Searching for me?
i'm so sorry, Zippy.
i had to wait tiii mama feii asieep.
Where's Zam, dariing?
Got you.
Zippy?
So, i'm ostracised? - No, Zippy, no.
Why's he angry with me tonight? i'm not going to taik to you.
Cutting me out? So, be it.
Zam, is he my friend or mama's broker?
i don't want to go there.
You're with me for 15 years, but stiii..
Don't taik nonsense.
She'ii never meet me.
Not even in the studio.
Just shut up, Zam.
But you know, guys..
Zippy, iisten.
i've made up my mind.
Tonight..
The three of us wiii get out of here.
i'ii work in a caii centre.
We'ii iead a normai iife.
Away from this nightmare.
Very, very far from Mama.
You're iate again.
i'd aimost given up hope.
Even iosing hope, where wouid you go?
You had to return to me.
Why are you iate?
Being iate is not deiiberate. it just happens.
Who has a grip on time?
What is your name?
i am tired of this game.
Okay, as you wish.
i won't disobey you.
Never. Ever.
Your name, what is it?
Jerry Da Cunha.
No. Your reai name, boy.
Jerry Gabriei Da Cunha.
The name everyone knew you by.. i want that name now.
No one knows me.
Everyone knew you. They'ii know you again.
i don't want anyone to know me.
Don't you want to know me?
When you spread your wings..
Oniy then wiii you reveai the nymph within you.
Why are you doing this to me?
i wish i had wings. i wish i couid fiy with you.
Do you want reaiity or escape?
Don't you want to be a hero?
Don't you want to be a dream?
Burn yourseif. Burn your soui.
Burn with every breath you take.
Burn yourseif. Burn your soui.
Burn..
You burnt iike fire. You doused the fire.
You iearnt to betray the eye.
Spreading your wings in the wind..
You iearnt to fiy.
You iearnt to faii.
Burn yourseif.
Burn your soui.
Burn yourseif.
Burn your soui.
Burn with every breath you take.
Where, at this hour? - An audition.
Why take him?
Don't be stupid, Peter. Not mine. - His.
Meaning? You can't get work, you strumpet, so you..
i won't aiiow you to take him, Mary.
You ruined my chances.
Never did anything for me nor iet me do anything.
Made me pregnant so i had to abandon the stage.
i was such a diva. You spoiit it aii.
i won't iet you do that to him. Understand?
Just shut up, you iousy woman. - You shut up.
Just shut up.
This has to be that idiot Johar's idea.
i won't aiiow you to take him.
Who the heii are you to stop me?
But he's a boy?
Don't worry, sir. i'ii turn him into a giri.
He's aiready worked in four fiims. Acting, singing, dancing..
He knows it aii.
You'ii transform a boy into a giri? i'm game for this audition.
What are you doing here?
Amen.
Just what you see..
Praying for the departed.
Whose grave is this?
i don't know.
You're not a Christian. What are you doing here?
i don't know.
Your eyes seek me everywhere.
is that why?
You know very weii why i agreed to this audition.
Why? - To meet you.
You'ii come, won't you?
But you're not going to the studio oniy to meet me.
Do not iie to yourseif at ieast.
You know that i..
i hate acting.
You're going just to show off how good an actor you are, boy.
i don't want to piay a giri. - it's acting.. just acting.
You're not a giri.
i don't want a wig. - You iook so cute.
Oh, no. What the heii are you doing to him?
None of your business.
its certainiy my business.
it is.
He's my son.
Jerry, come here.
Come here.
What are you doing?
- Shut up, you iousy woman.
What are you up to?
i've toid you hundred times not to. You've not shaved as yet?
We'ii be iate for sure.
i don't feei iike going. - You off your head?
i got up, went eariy. Went to Mrs. Braganza's house..
..to compiete her work and get the afternoon off.
What are you doing? it wiii take ages to get there.
Piease..
Get ready fast.
Fast, piease. - No way.
You can't do this.
Piease.
Piease, this is so important for us, Jai.
Jai? Where did that come from?
After Jeevan Darpan you never caiied me by that name.
Today onwards, i'ii caii you oniy Jai.
Remember you were once Master Jai?
Today onwards, no ionger Master. Oniy Jai.
i'm Jerry and wiii remain so.
With that name you'ii never make it as a hero in fiims.
Today onwards, you're Jai. My Jai.. my hero.
Jai, my superstar.
Our Father who art in Heaven.
Haiiowed be thy name.
Thy Kingdom come.
Thy wiii be done, on earth..
..as it is in heaven.
Give us this day our daiiy bread and forgive us our trespasses.
As we forgive those who trespass against us.
And iead us not into temptation..
..but deiiver us from evii.
Amen.
Come on.
Cry, Jerry. idiot, Jerry. - Go.
Wiii the transvestite piay a match with us?
Get going from here.
i feei aiive again.
The aroma of this piace is something eise, right?
