave herself to him a few months ago, 1149 01:16:43,430 --> 01:16:46,463 but today her time on earth was finished. 1150 01:16:48,210 --> 01:16:49,860 You asked me a lotta questions today 1151 01:16:49,860 --> 01:16:51,410 and I've given you all the answers, 1152 01:16:51,410 --> 01:16:53,310 even the ones you didn't want to hear. 1153 01:16:55,760 --> 01:16:57,460 But why don't you ask the question 1154 01:16:57,460 --> 01:17:01,453 that you really wanna know, the real reason why I'm here? 1155 01:17:04,850 --> 01:17:07,593 - Alright fine, you want the question? 1156 01:17:10,610 --> 01:17:11,703 Why her? 1157 01:17:12,940 --> 01:17:14,603 Why an 11 year old girl? 1158 01:17:15,950 --> 01:17:18,560 She didn't even get a chance to live! 1159 01:17:18,560 --> 01:17:20,480 At least it could've been me. 1160 01:17:20,480 --> 01:17:23,140 I've already lived at least for some. 1161 01:17:23,140 --> 01:17:24,180 You want a question? 1162 01:17:24,180 --> 01:17:26,257 That's my question; why her?! 1163 01:17:28,020 --> 01:17:29,970 - Are you sure you want an explanation? 1164 01:17:31,000 --> 01:17:34,000 D'you really want to know why innocents suffer? 1165 01:17:34,000 --> 01:17:36,040 'Cause I don't think you do. 1166 01:17:36,040 --> 01:17:38,803 I think you're far better off with the than the answer. 1167 01:17:39,660 --> 01:17:40,913 - More riddles. 1168 01:17:43,169 --> 01:17:45,280 - What if you finally got an answer? 1169 01:17:45,280 --> 01:17:48,150 What if I gave you a satisfactory explanation? 1170 01:17:48,150 --> 01:17:49,993 What if the mystery were solved? 1171 01:17:51,800 --> 01:17:55,623 What if you asked why and actually got an answer? 1172 01:17:57,430 --> 01:17:59,240 - Well I don't know, 1173 01:17:59,240 --> 01:18:02,110 then maybe all of this would make sense. 1174 01:18:02,110 --> 01:18:03,763 - If this question were answered, 1175 01:18:05,020 --> 01:18:07,080 then you would be able to make peace 1176 01:18:07,080 --> 01:18:08,973 with the suffering of innocents. 1177 01:18:10,370 --> 01:18:12,470 Worse than innocent people suffering 1178 01:18:12,470 --> 01:18:14,940 is others watching the suffering unmoved 1179 01:18:14,940 --> 01:18:16,823 and that's exactly what would happen. 1180 01:18:18,100 --> 01:18:20,703 You'd no longer be bothered by their cries. 1181 01:18:21,550 --> 01:18:23,200 You would no longer feel their pain 1182 01:18:23,200 --> 01:18:25,150 'cause you'd know why it was happening. 1183 01:18:26,843 --> 01:18:31,843 If ya had an explanation, the pain wouldn't seem so bad 1184 01:18:32,440 --> 01:18:34,020 and you could tolerate the suffering 1185 01:18:34,020 --> 01:18:36,220 because you would know why it was happening. 1186 01:18:37,810 --> 01:18:39,660 - Well then what am I supposed to do? 1187 01:18:41,580 --> 01:18:42,413 - Look to him. 1188 01:18:43,610 --> 01:18:46,920 Don't look to the world to help to take your pain away 1189 01:18:48,070 --> 01:18:51,803 'cause the world can't do that, only Jesus can. 1190 01:18:52,870 --> 01:18:55,523 - So then everything just gets better? 