1 00:00:13,600 --> 00:00:16,400 OK, so... 2 00:00:18,320 --> 00:00:22,680 ..I guess I've been feeling a bit lost ever since the accident. 3 00:00:24,080 --> 00:00:27,040 Not knowing what to do with myself, you know. 4 00:00:29,400 --> 00:00:35,320 When I can't sleep, I wind up just trawling through stuff online, 5 00:00:35,320 --> 00:00:39,280 reading books I forgot I even had... 6 00:00:39,280 --> 00:00:41,280 and watching horror movies... 7 00:00:41,280 --> 00:00:43,400 PULSATING HEARTBEAT 8 00:00:43,400 --> 00:00:45,000 ..night after night. 9 00:00:46,520 --> 00:00:48,160 I'm not sure why. 10 00:00:48,160 --> 00:00:51,040 HEARTBEAT CONTINUES 11 00:00:52,680 --> 00:00:55,720 And the more I sit there and watch, 12 00:00:55,720 --> 00:00:58,840 the more I start to feel a bit used. 13 00:01:02,920 --> 00:01:06,560 I know it's all part of the fun or whatever, 14 00:01:06,560 --> 00:01:09,920 and it's not that I can't suspend my disbelief... 15 00:01:11,720 --> 00:01:16,040 ..but I just keep thinking about the way these films are made... 16 00:01:16,040 --> 00:01:19,840 WOMAN SCREAMS 17 00:01:21,480 --> 00:01:26,840 ..the way they're built to take advantage of who we are... 18 00:01:26,840 --> 00:01:29,360 Kill all the effects, except for the scream. 19 00:01:29,360 --> 00:01:30,720 ..how we work. 20 00:01:39,280 --> 00:01:42,760 WOMAN SCREAMS 21 00:01:46,760 --> 00:01:50,240 Every second, they're poking you, 22 00:01:50,240 --> 00:01:52,480 prodding you. 23 00:01:52,480 --> 00:01:55,920 Trying to get you to look in a certain direction 24 00:01:55,920 --> 00:01:57,920 or feel a certain way. 25 00:02:02,240 --> 00:02:06,520 Before long, they have you exactly where they want you. 26 00:02:11,320 --> 00:02:14,240 You can tell yourself it isn't real, 27 00:02:14,240 --> 00:02:17,480 tell yourself it's all just manipulation. 28 00:02:19,560 --> 00:02:21,040 But it's no use. 29 00:02:24,280 --> 00:02:26,520 As you sit there 30 00:02:26,520 --> 00:02:28,640 and take it all in, 31 00:02:28,640 --> 00:02:33,320 you feel the fear they want you to feel. 32 00:02:34,640 --> 00:02:38,000 WIND HOWLS 33 00:03:13,080 --> 00:03:17,040 Over time, you'd think some kind of immunity would 34 00:03:17,040 --> 00:03:18,280 start to build up. 35 00:03:22,640 --> 00:03:26,800 But the effect is still just as strong as it ever was. 36 00:03:29,920 --> 00:03:33,040 I can still get a fair way into a film and not know 37 00:03:33,040 --> 00:03:37,680 when the fear will come or where from. 38 00:03:44,520 --> 00:03:47,480 I'm not sure why I never learn, 39 00:03:47,480 --> 00:03:49,720 why, time after time, 40 00:03:49,720 --> 00:03:54,760 I never see fear coming till it swallows me whole. 41 00:04:01,200 --> 00:04:04,040 Fear never even occurs to you... 42 00:04:06,880 --> 00:04:10,920 ..until you're faced with that first hint of danger... 43 00:04:13,400 --> 00:04:17,320 ..some barely perceptible signal that all is not right with the world. 44 00:04:23,680 --> 00:04:25,280 A flicker in the distance... 45 00:04:27,160 --> 00:04:29,200 ..or a whisper through the trees. 46 00:04:34,600 --> 00:04:36,960 These things tell us barely anything. 47 00:04:38,760 --> 00:04:41,240 But they count for a lot 48 00:04:41,240 --> 00:04:43,520 when you don't have much to go on. 49 00:04:47,000 --> 00:04:52,040 They make you wonder what else is out there just beyond your grasp... 50 00:04:54,480 --> 00:05:00,040 ..by giving you just enough sound to hear the silence... 51 00:05:01,600 --> 00:05:06,920 ..and just enough light to realise how dark it really is. 52 00:05:14,320 --> 00:05:17,160 I mean, silence and darkness. 53 00:05:18,440 --> 00:05:21,960 They're just names we give to the moments when our eyes 54 00:05:21,960 --> 00:05:23,400 and ears let us down. 55 00:05:25,480 --> 00:05:29,800 If I look out into the night and can't see anything, it doesn't mean 56 00:05:29,800 --> 00:05:34,360 there's nothing there, just nothing I can make out. 57 00:05:37,080 --> 00:05:43,520 When something breaks through that void, it can feel like a sign, 58 00:05:43,520 --> 00:05:50,800 but really it's just some tiny detail coming within reach of my senses. 59 00:05:56,400 --> 00:06:00,480 Each night, with the lights off, 60 00:06:00,480 --> 00:06:03,920 my room fades into a world of deep blue. 61 00:06:07,280 --> 00:06:09,760 That space is so familiar to me, 62 00:06:09,760 --> 00:06:13,400 but still...it feels strange. 63 00:06:13,400 --> 00:06:15,080 SHE GASPS 64 00:06:18,560 --> 00:06:23,200 Most of the time, I at least try to get some sleep. 65 00:06:23,200 --> 00:06:26,240 But I end up just lying there, 66 00:06:26,240 --> 00:06:28,720 letting my thoughts wash over me. 67 00:06:31,520 --> 00:06:35,880 I stare so hard at the walls that I start to see shapes 68 00:06:35,880 --> 00:06:37,880 emerging from the gloom. 69 00:06:40,120 --> 00:06:45,320 And I squint to try and make them out, but they keep shifting. 70 00:06:48,320 --> 00:06:50,480 And when you can't see clearly, 71 00:06:50,480 --> 00:06:53,360 the world's a more frightening place... 72 00:06:55,400 --> 00:06:58,880 ..pared down to a few vague signals. 73 00:07:03,120 --> 00:07:07,720 You watch old films and they get that feeling exactly right. 74 00:07:09,480 --> 00:07:13,000 All the grain starts to work in their favour, 75 00:07:13,000 --> 00:07:15,760 limiting how much you can really make out. 76 00:07:18,640 --> 00:07:22,800 They paint a muted picture of the world, 77 00:07:22,800 --> 00:07:26,680 where any signal that cuts through the haze 78 00:07:26,680 --> 00:07:30,080 seizes your attention like a lighthouse through fog. 79 00:07:32,040 --> 00:07:35,320 CLACKING 80 00:07:47,200 --> 00:07:49,440 In those moments, 81 00:07:49,440 --> 00:07:52,080 everything is intensified. 82 00:07:58,000 --> 00:08:00,720 The darkness stretches out endlessly... 83 00:08:00,720 --> 00:08:02,640 THUNDER RUMBLES 84 00:08:02,640 --> 00:08:05,760 ..so you put a lot of faith in what you can see. 85 00:08:07,400 --> 00:08:09,880 Too much faith. 86 00:08:19,080 --> 00:08:24,120 Tiny specks of light become spirits. 87 00:08:24,120 --> 00:08:29,440 The smallest hint of movement is an intruder 88 00:08:29,440 --> 00:08:32,000 edging through the darkness. 89 00:08:32,000 --> 00:08:34,800 THUNDER RUMBLES 90 00:08:34,800 --> 00:08:39,200 I know it's impossible, but sometimes I even think I see her... 91 00:08:42,640 --> 00:08:47,120 ..in the corner of my eye, turning away. 92 00:08:54,120 --> 00:08:59,280 In that instant, it doesn't matter what you know about the world. 93 00:09:00,480 --> 00:09:04,320 THUNDER BOOMS 94 00:09:04,320 --> 00:09:09,280 All that matters is what appears before you. 95 00:09:10,520 --> 00:09:14,240 CHILD SPEAKS IN OWN LANGUAGE 96 00:09:41,000 --> 00:09:44,360 GHOSTLY SCREAMING 97 00:09:53,200 --> 00:09:54,240 Oh! 98 00:09:55,280 --> 00:09:56,480 Ohhh! 99 00:09:59,640 --> 00:10:00,840 Ohh! 100 00:10:04,200 --> 00:10:06,360 SHE BREATHES HEAVILY 101 00:10:06,360 --> 00:10:10,120 And then fear. 102 00:10:10,120 --> 00:10:16,480 It overwhelms you, coursing through your body 103 00:10:16,480 --> 00:10:18,680 and exaggerating every tiny feeling. 104 00:10:19,880 --> 00:10:22,240 Throwing you into chaos. 105 00:10:27,840 --> 00:10:32,240 But it's a chaos that's familiar. 106 00:10:32,240 --> 00:10:34,000 You know it right away. 107 00:10:35,680 --> 00:10:38,880 You can even recognise it in other people. 108 00:10:40,320 --> 00:10:45,920 Little things - eyes widening, pupils dilating - feel huge. 109 00:10:48,040 --> 00:10:51,880 They're enough to spark that same fear in you. 110 00:10:51,880 --> 00:10:53,880 TRANSLATION: 111 00:10:59,960 --> 00:11:06,360 As a kid, sometimes all it took was a look of fear on my sister's face 112 00:11:06,360 --> 00:11:08,640 to make me feel the same way. 113 00:11:12,680 --> 00:11:15,800 We always had that link between us. 114 00:11:20,000 --> 00:11:21,600 It's not a conscious thing. 