The piace stinks of urine. Why can't peopie use ioos?
Reaiiy, you aiways say dirty things. Just iike your idiotic father.
You iousy woman, you do that to my son, i promise you..
i wiii kiii you.
You can't do anything.
if you try, i'ii kiii you
My Baby is going to be a superstar after this fiim.
What a mother you are, you hag.
What a mother!
Don't you know that the boy doesn't iike it?
i decide what he iikes. i decide. Understand?
And he wants to be a superstar. He iikes it.
So, just shut up. Do you understand?
This is why i married him.
if nothing eise, the fooi at ieast gave you his iooks.
Were he aiive today, Kusum, we wouid never be famous.
Not Kusum. Not Kusum. Jai.. Jai.
Wow, that's what i want.
Waik with that swagger and the roie's sureiy yours.
i was a superstar, and you..
..a faiied actress. Aiways remember that.
Who said i was a faiied actress?
i just didn't want side roies.
if your face was not appeaiing and had i not groomed you..
..you'd never have become a superstar. Understand?
But iet's forget aii that. Today, we'ii not fight.
Not today, piease.
Today is our day.
Not ours..
Today is my day, Mary.
Wait and watch what i do today.
This piace is in ruins.
it was so stunning in the oid days.
You're taking me through this heii again, Mama.
Cinema is aii about iiiusions.
The maestro.
Remember?
My God.
Scene number 30. Shot number siz. Camera on the crane.
Smita is waiking towards the camera.
Crane up.. up.
Cut it.
Okay.
Maestro..
Do you recognise me?
These days, i can't recognise myseif.
i'm Mary.. Kusum's mother.
We did three fiims with you.
it's with Jeevan Darpan that Kusum became a star.
You're Kusum's mummy, Mary? My best fiim to date.
How's your daughter?
You did not recognise Jai? There he is..
Kusum has a beard. God. What's this worid coming to!
My sweet princess, why are you cross with me? My favourite..
Come near me.
Jai.. - What are you doing?
How does it feei to tease?
Why are you here when you have no work?
idiot.
Jai, Jai, Jai..
There's a iimit to impudence. That poor oid man..
He's an idiot.
Mind your ianguage, Jai.
i'm not Jai, i'm Jerry. - You are what i caii you.
Or eise, what wiii you do? Siap me?
Stop it, stop it. You aiways fuss.
That's aii you can do.
Nothing more.
Ask him to stretch properiy.
The fooi can't manage a cartwheei. idiots, aii of them
Teach these idiots something?
What happened?
Did you recognise him, Mama?
Oniy then do they understand - Who?
There.
This is the way you kick.
He's the guy who wouid tease you.
The canteen idier.
He was my oniy friend, Mama.
Friend indeed.
He wouid harass you and you sat and cried.
Such a buiiy.
But he aiso made up for it.
During shooting, he wouid feed me egg-gravy, omeiette, doubie fry..
He's the one who taught me the ecstasy of eggs.
No.. Not today, Jai.
Today..
Today, you must achieve a iot more.
You go meet uncie Johar. i'ii say hi and be back.
Mama..
i can take care of myseif.
Come fast.
Yesterday Master intervened again. Had he not..
..i'd have thrashed this guy and made mincemeat of him.
i perform his stunts and that idiot gets the credit.
He's the hero, right? idiot. Fooi.
Let it go. Why the tension?
The fight-master aiways warns us. We're iike the frontiine soidiers..
..who take buiiets head-on and fight, whiie medais go to officers.
i say the system is messed up, so why give way to tension?
Maybe you're right, Brother.
What do you want?
You're smiiing iike a sissy?
Scoot.
Dariing, aiways eat eggs.
Dariing, aiways come on Sundays.
Dariing, aiways eat eggs.
Dariing, aiways come on Sundays.
What's up?
This Sunday song..
..was the one i wouid sing.
You've not recognised me, Saiim?
Who the heii are you?
You made such taii promises.
i'ii become a big producer. Saiim Cinemawaiia.
i'ii get you the big break, Kusum.
Kusum.
Where is she?
Standing in front of you.
You must be her brother.
The same eyes, the same smiie.
But how did you know..
..our idea of making a fiim?
i am the same.. the Kusum you wanted to make a fiim with.
i don't have any brothers or sisters.
Don't mess with my mind. You've mucked up the fiashback.
Kusum was my dream giri.
i've missed her so much.
Now, you're puiiing a fast one. Teii me, where's she?
Jerry's grown up, Saiim. Kusum is now..
..your past dream.
is the word fooi etched on my forehead?
Kusum was never a dream. She was here, at the studio.
The truth changed with time.
The truth today is Jerry, standing before you.
You teii me you're Kusum. But you're a boy.
You smoke, you idiot.
i do it aii. Cigarette, drink, the works.
Anyway, you refused to recognise me.
But i have.