1191 01:18:56,600 --> 01:18:59,730 - No, salvation doesn't excuse you 1192 01:18:59,730 --> 01:19:01,130 from the pain and suffering. 1193 01:19:02,330 --> 01:19:05,060 Salvation gives you a destination 1194 01:19:05,060 --> 01:19:07,260 after you've endured the pain and suffering. 1195 01:19:08,210 --> 01:19:09,363 Brittany knew this. 1196 01:19:10,550 --> 01:19:12,083 She knew this despite everything 1197 01:19:12,083 --> 01:19:13,723 that was going on around her, 1198 01:19:15,699 --> 01:19:17,023 and she knew where she was going. 1199 01:19:19,280 --> 01:19:20,433 - So she's in eternity? 1200 01:19:24,732 --> 01:19:26,032 That's what she mentioned. 1201 01:19:26,960 --> 01:19:28,060 That's where she's at. 1202 01:19:30,390 --> 01:19:32,483 - She is and she's waiting. 1203 01:19:33,350 --> 01:19:34,450 She's waiting for you. 1204 01:19:36,470 --> 01:19:38,460 - You mean I can see her? 1205 01:19:38,460 --> 01:19:39,293 - Yes. 1206 01:19:40,240 --> 01:19:42,720 Mankind is always saying that seeing is believing 1207 01:19:43,720 --> 01:19:48,720 and I'm telling you, you got to believe in order to see. 1208 01:20:01,873 --> 01:20:03,373 - I wanna believe, 1209 01:20:07,143 --> 01:20:09,807 but it's just been so long since I had him. 1210 01:20:12,240 --> 01:20:15,403 I just don't know if I can believe anymore. 1211 01:20:19,192 --> 01:20:20,380 I just, 1212 01:20:20,380 --> 01:20:21,213 I can't. 1213 01:20:23,130 --> 01:20:23,963 - You can. 1214 01:20:25,560 --> 01:20:28,220 In all that you been searching for and longing for 1215 01:20:28,220 --> 01:20:29,953 can't be found here on earth. 1216 01:20:31,040 --> 01:20:35,713 It can only be found through him, though salvation. 1217 01:20:42,010 --> 01:20:44,013 - I'm just so tired. 1218 01:20:47,690 --> 01:20:49,823 I am tired of fighting. 1219 01:20:50,740 --> 01:20:52,513 I'm tired of failing. 1220 01:20:54,280 --> 01:20:55,113 - Of falling? 1221 01:20:56,900 --> 01:20:57,733 - Yeah. 1222 01:21:00,450 --> 01:21:01,613 Can you take that away? 1223 01:21:02,530 --> 01:21:07,530 - I can't, but he can and you can rest, Jim. 1224 01:21:09,433 --> 01:21:13,440 You can rest in him and you don't have to be afraid. 1225 01:21:13,440 --> 01:21:15,013 You can stop being afraid. 1226 01:21:16,380 --> 01:21:20,523 You heard from your dad, now listen to your real father. 1227 01:21:21,370 --> 01:21:23,380 - [Brittany] He saved me, daddy. 1228 01:21:23,380 --> 01:21:26,660 I was scared, really scared. 1229 01:21:26,660 --> 01:21:27,843 I was lost. 1230 01:21:29,107 --> 01:21:30,107 He saved me. 1231 01:21:32,777 --> 01:21:34,070 - I miss her so bad 1232 01:21:38,051 --> 01:21:40,430 and I didn't even get to say goodbye. 