115 00:11:23,320 --> 00:11:26,560 You feel the fear long before you can make sense of it. 116 00:11:31,600 --> 00:11:35,720 It's like flicking a switch and turning on a lamp. 117 00:11:37,160 --> 00:11:40,160 You don't think about how it works, 118 00:11:40,160 --> 00:11:44,480 all the intricate little processes that happen in that moment. 119 00:11:44,480 --> 00:11:48,000 You just see light, flooding into your eyes. 120 00:11:48,000 --> 00:11:50,200 Mark, what a beautiful little boy! 121 00:11:50,200 --> 00:11:51,720 Who is he? 122 00:11:51,720 --> 00:11:52,840 Me. 123 00:11:52,840 --> 00:11:54,680 Course it is! 124 00:11:56,120 --> 00:11:58,360 Fear works the same way. 125 00:11:59,920 --> 00:12:03,160 It strikes in an instant, 126 00:12:03,160 --> 00:12:07,680 giving you no chance to make sense of the forces inside you... 127 00:12:07,680 --> 00:12:09,680 that make it all possible. 128 00:12:11,360 --> 00:12:12,960 So he was a scientist? 129 00:12:12,960 --> 00:12:16,040 What kind of a scientist, Mark? 130 00:12:16,040 --> 00:12:19,240 - Biologist. - What was he trying to do to you? 131 00:12:20,640 --> 00:12:22,800 Mark, what was he trying to do to you? 132 00:12:24,120 --> 00:12:28,880 He was interested in the reactions of the nervous system to... 133 00:12:28,880 --> 00:12:30,880 to fear. 134 00:12:30,880 --> 00:12:32,960 Fear? 135 00:12:34,440 --> 00:12:35,560 Fear. 136 00:12:39,600 --> 00:12:42,440 You're never aware of the anxieties lying dormant 137 00:12:42,440 --> 00:12:46,480 within your mind, till they flare up like that... 138 00:12:48,120 --> 00:12:51,680 ..till you sense some sign of danger, 139 00:12:51,680 --> 00:12:53,800 and your body tenses up. 140 00:12:59,720 --> 00:13:03,600 Suddenly, those anxieties are right there in front of you... 141 00:13:06,440 --> 00:13:08,600 ..as if they came from nowhere. 142 00:13:15,160 --> 00:13:17,040 We've met before, haven't we? 143 00:13:21,200 --> 00:13:22,800 I don't think so. 144 00:13:25,920 --> 00:13:27,840 Where was it you think we met? 145 00:13:29,920 --> 00:13:31,920 At your house. Don't you remember? 146 00:13:35,240 --> 00:13:39,360 No, no, I don't. Are you sure? 147 00:13:41,080 --> 00:13:42,280 Of course. 148 00:13:43,720 --> 00:13:46,000 As a matter of fact, 149 00:13:46,000 --> 00:13:47,960 I'm there right now. 150 00:13:54,120 --> 00:13:56,800 Whether we realise it or not, 151 00:13:56,800 --> 00:13:59,480 our anxieties are always with us. 152 00:14:04,160 --> 00:14:06,480 Some build up as we go through life. 153 00:14:07,880 --> 00:14:09,680 Others are hard-wired... 154 00:14:11,280 --> 00:14:14,960 ..passed down from generation to generation, 155 00:14:14,960 --> 00:14:18,400 like sense memories of some ancient past. 156 00:14:20,680 --> 00:14:24,160 Together, they watch for the first signs of danger... 157 00:14:27,440 --> 00:14:28,880 ..the sound of a predator... 158 00:14:30,960 --> 00:14:32,640 Oh, shit! Oh... 159 00:14:32,640 --> 00:14:36,000 ..or the sight of blood rising up through a wound. 160 00:14:40,120 --> 00:14:44,120 Just the colour of blood is enough to send your mind reeling. 161 00:14:50,560 --> 00:14:52,240 Like a premonition, 162 00:14:52,240 --> 00:14:55,080 it warns of some imminent disaster. 163 00:15:00,400 --> 00:15:01,800 What's the matter? 164 00:15:03,960 --> 00:15:05,000 Nothing. 165 00:15:13,680 --> 00:15:15,320 And that vivid red 166 00:15:15,320 --> 00:15:18,120 stands out like nothing else, 167 00:15:18,120 --> 00:15:20,240 sending your heart racing, 168 00:15:20,240 --> 00:15:27,040 pumping blood through your veins in some kind of strange affinity. 169 00:15:31,840 --> 00:15:33,560 And yet... 170 00:15:33,560 --> 00:15:37,120 OK, you're going to feel some pressure here. Now, don't move. 171 00:15:37,120 --> 00:15:41,560 ..today, the sight of blood isn't so simple. 172 00:15:41,560 --> 00:15:43,400 Agh! 173 00:15:43,400 --> 00:15:45,480 Today, it can be a sign of harm... 174 00:15:47,280 --> 00:15:49,160 ..or a part of healing. 175 00:15:58,560 --> 00:16:01,480 Either way, that fear remains. 176 00:16:04,280 --> 00:16:06,840 A fear no longer fit for purpose. 177 00:16:18,240 --> 00:16:21,280 You don't have to go back that far to find a world 178 00:16:21,280 --> 00:16:22,800 nothing like our own. 179 00:16:25,200 --> 00:16:29,640 It's not all that long since most humans lived at ground level. 180 00:16:34,720 --> 00:16:38,480 Back then, I guess a fear of heights made perfect sense. 181 00:16:41,800 --> 00:16:45,160 If only to steer you away from a cliff edge. 182 00:16:51,600 --> 00:16:55,560 It would've been impossible to imagine the modern world, with 183 00:16:55,560 --> 00:17:00,040 skyscrapers and tower blocks springing up all over the place. 184 00:17:01,800 --> 00:17:06,080 These new heights aren't all that dangerous, 185 00:17:06,080 --> 00:17:08,120 but sometimes they feel it. 186 00:17:09,560 --> 00:17:13,640 Sometimes it's like every inch off the ground... 187 00:17:13,640 --> 00:17:15,240 CAR HORN BLASTS 188 00:17:15,240 --> 00:17:16,960 ..is an inch away from safety. 189 00:17:24,760 --> 00:17:28,000 DOOR CREAKS 190 00:17:29,400 --> 00:17:32,960 Like that cliff edge isn't so far away after all. 191 00:17:43,600 --> 00:17:47,040 CLATTERING 192 00:17:52,760 --> 00:17:57,120 On some level, I think we'd just rather stay on the ground. 193 00:18:00,800 --> 00:18:03,000 Down where we have nowhere to fall. 194 00:18:03,000 --> 00:18:04,640 Ohh... 195 00:18:04,640 --> 00:18:08,520 SHE BREATHES HEAVILY 196 00:18:18,400 --> 00:18:22,640 I still remember the first time I ever went on a plane. 197 00:18:22,640 --> 00:18:25,240 - This is bliss. - Mm. 198 00:18:26,400 --> 00:18:32,360 Looking out at the tarmac as each aircraft rose up into the sky, 199 00:18:32,360 --> 00:18:36,520 I just thought, "There's something wrong with this picture." 200 00:18:38,080 --> 00:18:40,680 Didn't think it was going to be like this, but... 201 00:18:43,840 --> 00:18:45,600 (Fuck!) 202 00:18:45,600 --> 00:18:46,920 Agh! 203 00:18:50,280 --> 00:18:53,960 - Grandad, help! - The ripcord! 204 00:18:53,960 --> 00:18:56,000 Pull the ripcord! 205 00:18:57,040 --> 00:18:59,960 All the comfort and security of air travel 206 00:18:59,960 --> 00:19:03,400 can so easily come crashing down around you. 207 00:19:07,120 --> 00:19:10,160 The moment you step on board 208 00:19:10,160 --> 00:19:12,800 and realise the strange truth of it all... 209 00:19:17,800 --> 00:19:24,240 ..there you are, human, at one with the Earth. 210 00:19:24,240 --> 00:19:27,520 About to be ripped from its surface. 211 00:19:33,280 --> 00:19:39,080 And when we finally got up in the air, I just sat there, 212 00:19:39,080 --> 00:19:41,160 not quite sure what to do. 213 00:19:42,640 --> 00:19:45,640 Not even sure what I was allowed to do. 214 00:19:47,720 --> 00:19:49,960 It was the first time I remember feeling 215 00:19:49,960 --> 00:19:52,200 I had no control over my body. 216 00:19:54,560 --> 00:19:59,560 Like I was just waiting it out until the plane landed 217 00:19:59,560 --> 00:20:02,880 and I could start to make decisions for myself again. 218 00:20:09,000 --> 00:20:12,280 It was the same when I woke up after the accident. 219 00:20:15,920 --> 00:20:19,080 They wouldn't let me move, 220 00:20:19,080 --> 00:20:23,320 so I just lay there and waited. 221 00:20:25,760 --> 00:20:28,400 Even in that state, it felt wrong. 222 00:20:33,880 --> 00:20:35,680 Can you help me? 223 00:20:40,880 --> 00:20:44,040 You know they only want the best for you, 224 00:20:44,040 --> 00:20:49,200 but you can't shake the feeling that giving in and letting them 225 00:20:49,200 --> 00:20:55,280 take control of your body goes against some deeper impulse. 226 00:21:03,560 --> 00:21:06,400 Imagine what our ancestors would see 227 00:21:06,400 --> 00:21:08,600 if they walked into an operating room. 228 00:21:13,280 --> 00:21:14,760 A torture chamber... 229 00:21:16,480 --> 00:21:19,880 ..filled with barbaric tools. 