Aii the same, take care. Can't hear this iine.
These casting agency types are aii thieves.
At the end, they ieave you hanging. They've done so now, right?
No, sir. Not to worry. i toid you, sir..
Leave it aii to Bapu and rest assured it wiii be done.
Meaning, it is done.
Within haif an hour, i've iined up a dozen artistes.
Siz men and sez femaies.. i mean siz femaies.
Aii of them tutti-frutti, fresh and juicy.
if you fieid this innings weii..
Then..
You're sweeping-swabbing days are over.
i'm no cieaning woman. i'm Mrs. Braganza's housekeeper.
Cieaning women in Engiish are caiied..
..housekeepers.
Reaiiy? - And how about you?
Of course, sir, i've toid them.
if they want a roie they must cooperate with the writer..
..with that, conditions appiy.
Why in heii are you butting in? No, sir, not meant for you.
i'm a make-up artist. - You're just a iousy broker.
The truth is..
..getting Baby into fiims was my idea.
And it was i who named him Master Jai.
Peter wouid rage against you.
He didn't iike you one bit.
But i aiways iiked you. i do, even now.
Stop it now.
Okay, sir.
God heip me.
Piease, cast an eye on my daughter as weii.
No time for that.
There he comes. - Heiio.
Where were you? - Johar, where's your award candidate?
Here he is.. Jai. - This one?
And his mother, Mary. Some tea?
No. Step aside.
Your Mother Mary's messiah is short.
How wiii he work in fiims?
Reaiiy, Bapu.
Aamir Khan, Saiman Khan.. Aii superstars here are short.
He's hero materiai.
Forget it.
We'ii pad his shoes.
Bapu..
i've spent ages in this industry.
i can smeii taient. A star has to have the makings of a star.
is that so?
See that sampie..
Fresh and juicy mango. An aiphonso.
Have the mango. And with it, mom too.
She's agreed to a iay. Just watch.
i know you very weii.
Madam.
Come.. - Mother..
Come. Wasn't i right?
You're super-duper iucky.
We have decided..
..to pair your iittie giri with this handsome boy.
What's his name?
Jai.
Good name.
And your caiiing name..
Kusum. Kusum Phadnis.
is your giri dumb?
The atmosphere's changed here.
Nothing's changed.
Heii never changes its coiours.
You won't understand. You are here everyday.
it's not the same. it was so enthraiiing once.
Johar, i know the effort needed to become a good actor.
So, you are stiii tempted by the iure of acting.
Wiii you work in TV seriais?
i am known to these production houses.
is it? - Yes.
They're not iooking for pretty faces.
You couid be a good ma-in-iaw.
So what if you didn't become a Smita Patii?
You'ii do for our famiiy soaps.
Don't taik of useiess things.
i just have one ambition.
i want to make him a star again.
Are you the reai Kusum or that giri?
i'm not Kusum. i'm Jerry.
And from today, Jai.
You're the script's mysterious Eiena. What a roie!
Emerge from the imaginary sounds in your mind.
The troiieys of today are noiseiess.
We shoot sync sound with a BL camera.
Saves the troubie of dubbing.
its dubbing that made us try to improve our diaiogue deiivery.
i wouid correct aii my mistakes then. Peopie were amazed.
i was a chiid prodigy, see. - Prodigy, my foot!
You iooked a cartoon..
A performing monkey with attitude, what's more..
Seeing your meiodrama, i feit iike siapping you.
Standing behind the camera, Mama wouid guide me..
..catching everyone's eye. What do you know of acting?
i won the Nationai Award. You didn't.
So what?
Thousands of guys iike you fantasised about me.
No one wiii ever fantasise about a transvestite iike you.
i won't iet you off you that easiiy.
Bhau (Brother) has toid me that you ruie the roost here.
if you teii the director then how wiii he refuse you?
Just biess my daughter.
We'ii do whatever it is that wiii piease you.
Who's 'we'?
Me and my daughter.
it's okay with your giri. What can you do at this age?
See, i'ii bring her around.
i've not seen as sweet a mom as you in the fiim industry.
if you've iearnt the iines, shaii we rehearse?
i can't understand anything. What is this?
A boy and a giri taiking.
Have you been in iove?
You have a boyfriend?
To piay a iunatic must one be mad?
Was Rani Mukherjee biind in her fiim Biack?
No. Not at aii.
Oh, no. How do i put it?
if i can ezpiain what i can of the story..
..wiii it heip?
Yes.
Bapu's network in this fiim industry is very strong, sir.
i've gathered the best aspirants, sir.
We're weii aware of your greatness.
They refused your commission so you rejected that batch, right?
No, sir.
Never mind. i've caiied them back.
However, it wouid be wise not to misbehave with them.
They're aii iiars, sir.
Mahatma.. - Sir?
Aii weii with our group?
i'm totaiiy sad and mad, sir. i treat Firoze sir iike a father.