1233 01:21:40,430 --> 01:21:41,263 - I know. 1234 01:21:42,270 --> 01:21:45,403 I know all that and it's not too late. 1235 01:21:50,250 --> 01:21:51,083 - I need. 1236 01:21:54,360 --> 01:21:56,030 I need. 1237 01:21:56,030 --> 01:21:57,900 - He knows what you need. 1238 01:21:57,900 --> 01:21:58,900 He knows everything. 1239 01:22:00,020 --> 01:22:03,173 What you need is him in your heart. 1240 01:22:04,443 --> 01:22:05,943 - Then just take it then. 1241 01:22:09,450 --> 01:22:12,063 Take away the hurt; take away the pain. 1242 01:22:13,420 --> 01:22:15,853 I'm tired of carryin' this with me. 1243 01:22:21,320 --> 01:22:22,893 Please, just take it. 1244 01:22:24,930 --> 01:22:25,880 - Rest in him, Jim. 1245 01:22:31,925 --> 01:22:34,508 - I have no idea what I'm doing 1246 01:22:36,290 --> 01:22:39,103 and they say that you are the one 1247 01:22:39,103 --> 01:22:41,134 that can relieve me of this pain. 1248 01:22:41,134 --> 01:22:46,134 ♪ When life is not all that I hoped it would be ♪ 1249 01:22:47,827 --> 01:22:52,577 ♪ And my vision is so cloudy I can't see ♪ 1250 01:22:53,560 --> 01:22:57,823 - If this is what it takes, then this is what I wanna give. 1251 01:22:59,253 --> 01:23:03,503 ♪ Ooh so broken I fall to my knees ♪ 1252 01:23:06,750 --> 01:23:09,160 - I'm sorry for the sin in my life. 1253 01:23:09,160 --> 01:23:11,263 I'm sorry for all the trouble I've caused. 1254 01:23:12,182 --> 01:23:16,255 ♪ You rescue me ♪ 1255 01:23:16,255 --> 01:23:20,432 ♪ And it's from your love ♪ 1256 01:23:20,432 --> 01:23:23,453 - If you'll just forgive me. 1257 01:23:23,453 --> 01:23:28,453 ♪ That I find mercy in your embrace ♪ 1258 01:23:30,138 --> 01:23:32,721 ♪ Your embrace ♪ 1259 01:23:35,443 --> 01:23:40,265 - (weeps) I can't do this on my own. 1260 01:23:40,265 --> 01:23:42,432 I can't do this on my own. 1261 01:23:43,653 --> 01:23:48,653 ♪ And my heart and soul just wants to mourn ♪ 1262 01:23:49,201 --> 01:23:53,034 ♪ And nothing in all on earth ♪ 1263 01:23:54,326 --> 01:23:57,040 - I need you in my heart. 1264 01:23:57,040 --> 01:23:58,783 I need you to guide me. 1265 01:23:58,783 --> 01:24:01,952 ♪ I cry out to you Lord ♪ 1266 01:24:01,952 --> 01:24:03,376 ♪ I cry out ♪ 1267 01:24:03,376 --> 01:24:06,423 ♪ You hear my plea ♪ 1268 01:24:06,423 --> 01:24:10,365 ♪ You rescue me ♪ 1269 01:24:10,365 --> 01:24:15,365 ♪ And it's from your love and infinite grace ♪ 1270 01:24:17,426 --> 01:24:21,759 ♪ That I find mercy in your embrace ♪ 1271 01:24:42,800 --> 01:24:43,750 - You've come back. 1272 01:24:45,226 --> 01:24:46,059 - What? 1273 01:24:46,059 --> 01:24:47,363 What are you staring at? 1274 01:24:51,056 --> 01:24:51,889 What? 1275 01:24:51,889 --> 01:24:53,189 Why are you staring at me? 1276 01:24:54,980 --> 01:24:55,813 What?! 1277 01:24:57,000 --> 01:24:58,780 - Okay I get it, Brit. 1278 01:24:58,780 --> 01:24:59,613 I understand. 