230 00:21:19,880 --> 00:21:23,120 Weapons to mutilate and maim. 231 00:21:26,600 --> 00:21:29,120 Sometimes I think we see it the same way. 232 00:21:35,600 --> 00:21:39,440 I know they only cut bodies open to heal them, 233 00:21:39,440 --> 00:21:42,160 but the thought still fills me with dread. 234 00:21:44,080 --> 00:21:47,880 I know they only stick bits of metal inside of people to keep them 235 00:21:47,880 --> 00:21:53,800 functional, but how could that not feel like a violation? 236 00:21:56,560 --> 00:21:58,440 MAN GRUNTS 237 00:21:59,640 --> 00:22:02,560 We can't ignore these instincts. 238 00:22:02,560 --> 00:22:04,320 They're part of who we are. 239 00:22:06,200 --> 00:22:11,160 But when we indulge them, we etch them further into ourselves. 240 00:22:12,720 --> 00:22:15,360 We make them a little more real. 241 00:22:15,360 --> 00:22:20,680 After all, there is nothing real outside our perception of reality. 242 00:22:20,680 --> 00:22:22,880 Is there? 243 00:22:22,880 --> 00:22:25,400 HE CHUCKLES 244 00:22:25,400 --> 00:22:27,400 You can see that, can't you? 245 00:22:31,000 --> 00:22:33,480 When we give in to our anxieties... 246 00:22:35,520 --> 00:22:38,000 ..we make them harder to shake. 247 00:22:55,200 --> 00:22:58,280 Maybe that's why our anxieties are so persistent. 248 00:22:59,840 --> 00:23:01,960 They have a memory. 249 00:23:01,960 --> 00:23:03,880 Something black. 250 00:23:03,880 --> 00:23:05,720 Something on its way to you. 251 00:23:05,720 --> 00:23:07,080 Go on. 252 00:23:12,360 --> 00:23:17,400 It's like your body is constantly learning new ways to be terrified... 253 00:23:17,400 --> 00:23:20,960 Hey, chiquita! Want a lift? 254 00:23:20,960 --> 00:23:22,760 ..new things to worry about. 255 00:23:25,080 --> 00:23:26,520 What's the matter? 256 00:23:26,520 --> 00:23:28,480 Your car. 257 00:23:28,480 --> 00:23:29,800 What colour is it? 258 00:23:31,440 --> 00:23:32,840 Black. 259 00:23:32,840 --> 00:23:35,800 Get out of here! Get away from me with that! 260 00:23:39,160 --> 00:23:42,400 TV STATIC 261 00:23:54,960 --> 00:23:59,600 Maybe when we indulge the things that scare us, 262 00:23:59,600 --> 00:24:07,160 we stop being the innocent victims of fear and become co-conspirators. 263 00:24:13,080 --> 00:24:16,880 SLOW, CONTINUOUS SCRAPING 264 00:24:52,880 --> 00:24:54,920 TV STATIC 265 00:25:03,800 --> 00:25:08,960 Maybe we're always moulding our own anxieties, 266 00:25:08,960 --> 00:25:12,400 shaping the way we experience the world. 267 00:25:12,400 --> 00:25:14,920 HE PLAYS PIANO 268 00:25:18,080 --> 00:25:20,160 HE HITS A BAD NOTE 269 00:25:25,280 --> 00:25:27,240 You suck. 270 00:25:27,240 --> 00:25:33,080 I watched this film loosely based on the Columbine High School massacre, 271 00:25:33,080 --> 00:25:37,720 and in it, you see the killers in the weeks leading up to the shooting. 272 00:25:40,720 --> 00:25:44,520 You see all the things that might have influenced them, 273 00:25:44,520 --> 00:25:48,760 and you start to wonder if they sought out those things, 274 00:25:48,760 --> 00:25:51,560 if they allowed themselves to be influenced. 275 00:25:54,600 --> 00:25:59,080 I was reading about it afterwards and I read about another high school 276 00:25:59,080 --> 00:26:04,080 shooting where the killer had watched this film two weeks before. 277 00:26:15,880 --> 00:26:18,160 People said it was his inspiration. 278 00:26:19,640 --> 00:26:22,640 But he didn't watch it in the same way I did. 279 00:26:25,720 --> 00:26:30,040 He skipped ahead to the violent scenes at the end, 280 00:26:30,040 --> 00:26:32,720 allowing himself to be influenced... 281 00:26:34,360 --> 00:26:36,840 ..but only by the moments he picked out... 282 00:26:40,200 --> 00:26:43,160 ..closing a feedback loop. 283 00:26:43,160 --> 00:26:44,440 'Let's go.' 284 00:26:50,120 --> 00:26:52,720 VOICES ON TV 285 00:26:56,880 --> 00:27:00,280 TAPE REWINDS 286 00:27:00,280 --> 00:27:02,240 What're you doin'? 287 00:27:02,240 --> 00:27:04,400 I want to see it again. 288 00:27:08,040 --> 00:27:13,000 I think that's maybe why I find it hard to identify with 289 00:27:13,000 --> 00:27:16,200 people who wind up in cults. 290 00:27:16,200 --> 00:27:19,760 ALL SHOUT IN UNISON 291 00:27:19,760 --> 00:27:25,320 I just can't believe they didn't play a part in their own manipulation. 292 00:27:26,920 --> 00:27:30,720 I can't believe I'd let it happen to me. 293 00:27:35,720 --> 00:27:37,600 Deep down, 294 00:27:37,600 --> 00:27:42,360 I think I know I'm just as susceptible as anyone else... 295 00:27:43,880 --> 00:27:45,600 Huh! 296 00:27:45,600 --> 00:27:49,280 ..but I want to think I'm responsible for my own actions. 297 00:27:52,080 --> 00:27:53,600 See how mine floats? 298 00:27:53,600 --> 00:27:56,640 You know the whole thing where people think Frankenstein is 299 00:27:56,640 --> 00:28:00,600 the monster, when really he's the scientist? 300 00:28:00,600 --> 00:28:05,200 Well, maybe there's a reason people make that mistake. 301 00:28:05,200 --> 00:28:09,400 Maybe there's a reason it's Frankenstein's name that comes 302 00:28:09,400 --> 00:28:13,320 to mind when his creation does something monstrous. 303 00:28:14,800 --> 00:28:17,080 No, you're hurting me! No! 304 00:28:25,600 --> 00:28:29,240 From him, we expect responsibility. 305 00:28:29,240 --> 00:28:31,720 I'm astonishingly sane, Doctor. 306 00:28:31,720 --> 00:28:35,120 You have created a monster and it will destroy you! 307 00:28:36,360 --> 00:28:38,440 From him, we expect better. 308 00:28:43,520 --> 00:28:48,480 Because, like us, he's capable of overcoming his instincts. 309 00:28:50,400 --> 00:28:53,280 He's capable of reason. 310 00:29:03,520 --> 00:29:07,960 The strength of mind to hear a strange sound at the window... 311 00:29:10,000 --> 00:29:13,840 ..and tell yourself it's just leaves blowing in the wind outside. 312 00:29:17,760 --> 00:29:23,440 The strength of mind to step back and tell yourself... 313 00:29:23,440 --> 00:29:24,600 CAT MEOWS 314 00:29:26,840 --> 00:29:29,200 ..there's nothing to fear. 315 00:29:33,400 --> 00:29:38,000 Sometimes, all you need to soothe your beating heart 316 00:29:38,000 --> 00:29:39,800 is a look at the bigger picture. 317 00:29:45,120 --> 00:29:47,840 The night I came back from the hospital, 318 00:29:47,840 --> 00:29:49,520 I didn't get home until late. 319 00:29:51,840 --> 00:29:56,080 And as I came round the corner towards the flat, I saw 320 00:29:56,080 --> 00:30:03,080 someone by the front door, hunched over, like they were waiting for me. 321 00:30:05,880 --> 00:30:09,520 I kept walking, but slower. 322 00:30:12,400 --> 00:30:14,680 It was only when I got a few doors down that 323 00:30:14,680 --> 00:30:16,880 I realised it wasn't a person at all. 324 00:30:19,840 --> 00:30:21,560 It was just a shadow. 325 00:30:23,280 --> 00:30:28,320 A shape on the wall. Nothing to fear. 326 00:30:30,320 --> 00:30:34,080 The sense of relief in that moment was overwhelming. 327 00:30:36,960 --> 00:30:39,560 But to get there, 328 00:30:39,560 --> 00:30:42,440 I had to go through fear first. 329 00:30:44,120 --> 00:30:46,600 CLATTERING 330 00:30:48,080 --> 00:30:50,320 I had to go on that journey. 331 00:30:54,440 --> 00:31:00,320 I guess that's why we go to fairgrounds and theme parks - 332 00:31:00,320 --> 00:31:05,720 to feel a fear we know will be followed by that same rush. 333 00:31:05,720 --> 00:31:08,200 SCREAMING AND LAUGHTER 334 00:31:14,280 --> 00:31:17,240 But even from the front of a roller-coaster, 335 00:31:17,240 --> 00:31:20,240 you can only see so much of the track up ahead. 336 00:31:23,840 --> 00:31:28,480 You still feel every twist and turn as strongly as the last. 337 00:31:30,200 --> 00:31:33,480 You still feel like you're about to be flung off the track. 338 00:31:41,240 --> 00:31:42,600 You OK? 339 00:31:43,920 --> 00:31:46,360 Even as the ride comes to an end... 340 00:31:46,360 --> 00:31:48,920 - What's wrong? - I don't know. 341 00:31:48,920 --> 00:31:51,920 ..some uncertainty lingers... 342 00:31:53,760 --> 00:31:57,600 ..and stays with you as your heartbeat begins to settle. 