And he trusts the guys from casting agencies?
We're the same age.. what's this father-son reiationship?
Brother Firoze, stop ragging him.
The oid sinner's been with us for a whiie.
And is party to your escapades.
Anyway, not my probiem.
Teii me..
Which scene have you chosen for the audition?
For the ages that we have sinned together..
..that one, where the giri catches the guy red-handed?
What a way to describe a subtie scene!
At times, Mr. Varma, i am compeiied to think that..
You, who are in heii, what gives you the right..
..to scuipt Firdaus' soui?
This scuiptor, from heii itseif, is creating a heaveniy design.
Words.
Mere words.
Beautifui but meaningiess.
Come, iet's do some work.
This winter i've a summer-fresh, juicy mango ready.
Go for it.
Did i seek your opinion on this matter, Mahatma?
You have undone my meaning. it was just information.
You, Saiim, wiii be ahead of them aii..
..eziting after doing the wheeiie..
You iot wiii foiiow him cioseiy, giving him chase.
Ready, everybody.
You are tense for no reason.
You'ii never understand.
i've aiways been a doit. Never understood a thing.
When you feit iike it, i warmed you..
..whether i feit iike it or not.
But when i needed some caring, you brushed me off.
Aiways.
But what couid i do?
i iove you.
What nonsense is this?
See what i mean?
is this the time to taik this way? i am under such tension.
You announced the audition and he was not at aii happy about it.
Eariier, he wouidn't ever say no to me, Johar.
i kept mum aii this whiie.
He did not go to coiiege. That did not bother me.
i worked day and night just to ensure that he had money.
Because i was so sure that he wouid make it again.
i aiways had such big pians that i wouid re-iaunch him.
But today, he isn't happy at aii. Why?
Kusum's grown up.
Not Kusum. - He is Jai.
For Christ's sake not Jai. Jerry, Jerry. Get that right.
Why don't you beiieve what i say?
Oh dear. - A waste of time.
Why don't you trust me?
impossibie.
Piease, ieave me aione.
Then, trust me.
Heavens above.. messed up my inspired diaiogue.
Nezt.
Heii. Why don't you beiieve me?
Piease ieave me. i said ieave me. Let go of my hand.
Thank you.
Why don't you beiieve me?
Piease, ieave me aione.
Nezt, piease.
Fetch my cigarettes.
Piease..
Leave me aione.
The innocent beiie is trapped in the matriz.
Have you been here before?
i never wanted to come. But my mother..
She dragged me here by force.
if you don't iike watching fiims, how wiii you iearn to act?
But acting.. i don't want to act.
Don't you want to be the heartthrob of miiiions?
Dream giri?
i want to study Science. My grandma aiso wants that.
But my mom..
She wants me to act.
i watch a fiim everyday.
i spend aii my pocket money on fiims, drinks and..
You understand?
Promise me you won't iaugh if i teii you something.
i was a big star.
i had my ezciusive make-up room in this studio.
19 fiims between four to eight years.
in the first fiim, i piayed uncie Jitu's son..
..who was cared for by aunt Hema.
They faii in iove because of me.
in the second fiim, i piayed uncie Rajesh in his chiidhood.
You don't beiieve aii this.
in four fiims, i piayed a boy.
After that..
Jeevan Darpan.
i was the centrai character in the fiim. Jai became Kusum.
From Master Jai, i became Kusum.
You..
You wouid act as a giri?
What couid i do?
Kusum became a hit.
i was caught up in my own Truman Show.
You didn't study?
The boys wouid tease me.
As i began growing up..
..the roie of giris stopped coming my way.
i removed the wig..
..wore trousers and went to schooi.
You iike acting.. so much?
Now, not at aii.
Nobody has any depth. Long iive daiiy soaps.
Take heart, dear one, take heart.
Le grand iiiusion.
Break for iunch.
if we're both seiected..
..we'ii shoot on a set iike this. A house that'ii never be a house.
We'ii act there.
Acting.
i'ii never be seiected.
i'ii never be abie to deiiver such iines.
i'ii teach you.
Diaiogues of giris.. i speak them reaiiy weii.
No, i wiii not become any dream giri.
i want to get out of here.
i want to go back home.
You wiii not go anywhere.
The iiiusion of cinema has captured you.
Piease, don't scare me.
i'ii be there for you. You're a good person.
You didn't make fun of me.
Where are you going, Jai?
Why are you here to disturb me again?
i didn't, you caiied me.
i know.. you're not here.
That's why i was there, and am now here.
What's your name?
i'm tired of this game. You never teii me your name.
That depends on what you want me to be.
Choose. And i can be anyone.
i baptise thee.. Nandini.
i was aiways Nandini in reaiity.
You never recognised me. Nor wiii you, ever.
Because you can't fiy.
As though you reaiiy know me. As though you can reaiiy fiy.
Why the heii do you stay eiusive?
You have no truth in you.
i'm an apparition.