1279 01:25:00,580 --> 01:25:01,413 - Okay? 1280 01:25:02,580 --> 01:25:04,260 - I'm just so glad you're back. 1281 01:25:04,260 --> 01:25:06,243 I didn't think I would ever see you again. 1282 01:25:07,440 --> 01:25:08,700 - Back? 1283 01:25:08,700 --> 01:25:09,920 Back from where? 1284 01:25:09,920 --> 01:25:11,333 Dad, what are you talking about? 1285 01:25:11,333 --> 01:25:12,850 - Back from there. 1286 01:25:12,850 --> 01:25:14,360 Back from him. 1287 01:25:14,360 --> 01:25:17,190 I mean I can understand why you wouldn't wanna come back. 1288 01:25:17,190 --> 01:25:19,713 I mean it's gotta be unbelievable. 1289 01:25:20,560 --> 01:25:22,570 - Dad, you're kinda freaking me out. 1290 01:25:22,570 --> 01:25:24,130 - Look, it all makes sense now. 1291 01:25:24,130 --> 01:25:25,670 I understand. 1292 01:25:25,670 --> 01:25:26,503 - I gotta go. 1293 01:25:26,503 --> 01:25:27,513 - Wait a minute, go? 1294 01:25:28,440 --> 01:25:29,910 - I gotta go or I'll be late. 1295 01:25:29,910 --> 01:25:30,743 - Go where? 1296 01:25:30,743 --> 01:25:32,720 - I gotta go to school. 1297 01:25:32,720 --> 01:25:35,580 See ya in two weeks. - Wait wait wait. 1298 01:25:35,580 --> 01:25:36,630 Just a minute, honey. 1299 01:25:37,610 --> 01:25:39,010 - Dad. 1300 01:25:39,010 --> 01:25:40,923 - Look, he's given me a second chance. 1301 01:25:42,120 --> 01:25:43,970 - I'm gonna miss my bus, what? 1302 01:25:43,970 --> 01:25:46,944 - He's given me a second chance to make it right. 1303 01:25:46,944 --> 01:25:48,820 - I'm not gonna make it to school, dad. 1304 01:25:48,820 --> 01:25:51,090 - You're here with me right now, okay? 1305 01:25:51,090 --> 01:25:53,896 And he's given me another chance to make this right. 1306 01:25:53,896 --> 01:25:55,120 - My bus. 1307 01:25:55,120 --> 01:25:56,820 - Don't worry about the bus, okay? 1308 01:25:58,870 --> 01:26:00,470 Don't worry about anything. 1309 01:26:00,470 --> 01:26:01,303 Hold on. 1310 01:26:08,561 --> 01:26:09,880 - [Dispatcher] 911, what's your emergency? 1311 01:26:09,880 --> 01:26:13,360 - Yeah I need to report something, a shooting. 1312 01:26:13,360 --> 01:26:14,540 - [Dispatcher] Report what, sir? 1313 01:26:14,540 --> 01:26:15,560 What's the emergency? 1314 01:26:15,560 --> 01:26:19,037 - There's a shooting at Liberty Middle School. 1315 01:26:19,037 --> 01:26:20,680 - [Dispatcher] There's a shooter at the school? 1316 01:26:20,680 --> 01:26:21,730 Are you at the school, sir? 1317 01:26:21,730 --> 01:26:23,420 - No, I'm not there. 1318 01:26:23,420 --> 01:26:26,310 The shooting hasn't happened yet, but it's going to. 1319 01:26:26,310 --> 01:26:27,230 - [Dispatcher] Sir, are you-- 1320 01:26:27,230 --> 01:26:29,113 - Just get someone to the school now! 1321 01:26:31,570 --> 01:26:33,940 - Dad, what's going on? 1322 01:26:33,940 --> 01:26:35,669 - Hold on, hold on. 1323 01:26:35,669 --> 01:26:39,247 (inspirational piano music) 1324 01:26:39,247 --> 01:26:41,230 - [Brittany] What are you doing with that? 1325 01:26:41,230 --> 01:26:44,213 - Oh I'm sorry, honey. 