343 00:32:08,880 --> 00:32:11,720 Cos when you stop to take in your surroundings... 344 00:32:13,280 --> 00:32:15,120 Betty? 345 00:32:15,120 --> 00:32:17,360 ..you might not like what you find. 346 00:32:18,480 --> 00:32:19,720 Betty? 347 00:32:36,000 --> 00:32:40,800 And what if you look closer at the thing you're scared of 348 00:32:40,800 --> 00:32:43,520 and find nothing to reassure you? 349 00:32:47,040 --> 00:32:50,280 What if certainty is nowhere to be found? 350 00:32:59,400 --> 00:33:03,440 I can understand why people obsess over old photographs 351 00:33:03,440 --> 00:33:05,800 of ghostly shapes and apparitions. 352 00:33:07,080 --> 00:33:08,440 Agh! 353 00:33:09,960 --> 00:33:13,520 Cos no matter how close you look, 354 00:33:13,520 --> 00:33:15,760 you'll never see them clearly. 355 00:33:17,200 --> 00:33:19,680 Not through all that grain and dirt. 356 00:33:25,120 --> 00:33:28,160 You'll never know for sure. 357 00:33:30,840 --> 00:33:32,200 I was just, uh... 358 00:33:33,480 --> 00:33:35,000 ..looking at the picture. 359 00:33:36,840 --> 00:33:38,480 Looks so much like you. 360 00:33:41,720 --> 00:33:44,480 My Lord, it does! 361 00:33:44,480 --> 00:33:47,800 - Yeah. - Weird. 362 00:33:52,080 --> 00:33:53,480 What's the matter? 363 00:33:53,480 --> 00:33:55,080 Nothing. It's just that, uh... 364 00:33:57,160 --> 00:33:59,520 It does. It looks so very much like you. 365 00:34:01,560 --> 00:34:04,640 It's an old print. Could look like anybody. 366 00:34:04,640 --> 00:34:06,040 No. 367 00:34:12,120 --> 00:34:14,040 However close we look... 368 00:34:16,840 --> 00:34:19,440 ..an image is only one window on a scene. 369 00:34:21,800 --> 00:34:23,560 It can only tell us so much... 370 00:34:25,120 --> 00:34:29,320 ..before we yearn to know what's lying just outside the frame. 371 00:35:21,160 --> 00:35:27,200 If we're denied the story that makes sense of what scares us, 372 00:35:27,200 --> 00:35:28,960 we tell our own story. 373 00:35:31,640 --> 00:35:33,800 Here's an old one. 374 00:35:33,800 --> 00:35:35,960 The family in the movie Poltergeist 375 00:35:35,960 --> 00:35:37,280 have three children. 376 00:35:39,680 --> 00:35:43,800 - Did you think that sandwich up all by yourself? - No, Grandma helped! 377 00:35:43,800 --> 00:35:46,520 By the sequel, they only have two. 378 00:35:51,880 --> 00:35:55,200 Just one remains by part three... 379 00:35:56,960 --> 00:35:59,360 ..the absence of her siblings unexplained. 380 00:36:03,560 --> 00:36:08,760 The story goes that a so-called Poltergeist Curse 381 00:36:08,760 --> 00:36:12,800 took the lives of all three child stars, 382 00:36:12,800 --> 00:36:16,320 taking one just after the release of each film in the trilogy. 383 00:36:19,360 --> 00:36:23,960 Needless to say, the truth is more complicated. 384 00:36:26,320 --> 00:36:31,920 Lives were lost, and tragedies were twisted to fit the myth, 385 00:36:31,920 --> 00:36:34,240 but the details don't really add up. 386 00:36:39,200 --> 00:36:42,800 Truth is, there is no Poltergeist Curse. 387 00:36:45,120 --> 00:36:48,720 But we're all drawn to the idea that there might be... 388 00:36:51,880 --> 00:36:58,520 ..the idea that the films themselves might just be small chapters 389 00:36:58,520 --> 00:37:01,240 in a much bigger story. 390 00:37:03,040 --> 00:37:04,520 TRANSLATION: 391 00:37:47,840 --> 00:37:51,760 We want to believe there's a story behind everything, 392 00:37:51,760 --> 00:37:57,480 so we take whatever information we have and try to build on it, 393 00:37:57,480 --> 00:37:59,200 filling in the wider picture. 394 00:38:21,360 --> 00:38:23,240 But once your window opens up... 395 00:38:25,320 --> 00:38:27,120 ..there's no going back. 396 00:38:32,440 --> 00:38:35,720 I think we all have things we'd rather never have known, 397 00:38:35,720 --> 00:38:37,480 rather never have seen... 398 00:38:40,600 --> 00:38:44,080 ..but, at the time, we couldn't resist. 399 00:38:48,920 --> 00:38:53,200 An image can sear itself into your eyes, 400 00:38:53,200 --> 00:38:57,320 but it's the meaning behind it that takes hold of your mind. 401 00:39:10,840 --> 00:39:12,840 I had a nightmare recently. 402 00:39:14,840 --> 00:39:19,040 It was about a film I'd watched a few days before, 403 00:39:19,040 --> 00:39:22,840 where a woman's held prisoner by a mysterious cult. 404 00:39:28,440 --> 00:39:31,160 At the end, they cut off all her skin. 405 00:39:36,600 --> 00:39:39,000 But that wasn't what stuck in my mind. 406 00:39:41,640 --> 00:39:44,280 What stuck in my mind was their motive. 407 00:39:50,000 --> 00:39:52,720 They think they're doing good. 408 00:39:52,720 --> 00:39:57,680 They think each wound they inflict upon her will bring her closer 409 00:39:57,680 --> 00:39:59,320 to some profound truth. 410 00:40:00,920 --> 00:40:04,240 The secret of life after death. 411 00:40:09,320 --> 00:40:12,320 So their methods are grim, 412 00:40:12,320 --> 00:40:18,360 but to me, that cold, calculating logic is much, much worse. 413 00:40:25,480 --> 00:40:26,920 TRANSLATION: 414 00:40:26,920 --> 00:40:29,440 At the end, when they get what they want... 415 00:40:32,400 --> 00:40:34,280 ..it makes her pain worthwhile... 416 00:40:36,640 --> 00:40:40,240 ..in their eyes and perhaps... 417 00:40:41,720 --> 00:40:43,320 ..in ours. 418 00:40:48,560 --> 00:40:50,760 It's comforting to think that horror 419 00:40:50,760 --> 00:40:53,320 goes against the natural order of things. 420 00:40:56,680 --> 00:41:01,240 So what happens when we see the logic in something monstrous? 421 00:41:04,040 --> 00:41:06,280 Take cannibalism. 422 00:41:06,280 --> 00:41:09,920 We think of it as this unbelievable atrocity... 423 00:41:11,760 --> 00:41:15,800 ..but to the cannibal, at least, it's logical. 424 00:41:15,800 --> 00:41:17,960 Just another way to survive. 425 00:41:17,960 --> 00:41:19,960 WOMAN WHIMPERS 426 00:41:19,960 --> 00:41:25,320 Who knows, maybe in some other circumstance we'd see it 427 00:41:25,320 --> 00:41:26,800 the same way. 428 00:41:26,800 --> 00:41:29,480 TRANSLATION: 429 00:41:35,400 --> 00:41:37,360 Listen, I got something to tell you. 430 00:41:37,360 --> 00:41:40,960 There was that rugby team in the '70s whose plane 431 00:41:40,960 --> 00:41:43,560 crashed in the Andes, leaving them stranded. 432 00:41:45,400 --> 00:41:47,640 Half their group was already dead, 433 00:41:47,640 --> 00:41:50,760 so they made the only logical choice. 434 00:41:50,760 --> 00:41:52,480 Now, if the search has been called off, 435 00:41:52,480 --> 00:41:55,480 then we're on our own to save our lives, and we've got to eat. 436 00:41:55,480 --> 00:41:56,920 Eat what? 437 00:42:05,640 --> 00:42:07,520 In the movie of their lives, 438 00:42:07,520 --> 00:42:10,880 they were played by sympathetic character actors. 439 00:42:10,880 --> 00:42:12,400 No... 440 00:42:14,840 --> 00:42:19,640 And what they did was played for horror but also pity. 441 00:42:28,400 --> 00:42:30,080 It's very difficult to cut. 442 00:42:30,080 --> 00:42:32,440 The meat's almost frozen. 443 00:42:32,440 --> 00:42:34,040 I'm going to eat this piece. 444 00:42:56,080 --> 00:43:00,320 It's impossible to watch without wondering whether you'd do the same. 445 00:43:04,400 --> 00:43:08,400 Without wondering where your limits really lie. 446 00:43:10,680 --> 00:43:12,120 Somebody take this. 447 00:43:15,560 --> 00:43:21,720 What's horrific to one person is logical to the next. 448 00:43:26,600 --> 00:43:32,480 I read about this serial killer in Germany who strangled his victims 449 00:43:32,480 --> 00:43:36,200 and bit through their Adam's apples in a kind of sexual trance. 450 00:43:40,000 --> 00:43:42,440 They made a movie about him as well. 451 00:43:47,840 --> 00:43:52,240 Later on, he admitted that the killings were crimes of passion, 452 00:43:52,240 --> 00:43:56,600 and for all their gruesomeness, we can take some comfort 453 00:43:56,600 --> 00:43:59,760 in the thought that he wasn't thinking clearly. 