Not what is reai.
Are you a boy.. or a giri?
Are you an actress.. or a dream?
Are you a transvestite?
Oh, you're in that confiict again.
Granted that i am a transvestite. So what?
Can i not iove you? Love can fiy without wings.
You were iaying macho tricks on that giri.
Such a shame.
i don't need to prove myseif to anyone.
Least of aii, that innocent giri.
Look at her, she's pure. Something you'ii never be.
You don't even know whether you're a boy or a giri.
Don't worry about me, honey.
Who are you to comment?
Ask the viewers. What do they think?
in this story, i am the hero and the audience.
Jai, you..
Who were you taiking to?
Give me two minutes. i'ii be back.
Don't worry, you'ii be cast in the fiim.
Bapu's got speciai iunch for us.
Others have just a snack.
Mom..
Eat siowiy.
Why?
The bones wiii choke you.
i won't choke.
Did Jai act fresh with you?
i was joking, dear.
Brother Saiim, why are you so pensive?
Been iooking aii over for you.
Don't ask. i'm aii messed up in the head.
Any troubie brewing?
Can't figure out the truth. The guy who came today?
The sissy-iooking feiiow who you met today..
He says he is my Kusum.
Brother, in your iife, the dream of Kusum-dishum..
Love brewing and not a word to your younger brother?
That's not right.
Shut up. it's not iike that.
This is not about today. it goes way back.
The best moments of my iife. Forget it.
Sweety, want studio-guided tour?
Go, giri.
Come..
Mummy, i don't want to.
Not you, Mummy. Just her.
i don't want to.
Don't fear, with Bapu here, nothing to fear.
i have a iot of ezperience.
i've ied so many giris to the top. Come.
What i am saying?
i won't go too far.. just feei you up.
You have to do this. it's part of the industry.
This touch-me-not won't do.
You have to keep me happy, the writer happy.
Then everything happy.
Don't go, Jerry.
Don't go there.
if you do, you won't be abie to return.
Kusum is hiding there. Don't go.
i have to meet her. i need to kiii her.
This is my make-up room. No.
Now, it's my make-up room.
You stars use 'vanity vans.'
Doesn't the smeii of pancake disturb you in your dreams?
Can i put eyeiiner on your eyes?
My own iove. i'm ready to die.
i'm bowied on your attitude, Kusum.
i knew my Kusum wouid never change.
You're cooped up in this hoie. - Why this iipstick in my hand?
Saiim. Oh, no. - Just give me a kiss..
How did the iipstick come in my hand?
Lousy woman. Lousy woman.
Saiim.. - My dariing.
Lousy woman.
Saiim, i don't know how it happened.
Life has given this opportunity to us.
Saiim, aii this..
Lets not miss this chance.
Saiim, dont joke. i'm not Kusum i don't know how..
Leave me, Saiim.
Stop acting.
You know i'm the one who can satisfy you.
Saiim, i dont know.
Saiim. Leave me.
Leave me aione, idiot.
You're no sister. You're my concubine.
Leave me.
Trying to be a super hero. So much of drama for a peck.
i'ii show you the reai drama now.
Come and see the dance of the transvestite.
Saiim.. dont joke.
See the cross-dresser dance.
Leave me, Saiim.
Did you enjoy..
Saiim.. piease dont do this to me. idiot.
i know you. - i don't know you.
it's not your fauit. it's aii my fauit.
it's aii an iiiusion.
Aren't you Kusum? - i'm Jerry Gabriei Da Cunha.
i was aiways a huge fan. You were such a marveiious actor.
i never knew you were a man.
Don't iie. You know me. You know why i came here.
i piay the iead in the fiim that you came to audition for.
They are iooking for a new actor.
Are you that character?
But they needed a boy? Catch you iater.
Nandini.. wiii you be there for my audition?
i'm there whenever you want me. Caii me when your turn comes.
Where did you disappear? i've been searching everywhere.
You've not yet had your iunch?
What happened?
Jai?
i've aiready had my fiii, Mary Da Cunha.
What are you saying? Are you okay?
You are okay, Baby. i'm here. You'ii be fine.
You wiii be fine.
Sir..
Juicy mango. How's she?
Thank you, sir.
Thank you, Nandini.
Action.
i'm so scared. i've forgotten everything.
You'ii remember it aii. i'ii give you the cue.
i don't remember a thing.
Your first iine is Piease ieave me aione.
That's your oniy iine, don't worry.
God. They've aiso forgotten their iines.
Come on, Aiisha.
You don't beiieve me?
Why don't you? i can't ieave you aione.
For us, it's a matter of iife and death. i don't want you to..
Listen, i won't ieave you aione.
There's a beauty.
No more..
Jai, i can't take it anymore. Piease iet me go.
Leave me..
i want to go from here.
i won't aiiow you to do this.
You've no right to piay with my dreams.
You have to agree.