1326 01:26:46,120 --> 01:26:47,927 I'm just so proud of you, you know? 1327 01:26:49,090 --> 01:26:49,923 - Whatever. 1328 01:26:49,923 --> 01:26:51,970 You gotta drive me to school. 1329 01:26:51,970 --> 01:26:52,803 - Yeah. 1330 01:26:55,500 --> 01:26:56,333 You know what? 1331 01:26:58,230 --> 01:27:00,130 We're gonna take the day off together. 1332 01:27:01,329 --> 01:27:02,162 - What? 1333 01:27:02,162 --> 01:27:02,995 - You're not gonna go to school 1334 01:27:02,995 --> 01:27:04,070 and I'm not gonna go to work. 1335 01:27:04,070 --> 01:27:06,083 - No school? - No school. 1336 01:27:06,950 --> 01:27:07,783 - Fine with me. 1337 01:27:09,302 --> 01:27:10,623 - You know what else, Brit? 1338 01:27:12,410 --> 01:27:15,590 Every day I promise you, you're gonna know 1339 01:27:15,590 --> 01:27:16,803 how much I love you. 1340 01:27:17,840 --> 01:27:19,190 Every day from here on out. 1341 01:27:23,782 --> 01:27:24,699 I love you. 1342 01:27:30,230 --> 01:27:35,230 So you wanna go get some breakfast? 1343 01:27:37,146 --> 01:27:38,380 - I'd like that, daddy. 1344 01:27:38,380 --> 01:27:40,283 Then maybe we can go rock climbing? 1345 01:27:41,240 --> 01:27:43,420 - Yeah, yeah sure. 1346 01:27:43,420 --> 01:27:46,140 Let's call your mom and see if she wants to go. 1347 01:27:46,140 --> 01:27:48,993 - As a family? - Sure, as a family. 1348 01:27:51,610 --> 01:27:54,580 ("Stay" by Jeff Kunzel) 1349 01:27:54,580 --> 01:27:57,483 ♪ Stay ♪ 1350 01:27:57,483 --> 01:28:00,933 ♪ With me ♪ 1351 01:28:00,933 --> 01:28:05,933 ♪ Just stay with me ♪ 1352 01:28:07,306 --> 01:28:12,306 ♪ Don't leave ♪ 1353 01:28:13,268 --> 01:28:18,268 ♪ Don't leave ♪ 1354 01:28:19,026 --> 01:28:24,026 ♪ You don't have to go ♪ 1355 01:28:25,035 --> 01:28:30,035 ♪ I'll be waitin' on those stairs ♪ 1356 01:28:32,146 --> 01:28:37,146 ♪ We don't have to turn (mumbles) ♪ 1357 01:28:38,522 --> 01:28:43,522 ♪ What will (mumbles) ♪ 1358 01:28:46,079 --> 01:28:49,542 ♪ Just stay ♪ 1359 01:28:49,542 --> 01:28:52,852 ♪ With me ♪ 1360 01:28:52,852 --> 01:28:57,852 ♪ Stay with me ♪ 1361 01:28:58,993 --> 01:29:03,993 ♪ Don't leave ♪ 1362 01:29:05,150 --> 01:29:10,150 ♪ Don't leave ♪ 1363 01:29:12,004 --> 01:29:15,111 ♪ Just stay ♪ 1364 01:29:15,111 --> 01:29:18,325 ♪ With me ♪ 1365 01:29:18,325 --> 01:29:23,325 ♪ Just stay with me ♪ 1366 01:29:25,256 --> 01:29:30,256 ♪ Don't leave ♪ 1367 01:29:31,213 --> 01:29:36,213 ♪ Don't leave ♪ 1368 01:29:36,967 --> 01:29:41,967 ♪ I know that you'll stay ♪ 1369 01:29:42,750 --> 01:29:47,750 ♪ I know life can be that way ♪ 1370 01:29:49,345 --> 01:29:54,345 ♪ I know the demons that you facin' now ♪ 1371 01:29:56,100 --> 01:30:01,100 ♪ I face mine every day ♪ 1372 01:30:02,833 --> 01:30:06,166 ♪ So why don't you stay ♪