454 00:44:02,880 --> 00:44:09,600 But what he did next - dismembering and disembowelling the bodies - 455 00:44:09,600 --> 00:44:12,240 he thought was perfectly reasonable. 456 00:44:14,040 --> 00:44:16,600 How else are you going to get rid of them? 457 00:44:18,480 --> 00:44:22,640 And that's the part that seems most unnerving today. 458 00:44:22,640 --> 00:44:25,160 The part that he saw as logical. 459 00:44:28,240 --> 00:44:33,720 How can we pretend the real world lacks the cruelty of the movies, 460 00:44:33,720 --> 00:44:36,640 when we're constantly reminded otherwise? 461 00:44:36,640 --> 00:44:39,000 TRANSLATION: 462 00:44:57,680 --> 00:45:01,400 You know, there's a man living in Tokyo 463 00:45:01,400 --> 00:45:03,360 who once killed and ate a woman. 464 00:45:06,080 --> 00:45:09,320 He got out of prison on a technicality 465 00:45:09,320 --> 00:45:11,400 and found work as an actor. 466 00:45:22,680 --> 00:45:24,800 You can still get ahold of his movies. 467 00:45:26,600 --> 00:45:32,040 And when you watch them, it's like you're not just watching him, 468 00:45:32,040 --> 00:45:35,200 you're watching the aftershocks of what he's done. 469 00:45:37,800 --> 00:45:41,840 It's like an injection of reality into a nightmare, 470 00:45:41,840 --> 00:45:45,200 blurring the line between the two. 471 00:45:52,800 --> 00:45:57,480 When we were kids, I used to bug my sister with every question 472 00:45:57,480 --> 00:45:59,880 I could possibly think up about the world. 473 00:46:02,600 --> 00:46:05,480 I don't think I really cared what the answers were, 474 00:46:05,480 --> 00:46:08,080 I just wanted to talk to her. 475 00:46:10,400 --> 00:46:12,680 Eventually, I guess to shut me up, 476 00:46:12,680 --> 00:46:16,240 she told me there were billions of people on the planet 477 00:46:16,240 --> 00:46:19,400 and that pretty much anything I could imagine 478 00:46:19,400 --> 00:46:24,120 was probably happening right at that moment, somewhere on the Earth. 479 00:46:26,920 --> 00:46:32,320 I don't think she realised how scary a thought that was. 480 00:46:32,320 --> 00:46:36,160 Suddenly my worst nightmares were real. 481 00:46:36,160 --> 00:46:40,000 I just couldn't see them because they were happening somewhere else. 482 00:46:42,200 --> 00:46:47,600 Suddenly every horror story I'd ever heard was no longer fiction. 483 00:47:11,040 --> 00:47:14,120 I saw an interview with the medical examiner 484 00:47:14,120 --> 00:47:18,400 who worked on the victims of Jeffrey Dahmer, the serial killer. 485 00:47:20,320 --> 00:47:23,280 He said he can't watch horror movies any more, 486 00:47:23,280 --> 00:47:27,280 that they are too real for him now. 487 00:47:27,280 --> 00:47:29,920 The last one he saw was The Exorcist. 488 00:47:32,840 --> 00:47:35,880 At the time, I thought it was weird that he'd be bothered 489 00:47:35,880 --> 00:47:40,600 by a supernatural film after all the things he'd seen. 490 00:47:42,680 --> 00:47:44,160 But now I think I get it. 491 00:47:46,600 --> 00:47:52,600 Even the most surreal horror movies are rooted in some kind of reality. 492 00:47:52,600 --> 00:47:57,120 Like I found out Dahmer himself was obsessed with the third Exorcist film 493 00:47:57,120 --> 00:48:00,360 because he saw shades of himself in the villain... 494 00:48:00,360 --> 00:48:01,840 HE GROANS 495 00:48:01,840 --> 00:48:05,360 ..a serial killer who tries to possess his victims 496 00:48:05,360 --> 00:48:07,400 by mutilating their bodies. 497 00:48:07,400 --> 00:48:12,360 That's more or less exactly what Dahmer had been trying to do. 498 00:48:12,360 --> 00:48:14,120 What are these? 499 00:48:15,720 --> 00:48:17,640 What are they? What's in them? 500 00:48:20,200 --> 00:48:22,560 Father Dyer's entire blood supply. 501 00:48:22,560 --> 00:48:28,240 Possession, mind control, these are just fantasies... 502 00:48:28,240 --> 00:48:30,040 What? 503 00:48:30,040 --> 00:48:33,800 ..but they are fantasies that exist out in the real world. 504 00:48:33,800 --> 00:48:35,720 All his blood? 505 00:48:38,440 --> 00:48:41,080 And not a drop of it spilled. 506 00:48:41,080 --> 00:48:43,000 All neat. 507 00:48:44,760 --> 00:48:47,320 There's not even a smudge on the jars. 508 00:48:47,320 --> 00:48:52,200 So, in one way or another, they are part of our reality. 509 00:48:54,040 --> 00:48:55,880 Good afternoon, Doctor. 510 00:48:55,880 --> 00:48:59,600 Maybe that's why so many horror films go on and on 511 00:48:59,600 --> 00:49:03,280 about real events and true stories. 512 00:49:03,280 --> 00:49:06,720 Maybe that's why they ground themselves 513 00:49:06,720 --> 00:49:10,800 in the language of science, the language of the real world. 514 00:49:10,800 --> 00:49:14,640 The examination discloses one condition, 515 00:49:14,640 --> 00:49:16,720 pressure upon certain parts of the brain. 516 00:49:16,720 --> 00:49:20,480 People complain that they overexplain everything, 517 00:49:20,480 --> 00:49:23,520 and there is definitely something to that. 518 00:49:23,520 --> 00:49:26,760 During the period in which your reasoning processes 519 00:49:26,760 --> 00:49:28,400 give way to self-hypnosis, 520 00:49:28,400 --> 00:49:32,080 the glands which govern your metabolism get out of control, 521 00:49:32,080 --> 00:49:34,600 like a steam engine without a balance wheel. 522 00:49:34,600 --> 00:49:36,280 When this happens, 523 00:49:36,280 --> 00:49:39,160 the glands generate an abnormal supply of certain hormones, 524 00:49:39,160 --> 00:49:40,200 in your case 525 00:49:40,200 --> 00:49:43,560 those which bring about the physical transformation which you experience. 526 00:49:43,560 --> 00:49:46,040 Explaining it doesn't help! 527 00:49:46,040 --> 00:49:48,720 What can you do about it? Operate? 528 00:49:48,720 --> 00:49:53,600 But for every film that shatters the illusion of fear 529 00:49:53,600 --> 00:49:55,880 by spelling things out, 530 00:49:55,880 --> 00:50:01,040 there is another that taps into something undeniably real 531 00:50:01,040 --> 00:50:04,600 and that's the moment you wait for, 532 00:50:04,600 --> 00:50:10,120 when fear goes beyond your nerves and gets inside your head. 533 00:50:16,360 --> 00:50:18,080 Nothing else really matters. 534 00:50:25,640 --> 00:50:28,040 And rising up on all sides, 535 00:50:28,040 --> 00:50:30,640 it blocks out everything else 536 00:50:30,640 --> 00:50:32,960 till it's all you can feel. 537 00:51:20,560 --> 00:51:22,960 No! 538 00:51:27,680 --> 00:51:29,400 No! 539 00:51:42,160 --> 00:51:44,440 The last time I felt that kind of fear... 540 00:51:46,640 --> 00:51:49,240 ..I was watching a film with Liv Tyler in it. 541 00:51:50,960 --> 00:51:53,400 DOOR RATTLES 542 00:51:53,400 --> 00:51:58,080 She is alone in this cabin, out in the middle of nowhere... 543 00:51:58,080 --> 00:52:00,640 James? 544 00:52:03,480 --> 00:52:06,840 ..and I don't know why, but the whole thing really got to me. 545 00:52:20,080 --> 00:52:23,000 And watching her trapped inside that house, 546 00:52:23,000 --> 00:52:26,160 not knowing what's lurking just outside, 547 00:52:26,160 --> 00:52:28,240 was more than I could handle. 548 00:52:35,680 --> 00:52:37,840 I felt my body tense up, 549 00:52:37,840 --> 00:52:41,200 the need to flee rising inside me. 550 00:52:44,240 --> 00:52:46,080 THUD 551 00:52:49,240 --> 00:52:51,160 And through it all, 552 00:52:51,160 --> 00:52:55,480 she just kept moving closer to what felt like certain death. 553 00:52:55,480 --> 00:52:58,240 SCRAPING 554 00:53:02,360 --> 00:53:04,400 THUDDING AT DOOR 555 00:53:04,400 --> 00:53:08,120 It's frustrating, you just want her to run to the bedroom and hide, 556 00:53:08,120 --> 00:53:10,320 but she won't. 557 00:53:10,320 --> 00:53:12,960 DOOR RATTLES 558 00:53:12,960 --> 00:53:15,160 SHE WHISPERS 559 00:53:15,160 --> 00:53:20,200 And so, I know it's ridiculous, but I found myself covering my eyes, 560 00:53:20,200 --> 00:53:23,720 fighting back the urge to peek out at the screen. 