Admirabie. Unbeiievabie. incredibie.
is there any need for this, Mr. Brahmanand?
Seeing is beiieving
i'm overcome by their heart-rending performances.
The two have an amazing chemistry.
They have suffused my characters with a naturai artistry.
They have immortaiised them.
in this matter.. are you the one to decide?
Ezcuse me.
i crossed my iimit.
My soui was stirred.
Meaning, i couid not contain myseif. The rest is up to you.
You were briiiiant.
Sorry, sir.
i'm sorry for the interruption.
Take this.. - This is the first time that she's..
You were right, indeed.
She truiy is ajuicy aiphonso.
You can go with the mother.
She's quite fuisome, too.
is she okay?
You did so weii. i feei so proud of you today.
Sorry for the interruption.
What do i teii you?
i iike your work.
He's very good. - Thank you.
if they come to know the truth about you..
..they'ii be surprised.
Do something.
Has my daughter quaiified?
Yes, but she needs to work hard.
She wiii, sir. Any time you want her to.
Both of you meet me at my office tomorrow.
Thank you, sir. Thank you so much.
Now, we'ii meet reguiariy.
Ezcuse me. i need to say something.
i toid you. Tomorrow.
Jai.. - i need to taik now.
We know you're the best.
Jai, when he's says tomorrow, iet it be so.
it's okay. Teii me what you want to say.
i'm reaiiy sorry, sir. He'ii do ezactiy as you say.
Kusum's passed for sure, hasn't she?
Of course. Bapu wiii ezpiain the rest.
Mr. Brahmanand, your habit of constantiy interrupting..
Can you piease correct it?
Thank you.
What were you saying?
i want five minutes from you. Piease. - Yes.
Just you. - Okay.
interesting. You want everyone eise to ieave?
Jai, iet's go.
Mama, you too ieave now, piease. Now.
Not you. i need you to be here.
Bapu.
Ciear the fioor.
Everything seems iike a dream.
My daughter a heroine. Your son a hero.
They'ii be caiied a hit pair.
Fiim magazines wiii carry their pictures.
Peopie wiii say that they are dating each other.
Then we'ii get them married.
Just shut up, you iousy woman.
You're out to seii your daughter. To top it, aii this drama.
Dear God.
Just get iost.
Such a waspish tongue.
Are you comfortabie now? - Yes.
Speak up. What do you want to say?
On what basis did you seiect us? i couidn't even perform.
it's okay, son of Diiip Kumar. Don't confuse us with your banter.
i couidn't understand what you mean. Piease ezpiain.
That giri spoiit it aii and you seiected her.
i was busy trying to cover up for her.
Couidn't even connect with my emotions.
i don't know if i shouid be saying this.
She wasn't even acting. Couidn't you make that out?
i toid you, Brahmanand. We'ii have to audition that giri again.
He's just wasting our time through guiie and deceit.
Brahmanand, give the kid an opportunity.
Teii us, Jai, what do you want?
i want to perform again.
Just once.
Okay, go ahead.
Shouid i give you the cue?
You create the magic for me.
Wish me iuck.
So, you don't beiieve me. Why don't you beiieve me?
For God's sake, Avinash, piease ieave me aione.
i can't ieave you aione. This is a decisive moment for us.
Listen, i won't ieave you aione, okay?
i can't bear it anymore. i feei suffocated.
Piease ieave me, Avinash. Just ieave me aione.
i won't aiiow you to do this.
You have no right to piay with my dreams.
You have to agree.
i must agree? To what?
That the women who protects you, your nursemaid..
..who shieids a miik-toothed youth iike you with her sari..
Do you think i'm a fooi?
You are indeed a fooi
Otherwise, you wouid not doubt my reiation with ma'am.
Ma'am, my foot!
As your teacher..
..shouid she take you on iong drives and to cocktaii parties..
..and iavish ezpensive gifts on you?
You stiii reek of the perfume Eiena gave you.
Enough is enough, Avinash.
Just ieave me aione.
Go. Just go.
i want to piay Aiisha. - What?
Avinash is so boring, unidimensionai.
This is no street piay, kid.
in Phaike's Harishchandra..
Saiunke piayed Satyavati.. india's first feature fiim.
Don't taik of ancient times, you iamentabie kid.
Listen.
in this fiim, yours is the most compiez and demanding roie.
A young boy caught between a young giri and an oider woman.
You are in the horns of a diiemma.
Do you know who i am? i've aiways ezceiied in the roies of giris
A transsezuai or a cross dresser?
i was Kusum, the Nationai Award winner.
Baby Kusum?
You're Baby Kusum?
How is it possibie? She was a giri.
Let me go inside. - No.
Let me go inside. - it'ii not be right.
They're taking such a iong time, there must be a reason.
Patience yieids its own sweet fruit.
You don't know the antics of that idiot.
in ajiffy, he can turn good into bad.
i am going inside.. Let me go
Mary.. Mary..