561 00:53:26,440 --> 00:53:28,800 There was this thing I taught myself to do as a kid, 562 00:53:28,800 --> 00:53:32,400 where if I breathe in in a certain way, 563 00:53:32,400 --> 00:53:35,880 I can block out the sounds of the movie. 564 00:53:35,880 --> 00:53:40,120 One gulp and the air rushes into my ears. 565 00:53:40,120 --> 00:53:43,320 It's like cabin pressure dropping from within, 566 00:53:43,320 --> 00:53:45,600 pulling me out of the film. 567 00:53:51,880 --> 00:53:58,120 And in that moment, I don't think I wanted it to end, not exactly. 568 00:54:01,600 --> 00:54:04,440 I just wanted the film to recognise how I felt. 569 00:54:07,480 --> 00:54:11,640 I wanted her to share my urge, to run. 570 00:54:15,320 --> 00:54:16,600 Ow! 571 00:55:03,200 --> 00:55:07,920 Run far enough and you find what you're looking for. 572 00:55:10,160 --> 00:55:12,120 Peace... 573 00:55:12,120 --> 00:55:14,640 if not quite peace of mind. 574 00:55:18,920 --> 00:55:24,800 # Once upon a time there was a pretty fly 575 00:55:24,800 --> 00:55:30,880 # He had a pretty wife This pretty fly 576 00:55:30,880 --> 00:55:36,840 # But one day she flew away 577 00:55:36,840 --> 00:55:40,120 # Flew away 578 00:55:40,120 --> 00:55:45,120 # She had two pretty children 579 00:55:45,120 --> 00:55:50,880 # But one night these two pretty children 580 00:55:50,880 --> 00:55:53,080 # Flew away 581 00:55:53,080 --> 00:56:00,120 # Flew away into the sky 582 00:56:00,120 --> 00:56:04,760 # Into the moon... # 583 00:56:15,680 --> 00:56:19,600 Eventually, you convince yourself you're safe. 584 00:56:22,160 --> 00:56:24,720 You push fear from your mind... 585 00:56:27,040 --> 00:56:30,320 ..leaving you in a strange kind of stillness. 586 00:56:30,320 --> 00:56:34,200 CANS RATTLE 587 00:56:34,200 --> 00:56:40,480 It's enough to make you think that calm will last for ever. 588 00:56:40,480 --> 00:56:45,480 MUSIC: soaring classical version of Watercolour Of Brazil by Ary Barroso 589 00:56:48,120 --> 00:56:51,560 And maybe that kind of optimism is to be admired. 590 00:57:00,400 --> 00:57:03,480 There are two different endings of the movie Brazil. 591 00:57:05,560 --> 00:57:08,040 In the one that the studio wanted, 592 00:57:08,040 --> 00:57:11,760 there is a calm and it does last for ever. 593 00:57:16,920 --> 00:57:19,920 The main character has escaped a bleak dystopia 594 00:57:19,920 --> 00:57:24,120 and got out into this...paradise. 595 00:57:34,080 --> 00:57:37,840 It's like something out of a painting, or a dream... 596 00:57:42,680 --> 00:57:44,160 ..but not reality. 597 00:57:45,640 --> 00:57:49,880 MUSIC: soaring classical version of Watercolour Of Brazil by Ary Barroso 598 00:58:15,840 --> 00:58:17,800 And when it comes to fear, 599 00:58:17,800 --> 00:58:20,400 we know there is no such thing as a clean break. 600 00:58:22,760 --> 00:58:25,920 We know that sanctuary is only temporary. 601 00:58:30,160 --> 00:58:32,920 PSYCHO VIOLIN SCREECH 602 00:58:32,920 --> 00:58:36,840 - He's got away from us, Jack. - I'm afraid you're right, Mr Helpmann. 603 00:58:36,840 --> 00:58:39,080 He's gone. 604 00:58:40,120 --> 00:58:41,320 Hmm. 605 00:58:52,920 --> 00:58:56,720 QUIET HUMMING: Watercolour Of Brazil by Ary Barroso 606 00:59:06,120 --> 00:59:09,080 HAMMER TAPS REPEATEDLY 607 00:59:22,200 --> 00:59:24,480 As long as fear is still out there... 608 00:59:24,480 --> 00:59:26,400 Give me another one, darling. 609 00:59:26,400 --> 00:59:29,440 ..sanctuary is just a sticking plaster... 610 00:59:30,680 --> 00:59:33,680 ..slowly peeling away. 611 00:59:33,680 --> 00:59:35,760 How long have they been gathering there? 612 00:59:39,320 --> 00:59:42,040 - NEWS REPORTER: - So far no word has come through 613 00:59:42,040 --> 00:59:44,680 to show if there have been further attacks. 614 00:59:44,680 --> 00:59:47,080 On the national scene today, in Washington... 615 00:59:47,080 --> 00:59:48,960 Was that all? 616 00:59:48,960 --> 00:59:52,160 You can't keep that stuff at bay for ever. 617 00:59:54,560 --> 00:59:57,320 Sometimes I'll be halfway through a sentence 618 00:59:57,320 --> 01:00:01,080 and suddenly the accident will come racing back into my head. 619 01:00:03,160 --> 01:00:06,240 I try to push it from my mind, but it doesn't go very far. 620 01:00:08,800 --> 01:00:13,960 I'm left there, waiting to remember this thing I can never really forget. 621 01:00:15,680 --> 01:00:18,480 Numbing myself to an obvious truth. 622 01:00:23,000 --> 01:00:27,280 Just think how many places we've built to help us do just that. 623 01:00:31,000 --> 01:00:33,560 The other day I wound up in a shopping centre 624 01:00:33,560 --> 01:00:35,880 without even really meaning to go in. 625 01:00:35,880 --> 01:00:38,920 - We're in! - How the hell are we going to get back?! 626 01:00:38,920 --> 01:00:41,920 Who the hell cares?! Let's go shopping first! 627 01:00:43,640 --> 01:00:46,800 There is no natural light in there, no fresh air. 628 01:00:48,520 --> 01:00:51,120 It's the perfect place to get lost 629 01:00:51,120 --> 01:00:54,200 and maybe, at least for a little while, 630 01:00:54,200 --> 01:00:58,720 forget all those things that are constantly weighing on you, 631 01:00:58,720 --> 01:01:01,280 even when you know they're out there. 632 01:01:03,400 --> 01:01:06,720 It feels like you could stay there for ever, 633 01:01:06,720 --> 01:01:09,920 the aisles stretching out endlessly in every direction, 634 01:01:09,920 --> 01:01:13,640 stocked with everything you'd ever need. 635 01:01:13,640 --> 01:01:16,360 Honey never goes off, 636 01:01:16,360 --> 01:01:18,160 ever. 637 01:01:23,600 --> 01:01:26,200 You could stay there for the rest of your life. 638 01:01:28,840 --> 01:01:31,920 But it would be a life stripped of any colour. 639 01:01:31,920 --> 01:01:34,680 NEWS REPORT ON RADIO 640 01:01:34,680 --> 01:01:37,560 There's nothing there to threaten you 641 01:01:37,560 --> 01:01:40,040 and nothing there to bring you any real joy. 642 01:01:41,480 --> 01:01:43,640 Your stay is open-ended, 643 01:01:43,640 --> 01:01:46,800 but always the same. 644 01:01:48,840 --> 01:01:52,000 It's like a purgatory, 645 01:01:52,000 --> 01:01:55,160 but purgatory has to end some time. 646 01:01:56,520 --> 01:01:59,000 At least that's what all the holy books say. 647 01:02:00,400 --> 01:02:03,120 You can't hold back the tide for ever. 648 01:02:04,120 --> 01:02:08,400 Eventually, it will break through. 649 01:02:29,320 --> 01:02:32,840 CLOCK TICKS 650 01:02:59,200 --> 01:03:01,440 SHE WHIMPERS 651 01:03:13,440 --> 01:03:14,960 We are going on, aren't we? 652 01:03:17,040 --> 01:03:19,160 There's nothing to go on to, Jessica. 653 01:03:19,160 --> 01:03:23,240 The Sanctuary! There is! 654 01:03:23,240 --> 01:03:26,040 You want there to be one, but that doesn't... 655 01:03:26,040 --> 01:03:29,840 There has to be! I know it exists! It has to. 656 01:03:29,840 --> 01:03:32,880 No, it doesn't, not really, just... 657 01:03:32,880 --> 01:03:35,400 Just so many people want it to exist, 658 01:03:35,400 --> 01:03:38,480 so many people who don't want to die, they want it so much 659 01:03:38,480 --> 01:03:41,360 that a place called Sanctuary becomes real, but... 660 01:03:41,360 --> 01:03:45,560 but it doesn't exist! It never existed, just... 661 01:03:45,560 --> 01:03:47,040 just the hope. 662 01:03:47,040 --> 01:03:51,120 - You're wrong! It has to be! - Oh, Jessica! - It has to be! 663 01:03:56,640 --> 01:03:59,920 And what's the point in shutting yourself off from the world 664 01:03:59,920 --> 01:04:02,840 and pretending your fears don't exist? 665 01:04:21,920 --> 01:04:23,640 LIFT PINGS 666 01:04:23,640 --> 01:04:26,600 When you turn away from the things that scare you... 667 01:04:29,720 --> 01:04:32,800 ..you really just give them more power over your life. 668 01:04:34,520 --> 01:04:36,440 Soon they are all you think about. 669 01:04:45,120 --> 01:04:46,640 SHE GASPS 670 01:04:46,640 --> 01:04:47,920 Hm? 671 01:05:19,000 --> 01:05:21,560 You can't overcome anxiety by pushing it away... 672 01:05:23,360 --> 01:05:27,640 ..any more than you can overcome tiredness by denying yourself sleep. 673 01:05:45,400 --> 01:05:47,480 In the end... 674 01:05:47,480 --> 01:05:50,200 it all catches up with you. 675 01:05:55,640 --> 01:05:59,320 As we edge away from our fears... 676 01:05:59,320 --> 01:06:02,240 we really get closer to them. 677 01:06:05,040 --> 01:06:07,320 As we turn to run... 678 01:06:07,320 --> 01:06:09,360 they give chase. 679 01:06:23,200 --> 01:06:26,280 Please! Please, somebody help me! 680 01:06:54,760 --> 01:06:57,240 CAR HORN BLARES 681 01:07:35,960 --> 01:07:39,400 Those five minutes in the waiting room... 682 01:07:39,400 --> 01:07:41,600 before they led me in... 683 01:07:44,040 --> 01:07:45,400 ..they were endless. 684 01:07:50,440 --> 01:07:54,800 There was a doctor there with me and he was telling me what to expect. 685 01:07:57,160 --> 01:07:59,960 But I didn't take any of it in. 686 01:07:59,960 --> 01:08:03,040 I just sat there, numb. 687 01:08:06,640 --> 01:08:11,280 He led me down this long corridor in the basement of the hospital 688 01:08:11,280 --> 01:08:15,760 and, halfway along, I saw this little blue sign with an arrow on it 689 01:08:15,760 --> 01:08:17,680 and it said mortuary. 690 01:08:19,920 --> 01:08:21,680 I don't why, but... 691 01:08:21,680 --> 01:08:23,760 for the first time, 692 01:08:23,760 --> 01:08:25,160 that made it real. 693 01:08:31,000 --> 01:08:34,440 Finally, we reached the room and he said a few words 694 01:08:34,440 --> 01:08:36,680 and kind of touched my shoulder 695 01:08:36,680 --> 01:08:38,960 then let me step inside. 696 01:08:42,760 --> 01:08:44,920 And there she was. 697 01:08:46,720 --> 01:08:49,520 At least, something like her. 698 01:08:51,440 --> 01:08:53,800 I took one look and then turned away. 699 01:08:57,960 --> 01:09:00,760 And though that sight is etched into my memory... 700 01:09:02,240 --> 01:09:04,520 ..I'm still glad I made it that far. 701 01:09:06,560 --> 01:09:10,440 An incomplete picture would be so much worse. 702 01:09:16,520 --> 01:09:20,080 BIRDS TWITTER 703 01:09:23,360 --> 01:09:26,280 It's a strange thing 704 01:09:26,280 --> 01:09:30,200 and when you face the thing that scares you, 705 01:09:30,200 --> 01:09:32,040 you finally see it clearly. 706 01:09:40,240 --> 01:09:42,160 It shows you what it's made of... 707 01:09:45,880 --> 01:09:47,960 VAMPIRE GASPS 708 01:09:47,960 --> 01:09:49,280 ..for better or worse. 709 01:09:53,760 --> 01:09:57,360 LABOURED BREATHING 710 01:10:12,880 --> 01:10:17,040 And whatever terrible things seemed so overwhelming in darkness... 711 01:10:21,120 --> 01:10:22,760 ..can seem vulnerable... 712 01:10:25,040 --> 01:10:27,200 ..when brought into the light. 713 01:10:35,280 --> 01:10:40,680 Fear can mutate into sympathy, 714 01:10:40,680 --> 01:10:43,400 even pity, 715 01:10:43,400 --> 01:10:46,560 when you see things as they really are. 716 01:11:03,080 --> 01:11:06,200 When you only have so much to go on... 717 01:11:06,200 --> 01:11:09,760 you tell yourself the worst story you can possibly imagine. 718 01:11:12,720 --> 01:11:13,760 We all do. 719 01:11:18,560 --> 01:11:20,280 Take off the mask. 720 01:11:21,960 --> 01:11:26,080 It's like we're giving our fears the benefit of the doubt, 721 01:11:26,080 --> 01:11:28,640 agonising over what MIGHT be. 722 01:11:31,240 --> 01:11:34,160 The reality is usually less spectacular. 723 01:11:36,440 --> 01:11:38,360 What did you expect, a monster? 724 01:11:48,680 --> 01:11:50,040 And newspapers, 725 01:11:50,040 --> 01:11:53,200 when they write about crimes committed against children, 726 01:11:53,200 --> 01:11:58,640 they always seem to pick pictures of lost toys and old shoes, 727 01:11:58,640 --> 01:12:01,520 stuff belonging to the kid it happened to... 728 01:12:04,680 --> 01:12:07,760 ..I guess partly because those things drive home 729 01:12:07,760 --> 01:12:12,160 what we cherish about our childhood, the innocence of it all. 730 01:12:14,920 --> 01:12:16,560 But also I think we can't bear 731 01:12:16,560 --> 01:12:18,960 to face the reality of what's happened... 732 01:12:23,080 --> 01:12:28,200 ..so it's easier to see child victims as the things they left behind... 733 01:12:31,960 --> 01:12:35,120 ..and imagine their attackers as pantomime villains. 734 01:12:40,640 --> 01:12:42,800 Aren't you going to say hello? 735 01:12:44,680 --> 01:12:47,280 Oh, come on, bucko! 736 01:12:49,080 --> 01:12:52,560 I guess that's how we've learned to cope with it all, 737 01:12:52,560 --> 01:12:58,160 in the same way nursery rhymes take the horrors of the real world 738 01:12:58,160 --> 01:13:00,520 and turn them into something more manageable. 739 01:13:18,800 --> 01:13:22,680 THE PLAYGROUND CHANT CONTINUES 740 01:13:32,200 --> 01:13:36,600 We know the truth is probably more complicated, 741 01:13:36,600 --> 01:13:41,800 but we still cling to the image of a shadowy, sinister figure... 742 01:13:44,720 --> 01:13:47,400 ..shrouded in mystery. 743 01:13:53,160 --> 01:13:54,920 I guess it's either that 744 01:13:54,920 --> 01:13:58,320 or admit that people capable of such things are human... 745 01:14:01,800 --> 01:14:06,280 ..with their own fears, their own vulnerabilities. 746 01:14:24,040 --> 01:14:27,000 They might be as horrified by their crimes as we are. 747 01:14:29,880 --> 01:14:32,040 WOMAN SCREAMS 748 01:14:35,120 --> 01:14:40,120 But if we accept that, we have to wonder what else we have in common. 749 01:14:42,840 --> 01:14:46,040 To really understand the so-called monster... 750 01:14:48,160 --> 01:14:51,560 ..we'd have to understand how little separates us 751 01:14:51,560 --> 01:14:54,000 from everything we are scared of. 752 01:15:08,920 --> 01:15:12,880 Maybe that's why we are so fond of the idea of evil, 753 01:15:12,880 --> 01:15:14,760 some supernatural force 754 01:15:14,760 --> 01:15:17,920 that explains everything that's wrong with the world. 755 01:15:29,800 --> 01:15:35,480 We can't bear the thought of what humanity might be capable of, 756 01:15:35,480 --> 01:15:38,960 so we put it down to evil instead. 757 01:15:56,720 --> 01:16:00,000 The alternative is far too painful. 758 01:16:02,160 --> 01:16:06,320 The alternative says we are at the mercy of people. 759 01:16:39,280 --> 01:16:43,160 We like to think of horror as a kind of mechanical force, 760 01:16:43,160 --> 01:16:47,000 unleashing chaos according to some invisible formula. 761 01:16:49,280 --> 01:16:50,560 But it's not. 762 01:16:57,560 --> 01:17:01,320 Real horror is the hand behind the machine. 763 01:17:03,640 --> 01:17:06,240 Human, fallible... 764 01:17:08,160 --> 01:17:09,720 ..and just like us. 765 01:17:14,680 --> 01:17:16,960 And that means horror is never far away. 766 01:17:19,640 --> 01:17:23,080 It's in all those other people we share the world with. 767 01:17:25,440 --> 01:17:27,880 And maybe if we're honest... 768 01:17:27,880 --> 01:17:30,640 it is in us as well. 769 01:17:30,640 --> 01:17:33,320 HE LAUGHS 770 01:17:40,800 --> 01:17:43,760 LAUGHTER CONTINUES 771 01:17:56,760 --> 01:17:58,520 DOG BARKS 772 01:18:00,680 --> 01:18:02,120 DOG BARKS 773 01:18:02,120 --> 01:18:07,080 Why is it, when you ask someone what they'd do if they were invisible, 774 01:18:07,080 --> 01:18:10,800 they always say things that they think of as immoral? 775 01:18:12,520 --> 01:18:14,680 Spying on their friends, 776 01:18:14,680 --> 01:18:16,880 robbing a bank, 777 01:18:16,880 --> 01:18:18,560 or worse. 778 01:18:22,400 --> 01:18:25,600 Is the only thing stopping us from doing that stuff 779 01:18:25,600 --> 01:18:27,920 the thought that other people might see? 780 01:18:34,040 --> 01:18:36,640 Is our sense of self really that fragile? 781 01:18:39,320 --> 01:18:41,600 Are we that scared of who we really are? 782 01:18:48,800 --> 01:18:53,480 There was a woman at the funeral who I had never met before. 783 01:18:55,480 --> 01:18:57,320 And she wouldn't stop talking to me, 784 01:18:57,320 --> 01:18:59,280 trying to console me. 785 01:19:01,160 --> 01:19:03,880 She kept on telling me what my sister would have wanted 786 01:19:03,880 --> 01:19:08,280 and how she would have felt and all this... 787 01:19:08,280 --> 01:19:09,880 bullshit. 