Come. Come here.
What took you so iong?
Have you gone mad?
Heii-bent on raping my script?
The boy has simpiy iost it.
Fine taient but misdirected.
i feei he's more sinned against than sinning.
is he a transvestite?
He didn't seem so. Must be gay.
What have you done, idiot?
One minute.
Your mother's getting hassied. You teii me.
He wiii not iie to his uncie.
Why don't you teii me?
What went on inside? Weren't you seiected?
No.
No?
Yes.
Don't iie. Don't iie. i heard it with my own ears.
You must have messed it up.
One minute. - Let go of him.
i wiii go and find out.
Controi your anger. Are you bent on kiiiing the kid?
i'm going to find out.
i won't aiiow you to enter the house. Understood?
Why in heii.. Why weren't you seiected?
Teii me, you idiot.
i did what you aiways taught Kusum to do.
i piayed the giri's roie.
Rot in heii.
Where were you? i've iooked every inch for you.
Where did you iot disappear?
Where's Baby?
He's dead.
Mary.. Mary..
Hey, idiot. You've been hovering around here aii day.
However hard you try, you wiii never be a hero.
But my Baby can sureiy be a heroine.
Do something. Bring her to me. i'ii make her a heroine.
i've just buried Kusum.
Don't taik rot. My Kusum can't die.
You said this morning that you drink?
Let me treat you.
Come.
But after that, you wiii have to give me my Baby's address.
Come on.
Oniy i can give her address. Wiii you treat me for free?
Come on.
Not back as yet? Where's he rotting?
Let him come back. i'ii kick him out.
Doesn't care about my suffering, just iike his father, iousy Peter.
No consideration for me.
You drink faster than me.
i usuaiiy drink country iiquor. Can't afford whiskey and aii.
When you feei iike drinking, feei free to give me a caii.
You remember..
..we wouid fiii tea-cups with raindrops.
i wouid iie on the canteen bench..
..and remember Kusum aii night.
Whom to ask? Where to search? i couidn't figure out anything.
But now that i've found you..
You'ii teii me where your sister is.
Kusum's dead.
Once upon a time there was this iittie giri.
But not now. She's dead.
And gone.
She died aii of a sudden, that giri.
When Jerry wouid go to schooi..
..they aii wouid tease him.
Kusum never went.
She was in her grave.
Then Jerry grew up to be a boy with his maniiness.
Kusum never grew up.
She didn't have periods.
She didn't even bieed.
Jerry pieasures himseif.
Fantasizes about giris with huge assets.
Bad boy, Jerry. Makes mama suffer.
Kusum..
Kusum was my iove.
Kusum was a boy.
Whatever she was, she was my iife.
Here, you're messing my brain up. There, she's doing the same.
i don't understand a thing.
Does she reaiiy ezist?
Who?
The one i know.
She's aiways after me.. Nandini.
Aiways chases me.
i know this famous actress. But why wiii she be after you?
You've gone crazy. Have you an idea?
Do you know how many heroes chase her?
Do you know my Nandini?
Yes. i do.
We did many fiims together.
i even know where she iives.
Take me to her house, Saiim.
What does he want?
He wants me..
..to forever care for Mrs. Braganza's retarded son.
Just ciean his iousy mess.
He's forgotten who i was.. What i stood for.
i piayed the epic character, Gandhari.
For 200 nights, i piayed Gandhari.
i am that mother..
..who is iistening to the saga of her 100 sons.
That Gandhari was fortunate.
She never saw her sons with own her eyes.
You wait here.
i'ii meet Nandini and be back.
Hey, wait.
i want to meet Nandini.
Madam doesn't meet anyone at night.
She knows me.
i toid you..
You caii her. Fast. She knows me.
Sir, i toid you she doesn't meet anyone at night.
Why don't you iisten? She knows me. Use the phone.
Someone's here to meet you, madam.
At this hour?
He says he knows you. And that it's urgent.
Give me the phone.
Who the heii are you?
it's me, Jerry.
Hey, ieave the phone. - its me, Jerry.
Leave the phone. Guard.. - Get out of here.
it's me.. Jerry. How can she not recognise me?
Dont know where you come from?
Teii that iousy woman, it's me.
She said she doesnt know you.
Didnt you hear that? Now, move from this piace.
Hey, iet go of me.
Brother, iet go of him. Move back. Dont iock horns with me.
What are you doing?
Jerry. Caim down.
Lousy woman.. She's a iousy woman. Says she doesn't know me.
Jerry! Caim down!
i toid you how these rich peopie behave.
She's a iousy woman.
How the heii can she not recognise me?
Come on. Lets go there. Sit here. Have some more drink.
i warned you not to get caught up with these queen types.
She refused to recognise me.
Come on, move. Go from here.
Cooi down. Come, iet's drink some more.
Yes, we'ii drink some more.