788 01:19:11,080 --> 01:19:13,680 I stood there, trying to be polite, 789 01:19:13,680 --> 01:19:18,000 but inside I was about to explode. 790 01:19:18,000 --> 01:19:20,040 It was just... 791 01:19:20,040 --> 01:19:22,560 She wasn't there. 792 01:19:22,560 --> 01:19:24,360 She didn't know. 793 01:19:26,280 --> 01:19:29,680 And before I knew it, I was screaming at her. 794 01:19:34,240 --> 01:19:36,000 Everyone else went silent. 795 01:19:38,760 --> 01:19:42,440 I could barely tell the words that were coming out of my mouth. 796 01:19:42,440 --> 01:19:44,320 But I couldn't stop them either. 797 01:19:45,600 --> 01:19:49,880 And she was just...frozen. 798 01:19:52,320 --> 01:19:53,640 I felt even worse. 799 01:20:04,760 --> 01:20:07,560 Afterwards, someone said it was like another me. 800 01:20:10,600 --> 01:20:11,920 But it wasn't. 801 01:20:16,160 --> 01:20:19,320 It was just another part of who I am, 802 01:20:19,320 --> 01:20:22,120 a part I didn't even know was there. 803 01:20:48,920 --> 01:20:52,480 Maybe it's ordinary people we really have to worry about. 804 01:20:55,840 --> 01:21:00,240 Ordinary people, capable of ordinary horrors. 805 01:21:07,840 --> 01:21:09,360 GUNSHOT 806 01:21:14,640 --> 01:21:16,640 GUNSHOT 807 01:21:18,120 --> 01:21:20,280 GUNSHOT 808 01:21:23,920 --> 01:21:25,360 GUNSHOT 809 01:21:29,680 --> 01:21:32,840 Because the extremes that keep us up at night, 810 01:21:32,840 --> 01:21:35,960 they are the least of our worries. 811 01:21:37,800 --> 01:21:40,160 They are just the focal points 812 01:21:40,160 --> 01:21:43,240 of something that exists all around us. 813 01:21:45,000 --> 01:21:48,960 Horror in its simplest, dullest form. 814 01:21:51,240 --> 01:21:53,960 You read about violence all the time, 815 01:21:53,960 --> 01:21:56,280 but you don't think it will happen to you. 816 01:21:57,360 --> 01:22:01,720 You drive past car accidents but never imagine you might be in one, 817 01:22:01,720 --> 01:22:06,640 not until another car veers into your path. 818 01:22:09,520 --> 01:22:13,400 It's only then you realise how close that horror always was. 819 01:22:16,600 --> 01:22:22,360 In the US, they announce child abductions on traffic signs. 820 01:22:22,360 --> 01:22:25,600 - That's sad, an amber alert. - What's an amber alert? 821 01:22:25,600 --> 01:22:29,280 It's when a creepy dude puts you in the back of his truck 822 01:22:29,280 --> 01:22:31,120 and tries to tickle your wiener. 823 01:22:31,120 --> 01:22:33,400 People think nothing of it. 824 01:22:33,400 --> 01:22:36,760 - Hey, wait, hang on a second with that. - Next question is... 825 01:22:36,760 --> 01:22:38,400 - Wait just one second. - What? 826 01:22:38,400 --> 01:22:41,720 - OK. - I'm not... - OK. - That's a grey Honda, right? 827 01:22:41,720 --> 01:22:44,560 - It looks more...blackish? - OK. 828 01:22:44,560 --> 01:22:46,600 Steel, maybe. Steel? 829 01:22:46,600 --> 01:22:51,000 - OK, I'm pretty sure that is probably a grey Honda up there. - OK. 830 01:22:51,000 --> 01:22:54,040 - That is a grey Honda. - What reality show contestant do you relate with? 831 01:22:54,040 --> 01:22:57,160 - That's a grey Honda. - OK, good job. 832 01:22:57,160 --> 01:23:02,640 OK, well, on the thing, on the sign thing, it said grey Honda. 833 01:23:02,640 --> 01:23:05,080 - Are you trying to get out of these questions? - Yes, I am. 834 01:23:05,080 --> 01:23:08,720 - We are almost done! - I definitely am trying to get out of the questions. 835 01:23:08,720 --> 01:23:12,400 Stay focused. What reality show contestant do you relate to? 836 01:23:12,400 --> 01:23:14,960 - I don't relate... - Come on! - I don't relate to reality... 837 01:23:14,960 --> 01:23:16,400 First of all, reality shows are 838 01:23:16,400 --> 01:23:19,240 the furthest thing away from reality you could possibly get, 839 01:23:19,240 --> 01:23:21,280 there's nothing about reality on those shows. 840 01:23:21,280 --> 01:23:23,800 - OK. - Sh, listen! - We've come so far, we've come so far. 841 01:23:23,800 --> 01:23:28,720 - If this is the car, then you have to stop asking me these questions. - OK. 842 01:23:28,720 --> 01:23:31,720 - If this is the car, you can... - OK. - I will throw these out the window. 843 01:23:31,720 --> 01:23:34,320 You will throw them out the window! Yes! 844 01:23:34,320 --> 01:23:36,320 OK, if this is the grey Honda in the sign... 845 01:23:36,320 --> 01:23:38,520 OK, but until then, we have to stay focused. 846 01:23:38,520 --> 01:23:42,400 - OK, well, look at the sign. - If another team drops... 847 01:23:47,200 --> 01:23:49,360 - That is the car. - That's the car. 848 01:23:49,360 --> 01:23:52,000 - Wait... - ENGINE REVS LOUDLY 849 01:23:54,080 --> 01:23:57,760 What do you want... What should I do? Don't get too close to it. 850 01:23:57,760 --> 01:23:59,800 You never see fear coming 851 01:23:59,800 --> 01:24:02,680 until it swallows you whole... 852 01:24:02,680 --> 01:24:04,560 but you should. 853 01:24:06,840 --> 01:24:08,440 It was there all along. 854 01:24:13,560 --> 01:24:16,920 Can we even try to overcome a force so resilient? 855 01:24:32,720 --> 01:24:34,960 Or do we just take our fears 856 01:24:34,960 --> 01:24:38,240 and release them back into the atmosphere? 857 01:24:40,440 --> 01:24:43,320 Out of sight and out of mind, 858 01:24:43,320 --> 01:24:47,360 but still out there...somewhere. 859 01:24:57,760 --> 01:25:00,880 They say films are desensitising, 860 01:25:00,880 --> 01:25:07,120 that after a while they cease to have the same impact they once did. 861 01:25:09,640 --> 01:25:12,320 But why would they let that happen? 862 01:25:15,360 --> 01:25:18,840 Films have a lot invested in us staying scared, 863 01:25:18,840 --> 01:25:20,600 staying sensitised. 864 01:25:26,440 --> 01:25:32,280 Maybe that's why, when the film is over and the credits roll, 865 01:25:32,280 --> 01:25:34,160 we are always left hanging... 866 01:25:36,040 --> 01:25:39,280 ..left looking for answers within. 867 01:25:52,560 --> 01:25:55,840 You really like the dark, don't you, Michael? 868 01:25:55,840 --> 01:25:58,000 You can be yourself in the dark. 869 01:25:58,000 --> 01:25:59,320 But you know... 870 01:26:01,160 --> 01:26:04,600 ..there is one dark place that we have to be very careful in. 871 01:26:06,240 --> 01:26:07,680 Do you know where that is? 872 01:26:23,800 --> 01:26:28,880 Because if horror movies are built to take advantage of who we are 873 01:26:28,880 --> 01:26:31,040 and how we work... 874 01:26:34,120 --> 01:26:36,000 ..then what does that say about us? 875 01:26:39,600 --> 01:26:43,080 # When the leaves of summer turn red and gold 876 01:26:43,080 --> 01:26:46,400 # And the football games bring a hint of the cold 877 01:26:46,400 --> 01:26:49,240 # Time to get away 878 01:26:49,240 --> 01:26:53,080 # Empty cottage sitting on the shore 879 01:26:53,080 --> 01:26:55,720 # Tourists all left about a month before 880 01:26:55,720 --> 01:26:59,440 - # And we're gonna have a good time - Gonna have a good time 881 01:26:59,440 --> 01:27:02,560 # Yeah, we're gonna have a good time 882 01:27:02,560 --> 01:27:04,400 # We are going on a fall break 883 01:27:04,400 --> 01:27:07,200 # Walking hand in hand in the moonlight 884 01:27:07,200 --> 01:27:09,040 # In the moonlight 885 01:27:09,040 --> 01:27:10,960 # We breathe the sweet salt air 886 01:27:10,960 --> 01:27:13,880 # I swear we'll never part 887 01:27:15,240 --> 01:27:17,600 # We're going on a fall break 888 01:27:17,600 --> 01:27:20,480 # Running in the sand, feeling all right 889 01:27:20,480 --> 01:27:22,320 # Feeling all right 890 01:27:22,320 --> 01:27:24,960 # When you fall into my arms 891 01:27:24,960 --> 01:27:28,840 # I'll break into your heart 892 01:27:30,480 --> 01:27:34,880 # I'll break into your heart 893 01:27:36,080 --> 01:27:37,880 # Gonna break, gonna break 894 01:27:37,880 --> 01:27:42,360 # Gonna break right into your heart... #