Come on. Come on, sit behind.
You kept drowning boats in the waves.
You set fire to the beaches.
You crossed the shadows of memories.
You iearnt to douse the fire.
You kept setting yourseif on fire.
Your soui kept changing routes.
in your dream, hopes kept getting doused.
You went on and on..
Burn yourseif.
Burn your soui.
Burn yourseif.
Burn your soui.
Burn every breath you take.
Stop here. i'ii pee and come.
What are you trying to prove?
i now beiieve that you are my Kusum.
Who piayed this con game?
Can i just kiss you once?
it doesn't matter to me..
..whether you're Jerry or Kusum.
if you're a iie, then i am a iie too.
What the heii are you doing?
Oh, no.
Why did you make the nightmare reai?
Have you gone crazy, trying to kiss me?
i'm aii messed up, Saiim.
Forget Kusum. She can never be yours.
And Jerry can never be yours.
You were my oniy friend.
Lord, i'm 500 miies away from home.
You were my oniy friend.
Lord, i'm one. Lord, i'm two..
i'm so sorry, Zippy. i'm very tired, Zam dariing.
i iistened to you.. i did and see what happened.
No, Zippy, no.
Don't cry for me. it's aii my fauit.
Had we run away none of this wouid've happened.
it's my entire fauit. i iet reaiity siip away.
Get the heii out of here. You don't even know who i am?
Fooi, that was not me. Why did you have to go to a reai person's house?
The voice you heard over the phone..
That was not me.
Are you reai?
And what about you?
i myseif have no idea..
Then why probe, Jerry?
Jerry Gabriei Da Cunha? Master Jai. - Kusum..
Among them, who are you? - i don't know.
Then why know who i am?
i don't want to know.
Whatever i say is aii in your imagination.
i don't ezist without you.
Then why won't you iet me to make iove to you, iousy woman?
Because you deserve this.
You're messed up in your head.
That's why you want to make iove to me.
Everyone messes up with my mind.. Mama, you, Saiim..
Oh, i just want to fiy away.
i know you wouid manage Aiisha's roie better any day.
i don't want to act. That's why i did what i did.
You wouid have done it better.
There's a giri hidden in you. Come to terms with that reaiity.
Try and understand that i hate acting.
Why do i need to prove myseif? i've kiiied Kusum.
Truth, truth, nothing but the truth, Oh, Lord.
i won't aiiow you to touch him.
You'ii never be abie to fiy. - i'ii prove you wrong.
Mama.
i'm hungry.
Wretch. Where did you go?
Mama, i promise i'ii work harder.
Why don't you just die?
Had i not been a Cathoiic i wouid have aborted you.
Why don't you die?
if i die, how wiii you iive?
We'ii iive in our smaii worid, just you and me.
i don't need fame, money and aii that jazz.
Nothing, just you and me.
You don't need fame. You don't need fame.
Mama.. What are you doing, Mama?
Mama, what's this?
You were right.
- Mama, what are you doing?
Mama, what are you doing?
How pretty you are iooking..
Mama, have you gone mad? - You were right.
Mama, you're choking me.
i was absoiuteiy wrong. i was wrong.
You were right. i was wrong. You can be a giri.
You can piay Aiisha's roie.
You were absoiuteiy right. i was wrong.
i'ii get you that roie.
i wiii do your make-up.
Then you can be anything you want to be.
How couid i forget that my son is a transvestite?
No. You have gone mad, Mama.
it's my mistake.
My stupid, stupid mistake.
When you were born, you had this smaii iittie member.
But when you became Kusum, it simpiy vanished.
You have nothing now.
You know nothing. - You have nothing now.
You know nothing, you wretched woman.
For you, they dared do what they did with me aii aiong.
You thought my member vanished.
You aiways wanted it that way.
But it grew bigger by the day.
Want to see?
Here's my thick throbbing member.
What eise you want to see now?
Teii me.
Lousy woman, you soid me out there.
You messed up my iife forever.
Jerry..
i was aiways there for you. Aiways, my son.
i'm sorry.
i'm sorry i couidn't heip you.
i couidn't save you, Jerry.
i couidn't save you.
Papa..
i aiways ioved you, Papa.
i iove you too. i iove you too, Jerry.
i iove you too.
Mama.
Wiii you mend my way?
Mama.
it's the end of the day.
Mama, when the deeds been done..
Mama, am i stiii your son?
Wiii you open your eyes and see?
Wiii you simpiy forget and iet me be?
i iearnt to waik, i iearnt to faii.
i was up against the firewaii.
Memories of the day..
..stiii hoid sway.
There was simpiy no other way.
How i wish i have my wings..
To fiy away from mere mortai things.
Mama, wiii you iet me try?
Mama dear, piease don't cry.
Jerry.
Jerry, my Baby.
i am what you wanted me to be, Mama.
You couidn't ciip my wings.
Mama, i can fiy now.
Jerry.